Wednesday, July 8, 2015
Ha Ha
You know what's funny that I think? I'm actually really disgusted. I'm so mad I could blow down a house, but we'll skip that, ha ha.
Ha ha.
I'm sure you wanna be, too.
Ha ha.
I'm sure you wanna be, too.
So..
..What's going on? What are you contributions on ideas on how to stimulate someone, unless all you can think of is the inappropriate things?
Once and for All
Why should I trust you if you say opposing things about whether or not I can trust you and you care about me and don't lead me down the wrong path cuz I'm a good person?
Right and Wrong
So, do you find inappropriate to stimulate someone into submission from someone? Isn't that just the thing we all fear? I don't know if people are really doing this to make me feel bad.
"Unprofessional"
People are being real "unprofessional" these days. They could have made things work a long time ago.. but they didn't. Things like how to care for hair, even, were cheated out on us in this our life. In the most vulnerable time, as an infant, we judge a baby on what they think their hair color has to be. Then, you find it was not their favorite. Sneaky, huh? Anything's possible?
How to Be Popular and Live a Meaningful Life
Showing up won't get you what you want.. but it'll get you something short-lived. It is even possible you never get anything, at all.
The old idea of being extra generous is that you express concern for underdogs.
Sometimes, popularity can be questionable, "no doubt about it."
I don't really have the answers. I'm struggling with remorse about how old I am. I do wanna be a film actress, but I haven't gotten in. I was thinking of going back to college and getting a Bachelor's degree at my original college, from which I am on medical leave. I'm only worried about a few personal things, leaving my parents cuz we moved away from there and the difficulty of living in a dorm being lazy on meds, tho it was do-able when I was younger.
What'll happen is I might take 3 general studies college courses each in 2 separate semesters at a community college, which my psychiatrist said to do here. I'll have 4 left at my original college to take, which aren't even offered at the community college. I'll have my major and built in minor of choice, which will be Classical Singing and Ballet.
No one has the answers. Therefore, my idea is a better one than doing nothing, sad to leave my parents, tho. I feel like a giant parasite to them with no change of end in site. The sad fact is I'm getting older and it's hard to manage my energy level, especially in the onset of a psychotic diagnosis.
The old idea of being extra generous is that you express concern for underdogs.
Sometimes, popularity can be questionable, "no doubt about it."
I don't really have the answers. I'm struggling with remorse about how old I am. I do wanna be a film actress, but I haven't gotten in. I was thinking of going back to college and getting a Bachelor's degree at my original college, from which I am on medical leave. I'm only worried about a few personal things, leaving my parents cuz we moved away from there and the difficulty of living in a dorm being lazy on meds, tho it was do-able when I was younger.
What'll happen is I might take 3 general studies college courses each in 2 separate semesters at a community college, which my psychiatrist said to do here. I'll have 4 left at my original college to take, which aren't even offered at the community college. I'll have my major and built in minor of choice, which will be Classical Singing and Ballet.
No one has the answers. Therefore, my idea is a better one than doing nothing, sad to leave my parents, tho. I feel like a giant parasite to them with no change of end in site. The sad fact is I'm getting older and it's hard to manage my energy level, especially in the onset of a psychotic diagnosis.
Even Less Attention as an Adult
People can't judge me because they never acted like they even noticed me.
Public Support
People say they do social services to others, but what really happens is the public has to support them.
Standing Out and Being Extroverted
Most people who are Extroverted Perfectionists, who seem to make people *feel good*, seem to get treated with an overwhelming amount of attention, like if famous especially, but I don't feel that because of my race. I feel people mistreating me "just in case" someone else did it 1st, which could hurt more.
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005)
People really turned on me when that came out. I could see it in the public. I was becoming less accepted and perhaps for no real reason. Even in Louisiana, they changed. I'm in Orlando, and even my family is crazy and I live with them by some necessity. I could see a bitterness and signals of complaints, and these people supposedly didn't have to deal with anything like I did, tho I was nice.
Stereotypes
It seems that people want to be helpful for the power and support they feel.
