Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Rejection from Acting Agencies

I'm not sure why I'm never contacted back by an acting agency..

link

I wonder if this is her daughter.

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Her husband is Swedish.

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

The audience members sitting out in dunce caps is funny.

Kate Winslet was so friendly.  She was beautiful in Titanic and seems to be doing well on another role, now.

Pharell was a good singer, got everyone up.  He had an interesting interview.

Monday, October 12, 2015

I want to do hip hop.

I'm old and it's time! I did some ballet!



Careers

People are trying to say why don't we be aware of things that bind differences, like in careers.  I am happy in mine and am aware of the connections if any.

Being More Open?

People acted like I needed to come out and I'd be fine, but I moved to Orlando and it wasn't.  I was not considered a bad person anywhere before I moved here.

They kicked me outta college saying I was too shy, outta my major.

Juilliard!

DMA

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Voice, D.M.A.


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C.V. Starr Doctoral Fellows Program


Qualifying Requirements:


  1. Ear Training
  2. Keyboard Studies

First Year


Major Studies


  • Major Field of Study 12 credits
  • Departmental Requirement (if any) 4 credits

Total Credits 1st Year: 24-28


Second Year


Major Studies


  • Major Field of Study 12 credits
  • Departmental Requirement (if any) 4 credits

Doctoral Requirements


Total Credits 2nd Year: 24-28


Other requirements during matriculation


  • Performance (Public Recitals) 2-6 credits
  • Lecture-Performance 1 credit
  • Dissertation and Oral Defense 2 credits
  • Language Qualification
  • Written and Oral Qualifying Exams

MINIMUM TOTAL CREDITS 61


Note


Please refer to C.V. Starr Doctoral Fellows Program for further details.
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A Future

The Boston Conservatory has a Masters in both Oprea and Voice separately.  I am staying away from opera.

link

(It won't copy+paste right.)

Listening..

..Orlando has some good singers, Les Miserables.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: Why are Caucasian women so ashamed of their brown hair?

because it looks folksy 

IMDb - The Soapbox

Who would you prefer to hear Christmas music from?

1) classical singers and musicians
2) folk singers and dancers 

Christmas Music

Go, Charlotte Church!

Proud of my Welsh heritage in my last name.

This threw me head over heels..

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7p55 FOLK DANCE (3 ECTS credits, 80 hrs)

Learning outcomes
Students will:
  • perceive the diverse contents of folk dance tradition
  • master the basic variations of partner dance: Schottische, Mazurka, Waltz, Polka, Polska, Tango
  • master the basic forms of social group dance, Quadrille
  • study the structure of Folk Menuet
  • know how to explain the significance of folk dance in performing folk music and learn how to control tempos and phrasings suitable for different dance styles
  • qualify for further folk dance studies
Assessment
Pass/Fail
Instruction and study     
  • Group instruction and dance hall events, in total 60 hours
  • Performances           
  • Class attendance
It sounds kinda easy if only I could remember steps better.  This must not be competitive like ballet.

This must be a dream, not a reality.

I hope the Finns who do this have a lotta fun.  I didn't think it would become a different world to me.  I am used to being in the US with my family there.  Finns are at home there, I've contemplated, like close to family and to feel a tug still.

I dunno about my Master's or another Bachelor's.  Loyola seemed to thrust you into ballet, like they do with folk dance.  I wonder if I could learn more languages.  I wish I would be interesting to work in Hollywood in the US.  I wanted to have a talk show or be on ones that are made for people to be on, like Victoria Jackson (born in 1959 in Miami, Florida, US,) in SNL (Saturday Night Live) several/numerous times.  Ever heard of the good days of SNL?  That was before today.

See, I was kicked outta Music Education.  I want to be a performer and teacher of general music.  To teach dance, you'd have to have some meat under your belt.  I wanted to be like in the board of music education, but I also wanna perform and be famous.  I dug into that dream a lot before, I think.  I'm sorta hanging on for dear life, now.

See, I have a theory that people who do that in Finland are very at home.  That's not what I asked for, to be treated so special.  It's sorta a dream, to do folk dancing in a cold place in Europe, tho I love all equally.  It's just a decision some people make, you know?..  People in the cold supposedly are fairer and it's a jolly time in the US to see snow if you appreciate it, but I dunno all about that..

