Saturday, November 21, 2015
Problem
There are more suggestions of my being called not white on IMDb that might have lasted a long time to say and make the statement.
Problem
An account online just said someone said something about me not being white, but I think it's the people experimenting on me.
Problem
It feels like they're k***ing my possible future kids. I feel like I can fight and have to do that to not let it happen/
Racial Assumptions
If you downgrade another race, like by having a 1/2 Indian (India) boy and wondering if they want to be raised as not white.. because it's obvious other races always want to be white.. then why not racially downgrade people from the white race where possible?
Problem
They keep acting like my possible future kids have problems. I used to suck it up, and now an old teacher in the city/Orlando has a problem cuz I felt upset and also quit.
Problem
Why is Ellen DeGeneres acting like she's withheld being the dainty one with me as a monster and sucking it in about me being supposedly bad and her effortlessly perfect? It's like a ruler or something, and a new measurement comes in regulated time/space.
Friday, November 20, 2015
Problem
My mom keeps having problems with me. (It might be because of Ellen DeGeneres, like many things.)
She doesn't tell me unless it's obvious, tho, that I am frustrated.
She doesn't tell me unless it's obvious, tho, that I am frustrated.
Problem
I hate my life.
I'm always with mean parents trapping me and the mean people experimenting on me.
I'm always with mean parents trapping me and the mean people experimenting on me.
Problem
They keep teasing me that I can't relate to others for my oldest aunt and say, "Well, what about someone else you seemed to like?"
Problem
They make noises interrupting me when I think of people and happy thoughts. They also did other things.
Supposedly my oldest aunt and grandma did it. Ellen supposedly feels she needs to support it.
Problem
They are telling me I am bad and don't deserve things I get. It's about relationships again. Not sure where this is coming from. No one talks to me. No one can tell me what to do.
IMDb - The Soapbox
I kept peeing in my pants today at beginning adult gymnastics. I had an Ultra tampon in.
...
At least mostly white, I think.
I really liked her a lot. It was a sub who teaches intermediate/advanced gymnastics.
She whipped me into shape.
She is quite a bit taller than me but not too tall, reddish hair cut short, maybe with some volume yet mostly straight/waved. Not sure what color her eyes are. It was me and 2 other girls mostly. She is probably in her early 50s or 40s.
She helped me flip back with my feet up on a square thing.
I often get there early to watch the kids and I see her then.
...
At least mostly white, I think.
I really liked her a lot. It was a sub who teaches intermediate/advanced gymnastics.
She whipped me into shape.
She is quite a bit taller than me but not too tall, reddish hair cut short, maybe with some volume yet mostly straight/waved. Not sure what color her eyes are. It was me and 2 other girls mostly. She is probably in her early 50s or 40s.
She helped me flip back with my feet up on a square thing.
I often get there early to watch the kids and I see her then.
Help?
I don't want anything bad to happen, but when I watched my dad take his insulin shots he had upset me and just kept upsetting me. I know I was very mad and stomped softly telling him to stop. He brought it up at supper, tho he didn't seem to notice before.
What if something else like this happens somehow?
Oh, and I watch him for support. I always asked him like if it was okay and counted for him.
It seems others no but pay no mind to that he was being mean. I didn't know what to think so wanted him to stop. Why would he be able to be so mean at a time like that?
I told him about my beliefs about diabetes. I said you can have something from the vitamin extracting blender I got. The other pills most likely cause it. You might need to be more fit. People have gotten off diabetes medicine with vitamin extracting shakes. He just doesn't care, he takes his shots.
I have diabetes, but I've had like 3 pills added cuz I don't wanna start shots. I'm trying to figure out how to be healthy. We all have at least slightly different preferences and taste with food, but we can at least all take vitamin extracting blender shakes/juices if we have a health problem. It seems to solve anything to some degree. I have not heard from cancer cases.. I happened to read cholesterol pills double up certain nutrients and so maybe you have to ask your doctor.
I think the biggest danger in Type 2 Diabetes is however you could get Type 1.. it seems incurable and you're born that way.
I don't think he likes a lotta gyms. Some are more expensive than others. I used to have fun working out with him.
I dunno what could have caused this terrible experience. Well, he was talking when I was using the toilet. It seemed to affect me somewhat negatively, like I know it was to annoy me. I didn't know, was due to watch him. They do annoying stuff to me all the time. I tried a little maybe to feel better but didn't work. I just felt I needed it to stop. You know, these weird things did not happen before.