I want to resist the people I confront/meet who boss me around. I live not to be bossed around! not to be silenced! not to be framed and manipulated like that's just life!
I didn't say I was a god. Then, who the *beep* am I looking up to?
Tuesday, July 7, 2015
What Makes Multiracials Stand Out
Tho they are 1 nonwhite ethnicity, they still may make a point like a white person because if they are part white and therefore should be accepted. If they are not part white, they are 2 ethnicities that are like white in opposing ways.
Important Apology
I am very sorry I let my mind slip, as I do when I am with my dad and mom sometimes.
Asian Racial Subcategories
The Chinese may be very different from most indians today, but they may be more like the darker of the Asian race. They all have 1 thing in common. I'd say Middle Easterners, partly for this reason, are Asian if you only count 3 races (white, black, and Asian.) Calling an indian Asian is like saying Korean is different from the Chinese but still Asian.
How to Treat Multiracials
Originally and at the core, there is a certain way to treat multiracial and most commonly Eurasian kids, which in my mind includes those with indian. Some of the indians are Russian, some are Chinese, some are islander, and many are mixed.
People think the status quo is to act full out as tho you are some sort of racist bully on some level of thinking but denying this fact to others. It is similar to people being suggestive of if your parents are born in either 1950 or around 1960.
The way you are supposed to treat mixed race people is with more respect and humility than charging like a raging bull whenever you're around them. This is actually the real status quo.
Another helpful fact is we remain in limbo is a fact on whether or not foreign races to us are better or more "primitive" in certain ways. Therefore, you cannot assume the worst in a race from a mixed race individual.
People think the status quo is to act full out as tho you are some sort of racist bully on some level of thinking but denying this fact to others. It is similar to people being suggestive of if your parents are born in either 1950 or around 1960.
The way you are supposed to treat mixed race people is with more respect and humility than charging like a raging bull whenever you're around them. This is actually the real status quo.
Another helpful fact is we remain in limbo is a fact on whether or not foreign races to us are better or more "primitive" in certain ways. Therefore, you cannot assume the worst in a race from a mixed race individual.
Website Update
Emotional IQ
---Emotionally Literate - Most
---Positive Self Image - Most
---Extrovert/Introvert - Middle
---Independent - Middle
---Child/Adult in Charge - Middle
---Follower/Leader - Middle
---Making the Most at Work - Most
---Relationship Flooding - Best
---Emotionally Literate - Most
---Positive Self Image - Most
---Extrovert/Introvert - Middle
---Independent - Middle
---Child/Adult in Charge - Middle
---Follower/Leader - Middle
---Making the Most at Work - Most
---Relationship Flooding - Best
Monday, July 6, 2015
A Life Formula
You must meet your own needs if you expect to meet others's needs.
If you did not meet your own needs, you would be incompetent.
If you did not meet your own needs, you would be incompetent.
Sunday, July 5, 2015
Getting Worse Naturally or Otherwise?
Are things getting better for you?
Cuz they're not supposed to be for me, according to you.
Cuz they're not supposed to be for me, according to you.
Why..
Why do I keep getting attacked that I'm in trouble? So what if I cursed about Ellen acting that she put annoying noises in my room via people experimenting on me? I stopped, but if someone is hurt they may curse. She wouldn't dare let the bad stuff that happens to me happen to her.
"Putting on a Show"
I am not someone to be gone over. You can do what you want, but that doesn't make it good/cool.
Attention
I didn't used to get all the attention, and I don't get all the attention now.
I don't know if it was ever recognized attention.
I don't know if it was ever recognized attention.
How's this sound, "ma??"
I'm just having to wait here to get attention and what I do is all accepted.
Nature
People naturally feel immediate feelings of despite towards me. I just have to know it like they're animals.
Making Fun of People Who Know Music
Singers think they think of feelings, but musicians sometimes can make it obvious they are reading thru the beat even at the performance.