I am used to leaving my family, tho, for other things and need to do something for myself.  This is in line with my goals, just seems very exuberant.  Life doesn't seem as precious as we are made to believe, anymore.  I sorta like supporting my parents emotionally.  They seem happy to see me do what they did and go across the world.

I hope that people in the world can be happy.  Something tugging at me is to go to Europe.  Something else is to achieve worthy fame.  I was actually sorta famous where I was or would be treated like I should be.  Things sure have changed with Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005.)  I don't agree with the changes in the world.  I am thankful for my favorite movie, tho.

cont.

The Bachelor's level seems more about performance than graduate studies.

They have a degree in researching folk and popular.  That sounds like a good Master's degree..

I am not sure how long I could stay there.  I didn't really want to leave my family.

I can see myself being there 3 years and easily maybe 1 year.

I didn't see any nonsense about general studies but language.  So, I'd take Finnish!

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I want to do melodic percussion for my instrument.  I luckily have some experience, which some was good some not in a way, tho I enjoyed it a lot.  I'm not someone who'd sit however and drum to no music for an hour or so.  I know the Japanese do that from going to Epcot, as I live in Central Florida.  If I had to do drums, too, to do that, however, I would.  Something different.  That's what this is to me.  Unless it was like shooting for a doctorate or something, which I met someone who wanted one.  I mean in chosing percussion, the drums.  It seems percussionists who are good in college do piano.  I like to do the special instruments or want to, that is.  You know, like chimes or other melodic bells.  There apparently exist in the world interesting ones that set down that aren't like a xylophone.  So, I was a piano major for a year and can still play but not as much as before and got rid of my college piece..  Singing is what I most want.  They ask a lot of keyboardists to be amazing without playing with others much.  Maybe, I'm just not prepared.

A Dream of Mine

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Finnish Folk Music Degree (in Finland)

(It won't paste right.)

If I go the Bachelor's route, I will definitely enroll in Folk Dancing.  Master's is optional to do studies in supplementary to music ehehe.  So, Folk Dancing would be minor studies or optional to Master's route.

In Loyola, I did ballet as a minor and if I went there again would be elective.  Voice would be my major and it would be opera etc.

Sunday, October 11, 2015

Where to Turn

You know, like, say, a kid today.. a nice, normal, say, girl.. is said to be good, that's it, you can do it.. but you look at other people and see later they can go over as nothing in their lives.

It just makes me doubt what's in it emotionally for these kids.  About "the work," that may be fine and dandy considering life these days.

On a Continued Topic

I just don't see why everything Bella Thorne tells me to do is right.  I probably was outspoken to say these things..

What I think now, tho, or more decidedly.. I just wish I didn't have to say any of this, but I did, yea.

How can everything one person say to do be right or be what you want to do?

Things to Get To

Imagine what I'd be talking about if I didn't die/this didn't happen.

Girl I Like

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Always Getting Ahead? Or Falling Behind Yourself??

Who's not trying to get ahead?  See happy kids in commercials and on streets?

Freethinkers

Some people.. just aren't!

Personal Decisions/Preferenecs

If anyone bestows dignity on me or someone else is not for you all to say otherwise.  It is not you all's place.  Who's popular, now??

Unbelieving

I'm not gonna sit here believing I'm nothing and deserve nothing.

So, why?

So, why are so many popular people mean to me?  Did you just do what my dad said?

So..

So, that's the way to go?

I have a problem..

..People say what anyone did to me was never wrong, even if they were another person.  They just said Bella Thorne can get it.

How Foolish!

The answer is she thinks the same thing of my dad, that he'd hurt her if she wasn't mean to me.  What a waste of my life.  And my dad doesn't really act like it's his fault anymore.  What's that supposed to mean?  Seeping out his anger to get someone like Ellen DeGeneres to have a reason to hate me is enough?  He's in peace?

A Bone to Pick With Ellen DeGeneres

I feel I am wasting my time and life like what I did never amounted to anything.  I feel my reputation has been stolen by Bella Thorne.  It's not okay.  People are scared of Ellen DeGeneres.  They are mean to me with the hopefully false idea that she doesn't like them.  Maybe, this is just their chance to be liked, some of them.  Their 5 seconds of fame.

My Creed

A smart person would forget I cursed at something that concerns them.

Not that some of you can possibly figure that out in you all's lifetime.

It must make people uncomfortable, but, before, they were uncomfortable if I didn't curse.

God and Evil

Why do you guys live bowing down to evil?

God and Evil

Don't you see anything in the movies or on TV?