So, dunno.. would be nice to motivate people.
What if something else like this happens somehow?
Oh, and I watch him for support. I always asked him like if it was okay and counted for him.
It seems others no but pay no mind to that he was being mean. I didn't know what to think so wanted him to stop. Why would he be able to be so mean at a time like that?
I told him about my beliefs about diabetes. I said you can have something from the vitamin extracting blender I got. The other pills most likely cause it. You might need to be more fit. People have gotten off diabetes medicine with vitamin extracting shakes. He just doesn't care, he takes his shots.
I have diabetes, but I've had like 3 pills added cuz I don't wanna start shots. I'm trying to figure out how to be healthy. We all have at least slightly different preferences and taste with food, but we can at least all take vitamin extracting blender shakes/juices if we have a health problem. It seems to solve anything to some degree. I have not heard from cancer cases.. I happened to read cholesterol pills double up certain nutrients and so maybe you have to ask your doctor.
I think the biggest danger in Type 2 Diabetes is however you could get Type 1.. it seems incurable and you're born that way.
I don't think he likes a lotta gyms. Some are more expensive than others. I used to have fun working out with him.
I dunno what could have caused this terrible experience. Well, he was talking when I was using the toilet. It seemed to affect me somewhat negatively, like I know it was to annoy me. I didn't know, was due to watch him. They do annoying stuff to me all the time. I tried a little maybe to feel better but didn't work. I just felt I needed it to stop. You know, these weird things did not happen before.
So, dunno.. would be nice to motivate people.
Weightloss Race
People who get thin by not eating enough/enough of the right things seem to be very catty and defensive of who they are meant to be.
Problem
I don't like constantly being insulted by Ellen DeGeneres with Bella Thorne and other people I like.
Problem
Ellen DeGeneres seems to have a problem with my mom supporting me and thinks she was mean to others like she wants to be marketable but is too nice to me. I am an adult and don't need anyone to start "telling me what to do."
The Ellen DeGeneres Show
Epic of Fail was interesting.
Bryan Cranston, a middle aged actor, seemed very astute.
Sophia Grace and Rosie were on. The blonde has a toddler little brother, and the brunette has a toddler baby sister.
I feel Ellen DeGeneres wants to act bad emotionally because I act good and I cursed about noises in my room.. so that there is no way I can enjoy life, like I did something and deserve to be punished forever. I think my dad backs up this. I wish I would get help figuring this out so I don't have to be clueless here. I told you some people in Orlando are so foolish to believe it's okay to see me driving a dump truck. My dad and Ellen DeGeneres want me to know I don't matter and so wish to dispose of me ..because they are Baby Boomers and think only they rule the world. They've gone insane thinking it's time for chance. Maybe, there's things I can do without.
Also, I felt like Ellen made my chest feel like an African-American.. like I'm not white. So what if I told you? You'd never guess. You give others a chance cuz they don't really beat you.
I just want to say here that there is no reason to discriminate against me as a person for racial lies. I don't want to stop the party and the dancing and celebrating.
Don't you think Ellen really was mean to hurt my breast? It was when the English girls were on. Nuff said.
No one has the right to tell me what to do racially. I don't get it. She's just mad at me now. Not much to say there.
I just know I'm right and it's wrong for people to get back at me by calling me the N word. I am the one who was nice to begin with and didn't even attack when others did to me, so meanly like they did.
I didn't live with this before and won't stop now. Who am I, Martin Luther King, Jr.?
I look white. My life matters as much as others. Other people are lazy but get jealous at people who are active racially. They think it just comes to them on a silver platter, and it does. They probably notice in some ways I seem better at some things. I've seen adults.. when I realize there's room for everyone, they believe I am right and take back all the racism and say like they're stupid.
Why doesn't anyone wanna talk to me and tell me why they're racist? I have to wait? I didn't have this problem before.
Why didn't anyone help me out with Ellen? I didn't want to hurt her feelings when she was mean to me, supposedly. Whoever done it.
I don't want to feel like my chest is not how I want it racially.
So? Anyone have any advice out there? Guessing not or not to contact me. I can display your message on my blog or talk in my forum.
