I knew before.
They won't let me talk about anything critically + assertively.
They always throw in some watermelon seeds. "Ooh, I have to do something mean to Christina all the time. This isn't a prize. This is impressive."
Orlando has turned into fluff. Huffle Fluff. You know I was at a high ranked private college today, and I think the kids there are surprised the life of Generation XY/Y was about Pokemon and Harry Potter.
What are these people trying to do to me? Turn me into their trash? I bet they can't take this post.
Thursday, September 29, 2016
Cooing Myself
People are mean to me, and instead of being mean back in all situations if possible.. sometimes on the inside I label them as trash because it comes up with them.
Is this a lie?
that the people watching me secretly with cameras are only a reflection of my environment?
I know for a fact people are mean to me on the outside and it effects me when I'm inside.
I know for a fact people are mean to me on the outside and it effects me when I'm inside.
Messing With My Life
I feel I am being watched meanly when things are fine and being probed into for my private thoughts that aren't addressed to others.
An Obvious Secret
We could all just get along if everyone wasn't (1) getting into fights about not wanting to be older and (2) in some level of thinking trying to raise up younger people over older people.
Actually, they try to raise Early Boomers over Generation X.
Actually, they try to raise Early Boomers over Generation X.
Who's involved?
Do you know what the word "unincluded" means? Like, you praise someone, but it doesn't mean you're shit.
Fairest One of All?
What do you think is more attractive in an adult? Looking old to look like an adult compared to kids or looking like a kid/younger to make younger people feel even younger?
All Fits Together
I will get the AA (General Studies) and for my social health take ballet twice a week for adults and private singing. Maybe, someday I will do violin again, but I dunno.
The Plan
I paid for violin lessons up until late November or early December cuz I had to.
I hope to do the play which is in January. I hope to go to community college online in the Spring, too.
Then, I can do adult ballet and private singing.
I need to learn to keep up with chores, too.
What about violin then? I can do it on my own sometimes maybe. I just really want that AA. After that, I can do whatever I want. 4 classes per semester, I'll be done in 3 semesters.
(1) New Student Experience, English, Math, Science
(2) Math, Social Science, Social Science, Science
(3) Communications, ...
That's Spring 2017, Summer 2017, Fall 2017. If I feel like it, I can take 3 in the summer since summer is short.
I don't read much, but I am excited to read for a degree. I like writing on my blog, tho.
So, it would be too hard to add violin. I'd rather stay fresh in dancing and singing. I could always quit and start violin lessons again and can play on my own then.
I hope to do the play which is in January. I hope to go to community college online in the Spring, too.
Then, I can do adult ballet and private singing.
I need to learn to keep up with chores, too.
What about violin then? I can do it on my own sometimes maybe. I just really want that AA. After that, I can do whatever I want. 4 classes per semester, I'll be done in 3 semesters.
(1) New Student Experience, English, Math, Science
(2) Math, Social Science, Social Science, Science
(3) Communications, ...
That's Spring 2017, Summer 2017, Fall 2017. If I feel like it, I can take 3 in the summer since summer is short.
I don't read much, but I am excited to read for a degree. I like writing on my blog, tho.
So, it would be too hard to add violin. I'd rather stay fresh in dancing and singing. I could always quit and start violin lessons again and can play on my own then.
Feels Like Before
I didn't say I would do violin in my last post! I remember when I was too busy with homework to take private singing lessons in junior high. We couldn't afford all the things I wanted to do later on.
The Idea
I would take ballet classes and the private singing lessons, and eventually I'll be good enough to do something.
I guess one of the problems is I'm starting like this at age 30.
So, get an AA online and take ballet and singing. I'm hoping to take 4 classes a semester to get done more quickly. Last time I was there doing that, online, I took 6 and it was too much by a margin.
I guess one of the problems is I'm starting like this at age 30.
So, get an AA online and take ballet and singing. I'm hoping to take 4 classes a semester to get done more quickly. Last time I was there doing that, online, I took 6 and it was too much by a margin.
Roadblocked
I feel I've hit a roadblock. I am not all that excited about being in community plays for a staple activity. It would be fun to do something in Hollywood, even if it were something small like a commercial or minor supporting position/crowd role.
Already, violin is out of the picture for a daily sustenance. That is because I am only a beginner.