What a Waste

All these debates are just you throwing stinky cheese at me.

cont.

You think it's all genius and creative, like I need this when you don't have anything to offer.

I turn on the TV and see movies I like in the theater with people..

..but I don't seem to have enough knowledge of what's popular.

People All Deserve

So, on another topic, we don't have to meet anyone, but how do we make more "people" who deserve as much respect as popular people today?

I dunno, I was a rising star.

Does Ellen DeGeneres have to meet anyone?

Moreover

They are disposing of popular people to Bella Thorne.  Better hurry!  Not that you'd have to dispose of them to make anyone happy, but ya are.  ..Hurry!

Freedom of Speech

You can't monitor my blog.  This is getting silly.  I didn't break a law.  You'd end up in jail.

Competition

It seems like I'm competing with Bella Thorne.  She is an example of being used for parasiting and in my life in ways too much.  You people can't do whatever you want to me.

What happened when my life was about me?  You would find what you people do rude before I cursed about the hurtful, illegal noises Ellen DeGeneres supposedly said to put in my room to the people experimenting on me.

No wonder Bella Thorne would like hanging around so much, get 2 lives, like witches sucking out children's souls.  When are more and other interesting people coming into my life?  Other people deserve a turn at being popular.

Living in This House

It's not being at peace.  When you go places, it's like my dad wants to be there to "check" every time we walk by.  No wonder I can't sleep at night.  It's probably the pills I don't need.

I don't really trust you people.

I'm not swayed by your wrongdoings and waste of my time.

People hate that I get some things, like..

..like I'm Helena Bonham Carter "stealing" Tim Burton from the world or the people who deserve his "creative" presence.

I didn't do anything bad.  People just give me attention being in an experiment.  I didn't wanna waste my life on that.

As for things like getting attention from famous and popular people, I was considered a good person before moving to Central Florida.  No one would say to me, "Who do you think you are?"

Disclaimer:  No threat nor offense to anyone.  I am not being sarcastic.  I'm also not pointing fingers.  I'm also not trying to have a condescending tone coupled with any of what I said.  Also, I do like Helena Bonham Carter.  I was just saying how people/we felt in some ways, tho I don't really say that I say this exactly like this/completely.

They don't think I do anything wrong but am a bad person..

..they are rubbing in something and saying I can't have things I once had and are giving it to Bella Thorne, after pretending I couldn't have it cuz it was bad.  Not that I need some of those things or of some in certain ways.

Strangeness

I don't understand the pressure on me when I am a normal person.

It's like all these people know about my lame life in private, but I can't freely wonder about people without being told off by the people experimenting on me and those involved.

People act like no one was ever mean to me in some ways, too, and, like, they can keep tabs on my behavior like it doesn't matter if so many people are mean to me and I'm an adult and mean no harm, unlike others.

Following Burton

I would be sneaky like he could be and lash out in a withheld manner, but I'm not for this all out lets's just go all out and act open about anything and that's what Christina Barrett says tackily, that's all she is.

Testy

Why are you testing me by me getting attention?  You know, like posting online cuz I don't work and have time.

People

I am a normal person.  I do not need to be in check.

Question

Why do some people think they have a say and think I'm trash if I get popular or someone likes me who's older?  That's just a secret formula I uncovered.  I am looking for more people to talk to, actually.  I do talk to some, but the flame burns out and my friends are gone.

I wonder if others don't like it cuz they're jealous.  Also, I don't push people to talk to me too much.  They decide if they want to talk to me.

I don't think you should say some people are better than others.. I used to be considered as prestigious as you could get, in some way, but thanks to Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005,) I lost what I had and everyone is listening only to famous people.  I was sorta pulled away from singing and music, myself, and now it's like I'm left blind poking around with a stick looking for someone to be agreeable with me.  I am the one who posts on a blog, and I'm "available."

Disclaimer:  No offense to anyone, but I admit there are some people who are offensive.  They're involved in my life being an experiment now and I can't seem to get cool people to like me, anymore, like before.

It's funny

how hatred for me has spread around the world.  I think I was already out of the game, so-to-speak.

It's too bad, all this weird stuff because of how possessive people are about things like Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005.)  People are telling me abnormal stuff and getting mad like I did something.

I look pretty good, for what it's worth.  A little fat cuz I don't do much but not that obese.  Also on pills I don't need cuz my mom said so.  If I don't take them, I cannot live with my family.