You know, people think I'm a sin. Like I don't have anything worth it to others. I didn't do anything. So what if your dad is Elvis and your mom is Marilyn Monroe? Doesn't make me rotting cheese. You know, it doesn't matter what you say, think, or express. I'm obviously not talking to Ellen. Ha, I mean racially it doesn't matter. I can say that. You wanna fight that, tho? Can you even think on that level anti-racistly? Obviously in a bad way you can. What point are you trying to prove? If Africans were white, you'd accept them. You're not the one being discriminated against. You're lazy and have problems, like anyone of any race or species!
So, think, you're just extra mean to me cuz I think I'm white and you know I can get attention over you and you just freak out. I have this problem with thousands or millions of people I see.
Technically, you think I have something wrong racially that I don't see, like some fine details. I am not racist against Asians, but I don't. You even get very jealous of Asians. That's why kids act out unknowingly.
I do get alone with people disinterested in me cuz they know my race already. Aha! That's all you wanted to know, and you wanted to create a fight so I can't get ahead.
So..
Bryan Cranston, a middle aged actor, seemed very astute.
Sophia Grace and Rosie were on. The blonde has a toddler little brother, and the brunette has a toddler baby sister.
I feel Ellen DeGeneres wants to act bad emotionally because I act good and I cursed about noises in my room.. so that there is no way I can enjoy life, like I did something and deserve to be punished forever. I think my dad backs up this. I wish I would get help figuring this out so I don't have to be clueless here. I told you some people in Orlando are so foolish to believe it's okay to see me driving a dump truck. My dad and Ellen DeGeneres want me to know I don't matter and so wish to dispose of me ..because they are Baby Boomers and think only they rule the world. They've gone insane thinking it's time for chance. Maybe, there's things I can do without.
Also, I felt like Ellen made my chest feel like an African-American.. like I'm not white. So what if I told you? You'd never guess. You give others a chance cuz they don't really beat you.
I just want to say here that there is no reason to discriminate against me as a person for racial lies. I don't want to stop the party and the dancing and celebrating.
Don't you think Ellen really was mean to hurt my breast? It was when the English girls were on. Nuff said.
No one has the right to tell me what to do racially. I don't get it. She's just mad at me now. Not much to say there.
I just know I'm right and it's wrong for people to get back at me by calling me the N word. I am the one who was nice to begin with and didn't even attack when others did to me, so meanly like they did.
I didn't live with this before and won't stop now. Who am I, Martin Luther King, Jr.?
I look white. My life matters as much as others. Other people are lazy but get jealous at people who are active racially. They think it just comes to them on a silver platter, and it does. They probably notice in some ways I seem better at some things. I've seen adults.. when I realize there's room for everyone, they believe I am right and take back all the racism and say like they're stupid.
Why doesn't anyone wanna talk to me and tell me why they're racist? I have to wait? I didn't have this problem before.
Why didn't anyone help me out with Ellen? I didn't want to hurt her feelings when she was mean to me, supposedly. Whoever done it.
I don't want to feel like my chest is not how I want it racially.
So? Anyone have any advice out there? Guessing not or not to contact me. I can display your message on my blog or talk in my forum.
You know, people think I'm a sin. Like I don't have anything worth it to others. I didn't do anything. So what if your dad is Elvis and your mom is Marilyn Monroe? Doesn't make me rotting cheese. You know, it doesn't matter what you say, think, or express. I'm obviously not talking to Ellen. Ha, I mean racially it doesn't matter. I can say that. You wanna fight that, tho? Can you even think on that level anti-racistly? Obviously in a bad way you can. What point are you trying to prove? If Africans were white, you'd accept them. You're not the one being discriminated against. You're lazy and have problems, like anyone of any race or species!
So, think, you're just extra mean to me cuz I think I'm white and you know I can get attention over you and you just freak out. I have this problem with thousands or millions of people I see.
Technically, you think I have something wrong racially that I don't see, like some fine details. I am not racist against Asians, but I don't. You even get very jealous of Asians. That's why kids act out unknowingly.
I do get alone with people disinterested in me cuz they know my race already. Aha! That's all you wanted to know, and you wanted to create a fight so I can't get ahead.
So..
Thursday, November 19, 2015
Question
Why do people get mad if someone else is not exactly like me?
They think it's my job suggestively not to be who I want, like a disobedient princess.
