Sunday, July 5, 2015
Attention
I didn't used to get all the attention, and I don't get all the attention now.
I don't know if it was ever recognized attention.
I don't know if it was ever recognized attention.
How's this sound, "ma??"
I'm just having to wait here to get attention and what I do is all accepted.
Nature
People naturally feel immediate feelings of despite towards me. I just have to know it like they're animals.
Making Fun of People Who Know Music
Singers think they think of feelings, but musicians sometimes can make it obvious they are reading thru the beat even at the performance.
Saturday, July 4, 2015
My Confession - Today
I watched Inside Out, and the people behind me their kids made annoying sucking noises and stuff. I wanted to tell security and did after it was over. I kept looking behind me and almost got up. I've contacted staff and police like 10 times for things like this. I ran into them in the bathroom and lifted my head in defiance. The adults seemed to know what was wrong. I could not enjoy the movie, tho, when they started.
Babies
They are always mean to kids born after the Millenials.
The funny thing about that is I was happy with who I was, and then the Millenials were born and I wasn't important.
The clock goes both ways.
The funny thing about that is I was happy with who I was, and then the Millenials were born and I wasn't important.
The clock goes both ways.
Apology
I just wanted to send out a sorry for losing my thoughts, as I do. I guess it was just a misuse of a word, but it ended up applying to a lotta people. I guess it's over for me.
Flash Mob
I see when people are without me they get cozy and do things like the Les Miserables flash mob.
I can see thru you guise..
I find it manipulating that since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) pretty much it seems everyone has been acting like they are really being goody goods when they're the opposite and that they need to blame someone as bad and that someone is me, who was always considered fine reportedly and much better than simply "fine." What say you all?
Things that happened to me were I thought my life turned into an experiment and the world was making me feel like I could not concentrate. I gave away others's personal material online, used store cards, withdrew and failed in college a lot, you get the picture. Another big one was spamming when I was lonely and no one said anything much to me via online. I didn't think to get a blog. No one made me think of it. This stuff in particular was after Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005.) Even people in Louisiana changed into demons then. With me, they were all catty and knew in the end I won for how I did things.
Does it mean anything to anyone who constantly beats on me that these "mistakes" that many make was after Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005?) Why did people act like nothing should matter? How is that a step in the right direction?
Things that happened to me were I thought my life turned into an experiment and the world was making me feel like I could not concentrate. I gave away others's personal material online, used store cards, withdrew and failed in college a lot, you get the picture. Another big one was spamming when I was lonely and no one said anything much to me via online. I didn't think to get a blog. No one made me think of it. This stuff in particular was after Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005.) Even people in Louisiana changed into demons then. With me, they were all catty and knew in the end I won for how I did things.
Does it mean anything to anyone who constantly beats on me that these "mistakes" that many make was after Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005?) Why did people act like nothing should matter? How is that a step in the right direction?
Friday, July 3, 2015
White Asians
"I am a first generation Asian American who was born in Korea, but immigrated to the US when I was three. My husband Mark is an American of 1/2 Russian, 1/4 Norwegian and 1/4 Italian descent. Our 2 children are biracial."
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Freakers
I don't freak. Like, I don't have oddball problems like oh I'm not the only one getting attention, and I got that from a different source.
Like I Said
What gives you license to be unrewarding to me and waiting 10 years so I don't make it young?
Disclaimer
I didn't explain that Ellen makes up stuff. She does in secret message, like the way she seems to think people with ancestry from the Northeast are tossable. Yea, was someone in trouble? Dr. Phil is not as bad in this way as he always has to come up with a point tho it isn't, like, the answer. He's trying to get down like someone young enough to be his kid, for some reason, tho Ellen does that, too but in different, obvious ways.
She just lost.
Ellen thinks it's all about her, but she wasn't enough and her insistence to rub other kinds of people who fill in that gap has made her into the loser that which she speaks of. Ahahaha haha! No offense to Ellen but I'm really hurt too. She makes up stuff! We can talk to others. Where did "no"come from? We have to talk this out, people.
"her insistence to rub other kinds of people"
In ways we don't like! Most people are like this!
She did it? She did it in secret! Sorry, if she didn't and it's my mistake. Of course, it's with the crutch of me being experimented on..
"her insistence to rub other kinds of people"
In ways we don't like! Most people are like this!
She did it? She did it in secret! Sorry, if she didn't and it's my mistake. Of course, it's with the crutch of me being experimented on..
"The Thing to Do"
What do you think when people do things on a whim tackily and irresponsibly and rehash it out to just you like it's the thing to do?
Retarded Reasons!
You think I need to take things in stride, even in Europe, but that seems to be for retarded reasons.
Thursday, July 2, 2015
I can't seem to stabilize my mood.
We don't eat supper like before and there are never any mashed/potatos.
