Tuesday, June 2, 2015

YOU DON'T REALIZE IT..

You are always mean to me now.  When you started talking to me in private I said no but you still did it but you were nice.  You can't do this!

Freedom of Speech

It seems that's all you have.

Pathetic

You're creating weird fantasies to weird extremes about weird things, as though you've got nothing anyway in any way..

Apparently, they were right, something about you is "flawed" or rather not perfect..

I'm not the one making up weird things about myself!  You can mention it, but I didn't think you'd want to.

I just meant day in and out things sure have come out differently than I would have expected things to before, like I'm trapped.

Insane

Why am I getting vicious messages about someone else getting all and me being threatened like I did something or would be foolish as a suggestion and no one else?

TV

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

The 2 girls playing the game where they go across the spinning circles to fetch to object to bring back was neat.  The yoga instructor had an easy time, but the blonde didn't.

Allison Janney was really cool.  She looks good and has a good personality, is very smart.

The girl who Ellen saw dancing who came back was really sweet, a nice African American girl.  She played a few games and won $10,000, which was really nice!

The racecar driver was very cute.  I liked his young daughters, as well.  It was interesting a driver he was associated with had kids at the same school together.

Ellen sure is a sign of hope in the light, a torch to modern ways, as well.

Positivity These Days

Kids at school these days are told to be positive, but if I am positive I am told I am making good out of bad in a bad way.  This could be because kids can still be good movie stars, in that it's not too late for them.  It could also be just trying to get at people like me and still making it.

Monday, June 1, 2015

We have to keep someone happy

so they won't get mad at me.

Twitter

What Now?

What right do you have to claim I'm in trouble all the time still?

I even want to ask if there ever was a real good reason.

You all don't have the right to trash my personal life.  No offense in using the word "trash."

Against Me

Why are people out there chosing to go against me?  It's "the talk of the day."  I feel ignored.

New Audios of Me Singing


Pathetic Laugh

I see parents going around acting like they're a redhead I found taking care of their child, another redhead I found, redheads at birth probably both?

They knew I liked that person.  People used to act like I was a baby at that age a little older, too.

Okay, Not Having a Good Day

I walk in to get interviewed and find the bathroom and then a black lady down the way asking someone who might be looking for me.

I come out, and people are judging me like they can tell I'm Southeast Asian and like it's s***.

I sit there thinking evil thoughts, and then my interviewer comes along acts mean at 1st and I don't really perk up to his racism against me, a colored maybe Hispanic or some odd minority group, whom I respect, though I am not accepted because I think too highly of myself - their bad.  I can't smile.  When it comes to saying what I think is good or something, I say it and try to smile for a chance like and say helping people, and the 2 people act like I did something.

This is the high ranked college with cute kids.  Guess I'm stuck at the remedial school, reform school.

Arghh

I've followed thru ya'll's ^rules^ recently, yet I am rejected and dealt with like a re****.

Unqualified/Mental and Social Invalids

You celebrities aren't qualified to think cuz yer from LA and NY.

Don't take this personally on an individual basis..

Pretend Jail

I can do other things.

Something Else Came Up

I don't know what's accepted, but it's not nice to be mean to someone, like no matter what..

I'm not saying who has to do what.  This idea just seems to come thru.  It might help the people settle to know.  Things like this may happen that you may not have caused and possibly practice disliking.

Fail

I can't be treated humanely cuz someone else is #1.  It looks like I got a taste of your own medicine.  I thought people had special bonds that superseded some, naturally.  I got backlash on that quite severely, just for my interest in the idea existing and concern for the other thinking there is a competition.  And, yes, the other side seemed very crazy about it.  I don't need to know who it was?  I guess I get to sit here and figure things because I can't seem to do anything for myself.  I need to be occupied by people who own conversation between others.  Is there any problem with that?  Oh I see, that's how you get to get around me.  That doesn't seem like an okay thing that anyone would agree with, tho, and I'm with anyone.

I know

you're just punishing me.  You think I'm unkempt with an unnecessary/unamusing attitude..