At Disney

there was a nice lady in front of me, kinda cool, thin, kinda manly.. maybe she was Finnish, Space Mountain

Test Track, another lady who seemed Finnish who was obese but not too big, singles line, we were in the same car.

Grandmas

Do people lie to your grandma about what really goes on in the home or whatever?

Saturday, October 10, 2015

The Hair

and I don't mean white hair

No Irish

If some of us had no Irish, we'd not be much.

Upset

Why do the Irish in America feel so dissed by the English, like Ireland is nothing and all n*****s?  A lot of what makes America who we are is the Irish and Germans.  I have a prestigious line of German, I think, but who doesn't?  I mean, it wasn't as long ago from Ireland and seems like a famous family name.  People don't know who they are!

IMDb - Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

Re: Cannot love it

Yea, I was sorta bemused by it all, but Johnny Depp is good. 

IMDb - Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005)

Idea

They were creative with world ethnicities.

What if they had more kids, which includes girls with Scandinavian/Finnish heritage, like maybe 2 good ones? Then, we'd get to see who the fairest in the land are. 

What should I be doing?

Talking to friends?  That's a good one!

The Very South

The South hangs onto the fact that New Orleans is how it is culturally and with the fog, swamp too, etc., and the beaches of Southeastern Florida and Key West or the Keys

"DQ"

I just had Dairy Queen today, and their chocolate doesn't exactly come from Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory.

Problem

I don't know what you expect of me if I am on medicine I don't need and people are mean to me all the time.

Did you all ever learn..

..people who didn't do what they were supposed to, like homework and not disrupting at school.., look cuter?  Other people are called intellectual or something, "smart."  Me saying intellectuals are smart does not magnet me into pointing fingers at real people.  It's just a way of saying everyone is worth it, even if they are not "simply a beauty queen."  Like, those young girls on TV or in the movies in the early 1990s.. they might have a lotta makeup and fair hair, but other than that I mean it's not like everyone else must be not good enough.

I do understand some people might not be used to doing work as a kid or whenever, a teen or adult.  I don't know what it is.  You'd believe looking good you'd be pepped for work.  If there is a secret of something wrong at school, that could be the excuse someone had it unfairly in things people did.  Maybe, people bucked up Late Boomers into not caring about work unless they had to or something.

You know, a lotta Late Boomers seem intellectual as people, like in the movies, but they may not have been good at school or being tutored.  They were like cute and smart alec.


Sometimes, you can blame who your parents are as the reason, and sometimes people don't take that.  Tho, they don't necessarily care about anything.

There May Be Something There That Wasn't There Before

If you had no one born in early Generation X, which is the mid-1960s to the mid-1980s, particularly tho the earlier ones.. you'd have no kids for the rest of us to be jealous of for having such cleaned down slick fathers who are more modern and therefore distribute an overload of kinds of pleasures.  That makes their kids get ahead, moreso, if you compare them to late Generation X.  It seems Hollywood is at a loss for all the people who made it in Generation Y, as tho they don't exist, too.

Being Beat

Does anyone ever tell you you're nothing during your down time.. and everyone else has energy cuz they were sleeping and everything was supposedly about them when they were awake, in a complimentary fashion?

It is not me

It is you people that have the problem with me not me that has the problem with me.

Misjudgement

I notice people say I'm bad just because they like someone else.  Why do they need a foil?

Either/Or

Can you imagine people fighting me about not being good because my hair is either not curly enough or not straight enough, for no apparent reason?

People Pretending to Care Sometimes

Can you imagine to pretend you care by making a face like me and then wanting all I have all for yourself but instead and nothing for me in any way? but for others yes?

Checking Out My DNA

I saw an ad for this one.  I'll do it next month: link (ancestry.com program.)

Pleasure

Why don't I deserve a part of the pleasure others seem to get?  Cuza who their dad was?

Whose Side Is Whose Side

My dad can't keep flipping if he's on my good side or bad side.  It's too important.

Who Said What

You have to have my dad to tell you what to do, but I know you also said it, people.  You probably also threatened my dad to believe what you think.  In the end, you just wanna get at whoever isn't mean to me cuz so many people do it to be safe for whatever reason.

cont.

It's a wonder anyone makes friends unless they were accepted by adults outside of their family as a small child.

Private Lives

People think they have the right to judge me in private or with what my family is like.  I always had a good reputation with the public.

cont.

