Friday, August 14, 2015

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just 3 dolls of different flavors is all, unique in each's own way

Depressed

these stupid psychotic meds

Problem

I think you just shouldn't make a big deal about what Ellen does being mean cuz she wishes she didn't have to do it.  I don't fight with her about little things.

What Do You Know

Do you know about people not getting it when everyone shares, even, like they were supposed to get more?

Where'd all the excitement go?

People liked SNL cuz it was current and popular TV shows.  They aren't actors now.  I see what happens, tho.  I mean, I didn't grow up thinking about acting as a way of meeting and socializing people.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Career/Life Dreams - What's yours?

It seems one of the biggest dreams is being a CEO.

I was trying to see how to host a talk show but don't know how to finance such an operation, a way to get on TV.

I want to point out
•people from Europe - ask them about their opinion of America, etc.
•talented kids and high schoolers - musicians, singers, dancers, actors, etc.
•actors from movies
•adults with hobbies
etc.

I was gonna have other people anchor it with me but changed my mind.

I myself am also trying to become an actress. When my Disney pass runs out early December, I want to take film acting. I also sing and wanna dance more/again.

What if my show were as big as SNL? 

Hidden Anger

Ellen tells herself just be nice to "the kids" and things will go fine.

However, bottled up, is her telling us we did something wrong when we didn't and if we did was just an accident.. that she won't really be nice 100% sure at some point, as promised and depended on and needed to flow.

Thursday, August 13, 2015

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Ellen

Interesting suggestion..  That baby needs some sun..block. 

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Rip OIff

You care about separating me as a separate race from everyone else and are incompetent.  How'd you like that to happen to you?  Might as well put you in the same room as a lion.

Wow

So, you Europeans aren't all you're cracked up to be.  You're not nice and succumb to ^America^, whatever you're doing.

SOMEONE ELSE

MAKE FUN OF SOME OTHER ATTRACTIVE PERSON YOU'RE JEALOUS OF

You All Made the World *Beep*

No one likes me cuza * * * Tim Burton and Johnny Depp spreading false feelings about some girl online and convincing them to be mad.

Disclaimer: The stars are like exclamation points, don't represent a curse word.

America's b*

Why did I say that now?  Ah.  I will be disrespected just because people want race to matter again.  I feel I get kicked or left out of everything for being inhibited.

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This happens in the other way, too.

America is b*******.  (Ha ha ha.)

It's so weird, I don't even remember what the other way was.

2 Cellos - Viva la Vida



I don't know what country they are, but notice how everyone listens to them in ways people chose to not listen to me cuz my dad's American like they're and my mom is not European.

Making the Glass 1/2 Empty

Did you ever consider if you make something seem like it's a punishment or bad, then a bad punishment will have taken place and you will never believe you are worth anything.

Irish Names

My last name, from my dad.. is not directly from Normandy.  There's a famous Irish singer named Orla Karron Fallon, whose maiden name I found was French.  Must be cool!

IMDb - The Soapbox

Are you more real English? or Anglo-Saxon?

Anglo-Saxon from what I know 

IMDb - The Soapbox

What part of Germany are your ancestors from?

Southeast, Southwest, Northeast, Northwest

not even in Germany that I know of 

IMDb - The Soapbox

Are you more Southern Irish or more Northern Irish? Dublin area?

I think more of my real Irish is Southern Irish.

 

Under Pressure

Anyway, if I make a slip but not a big booboo, you can't just condemn my whole life, if it's not illegal.  Why would I mean something bad, do I seem possessed?  All that pressure and no fun as a reward for being good, just more pressure.

I feel mad..

..when it's like supposedly I'm not perfect but without even wondering Ellen gets to be considered perfect, when I used to be.  My dad got harsh on me and made my life hard.  I didn't really do anything.

Ellen

Why does Ellen find something about you that isn't that wrong that she dislikes and does something mean about it without ever telling you 1st what it was?

She does do this, right?  I'm not trying to make anything up.

Then, you get very upset and then she does something else?


Some things that have happened to me were pretty bad, tho I hope it was not on purpose by anyone.  Well, also, to note, I don't think like her and I don't belittle myself compared to anyone!


I mean.. Ellen always seems like she thinks there's something wrong with everyone.  She'll look down, change her tone, act a funny way, etc., and it offends them, who they are.  I know a lotta fans are obese, but even if you're not obese you still have problems.  I kinda know what they could be.  I'd still be accepting and "in" on others, for them, and for their feelings.  I like to stand with the underdogs/outcasts, against bullies and meanies etc.

Everyone just wants attention, and I know that's on the agenda.  What is Ellen doing?  Fixing up the world emotionally getting ready for just that but without fun in the process in many ways?  Sometimes, I don't know where I find myself online getting attention so much.  More popular people need to be publicly active online!  Too bad for failed social networking sites.

Pressured

No, I don't desire for people to be with me when I'm naked, who does?  Why do I feel pressured about this?  I don't like that.  It's not important.

Apology

Well, sorry, Ellen, if you wanna keep track of what people've done is up to you.  I don't know how I found myself involved.

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So, Bella Thorne is more successful than me in looking good in many important ways.  We both are worthy human beings, tho.  Things she's particularly good at is her fair red hair/highlights.

Her face seems very strong.  She's a beautiful kind of girl with a nice figure.

You know, she really seems to have turned on later in her life.  A lotta people are like that these days.  Why act overly excited while feeling tacky concerning the type of hype there is for Burton, tho?  You need to gain his collective respect, not serve him.