I've considered college, probably online, which would be fun to get a degree. Financial aid only covers the general studies AA now, tho, at least at community colleges or colleges like that.
Already, violin is out of the picture for a daily sustenance. That is because I am only a beginner.
I've considered college, probably online, which would be fun to get a degree. Financial aid only covers the general studies AA now, tho, at least at community colleges or colleges like that.
Wednesday, September 28, 2016
New Plan
I guess I will take ballet, hard to come by good jazz classes for adults, anyway.
Ballet + Opera/Classical Singing
Violin on the side.
I hope I can be involved in plays, too, but how will I take dance class at the same time? Guess I will take it when I can.
Ballet + Opera/Classical Singing
Violin on the side.
I hope I can be involved in plays, too, but how will I take dance class at the same time? Guess I will take it when I can.
Violin Only on the Side :(
I am a beginner.
I want to take jazz dance and classical + other singing.
I don't want to act without these skills, neither.
Tuesday, September 27, 2016
My Artistic Goals
I wonder if I need to seriously weigh my options on following either of these.
•Violin
•Singing and Dancing
I'm taking violin lessons. I think I can add ballet class next year.
•Violin
•Singing and Dancing
I'm taking violin lessons. I think I can add ballet class next year.
"Very Important Medical Research"
I was looking at BN online and I felt I was related to like all these other fields or a large scope of them in my interest in biotechnological laboratory sciences with animals, as I browsed thru.
College Major Programs
•UCF - BS - Biotechnology
•High Ranking Private School - does not have it + generally hosts BAs
•Community College - AS - Biotechnology Laboratory Sciences
•Community College - AA - Biotechnology
•High Ranking Private School - does not have it + generally hosts BAs
•Community College - AS - Biotechnology Laboratory Sciences
•Community College - AA - Biotechnology
"If I had a.."
If I had a job in healthcare, it'd be with animals in biotechnology.
If I had a job in science, it'd be physics.
If I had a job involving more reading, it'd be modern world history, with an interest in the Baby Boom era.
If I had a minimum wage job, it'd be working in the crew backstage of a theater.
My "greatest interest of these is" animals in biotechnology.. "animal biotechnology" veterinarian. I'd rather work with the physical part with the animals. A "biotechnological veterinarian." It's more of a research job than a normal surgical job.
I am trying to focus on violin and being active in my community, tho.
link
If I had a job in science, it'd be physics.
If I had a job involving more reading, it'd be modern world history, with an interest in the Baby Boom era.
If I had a minimum wage job, it'd be working in the crew backstage of a theater.
My "greatest interest of these is" animals in biotechnology.. "animal biotechnology" veterinarian. I'd rather work with the physical part with the animals. A "biotechnological veterinarian." It's more of a research job than a normal surgical job.
I am trying to focus on violin and being active in my community, tho.
link
Bad White Culture Types
I wonder if I know anyone my type.
Most people in Europe want to be like the bad Americans. Then, many attractive people even in America itself are like that, too.
Most people in Europe want to be like the bad Americans. Then, many attractive people even in America itself are like that, too.
"Do you want someone to care about you?"
You can't tell someone from Late Generation X that someone in Earlier/Mid Generation X are their surrogate parents. They grew up with Mommy and Daddy. Some people from Late Generation X are so good they are like knighted parents, but in general the parental unit of Late Generation X is Baby Boomers.
Kids today are treated very caringly by younger Generation X, but people like me are not treated like their baby mostly. So, in the end people like me lose out on what's given to them.
Moreover, some people, like me, in a way are not in a position where they want to get married nor feel like having kids. I like talking to friends.
"People who need people .. are the luckiest people .. in the world."
Also, what of the movement of trashing anyone who is not a Late Boomer? It's catching on, and it's a sin, wrong, and untrue. I'm a bit worried people are saying Late Boomers need each other and their Later Millennial children, who are the youngest of their generation of offspring. So, they forget about their Generation XY kids. Early Boomers don't have parents just like that, but they are older. In essence, my generation is not getting what they need.
Kids today are treated very caringly by younger Generation X, but people like me are not treated like their baby mostly. So, in the end people like me lose out on what's given to them.
Moreover, some people, like me, in a way are not in a position where they want to get married nor feel like having kids. I like talking to friends.
