Friday, August 14, 2015

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just 3 dolls of different flavors is all, unique in each's own way

Depressed

these stupid psychotic meds

Problem

I think you just shouldn't make a big deal about what Ellen does being mean cuz she wishes she didn't have to do it.  I don't fight with her about little things.

What Do You Know

Do you know about people not getting it when everyone shares, even, like they were supposed to get more?

Where'd all the excitement go?

People liked SNL cuz it was current and popular TV shows.  They aren't actors now.  I see what happens, tho.  I mean, I didn't grow up thinking about acting as a way of meeting and socializing people.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Career/Life Dreams - What's yours?

It seems one of the biggest dreams is being a CEO.

I was trying to see how to host a talk show but don't know how to finance such an operation, a way to get on TV.

I want to point out
•people from Europe - ask them about their opinion of America, etc.
•talented kids and high schoolers - musicians, singers, dancers, actors, etc.
•actors from movies
•adults with hobbies
etc.

I was gonna have other people anchor it with me but changed my mind.

I myself am also trying to become an actress. When my Disney pass runs out early December, I want to take film acting. I also sing and wanna dance more/again.

What if my show were as big as SNL? 

Hidden Anger

Ellen tells herself just be nice to "the kids" and things will go fine.

However, bottled up, is her telling us we did something wrong when we didn't and if we did was just an accident.. that she won't really be nice 100% sure at some point, as promised and depended on and needed to flow.

Thursday, August 13, 2015

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Ellen

Interesting suggestion..  That baby needs some sun..block. 

Christina Ann Joanna Barrett's photo.

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Rip OIff

You care about separating me as a separate race from everyone else and are incompetent.  How'd you like that to happen to you?  Might as well put you in the same room as a lion.

Wow

So, you Europeans aren't all you're cracked up to be.  You're not nice and succumb to ^America^, whatever you're doing.

SOMEONE ELSE

MAKE FUN OF SOME OTHER ATTRACTIVE PERSON YOU'RE JEALOUS OF

You All Made the World *Beep*

No one likes me cuza * * * Tim Burton and Johnny Depp spreading false feelings about some girl online and convincing them to be mad.

Disclaimer: The stars are like exclamation points, don't represent a curse word.

America's b*

Why did I say that now?  Ah.  I will be disrespected just because people want race to matter again.  I feel I get kicked or left out of everything for being inhibited.

cont.

This happens in the other way, too.

America is b*******.  (Ha ha ha.)

It's so weird, I don't even remember what the other way was.

2 Cellos - Viva la Vida



I don't know what country they are, but notice how everyone listens to them in ways people chose to not listen to me cuz my dad's American like they're and my mom is not European.

Making the Glass 1/2 Empty

Did you ever consider if you make something seem like it's a punishment or bad, then a bad punishment will have taken place and you will never believe you are worth anything.

Irish Names

My last name, from my dad.. is not directly from Normandy.  There's a famous Irish singer named Orla Karron Fallon, whose maiden name I found was French.  Must be cool!

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Are you more real English? or Anglo-Saxon?

Anglo-Saxon from what I know 

IMDb - The Soapbox

What part of Germany are your ancestors from?

Southeast, Southwest, Northeast, Northwest

not even in Germany that I know of 

IMDb - The Soapbox

Are you more Southern Irish or more Northern Irish? Dublin area?

I think more of my real Irish is Southern Irish.

 

Under Pressure

Anyway, if I make a slip but not a big booboo, you can't just condemn my whole life, if it's not illegal.  Why would I mean something bad, do I seem possessed?  All that pressure and no fun as a reward for being good, just more pressure.

I feel mad..

..when it's like supposedly I'm not perfect but without even wondering Ellen gets to be considered perfect, when I used to be.  My dad got harsh on me and made my life hard.  I didn't really do anything.

Ellen

Why does Ellen find something about you that isn't that wrong that she dislikes and does something mean about it without ever telling you 1st what it was?

She does do this, right?  I'm not trying to make anything up.

Then, you get very upset and then she does something else?


Some things that have happened to me were pretty bad, tho I hope it was not on purpose by anyone.  Well, also, to note, I don't think like her and I don't belittle myself compared to anyone!


I mean.. Ellen always seems like she thinks there's something wrong with everyone.  She'll look down, change her tone, act a funny way, etc., and it offends them, who they are.  I know a lotta fans are obese, but even if you're not obese you still have problems.  I kinda know what they could be.  I'd still be accepting and "in" on others, for them, and for their feelings.  I like to stand with the underdogs/outcasts, against bullies and meanies etc.

Everyone just wants attention, and I know that's on the agenda.  What is Ellen doing?  Fixing up the world emotionally getting ready for just that but without fun in the process in many ways?  Sometimes, I don't know where I find myself online getting attention so much.  More popular people need to be publicly active online!  Too bad for failed social networking sites.

Pressured

No, I don't desire for people to be with me when I'm naked, who does?  Why do I feel pressured about this?  I don't like that.  It's not important.

Apology

Well, sorry, Ellen, if you wanna keep track of what people've done is up to you.  I don't know how I found myself involved.

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So, Bella Thorne is more successful than me in looking good in many important ways.  We both are worthy human beings, tho.  Things she's particularly good at is her fair red hair/highlights.

Her face seems very strong.  She's a beautiful kind of girl with a nice figure.

You know, she really seems to have turned on later in her life.  A lotta people are like that these days.  Why act overly excited while feeling tacky concerning the type of hype there is for Burton, tho?  You need to gain his collective respect, not serve him.

Question

Why is Ellen DeGeneres [technically] "unforgiving?"  Like, if she catches you off, she thinks you are bad.  I think I have a problem cuz I'm in an experiment, and my dad's wrath has gone crazy.  That's pathetic.  I don't really think like a normal person like I used to.  I try and fail.  It's like forgetting how you used to be and only getting worse but much worse and out of tune with what you need.