Nonsensical

None of what you do makes sense.

No..

I never asked you to stay by force and do that.

Hey

You don't have to hurt me!

Looks like you went to far on that one!

Undisturbed

Is being non-Caucasian an eliminating factor?  Why would I be upset about any one person not giving me attention?..  I see that I'm treated like a failure for reasons that don't matter.  There is an explanation seeable.

Upset!

I can't live my life because I'm disturbed about messages from others.  Someone else probably got so fueled by my failure to reincarnate that they rocked on, for once in this world these days at least.

You're the one who's unprepared to do anything.

So, what are you getting at, already??

Why are you talking to me like that?

You think you wasted your own life?

Quit

Quit wasting my life.  Something must be done to stifle the issue..

Who's fighting me?

"Who?"

So..

Why do you get mad at me for being proper and not like everyone else?

Bullseye

You complain about me talking to people who are cool and hurt me if I don't talk to people who annoy me on purpose.

"Something to Talk About"

That's not how.

If people think that, so be it.

Forget Me?

People want to treat me like I'm not as amazing as how they supposedly made me think.

Alone

You adults just wanna be immature kids and hurt me cuz yer jealous of my perfection.

You claim this is not true sometimes, but you still do it.

Sunday, May 31, 2015

New Audio of Me Singing

It's True

Someone else is more comf in social situations than I.

The Problem in a Group Scale

I noticed that someone in a group of people is considered most precious and that who is closest people deem is making problems, until they said it was just a trick like magic and I made them problematic and they're really good and for no reason that also must mean I'm really the worst one.

Being Short

It seems people who are taller will make fun of short people rather than think they are cute.  That seems to be the default.  The only way around is if you are proud of it.

Weird People

They act like I'm coy.

They also think I have something wrong with me cuz I cursed on my blog when I was trapped in my room with hurtful noises.  I could have called the police, but I didn't want them to go altogether.  I don't know why they're so upset to begin with so much.  I didn't realize there was a meme going on and I couldn't say what I wanted "cuz this is a free country."  I was being hurt, but I didn't really feel like hurting anyone, especially if they were innocent people..

It's true!

If you hear someone ask something and then hear someone answer, it can make you feel like you said it at the moment without being able to do anything about it.  I'm not sure if that can be "fixed."

I heard a question about Florida on TV as I went to press the button of a toy doll that says sassy insults..

Did you just feel a rush that it was funny to be bad?  It's not really that bad.

Saturday, May 30, 2015

Welcome!

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Thursday, April 2, 2015

In Bed for a Long Time

I was trying to get my brain to be functional.

Needs, Wants, and Desires

I want to do my ironing, but a part of me is turned on and I feel tired.  Who knows how I'll feel after lunch or maybe won't be a good time.  Then again, there isn't much to do other than iron my "nice" clothes..  Maybe, it'll make me even thinner.  :D

Hearing Things

Sometimes, I wake up to a scary distant knock before I am conscious.

Bed

I slept from about 10-12 and 12-10 and 10-12.

Awake

I had my fruit cup for breakfast, showered and got dressed and put on make-up, and did a 5+ minute upper and core workout.

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

Being Accepted "Unconditionally"

Some people are accepted while they go thru phases others have them go thru and approve of.

Others have to be more careful and have a different image to uphold.

~ This can happen because of difference of age. ~

Young people tend to be told to be more free, but why not work on something spectacular with guidelines that allow things to happen?  One example would include dedicating your life to trying to be a child actor.

When you're older, it seems like there are different things you should be able to do.  Others may stop you from finding ways to do this because they don't wanna deal with a new you.

In Proving a Point

When you come across adverse ideas, some people say that is the journey.

Some people even lie to get correct information.

Others spot you out for the negative ideas that come up and never accomplish, at least not using things in this way.  They must at least have it very hard.

Jog

I jogged and walked earlier today.  My legs are getting so big.

Supper

I just had chicken in sauce with yellow rice and tea and all my vitamins and pills.

Therapist

I saw my therapist today.