Saturday, July 4, 2015
My Confession - Today
I watched Inside Out, and the people behind me their kids made annoying sucking noises and stuff. I wanted to tell security and did after it was over. I kept looking behind me and almost got up. I've contacted staff and police like 10 times for things like this. I ran into them in the bathroom and lifted my head in defiance. The adults seemed to know what was wrong. I could not enjoy the movie, tho, when they started.
Babies
They are always mean to kids born after the Millenials.
The funny thing about that is I was happy with who I was, and then the Millenials were born and I wasn't important.
The clock goes both ways.
The funny thing about that is I was happy with who I was, and then the Millenials were born and I wasn't important.
The clock goes both ways.
Apology
I just wanted to send out a sorry for losing my thoughts, as I do. I guess it was just a misuse of a word, but it ended up applying to a lotta people. I guess it's over for me.
Flash Mob
I see when people are without me they get cozy and do things like the Les Miserables flash mob.
I can see thru you guise..
I find it manipulating that since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) pretty much it seems everyone has been acting like they are really being goody goods when they're the opposite and that they need to blame someone as bad and that someone is me, who was always considered fine reportedly and much better than simply "fine." What say you all?
Things that happened to me were I thought my life turned into an experiment and the world was making me feel like I could not concentrate. I gave away others's personal material online, used store cards, withdrew and failed in college a lot, you get the picture. Another big one was spamming when I was lonely and no one said anything much to me via online. I didn't think to get a blog. No one made me think of it. This stuff in particular was after Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005.) Even people in Louisiana changed into demons then. With me, they were all catty and knew in the end I won for how I did things.
Does it mean anything to anyone who constantly beats on me that these "mistakes" that many make was after Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005?) Why did people act like nothing should matter? How is that a step in the right direction?
Things that happened to me were I thought my life turned into an experiment and the world was making me feel like I could not concentrate. I gave away others's personal material online, used store cards, withdrew and failed in college a lot, you get the picture. Another big one was spamming when I was lonely and no one said anything much to me via online. I didn't think to get a blog. No one made me think of it. This stuff in particular was after Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005.) Even people in Louisiana changed into demons then. With me, they were all catty and knew in the end I won for how I did things.
Does it mean anything to anyone who constantly beats on me that these "mistakes" that many make was after Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005?) Why did people act like nothing should matter? How is that a step in the right direction?
Friday, July 3, 2015
White Asians
"I am a first generation Asian American who was born in Korea, but immigrated to the US when I was three. My husband Mark is an American of 1/2 Russian, 1/4 Norwegian and 1/4 Italian descent. Our 2 children are biracial."
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Freakers
I don't freak. Like, I don't have oddball problems like oh I'm not the only one getting attention, and I got that from a different source.
Like I Said
What gives you license to be unrewarding to me and waiting 10 years so I don't make it young?
Disclaimer
I didn't explain that Ellen makes up stuff. She does in secret message, like the way she seems to think people with ancestry from the Northeast are tossable. Yea, was someone in trouble? Dr. Phil is not as bad in this way as he always has to come up with a point tho it isn't, like, the answer. He's trying to get down like someone young enough to be his kid, for some reason, tho Ellen does that, too but in different, obvious ways.
She just lost.
Ellen thinks it's all about her, but she wasn't enough and her insistence to rub other kinds of people who fill in that gap has made her into the loser that which she speaks of. Ahahaha haha! No offense to Ellen but I'm really hurt too. She makes up stuff! We can talk to others. Where did "no"come from? We have to talk this out, people.
"her insistence to rub other kinds of people"
In ways we don't like! Most people are like this!
She did it? She did it in secret! Sorry, if she didn't and it's my mistake. Of course, it's with the crutch of me being experimented on..
"her insistence to rub other kinds of people"
In ways we don't like! Most people are like this!
She did it? She did it in secret! Sorry, if she didn't and it's my mistake. Of course, it's with the crutch of me being experimented on..
"The Thing to Do"
What do you think when people do things on a whim tackily and irresponsibly and rehash it out to just you like it's the thing to do?
Retarded Reasons!
You think I need to take things in stride, even in Europe, but that seems to be for retarded reasons.
Thursday, July 2, 2015
I can't seem to stabilize my mood.