It's an all-around inappropriate thing, suggested as a punishment for some assumed reason.
Being Bad?
Ellen DeGeneres think's I'm bad. She thinks I should be punished. It's racist cuz she doesn't do this to others. She judges people for if they are perfect.
I'm not trying to be insulting, but it sounds like an issue.
I'm good myself to people, yet digs up things from the past with her opinion, constantly. So, that would only worry me. Sometimes, I feel limited in my scope of life or like it's becoming that way. I often tell the people experimenting on me to be quiet in my thoughts. I'm not ready to be insulted, apparently. I don't live as the only one dragging guilt from the past.
I'm not trying to be insulting, but it sounds like an issue.
I'm good myself to people, yet digs up things from the past with her opinion, constantly. So, that would only worry me. Sometimes, I feel limited in my scope of life or like it's becoming that way. I often tell the people experimenting on me to be quiet in my thoughts. I'm not ready to be insulted, apparently. I don't live as the only one dragging guilt from the past.
Problem
I was saying, "No," in my room being bothered and then the people on TV were racist and I said, "No," angrily a few times. They just kept on feeling drawn to being that way and feeling accepted. Now, I'm the one who people think I can't have my racial freedom.
Unwelcome
Funny, I think some people hang welcomed and casually, yet I'm considered it's my bad to have spoken.
Problem
They're bugging me a lot to show off and I'm sick of having to flood my blog with their tomfoolery. Here, you wanna sit here and do this but with no one caring?
Wednesday, November 18, 2015
Problem
They are getting sick pretending to torture my possible future kids and maim and disfigure them figuratively.
Spoiled Punishers
Every time I get upset, people change a feature of a major social networking site.
Looks
It's funny that if I looked symmetrical and extra-bulbous or glowing or something that I'd be called the N word.
Problems
I don't know who's doing this, I guess, but connected to Ellen DeGeneres I see Twitch got a tattoo that has something in common with my name.
...Once, Ellen DeGeneres was upset and plaqued 2 seats in her audience. She seems 1/2 asleep.. "Oh, I must punish sometimes, be nice sometimes." Actually, if you don't bother anyone/do anything illegal, nothing bad should happen, and if it's a mistake nothing is supposed to happen, neither. Clearly, I don't do anything...
I did get upset in private and acted like everyone else gets to judging what Ellen DeGeneres is to us. I made the decision definitive, like 2nd nature, that I knew it was something weird and a mistake.
I don't think I need anyone to do these things to me. I got the vibe that my dad was bad to me, but something bad was done to him that hurt me.
I really have no problems. I'm clearly a normal person who appreciates weird things. I don't know what's up. Over-perfectionism combined with "passing judgement." I know all this writing and stuff isn't important over people being happy, living an honest life.
Something else I wanted to talk about, but I forgot now.
All I can think is poor Twitch. Maybe, he has a king chess piece and his wife the queen as tattoos because they are on top of the world. Who knows?
I don't like how this is a game that I'm atypical if I get mad when Ellen DeGeneres seems condescending.
Anyway, so why did Twitch get a tattoo?
I was upset I guess, but I didn't mean any harm. Hard to write this. I just feel uncomfortable or wonder about it as something inappropriate how it could possibly connect.
F.Y.I. something special is Johnny Depp gets an Ellen tattoo every time he is on Ellen. You know, when I was younger these things opened up to me, I wasn't scum under the crease of the underside of Ellen DeGeneres's shoe, aha ha. I feel it's unfair I have been wanting to act but got bothered. 21. Now 29. I feel I'm nothing cuz I'm not famous.
I'm applying to agencies, but I feel dumb cuz it's so hard to get in shape. I know I have to wait for January to get a shelf to organize my room more but have a plan for the meantime. It just helps so much.
Look what I get for watching Ellen. It's not "in part for viewers like you." It's work. She pretends to be big and bad like things we think are right are wrong. Maybe, people have a soft spot or vulnerability. She already says she doesn't have to live under her own scrutiny.
It's funny people without kids think they don't sacrifice.. I don't have kids as of now tho sorry I am not in m******** just saying. It's like everything is for your own kids, but kids and not me freely roam around socializing without racism.
I'm sorry if this sound sarcastic. I am not writing this to Ellen DeGeneres but to "seek help." Why should she read underdeveloped thoughts like this, anyway? Practice! If someone on her caliber read it, I'd say they were good readers.