My Hair

It finally looks long enough for the 1st time.  I styled it like I have little bangs and swooped the rest of it with my comb.  Another Barber success!  ;)

Stuffed Silly

I feel fat and stuffed from my female thing and what I ate yesterday night.  I feel stress.  I am uncomfortable.  I didn't think a little dessert then would hurt.  And all the Chinese??  I guess that's called straying from your diet.  It's easy to get hungry when you're dieting.

K

I just m********** and I'm on my female thing.  I'm now sore in certain regions to do with it.  I think I just made it worse.  Something not in it in my mind.  Wheezing a bit.  Something turned me on, in for an interesting day either way.  :(

Awake

I woke up around 1: something.  I've taken a shower.  About to do about 5 minutes of chest and ab workouts.  I did some necessary shopping, but one site is down.

Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Good Night!

Hope I can fall asleep.

Sweet Tooth

I ate all the rest of the Chinese and had a Nutty bar or something and a packaged fudge brownie.

I'm looking forward to getting back on track with my diet.  I foresee fried fish in the future.

Supper

my salad with no dressing but oil and sweet iced tea

Exercise

I jogged twice for 1/2 hour today, 15 minutes on elliptical, and a long walk.

Back

I jogged for 30 minutes.  I had had Chinese my mom got earlier, but I couldn't eat much of it but the eggroll.  She brought me back a green smoothie.  It's my 1st and it's good!  It tastes pretty healthy to me.

Bye!

Out for a jog/walk.

Exercise

I took my jog the 1st time I woke up.

I just woke up.

about 15 minutes ago.  I slept for about 6 more hours.

I did wake up to go to the bathroom and later throw up the 1st time I slept, from about 10-4.  So, that's 6 and 6 hours.  I woke up saying, "Oh my gosh," chugging some water down my throat.  It stung all these hours some.  I had to take a cough drop.

Good Morning!

I woke up about 1 1/2 hours ago, 4:30.  A nice bright early morning.

Monday, March 30, 2015

Good Night!

Welcome!

Welcome to my BlogSpot!

I can do it.

There is no point in giving up my life for something weird.

Are people just pointing fingers at my reputation from the past as being academic and quiet..?  So what?  That has nothing to do with my personality and who I am..  Maybe, I was just sensitive then.

Not an Achiever

I have to understand in some ways I am unaccomplished and others I am.  I am accomplished in retaining myself as a person but unaccomplished in achieving.

"Being a Kid"

Why do you look at bad kids with good parents and say they are okay but not me cuz I'm also not like my parents?

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Proof

You know people who just wanna nestle in a hole at some point in their life.  Well, fat dads don't want their ballerina daughters to be fat, too, and same for fat moms, as you well know.  That's just an example.  So, why spend my life bribing I'm like my parents but in a bad way cuz you just want my parents to make you feel cozy as they are adults and not me?

Good Looks and Essence of Personality

I don't have exactly what I want and don't want to be a copy of my family.  I feel like I'm going thru a process of change, similar to others.

I don't share the same values as my family.  I feel people only want to see me as my family in a negative light.  I must be stuck with some of that, on top of the benefits I've enjoyed growing up.  I feel I've been trapped in more mature age to do things that babies do.

I feel empty like I can't do anything, can't change, can't move around, can't be attractive.  I just get seen as something else and knocked around til death.

If the problem is my parents aren't what they wanna be like, how they act and dress, I understand.  If they don't do it, that's not my fault.  I've hit the ground running.  I have needs and responsibilities in my generation.

For a fact, I want you to know a secret.  The youngest girl in The Brady Bunch only was able to act about skin deep.  She easily digressed into something else or someone else.  Now, she's from LA.

Water Buffalo

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originated in places like Southeastern China

Moonflower

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Exercise

I also did a 5-10 minute workout for my upper body/core.