We don't eat supper like before and there are never any mashed/potatos.
I feel so bad for making a loud noise in the microwave in the kitchen with my parents and feel so bad. I was upset. My mind felt small and preoccupied, like I was wallowing in filth.
I also became upset in an experiment I could lose my parents. I can't believe it's right that I have to worry about it, with the experiment. I just can't figure out what I'm supposed to do without feeling like a goody good.
I also feel hypersensitive and cannot calm down. It will take time. I have no one to raise me and keep me in line. My mom ignores me, and my dad ignores me, and the people on IMDb ignore my needs.
Well, I just had 2 pizza bagels and we were eating brownies earlier. I ate out.
My parents keep annoying me, well my dad just seemed to bring a problem up from the day like I can't forget about it. I think my dad is/being a bit ditzy. I hope that he gets better. I hope my mom is doing well, too.
I care about others, who are more like me, as well.
I'm not sure, I guess something came up I didn't like and kept being irritated and didn't learn anything.
I didn't mean to be hurtful. I need more time alone. Maybe, I could sleep soon.
I feel so bad for making a loud noise in the microwave in the kitchen with my parents and feel so bad. I was upset. My mind felt small and preoccupied, like I was wallowing in filth.
I also became upset in an experiment I could lose my parents. I can't believe it's right that I have to worry about it, with the experiment. I just can't figure out what I'm supposed to do without feeling like a goody good.
I also feel hypersensitive and cannot calm down. It will take time. I have no one to raise me and keep me in line. My mom ignores me, and my dad ignores me, and the people on IMDb ignore my needs.
Well, I just had 2 pizza bagels and we were eating brownies earlier. I ate out.
My parents keep annoying me, well my dad just seemed to bring a problem up from the day like I can't forget about it. I think my dad is/being a bit ditzy. I hope that he gets better. I hope my mom is doing well, too.
I care about others, who are more like me, as well.
I'm not sure, I guess something came up I didn't like and kept being irritated and didn't learn anything.
I didn't mean to be hurtful. I need more time alone. Maybe, I could sleep soon.
Next Thought
Why me being good do people think they have to be mean to me lying that it's "just in case" and saying only I am in trouble FOR STUPID LITTLE THINGS and you take someone else and surround them with sin or good feelings and me I get that. I'm one of those people, whatever my ethnicities and race, who made it and smile at life. People who make it who are also approved of racially get treated like they're the top of the bar!!
Always About Punishing Normal People
Why above all things do Baby Boomers and Earlier Generation X focus on people being "punished," like the younger generations? Why is it like the sole fascination? Do you, like, think we, like, did something?? You all have nothing for us, your precious kids. My life could be over today, for example I mean, and it would have been worthless, in a way.
Cradle to College
So, I don't deserve any attention?
Babies don't completely chose how they look. I am sorry to say some can be termed for usage of conversation as blubbery or premature.
You think babies who are born around Late Generation X and Early Generation Y are submissive to adults when they end up "blubbery" or "premature."
I was not like that as a baby and it probably was partly a decision. You think that me looking cute is saying I think I am something. You think my generation is a place holder or a generation in between real generations. I didn't say to chuck the other generations you prize but not to chuck ours.
You accepted Bella Thorne. I will disclaim that she was a cute baby compared to me. You accepted her as a cute baby because she was born when you want cute babies born, when Early Boomers are out of style and Late Boomers are just becoming mature adults.
You think my generation is being sneaky if they wanna be cute. Funny, you think Late Boomers and Early Generation X are mature when my generation are born, yet you despise and loathe me for what I am in regards to this.
You're all waiting for Hollywood for the results to see if kids born of the parents of Late Boom or Early Generation X make it the best. I think the previous generation is intelligent, of Late Boom. I think the later "made it."
So, no, I was not "blubbery" much at all and was not exactly "premature." I was not accepted because I was not submissive in being "blubbery" nor "premature." I was ugly in other ways, tho. Some babies just don't stay infants long. They develop a personality "in the cradle?" They think they are the ones that are on top. You kinda wanted me submissive by being "blubbery" or "premature." Yet, you don't want that of babies born in Generation Z. Why do you except them and not me? My parents probably made me uglier than I would have been. I didn't wanna be like that, but babies will be babies.
