Monday, October 10, 2016
Easy Street
So, what? Is all you have to do is to put yourself up at risk claiming you are attractive and to complain you don't get enough attention but in people's faces?
Sunday, October 9, 2016
Saturday, October 8, 2016
The Rosary
They are praying the rosary after church this weekend.
I like this more integrated study like memorizing and using the beatitudes. The rosary is meditation and group acting.
I like this more integrated study like memorizing and using the beatitudes. The rosary is meditation and group acting.
The Door & Beatitudes
"Knock and it shall be opened unto you."
"You know not the hour nor the day."
Don't be mean when someone comes a knocking, or you will be the one found a knocking at a foreboding door that does not seem to ever open.
"Seek and ye shall find."
"Ask and it shall be given unto you."
The Woes of the Beatitudes - According to Luke
"Woe to you who are rich, for you have already received your comfort."
"Woe to you who are well fed now, for you will go hungry."
"Woe to you who laugh now, for you will mourn and weep."
"Woe to you when everyone speaks well of you, for that is how their ancestors treated the false prophets."
Beatitudes
"Blessed are they who mourn,
for they shall be comforted."
"Blessed are the meek,
for they shall inherit the earth."
"You know not the hour nor the day."
Don't be mean when someone comes a knocking, or you will be the one found a knocking at a foreboding door that does not seem to ever open.
"Seek and ye shall find."
"Ask and it shall be given unto you."
The Woes of the Beatitudes - According to Luke
"Woe to you who are rich, for you have already received your comfort."
"Woe to you who are well fed now, for you will go hungry."
"Woe to you who laugh now, for you will mourn and weep."
"Woe to you when everyone speaks well of you, for that is how their ancestors treated the false prophets."
Beatitudes
"Blessed are they who mourn,
for they shall be comforted."
"Blessed are the meek,
for they shall inherit the earth."
Who gets sympathy for failure to do what is right?
Why do they show so much sympathy for some people and not others who are obviously in harm's way socially? What's important to you?
Speaking of the title, everyone has an excuse, some more than others. Everyone will always find some problem, it seems, that seems more significant than that of others.
Speaking of the title, everyone has an excuse, some more than others. Everyone will always find some problem, it seems, that seems more significant than that of others.
Our Church Agrees
it wants to be more holy .. it guesses, according to the sacrificial statement of the Hispanic priest.
That's an insult and suggestive that it isn't already. I think I can admit here that they are aiming it at the pastor, just because he has his own thing going with others that others like that others think others don't deserve cuz they have nothing to do but cause trouble.
That's an insult and suggestive that it isn't already. I think I can admit here that they are aiming it at the pastor, just because he has his own thing going with others that others like that others think others don't deserve cuz they have nothing to do but cause trouble.
Update
New Twitter Pin
⚡️ "I <3 Penguins"https://t.co/0mv11pm8CC— Persephone (@goddessofhades) October 7, 2016
Treatise on Treats of Life
It does not happen I deserve less than anyone without a fair start.
People can't take away my relationships because they think I'm forever in trouble.
People can't condone me as a part of a generation. I didn't do anything that stupid by a mile.
People can't suddenly say they are better than me just to take advantage of me.
If someone likes me, they shouldn't give me the cold shoulder when they meet someone else.
Disclaimer: This does not exactly apply to anyone.
People can't take away my relationships because they think I'm forever in trouble.
People can't condone me as a part of a generation. I didn't do anything that stupid by a mile.
People can't suddenly say they are better than me just to take advantage of me.
If someone likes me, they shouldn't give me the cold shoulder when they meet someone else.
Disclaimer: This does not exactly apply to anyone.
Friday, October 7, 2016
Community College
I guess I will take 1 or 2 community college classes online. I want the AA (General Studies.) I had a nasty thought about my being hindered in life for whatever reason because I am uneducated. Later, I can work out what career, as I do not know the way to go. Plus, General Studies are hard for me, so it'll be good this way.
Thursday, October 6, 2016
Mandatory Evacuation?
I think we're evacuating for a hurricane! I slept 2 or 3 times tonight each for like at least almost 6 hours. My mom came in and told me to pack at the 3rd cycle I think. Things were going good before I went to bed, but I guess people are beating at me, maybe blaming me for the past. Came online to do something, gotta finish packing, mostly done it seems.
Tuesday, October 4, 2016
Being Better
Can you believe people who go out and tell others they are better?
I am with bad people cuz good people are too self-centered. I am kind.
I'm just concerned, not trying to fight anyone. Is it true? Like, some poor stolen kid or something?
I am with bad people cuz good people are too self-centered. I am kind.
I'm just concerned, not trying to fight anyone. Is it true? Like, some poor stolen kid or something?