Dieting

I started eating more healthily.  I had a Dole fruit cup for breakfast and my salad with no dressing but oil for lunch.  I am gonna cook seafood for a dinner.  I also have frozen Japanese vegetables, nice and healthy.  ^--^

Hair Wraps and Shirt Clips

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This is done in places like Key West.  Also, in Southern Florida they wrap their T-shirt up in a clip.  Here's a sample of someone wearing it low:

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Sunday, March 29, 2015

Let It Go - Frozen

Let It Go - Frozen

Let It Go - Frozen

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Eloquent. I'm always stuck with some sting from the past. -by me

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Hay House Daily Meditations's photo.

This needs to be done in the morning LOL. -by me

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    'Together, WE CAN make a difference...'
    Together, WE CAN make a difference...

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    'If you agree,TYPE YES.'
Sounds like a life for someone in jail or like me, always having to suck up to stay positive. -by me

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Then, someday, we will all be in jail. -by me

Saturday, March 28, 2015

Looking Back

I miss the old days when we were new to Orlando.  I hadn't gained my weight totally until awhile after withdrawing.  Things were still magic, and I had hopes for the future.  I could've gone online then.  I think Facebook became popular my 1st or 2nd year of college, but I was not in on it at the exact start of its popularity.  I might've even still been in my senior year of high school.

Girls Looking for a Challenge

You always get those somewhat intellectual men slapsticking the girls who are an overly intellectual challenge.

Men are afraid of being outdone, but they grow strong muscles and intellectually cannot seem to be gone thru to.

Mistakes

They get made in different ways, also for different reasons.

(1) It might be you're offing someone on purpose.
(2) It could be a slight, like people taking in what goes on inside when you have a right to privacy.
(3) It could be only 1 or so big things.

I do #2 and #3 in a way, and most everyone does #1.

People in Their 20s

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People make the mistake to neglect their health, which may be a bigger fallacy than withdrawing from a course in college.

People in their 30s stop to look back and wonder what just happened and what caused it to be that way.

Money can make you or take you.

They give up.

Frozen's Overseas Translations..

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Over 2/3 of Frozen is overseas sales.

"'For international success, we need to make sure we have universal [stories] with universal characters that are relatable to today’s audience,' Del Vecho said.."

"And what the “Frozen” creators found was an international audience ready for new approaches to storytelling and themes that better reflect modern life." ... "The central character, Elsa, is complex and tests notions of the antagonist. It’s a love story, but not a romantic one at its center."

Do you do this?

Fart
Grunt
Have Your Stomach Grumble
Cross Your Eyes a Little
Go Mad

I'm mostly worried about #1.

Double Standards

In the US, we have set ways of thinking programmed, but we also hold ancestry in Europe and even other parts of the world..

If you say we have to do something a certain way that is detrimental in fact, then so would you based on your argument of background.  That kinda topples over most ways of thinking.  I just can't remember what it was.

"Anything you can do I can do better.."

"1: I can live on bread and cheese.
2: Just that? So can a rat!"

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In Dulci Jubilo

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Germany

Elsa - Bad Romance

Josh Groban: a Successful Singer

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People like Christina and Eminem may be big MTV stars, but Josh Groban does classical-like music.  He could be an easy appearance on something like People magazine.  Josh was ready to fill in the shoes for Andrea Bocelli as a teen with the help of David Foster, a song writer, producer, and accompanist.  He went to an arts school.

Josh Groban on Liking Girls

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Josh Groban has been questioned this question, and he said he wouldn't be afraid to say if he didn't.  The article is from 3 days ago.

New: Racial Tension Against the Chinese/Asians

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I wonder if this includes Japanese.

This article is about San Fransisco with Asians and blacks.  1 Asian was punched to the ground, dying after hitting the ground.  Some of the victims were older middle aged Chinese people.  The article was published in 2010.

You know Koreans were also helpful in war.  The fact of the matter is there are only 4 Chinese-related Asian countries: China, Japan, Taiwan, and Korea.  Vietnam is actually an older singled culture, as for other countries in South Asia by India.

Friday, March 27, 2015

Lupines

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Kat Dennings

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She is Josh Groban's girlfriend.

Josh Groban

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He got his education at an arts school, in high school, and his career launched from there, being asked to fill in to sing with Celine Dion, a renown pop singer.