What?  Does it make you people feel special to misjudge me for my private life?  That I'm not "shy" there?

cont.

He's hunting me down.  These messages aren't stopping.

Besides..

..Johnny Depp was mean to me before and long after.

IMDb - Johnny Depp

Is he safe? because....

....my life is an experiment and all anyone need do to talk to me from the famous world is to buzz in and show themselves.

I cursed about noises in my room that hurt that Ellen supposedly put there for a few months every day. Supposedly, I "did something" to deserve that. I avoided cursing directly at her. If I did it was blurted out and backed up arranged a certain way, probably. I did get upset about my dad on my blog to buffer that I would ever curse at Ellen. I was just so mad, it was illegal to do to me and kept on.

So, Johnny Depp has sent me threatening messages to my dignity for this, and he probably won't stop unless it starts to "bug" him. He spreads my reputation as being a bad person, he being faithful to his cause.

I'm left in limbo, in lieu a laughing stock. 

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: What's the last good movie you saw?

I saw Pan last night. It is promising and of the times. Reminds me a bit of The Libertine with Johnny Depp. 

Waiting to Help Me Out

It's funny people didn't reach me before if they are so mad I was upset supposedly Ellen DeGeneres put hurtful noises in my room.

Instead, they wait and get mad at me for how many times I got upset, usually every day for months.  I avoided cursing at her directly other than a few times I blotted out things in a certain way.  Who know for sure if I ever slipped from that.

It was something illegal.  I end up in the mental hospital and on pills now.  (I'm not saying anyone else should.)  My mom wants me on them cuz I live at home..

So

Admit it, a lot of things "suck" you think, but this really sucked.  Too camp?

IMDb - Pan (2015)

So, what exactly is wrong with this?

You just glossed over some of the work. You don't wanna be an actor like me? Or is everyone in ballet, etc.? 

IMDb - Pan (2015)

Re: Clumsy, boring and surprisingly ugly

Didn't it have some parts that were supposed to be more emotional, or were people distracted? I know the only moment that means anything in a way is when I came back from the bathroom and caught Blackbeard and Smee together. Tiger Lily was nice and so was Peter. 

IMDb - Pan (2015)

Re: This thing is unpleasant,dumb and a waste of film

I got good vibes. Can you tell me what was wrong? It looked like it was for everyone, as usual, too.

It also seems important to note they'd approve of Bella Thorne. I know her dad is from a Latin American country I think and her mom has maybe a little or some Italian. Lotta new things getting big in the past several years, in Hollywood. Anyway, I care a lot about Bella Thorne, follow her every day on Twitter. It's interesting. We're both from Fort Lauderdale and moved away, I think. She was in some big movies with partial starring roles in the past couple of years. Yet, she has never been on Ellen. I've been watching her at times on Disney's TV show Shake It Up. She seems set on Ellen and is very commanding of what people can think of her. She's usually overly sweet to me.. I think Ellen knows her and wants her to be bad to me, tho, in another way.. I was just interested they didn't have interest in this movie. I agree some of it was tumbleweedish aha ha and there wasn't much there for older people, in a way, it seemed. It's probably for tweens. So, I'm just interested how people would judge someone like Bella Thorne if they did not like this movie because I know she's a sweet girl who I think acted since infancy. She might be the opposite of this movie.

Here she is..
https://goo.gl/HGrGks
https://goo.gl/1AW5ph 

Friday, October 9, 2015

Time to Change

If Bella Thorne wants to be like this other look, it would take a lot, as most people can't achieve it.  Funny is she had a haistyle cut similarly before.  This is a kid, too.  Her mom is young, tho, so.

It also would be tricky cuz so much of how she choses to feel for me is extra angry, often, I feel.  Ellen DeGeneres sorta wants her to.  That's not the way other people are, like me or not.

What Bella Thorne Is Like Sometimes

I like Bella Thorne, but she seems to be a certain way for Ellen DeGeneres to be mean or "annoying" to me.  Like, I wanna look like someone, and she can't just keep sacrificing how -she- looks, like, to beat me.  She seems to be looking at me in a disciplinary way and upset, expects others to make sure she gets something in this.  Some people usually put me down for one reason or another.  However, Bella is getting it the opposite.  People encourage her to "put it on" against me.  She also has this frustrated look.  I think since she has been in the business of Hollywood longest, she is like Johnny Depp and expects more.  No offense.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Post a picture of a person you'd like to be..