"People who need people .. are the luckiest people .. in the world."
Also, what of the movement of trashing anyone who is not a Late Boomer? It's catching on, and it's a sin, wrong, and untrue. I'm a bit worried people are saying Late Boomers need each other and their Later Millennial children, who are the youngest of their generation of offspring. So, they forget about their Generation XY kids. Early Boomers don't have parents just like that, but they are older. In essence, my generation is not getting what they need.
Little Theater
I might audition for something soon. It's a play. It looks promising, cold readings for auditions. My family would have to give me a ride, so I'm finding out the schedule.
Monday, September 26, 2016
Schedule
I'm not keeping up with anything on TV right now that I know of. I don't follow many people on Twitter, mainly following public organizations or places.
Seeing Into It
It seems when you see like a person from Europe that when people are on the job it's really about race and not much is happening.
Sorting Sheep
People used to say that people who are more rash and naughty were the ones who were careless letting their skin tan and would probably rather be where it's hot all the time. (Say, has anyone seen a tanning bed, of late?) I don't mean anything racistly. The funny thing is I keep feeling beat for my interest in things like Germany for music. (Music is important!) Also conducive to a fairer look, people eye me suspiciously when they see my application of sunblock, every 2 hours. Remember the sendoff song about always remembering to wear sunblock, too?
..Hm. Are Asians sometimes considered not people, no exceptions for anyone? I know I feel pressure that I could look worse than other people. Sometimes, because of that kind of pressure, my good looks drop a notch. I recently found that Asians know white people "have it all." They just happen to look how they look and it might be a dying culture among some of the riff raff, however meaning hinting at something like the French Revolution. I found people in general, at least here in Central Florida moreso, if they are impressed by you they just want to take that aspect of you somehow and not let you have it, being mean to the people who seem racially impure.
I wonder why my being good a lot is thrown out the window, whereas others who are all Caucasian move up and up without question.
Something else funny in the weather. It seems like there is less to enjoy and too much stress. You can't get better and better and be happy physically. There is always a bitter element. I mean about things like if your job is performing music. It seems more stressful where I'm at. I can't just enjoy even that. It was my college major, my sole field of study with extra courses in it, for 1 year. When other people mess up their life, people say their sin is their punishment, but it's not. When I do something that is none of their business by some point, my life is turned around.
It's funny when you see someone from Europe get jealous of an American feeling pleasure. They think if Americans feel it they are spoiled. They also end up siding with the bad ones. They recognized them as interesting and like a band of pirates.
Why do I see people smile at me after I deny their belief I am shit? They don't know what they're thinking and don't wanna tell you and think only others than myself can get away with throwing me out. I don't care how old they are because I know people younger than my parental generation think they can be unauthentic and overly stark in dealing with me.
People think I am out of place, but I fight for what's right. I know media is all plagued by people visiting California. They think it doesn't count and doesn't matter. So many people in Florida are crazy, too. They don't all look so happy.
Would you say that even if I did something out of place, it shouldn't mean I am bad, whereas other people are up to something? They have been up to something since like 1998. I guess the Baby Boom and slightly older generation can't keep them under control. These younger people are bitter to their parental generation.
You know what else I decided? Maybe, it would be mean even to get a sperm donor to have a kid because it would make people uncomfortable. I am not networking enough with other Eurasians/Mixed Asians cuz I don't know how. EurasianNation.proboards.com is so slow now and not may people. I feel I am lacking socially. Race is my main concern. Stormfront is so strict, seemingly. It's a white supremacist board. It's okay, but it's mostly bringing up topics just to have something to talk about. They don't like talking about other races so we can all be at peace and live the life we want.
It's hard to believe people resent my existence. That's not okay because taking your life is not right. I actually would have a hard time enlisting in the military, and I would be paid a lot. I think people think my parents are innately cool but racially dislike us or me. I do have a younger brother. I feel my parents didn't give us a fair chance. He's thin with straight hair, and I'm buff with course hair. I look more like my dad than anything. He's just his own person.
I wonder why some white people think they can make up things about me and think I have to listen to what they say all of a sudden. Ha! Some of ya'll gettin' a little old there?
You know, I think other people find Asians interesting, interesting to watch and preserve, and to say WHOOPS to Eurasians as they cut them off. "It's a small world, after all."