Monday, October 3, 2016
Work it out!
you can't start early enough: Luciano de la Parra obviously like gut strings :) @alondradlp @FreiburgBaroque #FBOMEX @PalacioOficial pic.twitter.com/BKTAzkFCLK— Matthias Beltinger (@resonanzio) October 2, 2016
Talk about making the situation work out. I do feel this "cold shoulder."
Excuse of Denial to Your Understanding
So, do you know people who deny you because they are too good or too bad, but they don't seem to know which it is?
Sunday, October 2, 2016
Saturday, October 1, 2016
Campaign for Me to Be President
Is it a sin to pleasure up girls born around 1997 and 1998? I'm still young. Nothing happened to me. People are complaining.
Niggering!
My parents/dad is talking to me like I'm a nigger, keep insulting me and getting me to react and rearrange the thoughts.
Parents
People act like one person has problems with their parents, then everyone has problems with their parents.
It's like all the parents are making sure none of the kids are too good.
They think that it's embarrassing for their kids to seem better than others. They think they should make them unappealing.
This is totally against what is true! Why did you think it was okay, at all?
It's like all the parents are making sure none of the kids are too good.
They think that it's embarrassing for their kids to seem better than others. They think they should make them unappealing.
This is totally against what is true! Why did you think it was okay, at all?
Why is good, bad now?
When I go into the living area, I just wanna get in and out, not into a fight started by my parents. I am nice to them!
Ruining the World
You don't even support the effort of accomplishment in mistreated generations.
People just wanna kill me and not care. I guess a lotta people are out to get me.
People just wanna kill me and not care. I guess a lotta people are out to get me.
Sick of People and the World/Universe
It's everyone's wet dream to tell me, "Sorry, you didn't make it this time," at each milestone of achievement into my next life.
You're being watched, too.
I wonder if my parents realize they are being watched and that other people conform themselves to the things my parents do wrong to me and maybe others.
Shit Shit Shit
I wonder why people with younger parents don't have to deal with the shit of other people a little older .. and I have to deal with it. Shit dictated by what happened to the previous generation of parents.
No offense to anyone in this post nor with using the word "shit" for fun, not at/about anyone.
No offense to anyone in this post nor with using the word "shit" for fun, not at/about anyone.
Thoughts
Is it ever wrong to give to someone? What if there was a reason for someone to have given something to you?
I dunno if you know what's going on in my head as far as looking for a situation goes. I should and do feel like I am unworthy and bow at the feet of those who gave to me. I just don't understand how since people started spying and experimenting on me watching me in my room .. that my life went down the drain.
Whose business is it to say I didn't ever earn anything I had in my life before? I hardly had a chance to feel I deserved to live in a way, rather than just die and no one would care about someone like me ever before. Like, I lost my feeling I had a cool personality and people to be there to talk with. Those friends are not slaves, but they could kindly excuse themselves rather than abandon me and be rude, like I did something to each of them that was really deliberately done.
I know one friend said to go away rudely, and I was so shocked I didn't leave and wanted to see if she was kidding.. but I was confused. One girl made me uncomfortable for some reason saying she had glasses like she wanted someone to say something big, and it just sorta came out, "I'd rather go blind than wear glasses." I figured being blind was a holy sacrifice, but I didn't really think that way. So, I dunno, if what I did was really unforgivable. I was also a new student and shy and somewhat unaccepted racially, tho I actually made it there, had a fairly good life, very good in many ways, and some friends. You know?
I'm sorry if my thoughts wandered into dangerous waters for others in this entry.
I keep feeling like I'm being tossed around by people in charge of spying on me, like people are telling me it's great and to expect it to be great cuz I'm smart or something .. and then I get fought for no reason, like I'm some pig in the dirt. People won't forgive me for some weird situations I was in, none totally bad in truth.
I dunno if you know what's going on in my head as far as looking for a situation goes. I should and do feel like I am unworthy and bow at the feet of those who gave to me. I just don't understand how since people started spying and experimenting on me watching me in my room .. that my life went down the drain.
Whose business is it to say I didn't ever earn anything I had in my life before? I hardly had a chance to feel I deserved to live in a way, rather than just die and no one would care about someone like me ever before. Like, I lost my feeling I had a cool personality and people to be there to talk with. Those friends are not slaves, but they could kindly excuse themselves rather than abandon me and be rude, like I did something to each of them that was really deliberately done.
I know one friend said to go away rudely, and I was so shocked I didn't leave and wanted to see if she was kidding.. but I was confused. One girl made me uncomfortable for some reason saying she had glasses like she wanted someone to say something big, and it just sorta came out, "I'd rather go blind than wear glasses." I figured being blind was a holy sacrifice, but I didn't really think that way. So, I dunno, if what I did was really unforgivable. I was also a new student and shy and somewhat unaccepted racially, tho I actually made it there, had a fairly good life, very good in many ways, and some friends. You know?