So, this post seems kinda pointless.. Does anyone know tho about the issue of Twitch getting a tattoo? Does he really want it?
I am not some object to be played with. I don't need any discipline! I'm already nice. I know life. I'm an adult. What about other adults? Here I am! Here I am! Tell me why I'm not worth anything. I'm ready to discuss it before its stench reaches someone who's of a high social caliber.
So, you probably inferred thoughts that seemed to touch my thinking, but I'm just saying it's kinda weird and doesn't make sense for Twitch. I realize you can piece it out, but in the end it sounds like people's punishments. I did find a reason, as I said. He didn't say why he got it, which may or may not seem funny.
I feel kinda bad for talking about it and getting upset to myself, losing control of my thoughts. It seems harder being an experiment. What am I gonna do about things like this, tho? This one was really weird. It's hard to know why it seems weird, but it seems a bad outcome would result if Twitch doesn't really like it.
About it seeming like I'm in trouble, it seems like a delayed move. I really only get upset when people are mean to me. I don't go attacking people. I know how to avoid and ignore people, too. I don't want to be bad. Why get in trouble for other people hurting you? and you feel the appropriate way to feel, upset.
I'm thinking of all the people out there and wonder about people with benefits and it just seems we need to take a deep breath and be nice. I don't mean this in a bad way, like "trying to be smart." I just can't get why one person is worth it and one person is not. I know I struggle with my diet and exercise, but I do some of it. I think I've lodged 2 forms on cancer somewhere orbing within my skull. It seems small, maybe like a (flat) mole/s instead of lots of freckles.
I'm worried this is gonna be "taken the wrong way.." It's funny the things I'm drawn to write about. I can't seem to find closure to this, like saying why I said it. It was because it bothered me, but that's not what I wrote about specifically.
Do you think Ellen DeGeneres is "just sitting there" dishing out things that significantly affect me in a negative way? I'm not being sarcastic. Should I think I'm in trouble? Shouldn't I feel sorry for Twitch? So it's because I deserve to be punished? No one just feels sorry for me feeling bad in Orlando with no one I can get close to other than my parents, which is one reason I live with them but at age 29, tho it's cuz I wanna act actually too. I dunno, the people here I feel for. I've grown to be attracted to them.
So, it's about me being in trouble because I get upset when people are mean to me. Any ideas? Before something bad happens? Why doesn't anyone tell me these things? I'm already good like my parents said. I know my parents sometimes want me to shut away.
Well, Twitch, enjoy your tattoo! Oh, also, it looks like a key. If you don't like it, well. It seems he does, for now..
I wonder why my dad thinks I should be punished innocent. I disagree with this. He's always seemed to feel this way. It seems life was too hard for me, too, but I was a nice person.
Closing: I don't mean this in a sarcastic way. I'm just concerned about others + expressing something that seemed it needed to be dealt with. I also mentioned I think all this writing isn't worth it if not for the good of others 1st.
...Once, Ellen DeGeneres was upset and plaqued 2 seats in her audience. She seems 1/2 asleep.. "Oh, I must punish sometimes, be nice sometimes." Actually, if you don't bother anyone/do anything illegal, nothing bad should happen, and if it's a mistake nothing is supposed to happen, neither. Clearly, I don't do anything...
I did get upset in private and acted like everyone else gets to judging what Ellen DeGeneres is to us. I made the decision definitive, like 2nd nature, that I knew it was something weird and a mistake.
I don't think I need anyone to do these things to me. I got the vibe that my dad was bad to me, but something bad was done to him that hurt me.
I really have no problems. I'm clearly a normal person who appreciates weird things. I don't know what's up. Over-perfectionism combined with "passing judgement." I know all this writing and stuff isn't important over people being happy, living an honest life.
Something else I wanted to talk about, but I forgot now.
All I can think is poor Twitch. Maybe, he has a king chess piece and his wife the queen as tattoos because they are on top of the world. Who knows?
I don't like how this is a game that I'm atypical if I get mad when Ellen DeGeneres seems condescending.
Anyway, so why did Twitch get a tattoo?
I was upset I guess, but I didn't mean any harm. Hard to write this. I just feel uncomfortable or wonder about it as something inappropriate how it could possibly connect.