I feel so bad for making a loud noise in the microwave in the kitchen with my parents and feel so bad. I was upset. My mind felt small and preoccupied, like I was wallowing in filth.
I also became upset in an experiment I could lose my parents. I can't believe it's right that I have to worry about it, with the experiment. I just can't figure out what I'm supposed to do without feeling like a goody good.
I also feel hypersensitive and cannot calm down. It will take time. I have no one to raise me and keep me in line. My mom ignores me, and my dad ignores me, and the people on IMDb ignore my needs.
Well, I just had 2 pizza bagels and we were eating brownies earlier. I ate out.
My parents keep annoying me, well my dad just seemed to bring a problem up from the day like I can't forget about it. I think my dad is/being a bit ditzy. I hope that he gets better. I hope my mom is doing well, too.
I care about others, who are more like me, as well.
I'm not sure, I guess something came up I didn't like and kept being irritated and didn't learn anything.
I didn't mean to be hurtful. I need more time alone. Maybe, I could sleep soon.
I feel so bad for making a loud noise in the microwave in the kitchen with my parents and feel so bad. I was upset. My mind felt small and preoccupied, like I was wallowing in filth.
I also became upset in an experiment I could lose my parents. I can't believe it's right that I have to worry about it, with the experiment. I just can't figure out what I'm supposed to do without feeling like a goody good.
I also feel hypersensitive and cannot calm down. It will take time. I have no one to raise me and keep me in line. My mom ignores me, and my dad ignores me, and the people on IMDb ignore my needs.
Well, I just had 2 pizza bagels and we were eating brownies earlier. I ate out.
My parents keep annoying me, well my dad just seemed to bring a problem up from the day like I can't forget about it. I think my dad is/being a bit ditzy. I hope that he gets better. I hope my mom is doing well, too.
I care about others, who are more like me, as well.
I'm not sure, I guess something came up I didn't like and kept being irritated and didn't learn anything.
I didn't mean to be hurtful. I need more time alone. Maybe, I could sleep soon.
Next Thought
Why me being good do people think they have to be mean to me lying that it's "just in case" and saying only I am in trouble FOR STUPID LITTLE THINGS and you take someone else and surround them with sin or good feelings and me I get that. I'm one of those people, whatever my ethnicities and race, who made it and smile at life. People who make it who are also approved of racially get treated like they're the top of the bar!!
Always About Punishing Normal People
Why above all things do Baby Boomers and Earlier Generation X focus on people being "punished," like the younger generations? Why is it like the sole fascination? Do you, like, think we, like, did something?? You all have nothing for us, your precious kids. My life could be over today, for example I mean, and it would have been worthless, in a way.
Cradle to College
So, I don't deserve any attention?
Babies don't completely chose how they look. I am sorry to say some can be termed for usage of conversation as blubbery or premature.
You think babies who are born around Late Generation X and Early Generation Y are submissive to adults when they end up "blubbery" or "premature."
I was not like that as a baby and it probably was partly a decision. You think that me looking cute is saying I think I am something. You think my generation is a place holder or a generation in between real generations. I didn't say to chuck the other generations you prize but not to chuck ours.
You accepted Bella Thorne. I will disclaim that she was a cute baby compared to me. You accepted her as a cute baby because she was born when you want cute babies born, when Early Boomers are out of style and Late Boomers are just becoming mature adults.
You think my generation is being sneaky if they wanna be cute. Funny, you think Late Boomers and Early Generation X are mature when my generation are born, yet you despise and loathe me for what I am in regards to this.
You're all waiting for Hollywood for the results to see if kids born of the parents of Late Boom or Early Generation X make it the best. I think the previous generation is intelligent, of Late Boom. I think the later "made it."
So, no, I was not "blubbery" much at all and was not exactly "premature." I was not accepted because I was not submissive in being "blubbery" nor "premature." I was ugly in other ways, tho. Some babies just don't stay infants long. They develop a personality "in the cradle?" They think they are the ones that are on top. You kinda wanted me submissive by being "blubbery" or "premature." Yet, you don't want that of babies born in Generation Z. Why do you except them and not me? My parents probably made me uglier than I would have been. I didn't wanna be like that, but babies will be babies.
Not only are Late Boomers mature when Generation Z are born, but Early Generation X are up and coming in the world! Wow!
I do specifically wonder about people saying I should not be popular and Bella Thorne should. The fact is the fact. She is more popular and cool. Tho, look at this. There is a star who deserves attention, not that no one else does. Do you say, "Naw," and rub it in for someone else? Yes, you do. Do you share and take turns? No, you don't. Sometimes, it's only the people in the room that are involved.