I'm sorry if my thoughts wandered into dangerous waters for others in this entry.
I keep feeling like I'm being tossed around by people in charge of spying on me, like people are telling me it's great and to expect it to be great cuz I'm smart or something .. and then I get fought for no reason, like I'm some pig in the dirt. People won't forgive me for some weird situations I was in, none totally bad in truth.
Ha Ha You Can't Blame Them Now
My parents made me fat as a baby and dark haired as a child. I can understand myself better, so that's why it seems easy to be different now because I did it myself.
Hey..
You know, as a kid, I would've loved this stuff.
I feel more like I didn't have a female nor a very cool/eventful childhood for myself.
I know most girls are offered this and say no, but I say yes.
Also, what's the point in being borderline ugly in looks and having sorta lifeless dark hair?
Who cares about eye color? The "whitest" people in Europe don't all seem to have shining eyes. Yet, they seem whiter. Many of them don't have twinkling eyes. They think it's paradoxically attractive. They "got the stuff," too.
Only a few things stood out when I was a child. That would be dresses that look patriotic and later on things I couldn't afford. I'm more childlike now than in the middle-ish of my life phases.
I feel more like I didn't have a female nor a very cool/eventful childhood for myself.
I know most girls are offered this and say no, but I say yes.
Also, what's the point in being borderline ugly in looks and having sorta lifeless dark hair?
Who cares about eye color? The "whitest" people in Europe don't all seem to have shining eyes. Yet, they seem whiter. Many of them don't have twinkling eyes. They think it's paradoxically attractive. They "got the stuff," too.
Only a few things stood out when I was a child. That would be dresses that look patriotic and later on things I couldn't afford. I'm more childlike now than in the middle-ish of my life phases.
Feeling White
So, Asians cannot feel the whitest because whites exist, but I cannot feel white because I have nonwhite traits supposedly when I'm probably 1/2 white 1/2 Asian?
Friday, September 30, 2016
on the toilet
taking the bus to get home!
I hope everyone is having a good day!
You know, what did I do to start a fight anywhere in my life? Who gets problems as pathetic as I have?.. Sometimes, I cut corners, and sometimes I get in awkward situations. Nothing made very real/clear. People just want to go with the flow! How will I remember this when vital? Just accept that people are all confusing it seems sometimes. You just gotta play by the rules you've learned. I find some of the rules illogical or haphazard. Like, people want you to listen and know you can't do it.
Thursday, September 29, 2016
What's Going On
I might seem overly sensitive, like I should ignore the mean thoughts I get from others.
I do see other younger people out there living their lives, like I don't deserve one. Then, Baby Boomers and especially/primarily Late Boomers get nourished for their "needs, wants, and desires."
I do see other younger people out there living their lives, like I don't deserve one. Then, Baby Boomers and especially/primarily Late Boomers get nourished for their "needs, wants, and desires."
What's It Worth
I can see the faces of girls born around 1997/1998-ish looking taken aback in the experience of the world, like they're an individual that's worth something. Their dads must be born in the later 1950s.
Families Today?
Why are they saying that people with too young of parents born in Generation XYZ are cooler than some people with Late Boom parents?
This is not a "sensitive" issue. It's a public conspiracy.
This is not a "sensitive" issue. It's a public conspiracy.
Controlling Others's Judgments?
So, they can do what they do, but if they present something to me I'll find something wrong with it.
Something Sad
It seems people at church copied me like they think they shoulda had a chance at life and say, "Howcome our pastor is so attractive and I'm not the one being attractive?"
Can't Trust People
They seem settled to hurt me and say I'm shit cuz I am always being bugged when I try to live my life. My life is trash because of them and partially because of my dad. Who brought my relatives into the picture? They aren't close to me. They're out to get me.
I don't want the sad puppy eyes to waste my time. This seems kinda weird and probably not rewarding to others. I wish people would talk to me in ways that benefit them more. It is nice in my lifetime to experience people who understand my life.
I feel like a Jew being labeled by some shit Germans, I just feel I'm gonna die.
I don't want the sad puppy eyes to waste my time. This seems kinda weird and probably not rewarding to others. I wish people would talk to me in ways that benefit them more. It is nice in my lifetime to experience people who understand my life.
I feel like a Jew being labeled by some shit Germans, I just feel I'm gonna die.
Heh Heh Okay But
They speak to me every time I load the page on my computer and thru people I know and don't know. They are mean at any moment. My life is limited and inhibited.
I know now.
I knew before.
They won't let me talk about anything critically + assertively.
They always throw in some watermelon seeds. "Ooh, I have to do something mean to Christina all the time. This isn't a prize. This is impressive."
Orlando has turned into fluff. Huffle Fluff. You know I was at a high ranked private college today, and I think the kids there are surprised the life of Generation XY/Y was about Pokemon and Harry Potter.