..like, you like how they look you wonder what it'd be like to look like that

http://goo.gl/DBKW3t

Guess which one? 

Lies

Why do you care?

You're saying I am and always was considered a bad person.  I was considered very good until we moved to Orlando or I flunked college.  Also, there's no hope for my future.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: One of the strangest/scariest memories I have as a child

My dad told me just a few stories about violence.

Why don't people who use knives go to jail; my dad told me about this one person. I guess she had knives thrown at her.

I threw some kitchen knives that weren't that sharp on the floor when my dad and brother were pounding by my bedroom that hurt so much. I didn't understand they were taking care of me by showing me what the world was in Orlando and too late, New Orleans. I had recently come down from up north in college.

I also hit my mom with a pillow when she was making hurtful noises in the kitchen.

These 2 incidences happened to me in Central Florida. I don't know if I'm branded bad or if it counts I was startled that people hated me for flunking out of college. No one said anything. Everyone I saw or knew started acting annoyingly around me. I just have to put up with it, like I meant to do something bad when I didn't.

I used to see snotty kids showing off things are better for them. I should have understood some of them had a hard time as their generation. I stomped my foot at one.

It seems dangerous. I got put in a mental hospital 3 times, twice for a month, here, after throwing things or walking after my mom, but not threateningly. I was taken in cuffs in a police car. The police are nice to ride with. 

Twitter

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

The 1st guy was really good-looking.  He seemed like a page out of the 1800s.

The singer who got a lot of hits on YouTube with the girl there as a surprise he was singing with - that was awesome!  I think people should get off their butts and sing on YouTube.  I have tried to ask about copyrighting and licensing on YouTube, but they ended up being nonresponsive.  I'm not sure if I should take down the videos I have up on the accounts I can still access, but it'd be a laborious, questionable chore.  I did submit my singing and said I could sing like Josh Groban and the Phantom, Chris Mann.

Chelsea Clinton!  She was brilliant.  I loved her straight smooth hair so much.  She seems like a very good person and is probably very knowledgeable and is intelligent.  She said everyone should have the opportunity to be Ellen or her mom, who is most likely running for President, I think later this year or early next year.  Her baby is so beautiful and she had good pictures with her parents.  I believe her mom is so admirable because she has Welsh, among other things.  I remember when her father was still running.  I was 5, and I loved him, as everyone does, because he is so cute, etc.  Some people were disrespectful, and I wonder if that's what caused him to say a famous saying about Monica Lewinsky (sp?,) "I did not have *** with that woman."  Chelsea also wrote a book, and it sounds really good!  Everyone in the audience gets a copy.  I loved the gift Ellen had for her, an Elmo wagon to pull for trick-or-treating!  Her daughter reads a log, and she apparently watched TV for the 1st time and loves Elmo etc. on Sesame Street.  I don't remember those kinds of experiences much.

Facebook - The Ellen DeGeneres Show


Thursday, October 8, 2015

Bella Thorne


There were 18 pictures and this is my favorite overall.  It looks 70s-ish.

"Looking Good"

Just because someone looks good does not actually mean someone/everyone else must look bad.

Disdain

Sometimes, it's not about who you like but beating those you dislike.

Racial Desires

People can be who they want racially, but you can't ruin someone else's, how they want.  It gets annoying when people begin to teach you that you have racial flaws, even probably for full blacks who want to learn lots.  I just realized it's just as hard for blacks to get by as it is for whites.  They just have darker skin and look different ethnically.

Not Messed Up

I'm not locked up confused in my race.

White Trash

Do you know/about white people who sit around and exchange laughs on c*** they ended up looking like and ward off some people considering them not white?

Disclaimer: I'm not pointing any fingers nor mean harm to any innocence etc.

"Fat and Lazy"

I feel old and dead, like it's time to hand down something.. or just "fat and lazy."

Is there a way?

Do you ever find there's some way you wanna be and you didn't do something, but that wouldn't get you were you want, at all?

Money Money Money Money

I spent $150 at Wal-Mart, today.  I just got what I needed, like SPF 100 sunblock that lasts all day + a 75.  Boots for $25.  And I ran outta money.  2 fancy brushes for frizzy hair.  You get the picture.  Not much extra really.  I'm a sad girl.

Next month should not be as much.  I'm still paying off TV orders until December.  They're all related to getting healthy and losing weight.

It's official!

Happy Birthday, Bella!  18!

She's in Pacific Time.