F.Y.I. something special is Johnny Depp gets an Ellen tattoo every time he is on Ellen. You know, when I was younger these things opened up to me, I wasn't scum under the crease of the underside of Ellen DeGeneres's shoe, aha ha. I feel it's unfair I have been wanting to act but got bothered. 21. Now 29. I feel I'm nothing cuz I'm not famous.
I'm applying to agencies, but I feel dumb cuz it's so hard to get in shape. I know I have to wait for January to get a shelf to organize my room more but have a plan for the meantime. It just helps so much.
Look what I get for watching Ellen. It's not "in part for viewers like you." It's work. She pretends to be big and bad like things we think are right are wrong. Maybe, people have a soft spot or vulnerability. She already says she doesn't have to live under her own scrutiny.
It's funny people without kids think they don't sacrifice.. I don't have kids as of now tho sorry I am not in m******** just saying. It's like everything is for your own kids, but kids and not me freely roam around socializing without racism.
I'm sorry if this sound sarcastic. I am not writing this to Ellen DeGeneres but to "seek help." Why should she read underdeveloped thoughts like this, anyway? Practice! If someone on her caliber read it, I'd say they were good readers.
So, this post seems kinda pointless.. Does anyone know tho about the issue of Twitch getting a tattoo? Does he really want it?
I am not some object to be played with. I don't need any discipline! I'm already nice. I know life. I'm an adult. What about other adults? Here I am! Here I am! Tell me why I'm not worth anything. I'm ready to discuss it before its stench reaches someone who's of a high social caliber.
So, you probably inferred thoughts that seemed to touch my thinking, but I'm just saying it's kinda weird and doesn't make sense for Twitch. I realize you can piece it out, but in the end it sounds like people's punishments. I did find a reason, as I said. He didn't say why he got it, which may or may not seem funny.
I feel kinda bad for talking about it and getting upset to myself, losing control of my thoughts. It seems harder being an experiment. What am I gonna do about things like this, tho? This one was really weird. It's hard to know why it seems weird, but it seems a bad outcome would result if Twitch doesn't really like it.
About it seeming like I'm in trouble, it seems like a delayed move. I really only get upset when people are mean to me. I don't go attacking people. I know how to avoid and ignore people, too. I don't want to be bad. Why get in trouble for other people hurting you? and you feel the appropriate way to feel, upset.
I'm thinking of all the people out there and wonder about people with benefits and it just seems we need to take a deep breath and be nice. I don't mean this in a bad way, like "trying to be smart." I just can't get why one person is worth it and one person is not. I know I struggle with my diet and exercise, but I do some of it. I think I've lodged 2 forms on cancer somewhere orbing within my skull. It seems small, maybe like a (flat) mole/s instead of lots of freckles.
I'm worried this is gonna be "taken the wrong way.." It's funny the things I'm drawn to write about. I can't seem to find closure to this, like saying why I said it. It was because it bothered me, but that's not what I wrote about specifically.
Do you think Ellen DeGeneres is "just sitting there" dishing out things that significantly affect me in a negative way? I'm not being sarcastic. Should I think I'm in trouble? Shouldn't I feel sorry for Twitch? So it's because I deserve to be punished? No one just feels sorry for me feeling bad in Orlando with no one I can get close to other than my parents, which is one reason I live with them but at age 29, tho it's cuz I wanna act actually too. I dunno, the people here I feel for. I've grown to be attracted to them.
So, it's about me being in trouble because I get upset when people are mean to me. Any ideas? Before something bad happens? Why doesn't anyone tell me these things? I'm already good like my parents said. I know my parents sometimes want me to shut away.
Well, Twitch, enjoy your tattoo! Oh, also, it looks like a key. If you don't like it, well. It seems he does, for now..
I wonder why my dad thinks I should be punished innocent. I disagree with this. He's always seemed to feel this way. It seems life was too hard for me, too, but I was a nice person.
Closing: I don't mean this in a sarcastic way. I'm just concerned about others + expressing something that seemed it needed to be dealt with. I also mentioned I think all this writing isn't worth it if not for the good of others 1st.
Issue
People are nice to white/racist people, but with me I get treated badly racially and it's so important to others. They don't get in trouble for things they didn't do.