..Hm. Are Asians sometimes considered not people, no exceptions for anyone? I know I feel pressure that I could look worse than other people. Sometimes, because of that kind of pressure, my good looks drop a notch. I recently found that Asians know white people "have it all." They just happen to look how they look and it might be a dying culture among some of the riff raff, however meaning hinting at something like the French Revolution. I found people in general, at least here in Central Florida moreso, if they are impressed by you they just want to take that aspect of you somehow and not let you have it, being mean to the people who seem racially impure.
I wonder why my being good a lot is thrown out the window, whereas others who are all Caucasian move up and up without question.
Something else funny in the weather. It seems like there is less to enjoy and too much stress. You can't get better and better and be happy physically. There is always a bitter element. I mean about things like if your job is performing music. It seems more stressful where I'm at. I can't just enjoy even that. It was my college major, my sole field of study with extra courses in it, for 1 year. When other people mess up their life, people say their sin is their punishment, but it's not. When I do something that is none of their business by some point, my life is turned around.
It's funny when you see someone from Europe get jealous of an American feeling pleasure. They think if Americans feel it they are spoiled. They also end up siding with the bad ones. They recognized them as interesting and like a band of pirates.
Why do I see people smile at me after I deny their belief I am shit? They don't know what they're thinking and don't wanna tell you and think only others than myself can get away with throwing me out. I don't care how old they are because I know people younger than my parental generation think they can be unauthentic and overly stark in dealing with me.
People think I am out of place, but I fight for what's right. I know media is all plagued by people visiting California. They think it doesn't count and doesn't matter. So many people in Florida are crazy, too. They don't all look so happy.
Would you say that even if I did something out of place, it shouldn't mean I am bad, whereas other people are up to something? They have been up to something since like 1998. I guess the Baby Boom and slightly older generation can't keep them under control. These younger people are bitter to their parental generation.
You know what else I decided? Maybe, it would be mean even to get a sperm donor to have a kid because it would make people uncomfortable. I am not networking enough with other Eurasians/Mixed Asians cuz I don't know how. EurasianNation.proboards.com is so slow now and not may people. I feel I am lacking socially. Race is my main concern. Stormfront is so strict, seemingly. It's a white supremacist board. It's okay, but it's mostly bringing up topics just to have something to talk about. They don't like talking about other races so we can all be at peace and live the life we want.
It's hard to believe people resent my existence. That's not okay because taking your life is not right. I actually would have a hard time enlisting in the military, and I would be paid a lot. I think people think my parents are innately cool but racially dislike us or me. I do have a younger brother. I feel my parents didn't give us a fair chance. He's thin with straight hair, and I'm buff with course hair. I look more like my dad than anything. He's just his own person.
I wonder why some white people think they can make up things about me and think I have to listen to what they say all of a sudden. Ha! Some of ya'll gettin' a little old there?
You know, I think other people find Asians interesting, interesting to watch and preserve, and to say WHOOPS to Eurasians as they cut them off. "It's a small world, after all."
People, After All
Even though I am 1/2 Asian (12% real/Chinese,) I feel I have traits that are much more comfortable and appealing than many people who are all Caucasian. I would rather be me than them. I'm not as interested in some of what they think they have to offer. I'm just like that. I'm not racist. I'm just another White person. I share similarities with other White people, too, which I like to connect with. I don't necessarily want to connect with mistakes of people I'm related to, as well. I just hope for the best for everyone. I share the same interests as minority ethnicities, as well, but I don't "lose it."
Sunday, September 25, 2016
"Instant Gratification"
Not all that long ago, people used to interact and know that some things in life are about you and some aren't. To be nice to someone, you don't need to manually say that it is also a signal for you to feel some form of sinful pleasure thinking that or else no one would ever be able to do anything. These things are not connected. People don't figure out the truth. They just say this because it's easy to give as a defense mechanism for their sly interests and dishonesty in life. Why they do it must be a complicated issue.
If you are wondering how someone who does things emotionally for others gets by, that's a wonder or inquiry/question, not a time to wet yourself / emergency nor criminal justice. It's like "the boy who cried wolf."