What did I do? I thought my life was an experiment, and my schoolwork was too hard and none of my teachers, my parents, or anyone said to withdraw. You have your opinions of me, but at least I can ability the truth. I just wanted another shot. Why did this have to happen? I mean, my life being an experiment, I wasn't happy never meeting anyone nor feeling comfortable alone to think and stuff.
So, other people beat over me because of this? My having a difficult time switching from high school to college academically? Why can't everyone just make it in life and talk to people and learn to be happy, to change? I've cared about this already.
I know I became dysfunctional and depressed when I was kicked out of my major and singing in college. Isn't that "an excuse" or the reason? Where did my future just bank? Why didn't they just tell me to rest over the summer and take less classes but keep singing?
Babies don't completely chose how they look. I am sorry to say some can be termed for usage of conversation as blubbery or premature.
You think babies who are born around Late Generation X and Early Generation Y are submissive to adults when they end up "blubbery" or "premature."
I was not like that as a baby and it probably was partly a decision. You think that me looking cute is saying I think I am something. You think my generation is a place holder or a generation in between real generations. I didn't say to chuck the other generations you prize but not to chuck ours.
You accepted Bella Thorne. I will disclaim that she was a cute baby compared to me. You accepted her as a cute baby because she was born when you want cute babies born, when Early Boomers are out of style and Late Boomers are just becoming mature adults.
You think my generation is being sneaky if they wanna be cute. Funny, you think Late Boomers and Early Generation X are mature when my generation are born, yet you despise and loathe me for what I am in regards to this.
You're all waiting for Hollywood for the results to see if kids born of the parents of Late Boom or Early Generation X make it the best. I think the previous generation is intelligent, of Late Boom. I think the later "made it."
So, no, I was not "blubbery" much at all and was not exactly "premature." I was not accepted because I was not submissive in being "blubbery" nor "premature." I was ugly in other ways, tho. Some babies just don't stay infants long. They develop a personality "in the cradle?" They think they are the ones that are on top. You kinda wanted me submissive by being "blubbery" or "premature." Yet, you don't want that of babies born in Generation Z. Why do you except them and not me? My parents probably made me uglier than I would have been. I didn't wanna be like that, but babies will be babies.
Not only are Late Boomers mature when Generation Z are born, but Early Generation X are up and coming in the world! Wow!
I do specifically wonder about people saying I should not be popular and Bella Thorne should. The fact is the fact. She is more popular and cool. Tho, look at this. There is a star who deserves attention, not that no one else does. Do you say, "Naw," and rub it in for someone else? Yes, you do. Do you share and take turns? No, you don't. Sometimes, it's only the people in the room that are involved.
What did I do? I thought my life was an experiment, and my schoolwork was too hard and none of my teachers, my parents, or anyone said to withdraw. You have your opinions of me, but at least I can ability the truth. I just wanted another shot. Why did this have to happen? I mean, my life being an experiment, I wasn't happy never meeting anyone nor feeling comfortable alone to think and stuff.
So, other people beat over me because of this? My having a difficult time switching from high school to college academically? Why can't everyone just make it in life and talk to people and learn to be happy, to change? I've cared about this already.
I know I became dysfunctional and depressed when I was kicked out of my major and singing in college. Isn't that "an excuse" or the reason? Where did my future just bank? Why didn't they just tell me to rest over the summer and take less classes but keep singing?
Wednesday, July 1, 2015
I'm a "worry wart."
I wonder about people dying, selflessly. I worry about natural death.
Can you live saying you have loved?
Or can you not hold in your judgments of too broad a range of people's guilt? Meaning, oh, the saints aren't that good?
Can you live saying you have loved?
Or can you not hold in your judgments of too broad a range of people's guilt? Meaning, oh, the saints aren't that good?
Online Karaoke - What's really wrong..
The only thing wrong with online karaoke is they are wrong to not say if it's either legal or illegal. Therefore, it must be a legal. No new note on the net.
Life and Video Games
My life is like a video game. I already died. High score? Defeated. It's been a long time. An enlightening fact!
Help a person out.
Do you want them to make it or just alotting "taking sides" in turn while keeping all at bay?
Tuesday, June 30, 2015
I'm not one..
I'm not one to be put below another in discipline. That never happens until I followed Ellen online and picked up a stray.
Figure It Out
This is getting attention cuz it's against me. Ellen thinks that's how it's important and complicated. Bella works with Ellen.
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Monday, June 29, 2015
Being Content
When it comes time for me to also do the real thing, someone else gets to do it, tho. People who are TEN years younger.
Why..
..or what are we trying to accomplish with spoiling someone but no one else? We all matter as much in ways. We all want love and a happy family. No one is known to be better than anyone else. Are you looking at me like I'm wrong?? Like it's to punish me? I didn't do anything to deserve to be tracked like that. Let's just say it is what it is. What's all this misjudging me? I know people get jealous of me. Do I look like a potential "friend?" Who does, I'd like to know.