Question

Why is Ellen DeGeneres [technically] "unforgiving?"  Like, if she catches you off, she thinks you are bad.  I think I have a problem cuz I'm in an experiment, and my dad's wrath has gone crazy.  That's pathetic.  I don't really think like a normal person like I used to.  I try and fail.  It's like forgetting how you used to be and only getting worse but much worse and out of tune with what you need.

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Attention for Good Reasons

What happened to all the good people who deserve their kind of attention?  You're just gonna burst out later saying I'm not the one, that good people are really bad, too.  You should be nice to people to start with rather than become upset and say it was all a mismatch.

Bad?

Why does everyone think I'm bad?  I just have private thoughts and others find out.  They aren't bad.  I just think others are bad.

I tried to sleep more so I wouldn't do any more damage, like weird things coming up.

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Topic: Disagreements

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Edit: No offense, just a technicality.

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Not to make fun of anyone for being dark.  I just noticed it happened, that part as an impersonal statement or not sarcastic.

Race

Someone led me to discovering this..

I know French people, which includes Ellen DeGeneres, perk up when a minority position race is brought up, like blacks.  They are such a spoiled country.  If anything in the "South" makes it, it's them!  Think, why is Canada "dark?"  Like Latinos.

Upset?

My explanation was thorough and to the point.

Disagreements

I guess they happen.  Maybe, people aren't all they're cracked up to be cuz it's old school for most.

Edit: No offense, just a technicality.

Innocent

Oh, and nothing wrong was done.

Record-Keeping

Do you like people who keep a record about if you've done something wrong?  I has spoken!

Only someone pathetic would have to do that.

Wow, tho, I'm always considered wrong.  Not really.

It's not a win-win question for anyone.

Why does Ellen do that?  Of course, she's not really easily considered perfect.  She just likes to be the scorekeeper and has a thing about always being right or being wrong one or more times, not just one time I am upset about something weird.  You know, when I started watching, she was actually rather troubling.

I am not gonna wait for someone to get more used to knowing what's wrong to beat me and be considered better than me in life.  You'll always find a problem, somehow, it seems.

Also, what she considers wrong..is wrong!  Because if she does something illegal and hurtful a lot I can get mad and curse a lot.  I did stop, not sure why, maybe cuz it just seemed stupid.  No one told me to stop, but when I did they got mean.  They were "hiding" a punishment.  Everyone just keeps getting meaner and meaner.  1st, you did something wrong to me, and no it's not okay.  Then, you ruin my life for our disagreement.  I didn't suggest anything like that for you, so how could someone win like that, huh?  I may not always do what I should, but so what?  That's because I was confused or didn't know.  My life is just dragging along and no one cares.  I discovered if I were a dancer, I may be suicidal at my limited options in life.  They just said I am bad again because I cursed, but I already explained why it was okay!  If it has to do with how long, I guess you wanted an excuse to be mean to me whenever you want.

Anyway, you all had a support system.  You would never wind up this crazy and alone!

I'm still interested and haven't said something.  I guess some people, tho hurt more easily, are still right.  You can't hurt people just because you don't wanna admit to being wrong.

What, now, for me?  Plotting against my life in suggestive and elaborate ways?

If someone didn't really say what to do, then they didn't say it!  I had that as a problem.  I simply felt/relayed they were already unclear and didn't have it together.  This misunderstanding is not my fault.

I guess I got more upset when wronged.

Hey, is Ellen threatening someone to go on her show cuza me?  Ellen doesn't have to say they are wrong..  I mean, really, she can just be nice and say they are perfect and be interesting in not a mean way if she can to sensitive people.  There's no "I have to be mean" because someone took offense.

Did you know Ellen already outed me cuz I thought someone said to call them the N word?  They also dig back to when I was a kid.  She doesn't seem to do things like that cuz otherwise I would not watch the show so I don't get in trouble.

You know, I'm considered perfectly behaved.  I just had little mishaps, hardly anything, just a few times to remember but not literally just bad.  I am not here for someone to ruin it.  I already said I don't think I'm bad because of Ellen.  You keep acting like I am.  What is it that matters that happened specifically?  Oh, you don't talk to me, literally, like so I can recognize it from a person to hold it up to.

I could go on and on..

If someone is already a good person, Ellen can't say they aren't, with so many people believing the opposite.

You know, you shouldn't have a hard time with Ellen.  She's already on your side cuz she thinks I'm bad.

How do you feel about money?

I don't have much of it.  Is being a film actress a moral choice in lieu of money?

White Rules

You're used to living by the rules where you're white and only whites can win, whereas otherwise would be different.

Slowing

I need to be in the process of pursuing a rewarding career.  I dunno, I need money to eat out when I go to Disney until early December.  I wonder if I should have done/do the film acting or modeling class and bring my food to Disney instead of buying it.

Why..

Why would you be nice to late Generation X just to say you did it and then be done our lives mean nothing?

Strolling Backstage.com

I guess I should grab a role when it comes because it's hard to stay fit and getting a role right away will bank better.

However, I have no money right now and might not have much until my Disney pass runs out in early December.  It's so distressing.

Not on the Bad Side

So, you act like you don't get enough attention from famous people.  You while away entertained by how white your mom is and how strong your dad is.  You're patient.  You didn't need to talk to me.  You still get it slowly while the world waits in the end.  You're not on anyone new's bad side.  You have all your other friends just waiting, too.  You're all in this together.  At any moment, you could break out, like Lily Rose Sweet Melody Depp.  Or Bella Thorne.

Talking to Folks

I don't mind talking to outcasts, but in real life I can hold my demeanor.

Agitated

Who made my life agitated just to say, "I did it?"

Chickens

People who follow bad people to be popular and make it a point of showing off in their life.  I didn't name any of them.

I see

I can see them saying "oh no" about people my age having opportunities presented to them.