Do you wanna wonder why I'm over here? I'm not going to be in the wrong in the future. I'm collecting $200 and passing go, going straight for the Gate. Yes, something bad will happen if I don't listen to the truth.
Saturday, September 24, 2016
College Choir at Church
I'm going to be in choir at church at college tomorrow night where I take community violin.
I just got outta the Saturday mass and going to 2 masses there tomorrow morning, one with choir. They have 2 contemporary masses, one for the youth in the evening. I played keyboard for the evening youth mass at my old church. My favorite mass would be a traditional Sunday night mass, sometimes/likely with guitars and tambourines and piano.
I've sung in this college mass before and at my old college in a chapel, the university ministry mass.
Friday, September 23, 2016
Turned Away
People turn me down as a thief culturally because they are jealous but worship others like me.
Thursday, September 22, 2016
The Hard Life
Being Chinese from your mom and having an older dad. I'm also American. I don't feel really cute. I can't handle emotions. Better to be young and European.
Prejudices
Why would white people tell other races minding their own business in civilization what they want them to be compared to them?
It's like a free for all in Central Florida. Other places aren't full blown Nazi regimes today. Why should I care about anyone white if they don't care about me. Central Floridians are like monsters let from a cave. Other Southerners are just like Europeans in Europe trying to flirt all the time with bad people respectively from Florida and the US.
Also, people don't want me to feel self-pity. I feel threatened at knifepoint for "what I done."
I'm all white just not all Caucasian.
Using Other Races
Why would white people use other races to say they are better, like pretending bring American does not make them any different from Europe even outside of blood? Do they need other people to look bad to make them look good? It's like nonwhites are racial slaves.
What kind of a
What kind of a righteous person goes around tearing down others rather than building themselves up?
Voting for President of the US
Even supporters of Hillary Clinton do not want me to support and vote for her because she's an attractive woman.
Wednesday, September 21, 2016
Contest
People today seem to think that if they are good they can take from others emotionally and socially.
Parents versus Peers
Did you know people are mean to their kids and then blame their peers for it who did nothing wrong?
The Peanut Gallery
Authority is just being slow and people are challenging reasonable people to explain shit.
Who doesn't matter?
Apparently, I was dropped out.
In college after my 1st year, I was told I was nothing or wasn't worth much or something by a professor or as hinted by several professionals. They meant physically and psychologically due to brain damage from all the schooling I took on that last semester. So, what, just leave me, allow me to be poor? I was not allowed to keep my major in Music Education and was told I was also too shy to take singing, which seems important to well-rounded musicians maybe who have many interests in emotions and things in life. I know famous people who did arts and science must have been stimulated from different fields to excel in them all. Ideas come up. At easy one is artistic periods in visual art and classical music.
In college after my 1st year, I was told I was nothing or wasn't worth much or something by a professor or as hinted by several professionals. They meant physically and psychologically due to brain damage from all the schooling I took on that last semester. So, what, just leave me, allow me to be poor? I was not allowed to keep my major in Music Education and was told I was also too shy to take singing, which seems important to well-rounded musicians maybe who have many interests in emotions and things in life. I know famous people who did arts and science must have been stimulated from different fields to excel in them all. Ideas come up. At easy one is artistic periods in visual art and classical music.
The Things People Do for Amazing Individuals
They say people are beyond things etc. They only do it to some people, tho.
I wonder..
..would it be cuter on a kid?
Like, you want us older "kids" or young adults to appreciate shit like it's cute, but that doesn't make us cuter.
Like, you want us older "kids" or young adults to appreciate shit like it's cute, but that doesn't make us cuter.
I am not following Bella Thorne right now, but I might follow her later. Surprise!
I am focusing more on venues.
I am focusing more on venues.
Why me?
People see I have chemistry with people about how one's life should be and then descend in on me from out of the blue and say to break it up, relationship's only for them or not me. It happens for one and all.
"A .. ten .. tion!"
So, people are born sorting out who's gonna give them attention and knows what they're going to do?
The Bad Guys
doctors and lawyers
Did you know that's what the smartest people are supposed to study?
Edit: No offense.
Did you know that's what the smartest people are supposed to study?
Edit: No offense.
Doctors are the killers.
The pills make you need more pills.
They say don't drink juice, but soda is bad and juice prevents cancer. You're not gonna stop drinking soda altogether, man, even if you are on pills!