Not only are Late Boomers mature when Generation Z are born, but Early Generation X are up and coming in the world! Wow!
I do specifically wonder about people saying I should not be popular and Bella Thorne should. The fact is the fact. She is more popular and cool. Tho, look at this. There is a star who deserves attention, not that no one else does. Do you say, "Naw," and rub it in for someone else? Yes, you do. Do you share and take turns? No, you don't. Sometimes, it's only the people in the room that are involved.
What did I do? I thought my life was an experiment, and my schoolwork was too hard and none of my teachers, my parents, or anyone said to withdraw. You have your opinions of me, but at least I can ability the truth. I just wanted another shot. Why did this have to happen? I mean, my life being an experiment, I wasn't happy never meeting anyone nor feeling comfortable alone to think and stuff.
So, other people beat over me because of this? My having a difficult time switching from high school to college academically? Why can't everyone just make it in life and talk to people and learn to be happy, to change? I've cared about this already.
I know I became dysfunctional and depressed when I was kicked out of my major and singing in college. Isn't that "an excuse" or the reason? Where did my future just bank? Why didn't they just tell me to rest over the summer and take less classes but keep singing?
Babies don't completely chose how they look. I am sorry to say some can be termed for usage of conversation as blubbery or premature.
You think babies who are born around Late Generation X and Early Generation Y are submissive to adults when they end up "blubbery" or "premature."
I was not like that as a baby and it probably was partly a decision. You think that me looking cute is saying I think I am something. You think my generation is a place holder or a generation in between real generations. I didn't say to chuck the other generations you prize but not to chuck ours.
You accepted Bella Thorne. I will disclaim that she was a cute baby compared to me. You accepted her as a cute baby because she was born when you want cute babies born, when Early Boomers are out of style and Late Boomers are just becoming mature adults.
You think my generation is being sneaky if they wanna be cute. Funny, you think Late Boomers and Early Generation X are mature when my generation are born, yet you despise and loathe me for what I am in regards to this.
You're all waiting for Hollywood for the results to see if kids born of the parents of Late Boom or Early Generation X make it the best. I think the previous generation is intelligent, of Late Boom. I think the later "made it."
So, no, I was not "blubbery" much at all and was not exactly "premature." I was not accepted because I was not submissive in being "blubbery" nor "premature." I was ugly in other ways, tho. Some babies just don't stay infants long. They develop a personality "in the cradle?" They think they are the ones that are on top. You kinda wanted me submissive by being "blubbery" or "premature." Yet, you don't want that of babies born in Generation Z. Why do you except them and not me? My parents probably made me uglier than I would have been. I didn't wanna be like that, but babies will be babies.
Not only are Late Boomers mature when Generation Z are born, but Early Generation X are up and coming in the world! Wow!
I do specifically wonder about people saying I should not be popular and Bella Thorne should. The fact is the fact. She is more popular and cool. Tho, look at this. There is a star who deserves attention, not that no one else does. Do you say, "Naw," and rub it in for someone else? Yes, you do. Do you share and take turns? No, you don't. Sometimes, it's only the people in the room that are involved.
What did I do? I thought my life was an experiment, and my schoolwork was too hard and none of my teachers, my parents, or anyone said to withdraw. You have your opinions of me, but at least I can ability the truth. I just wanted another shot. Why did this have to happen? I mean, my life being an experiment, I wasn't happy never meeting anyone nor feeling comfortable alone to think and stuff.
So, other people beat over me because of this? My having a difficult time switching from high school to college academically? Why can't everyone just make it in life and talk to people and learn to be happy, to change? I've cared about this already.
I know I became dysfunctional and depressed when I was kicked out of my major and singing in college. Isn't that "an excuse" or the reason? Where did my future just bank? Why didn't they just tell me to rest over the summer and take less classes but keep singing?
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