What are these people trying to do to me? Turn me into their trash? I bet they can't take this post.
They won't let me talk about anything critically + assertively.
They always throw in some watermelon seeds. "Ooh, I have to do something mean to Christina all the time. This isn't a prize. This is impressive."
Orlando has turned into fluff. Huffle Fluff. You know I was at a high ranked private college today, and I think the kids there are surprised the life of Generation XY/Y was about Pokemon and Harry Potter.
What are these people trying to do to me? Turn me into their trash? I bet they can't take this post.
Cooing Myself
People are mean to me, and instead of being mean back in all situations if possible.. sometimes on the inside I label them as trash because it comes up with them.
Is this a lie?
that the people watching me secretly with cameras are only a reflection of my environment?
I know for a fact people are mean to me on the outside and it effects me when I'm inside.
I know for a fact people are mean to me on the outside and it effects me when I'm inside.
Messing With My Life
I feel I am being watched meanly when things are fine and being probed into for my private thoughts that aren't addressed to others.
An Obvious Secret
We could all just get along if everyone wasn't (1) getting into fights about not wanting to be older and (2) in some level of thinking trying to raise up younger people over older people.
Actually, they try to raise Early Boomers over Generation X.
Actually, they try to raise Early Boomers over Generation X.
Who's involved?
Do you know what the word "unincluded" means? Like, you praise someone, but it doesn't mean you're shit.
Fairest One of All?
What do you think is more attractive in an adult? Looking old to look like an adult compared to kids or looking like a kid/younger to make younger people feel even younger?
All Fits Together
I will get the AA (General Studies) and for my social health take ballet twice a week for adults and private singing. Maybe, someday I will do violin again, but I dunno.
The Plan
I paid for violin lessons up until late November or early December cuz I had to.
I hope to do the play which is in January. I hope to go to community college online in the Spring, too.
Then, I can do adult ballet and private singing.
I need to learn to keep up with chores, too.
What about violin then? I can do it on my own sometimes maybe. I just really want that AA. After that, I can do whatever I want. 4 classes per semester, I'll be done in 3 semesters.
(1) New Student Experience, English, Math, Science
(2) Math, Social Science, Social Science, Science
(3) Communications, ...
That's Spring 2017, Summer 2017, Fall 2017. If I feel like it, I can take 3 in the summer since summer is short.
I don't read much, but I am excited to read for a degree. I like writing on my blog, tho.
So, it would be too hard to add violin. I'd rather stay fresh in dancing and singing. I could always quit and start violin lessons again and can play on my own then.
I hope to do the play which is in January. I hope to go to community college online in the Spring, too.
Then, I can do adult ballet and private singing.
I need to learn to keep up with chores, too.
What about violin then? I can do it on my own sometimes maybe. I just really want that AA. After that, I can do whatever I want. 4 classes per semester, I'll be done in 3 semesters.
(1) New Student Experience, English, Math, Science
(2) Math, Social Science, Social Science, Science
(3) Communications, ...
That's Spring 2017, Summer 2017, Fall 2017. If I feel like it, I can take 3 in the summer since summer is short.
I don't read much, but I am excited to read for a degree. I like writing on my blog, tho.
So, it would be too hard to add violin. I'd rather stay fresh in dancing and singing. I could always quit and start violin lessons again and can play on my own then.
Feels Like Before
I didn't say I would do violin in my last post! I remember when I was too busy with homework to take private singing lessons in junior high. We couldn't afford all the things I wanted to do later on.
The Idea
I would take ballet classes and the private singing lessons, and eventually I'll be good enough to do something.
I guess one of the problems is I'm starting like this at age 30.
So, get an AA online and take ballet and singing. I'm hoping to take 4 classes a semester to get done more quickly. Last time I was there doing that, online, I took 6 and it was too much by a margin.
I guess one of the problems is I'm starting like this at age 30.
So, get an AA online and take ballet and singing. I'm hoping to take 4 classes a semester to get done more quickly. Last time I was there doing that, online, I took 6 and it was too much by a margin.
Roadblocked
I feel I've hit a roadblock. I am not all that excited about being in community plays for a staple activity. It would be fun to do something in Hollywood, even if it were something small like a commercial or minor supporting position/crowd role.
Already, violin is out of the picture for a daily sustenance. That is because I am only a beginner.
I've considered college, probably online, which would be fun to get a degree. Financial aid only covers the general studies AA now, tho, at least at community colleges or colleges like that.
Already, violin is out of the picture for a daily sustenance. That is because I am only a beginner.
I've considered college, probably online, which would be fun to get a degree. Financial aid only covers the general studies AA now, tho, at least at community colleges or colleges like that.
Wednesday, September 28, 2016
Violin Only on the Side :(
I am a beginner.
I want to take jazz dance and classical + other singing.
I don't want to act without these skills, neither.
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