They say don't drink juice, but soda is bad and juice prevents cancer. You're not gonna stop drinking soda altogether, man, even if you are on pills!
The Way the World Works
It seems people born in the mid/late 1960s to Generation X can get people to do things for them when they won't for younger people, like they are trash.
Other People in the World
Some people think they can tell me to grovel over others and make it a world affair. I wonder what happened to my peers.
Wanting to Be Someone Else
Why do some people actually think they embody someone else? They are cool, but we are all different and we look different for reasons that are not the same.
TV
I am gonna watch that 1 or 2 episodes of Cutthroat Camp. I don't know that I'll watch much else now necessarily by what's on in the way of food.
Tuesday, September 20, 2016
White Baby Boomers
Baby Boomers have it all. They tell future generations like mine, XY, not to copy them. Like, if we get stimulated by hippie things, it's considered you're a nigger.
It's probably a rule for people who are selfish to benefit, who acted out too much. Also, it's to make sure other races can't do what they did.
It's probably a rule for people who are selfish to benefit, who acted out too much. Also, it's to make sure other races can't do what they did.
Note to Virginie Buscail
I love your violin playing! I hope all is well with you! I saw you played in La Valse by Ravel, also very good! I was a piano major in college for a year but just switched to beginning violin. I like Romantic Contemporary symphonic music a lot. I also connect a lot to the French culture living in the New Orleans area as a teenager. I used to wanna study organ in France! I studied music in New Orleans for a year at Loyola University. Well, thanks so much for your wonderful playing!
Contact her here: link. It came up in Google Search near the top.
Contact her here: link. It came up in Google Search near the top.
Monday, September 19, 2016
I am the accused.
It seems funny people tell me I earned all this honor, but then they just say I did something and have too much attention and start out being bad when they are just getting at me for disagreeable situations in the past.
I do not want to be told I'm getting an extra surplus of concentrated effort to communicate and never have a good time.
I do not want to be told I'm getting an extra surplus of concentrated effort to communicate and never have a good time.
Late Boomers in an Isolated *Reverie
Why do Late Boomers keep acting like they feel some perverted, pleasurable thing that no one else gets to? Why does it seem like it's because someone said to? No one should be able to say that.
*reverie - a state of being pleasantly lost in one's thoughts; a daydream. (link)
*reverie - a state of being pleasantly lost in one's thoughts; a daydream. (link)
Sunday, September 18, 2016
"Beggars can't be chosers."
Everything is for brat kids born around 1997 and 1998 who don't respect real life and are all over the tech age. My life spirals out of control into an abyss of depression
Planning It All in the End
Did you notice people, like born around 1997, secretly saying, "No, I'm good." Then, they turn around and take what's most important to you from you having it, like some wild monster. I mean, who else does that, but celebrities "in" with Ellen DeGeneres?
They act like they're all fixed up and content, when you are ready to set things straight with all.
I don't know how I feel about me finding people who are either popular or who I have a relationship with that I like and then someone famous just taking it every time. They might not do this like this with other people. These people might not even be interested when many others are, which yes I also am on this annoying constant lookout for and am sorta retracted from.
They act like they're all fixed up and content, when you are ready to set things straight with all.
I don't know how I feel about me finding people who are either popular or who I have a relationship with that I like and then someone famous just taking it every time. They might not do this like this with other people. These people might not even be interested when many others are, which yes I also am on this annoying constant lookout for and am sorta retracted from.
Giving to the Lowest of the Low
Why do people say there are people out there who simply did not do what they need to do to deserve something good?
Then, they take things from others and give it to the lowest common denominator as afore mentioned, philosophizing that it means more people will get what they want if someone gets something over others for no reason and over others who deserve it.
They think giving more to bad people means that everyone will get it because the worst could even get it, without giving it to others or not letting them have it or seeing this take place.
Disclaimer: No offense to real individuals.
Then, they take things from others and give it to the lowest common denominator as afore mentioned, philosophizing that it means more people will get what they want if someone gets something over others for no reason and over others who deserve it.
They think giving more to bad people means that everyone will get it because the worst could even get it, without giving it to others or not letting them have it or seeing this take place.
Disclaimer: No offense to real individuals.
What if..
..What if the default is telling people to experience that which is unpleasant, bad, and uncool?