Movies and Messes
You make movies for me because I am thankful for what I have, but Generation X isn't. That's not a trade-off. You have to be nice to me, but I guess you can't.
It shouldn't matter what I do if it's not really bad. I get hurt those times. I don't want to turn into something worse.. I understand what was done maybe by some, but you could just ruin the whole thing.
What's the goal? It seems like I had a lotta mental issues in feeling good, like what I should do. Clothes, what I do online, etc., how I get to my old self like everyone should.
It shouldn't matter what I do if it's not really bad. I get hurt those times. I don't want to turn into something worse.. I understand what was done maybe by some, but you could just ruin the whole thing.
What's the goal? It seems like I had a lotta mental issues in feeling good, like what I should do. Clothes, what I do online, etc., how I get to my old self like everyone should.
Hello?
There are famous people fighting me with secret messages on my Twitter. They refused to respect me. Also, I bet they think Johnny Depp said to do this, which he probably did? How do you know I'm talking to you? Can't I talk, too? You've sure had ya'll's fill insulting me and downsizing me. Ellen did it, huh? She's not taking it back. I was the one who was concerned about this with Ellen.
Why is this so hard?
I'm being affected in private. No one else sits there and sifts their skin like paper made out of grains of sand.
What I Have
I have that people can talk to me but that the world I think should talk to a lotta people.
You have them talk to Bella Thorne as a decisive thing.
You have them talk to Bella Thorne as a decisive thing.
There
If Ellen can hide behind the screen and make startling statements, so can I. Ha! I'm not in a nursing home, ya know.
Guilty Pleasures
Telling a nice person off cuz they're not randomly a problem, to give you that easy feeling. Kids - Adults.
Message on TV
I realized from someone that people all wanna be famous actors, and some people are, but we were promised to succeed in life, not, like, JUST Ellen DeGeneres.
Don't think..
Don't think you should look tacky cuz Ellen wants you to. You need to be free, let it out, go on vacation.
I feel like I lost my parents.
I came home from college, but Orlando is fight fight fight fight. New Orleans is pretty dodgy and sneaky about opportunities. I'm not saying anything wrong. There are pro's and con's to each place.
She's presentable.
If Ellen saw me in private is like a dead frog, me.
Come on, Bella looks "good" in private. Give it to the right person. Except, some people don't seem to wanna do that and I don't wanna show myself off like that to them.
I feel turned off in my nakedness, like it's not alluring. I used to be more sensitive, but my body was bloated that I remember, anyway.
Come on, Bella looks "good" in private. Give it to the right person. Except, some people don't seem to wanna do that and I don't wanna show myself off like that to them.
I feel turned off in my nakedness, like it's not alluring. I used to be more sensitive, but my body was bloated that I remember, anyway.
It could be fun..
..another joke.. What do you have to say? You could pretend to be someone she likes. She didn't look happy with her tutor. I bet she wants Ellen to watch her in private or would mention it.
Movie
Movie was made. Bella felt guilty cuza others. It should be a good experience. What about more to come? Then, it won't be the same. I mean more people doing this. I wonder if you keep tabs on her like me, too. Probably wouldn't like what you'd have to say.. "The photoshoot.." "Shut up!" No offense, just a joke.
YAAAY!
A gymnast on TV in college gymnastics got all 10s on bar, the 1st time to happen. I think she's from Florida, reddish hair.
The world..
The world thinks Bella Thorne is better than everyone else. She's great, but I don't like to see those kids hurt. It's probably done to make me feel overcome. Racist.
How Worthless
You people from other countries are nothing to believe in.
I saw someone/people act like they have to follow a prejudice like against me.
Well, wake up the US, see if they're any nicer any of them.
I saw someone/people act like they have to follow a prejudice like against me.
Well, wake up the US, see if they're any nicer any of them.
"Quick! Get in the room and close the door!"
Someone is blaming someone they never met for their eyes not being blue! Yes, I said she had lovely eyes. She didn't look happy in that photo. *If I said that, I'd be knocked out or something* That hits hard. It really does. What are brunettes bad? This person has reddish hair she dyes lighter red.
Are you gonna take the time of day to correct everyone who is bad to you or just sit this one out?
I think she's a lovely girl, but she works for Ellen being mean to me, who thinks she works for my dad doing that.
Ellen says not to complain that Bella gets attention, but.. she does that so I can get hurt by her and not report it and talk back. She can't be mean to me. No one should.
Are you gonna take the time of day to correct everyone who is bad to you or just sit this one out?
I think she's a lovely girl, but she works for Ellen being mean to me, who thinks she works for my dad doing that.
Ellen says not to complain that Bella gets attention, but.. she does that so I can get hurt by her and not report it and talk back. She can't be mean to me. No one should.
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