Wondering
I feel cool popular famous people bargain with me that I have to accept being mistreated or I'm off the fan list. I am not talking in extreme, just something I'm wondering. I guess other people won't go thru this.. and if they do will get more sympathy/feel less pain possibly, unless they want to show me off. I am happy like before. I like to watch others. Why look for ways to make me feel in trouble, tho? I mean, is there some way we can just get to the goal so I can live my once successful life? The problem is I like lots of things and it takes too much time to be sharp. I might still be developing as a person "what" I am. What's the good in minoring in an art and majoring in thinking major?
There are celebrities I am jealous of. Why not go full out and try to be a famous performing artist?
There are celebrities I am jealous of. Why not go full out and try to be a famous performing artist?
Problem
My dad runs into me in a way to annoy me and makes gestures of messing with certain parts. You know, if I feel upset and he thinks I need to be punished outright.
I know this for a fact. I come in and am positive initially the 1st time, but there's always some problem for me like it doesn't matter and I have no life.
You know what my teachers encouraged?
That you're not supposed to enjoy if you should interact with them.
Correlations
My dad made a simple mistake. He noticed I had a problem and assumed my mom could have it, too, without thinking.
Change of Times
They are going back and saying my generation didn't deserve to supposedly have it all.
They just have nothing to do and are too embarrassed at what they did.
I notice some people fight or fight others together about if you should look more or less detailed with fine points or be more one big force of energy.
They just have nothing to do and are too embarrassed at what they did.
I notice some people fight or fight others together about if you should look more or less detailed with fine points or be more one big force of energy.
Problems
They are acting triumphant when my thoughts unravel so I can't figure anything without them cutting me off.
They are also suggesting weird ideas.
They are also suggesting weird ideas.
Someone/Some people secretly say I'm Viet, Filipino, not Caucasian, etc. Also, Ellen DeGeneres is in on it and has fueled some of it.
I don't care about any excuses that develop.
I don't care about any excuses that develop.
Problem
My dad is ruining the family. He keeps being so mean to me and won't accept it. He lets off acting like he's white and I'm not and I can't prove he just acted that way, like making sounds at the table.
Problem
They're all saying I don't matter and taking possible relationships from me. They're pounding it in like I "need to be punished."
Problem
Supposedly, Ellen DeGeneres is getting people to try to make me accept I'm another/bad race. I thought it was funny to socialize with other multiracials, and I can see her finding humor in my seeing it in that light. I keep getting pounded on by her "messengers."
Problem
People pester me about getting mad, but they don't believe me when I say why. I know that. Why not mind their own business?
Problem
They keep getting at me talking at me when I'm quiet in private.
They find big problems with small things.
They find big problems with small things.
The Ellen DeGeneres Show
1 Direction did a cool show! They seemed like smart guys, with nice manners. Their music was cool.
The little Irish karate girl was so cool! She had a sword she twirled and did gymnastics.
The little Irish karate girl was so cool! She had a sword she twirled and did gymnastics.
Apology
About that Twitter remark.. I'm losing my mind! I must have lost touch with reality. Still, proves how inappropriate I've become on the inside.
Tomfoolery
I haven't done anything that invites you to make a spectacle of about me. Just keep digging thru the years?
I know what happens if you manipulate all corners/multiple facets of my life. In the end, it's stalking behavior and effects.
You're so gifted you can see into me driving a garbage truck cuz hey ain't nothing wrong with that.
I know what happens if you manipulate all corners/multiple facets of my life. In the end, it's stalking behavior and effects.
You're so gifted you can see into me driving a garbage truck cuz hey ain't nothing wrong with that.
Depressing
I'm not really here to bide time until my own d**th or whatever else it could be while you "play" around with me, basically..
"Bad Guys"
They keep "flipping" me off saying if I say I was indeed good then I am just prejudiced to mean people. They think it's a laughing point of genius. They just cut me off like a gust of wind.
Daring Beahvior
I was fine before this experiment thing started. I don't need to learn manners at age 29. It's not my fault if I need to employ myself to relearn them.
What the Core of My Frustration Is..
Being bothered when I am alone with little ticks that for some reason sound like phrases.
Being bothered every time I see my parents.
Being bothered by famous people or others in media/social media.
What Doesn't Make Sense
My basic loss of social freedom and courtesy.
Being bothered every time I see my parents.
Being bothered by famous people or others in media/social media.
What Doesn't Make Sense
My basic loss of social freedom and courtesy.
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