Trying to Be Something You're Not
Late Boomers and probably their children appreciate life for its utmost beauty. How can someone who was not a kid at their times know that? I can understand it, I know, at least in some ways. I just feel it's something for someone else and feel tricked into giving up on living the right kind of life, like this; what they do is also "the right thing." If there's a contest for everyone else, I feel I must be being held back in some way for some reason. I feel numbed out of living life trusting anyone of my own race or the white race, the way I thought I would. I guess it's just a problem.
My dad knows no boundaries and neither does his former nuclear family. Life for me sometimes or often is just his secret painfilled ranting or that of his kin somehow affecting me. He really did proclaim in secret message affirmatively that I'm here to show him the way, meaning he wants to know how to change who he is this way and throwing me out as evidence or so I don't give evidence of his "using" his own kids. Sure, I already made clear I feel for people who are born earlier and wish they were born later. I don't believe in that it's so bad they have to hurt someone innocent like me. I'm not at the best of the best nor the worst of the worst. So, he blended me with someone else to assimilate their features to him without giving to someone who is also competition racially so he can be the only one. I'm not trying to sound like a jerk, just telling it like it is.
Late Boomers can see life slipping away, but we still make it.
What of all these annoying kids trying to dupe the environment?
All I know is I am nice and open and accepting to others, but I don't ruin my life for others. Ruining your life for others generally won't get you anywhere. It is thought it can get others somewhere but not you still.
So, I'm still at it, trying to be something I'm not. We're something called human. We come into the world to in the end waste away, like the living things we know. We can be happy and glorious when we die with hopes of better things afterlife. Otherwise, we can just give up and waste away that way.
My dad knows no boundaries and neither does his former nuclear family. Life for me sometimes or often is just his secret painfilled ranting or that of his kin somehow affecting me. He really did proclaim in secret message affirmatively that I'm here to show him the way, meaning he wants to know how to change who he is this way and throwing me out as evidence or so I don't give evidence of his "using" his own kids. Sure, I already made clear I feel for people who are born earlier and wish they were born later. I don't believe in that it's so bad they have to hurt someone innocent like me. I'm not at the best of the best nor the worst of the worst. So, he blended me with someone else to assimilate their features to him without giving to someone who is also competition racially so he can be the only one. I'm not trying to sound like a jerk, just telling it like it is.
Late Boomers can see life slipping away, but we still make it.
What of all these annoying kids trying to dupe the environment?
All I know is I am nice and open and accepting to others, but I don't ruin my life for others. Ruining your life for others generally won't get you anywhere. It is thought it can get others somewhere but not you still.
So, I'm still at it, trying to be something I'm not. We're something called human. We come into the world to in the end waste away, like the living things we know. We can be happy and glorious when we die with hopes of better things afterlife. Otherwise, we can just give up and waste away that way.
Saturday, September 17, 2016
Friday, September 16, 2016
All About Late Boomers
Something's become overly obvious.
People think that only Late Boomers and people born around 1997 and 1998 are worth anything.
It goes that Late Boomers are older than my generation and deserve to be felt up for all the effort they put into parenting my generation. In the end, my generation doesn't get the satisfaction they wish they could get in this world, possibly.
The funny thing is that they think Late Boomers should not be copied by my generation. It's the same as kids born later around 1997 and 1998 who are allowed. In fact, they are allowed to feel even better with Late Boomers as their parental generation.
Even if some people born around 1997 and 1998 held out and helped hold everyone up, they still have the opportunity in the near future over others in my generation.
People think that only Late Boomers and people born around 1997 and 1998 are worth anything.
It goes that Late Boomers are older than my generation and deserve to be felt up for all the effort they put into parenting my generation. In the end, my generation doesn't get the satisfaction they wish they could get in this world, possibly.
The funny thing is that they think Late Boomers should not be copied by my generation. It's the same as kids born later around 1997 and 1998 who are allowed. In fact, they are allowed to feel even better with Late Boomers as their parental generation.
Even if some people born around 1997 and 1998 held out and helped hold everyone up, they still have the opportunity in the near future over others in my generation.
Wednesday, September 14, 2016
Tuesday, September 13, 2016
Story
There was a girl who was 20 years old. She had black and brown hair.
There was another girl who was 15 and she had light blonde hair.
The 1st girl was Bridget Olson, and the 2nd girl was Diamond Brite.
The 2 girls were the best friends as friends could get.
They had a big room and 2 little rooms connected. It had gray carpeting and spots to sit. They kept a bowl of cream for a little gray kitty with beautiful blue-violet eyes.
They were upstairs and downstairs there were many witches dressed up in ballgowns living life socializing there and about.
The men were outside practicing games.
There were more children about, some outside in bare feet who were about 30.
They all were going on a trip in a caravan.
Diamond Brite trotted along, while Bridget Olson rid in a vehicle.
They went to bed and set up fire all about. The youngest, Diamnod Brite, woke up and saw a wolf staring at them. A girl who was about 25 saw her and comforted her. A man woke up and shoo'd the wolf away.
They finally reached the festival. Bridget Olson went down the tunnel of love. Diamond Brite went on a ferriswheel.
Finally, it was time to return home.
Next, Bridget Olson sat on the bank with the younger girls around 15. She was in a yellow dress and boots. She sighed.
That night, they all waited on the bay for a ship. Some of the girls in their 30s were playing Ring Around the Rosie. Bridget Olson sighed. One of the ladies went over and comforted her. So, she picked her up.
Finally came the boat. The girls went to another country with 3 story cottages and merry food in the kitchen.
Finally, after months, they left. Bridget Olson went away and helped as a maid and nanny. Finally she went away to Africa and lived her own life.
There was another girl who was 15 and she had light blonde hair.
The 1st girl was Bridget Olson, and the 2nd girl was Diamond Brite.
The 2 girls were the best friends as friends could get.
They had a big room and 2 little rooms connected. It had gray carpeting and spots to sit. They kept a bowl of cream for a little gray kitty with beautiful blue-violet eyes.
They were upstairs and downstairs there were many witches dressed up in ballgowns living life socializing there and about.
The men were outside practicing games.
There were more children about, some outside in bare feet who were about 30.
They all were going on a trip in a caravan.
Diamond Brite trotted along, while Bridget Olson rid in a vehicle.
They went to bed and set up fire all about. The youngest, Diamnod Brite, woke up and saw a wolf staring at them. A girl who was about 25 saw her and comforted her. A man woke up and shoo'd the wolf away.
They finally reached the festival. Bridget Olson went down the tunnel of love. Diamond Brite went on a ferriswheel.
Finally, it was time to return home.
Next, Bridget Olson sat on the bank with the younger girls around 15. She was in a yellow dress and boots. She sighed.
That night, they all waited on the bay for a ship. Some of the girls in their 30s were playing Ring Around the Rosie. Bridget Olson sighed. One of the ladies went over and comforted her. So, she picked her up.
Finally came the boat. The girls went to another country with 3 story cottages and merry food in the kitchen.
Finally, after months, they left. Bridget Olson went away and helped as a maid and nanny. Finally she went away to Africa and lived her own life.
Monday, September 12, 2016
Sunday, September 11, 2016
YouTube
I know 02:14-02:48 is especially good. I enjoy listening to the whole thing, and it's even more fun watching.
This helped inspire me to want to pursue orchestral music in lieu of chamber music.
This is Orchestre Philharmonique de Radio France.
This helped inspire me to want to pursue orchestral music in lieu of chamber music.
This is Orchestre Philharmonique de Radio France.
The "On Ignore" Race
I just thought of a great topic that doesn't get addressed.
I was watching some religious music on YouTube for children, and I remembered maybe one of the most important things to the Catholic/Christian/Jewish church.
It is true that some people's problems are not addressed and are ignored in the world.
I am pretty certain we are hurting our brothers and sisters interested in the Catholic faith who are Asian, our beautiful, lovely Asians. Catholics think Asian ways are sinful, I'm guessing because it seems cunning, sly, and socially handicapped scientifically speaking. As a tradition, it comes up as everyone classifying it as on ignore and ^sinful^ like they can handle anything but that.
We need to reach out and pray for not just what people expect these days but what they needed all along.
I think Asians are comfortable with how they are, but it is a problem for some people of mixed race. I feel people are going in and overly promoting people of all Asian and putting down people who are mixed Asians/Chinese.
Friday, September 9, 2016
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