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Re: what is so great about diversity?

I think I see disgust in the eyes of those on Africans. Why? Their skin is black because of the sun. They didn't chose to live there. They just live there.

I believe in diversity. 

I still think white is the majority culture. I feel distanced from it in recenter years. It's like you grow up, and then white people find out they are good princesses, even if they were bad before, like it doesn't matter and they were the ones all along tho and tho not you too. 

Question

Are these people acting like a tacky, big lady really necessary?  It seems like it's not really all right, whatever the answer would be.  I didn't think anyone cared about me.  I feel like I'm pushed in my garage suffering making ends meet, stuck wanting to make a CD but not thinking spending money on college should make the difference.

Upset

I asked at the fire why no one was talking to us and left.  I had said some things they seemed to judge and wouldn't let me off like maybe it's "just" a mistake..

Then, I was  upset my Gramma hurt my mom a lot, and the rest were calm at their own table eating.  I guess that's how they figured that one out.

I have big dreams.

I wanna live in Miami!

Race

What do you want to find out?  I guess it's easier for some to be Eurasian than Southern European..  Do you want to be more American?  I'm 1/2 American.

Wah

do you make such a big deal of me cursing?  Everyone I see does, but see I don't really curse.  I thought it was sometimes funny after talking a lot online.  When I'm mad, I'm usually silent and it never touches me and passes.

Wasn't much of a touchy feely person.

I didn't have mood swings as a young child.

Ah Wah Ah

(I) just m********ed.

Website Update

Things I Like

OK

I'm more familiar with French than Jewish.

I'd like this dress.

link

Weird

2 of my heros degraded.

1 pic of the Phantom looks like who I saw as Chris Mann, looked suspicious, the way it seemed to allude to him.

Next Chloe Sevigny, supposedly a bombed TV show, link.

Sadly, they seem to have followed in the steps of Tim Burton, becoming judged as stand-off-ish and shy.  I would not say that alone, but in some ways it must be true in a technicality of the definition, I mean.

Why?

Why do people hate on others getting close to people outside of their families?

Well

I did try to work thru what my dad wanted as closeness or at least I'm saying I did.  It just mean that made me m********* and it seemed to haunt me in different ways.

Admitted

If someone admits they were bad to me but doesn't care, they love those who they are nice to but have hatred coupled to love with the other.  Ha ha ha.  Maybe, that's not concretely true in some sense, but it is in another or at least another way.   It's not like things changed.  At the same time, they love one and hate another.

CRASH

TV/bed xp Christina was a baad girl 2 day.

Upset

I don't like reporting all this stuff all the time and feel I lost some fair weathered friends.

What else?  How do I feel?  I dunno, seems like it coulda been better..  I don't have to say everything weird that they do, but it's not right.

Out

Jogging  :p

I sure hope all this goes away.

Problem

They just sit here and attack me all day to make me believe I did something wrong.

I should

take things like this in stride.  I just don't like the stupid feeling it gives me like I'm stupid to them, like I'm sitting here staring.

I know what they did.

That's like illuminating me in the middle of something so people can say they don't like me there.

Problem

These troublesome experimenters won't leave me alone.

Problem

Some things just really sink in.  Look for unsaid panic attacks.

So..

..I'm also thinking of someone else as the letter A.

Bothered

It's not the kind of thing I'd wanna say, but it really is bothering me.  I don't even think of myself as a person when I think of beautiful things in nature.

Problem

This person keeps telling me off.  I think they're wrong.

Bothered

They want me to think of other people or something when I see my background of my blog.. and I don't really see a person when I see that.  Not to be rude, but that was.

Problem

These people are messed up.  They can't take away the way I like to be and give it to someone else.  That's just foolish.  People aren not all the same thing.

Problem

I'm being attacked again and about the cat hanging on my profile background.

It is..

..sorta there as a matter of consequence and I don't think I did anything that bad.  Cursing is up to you, really.

Wondering .. Apology

Sorry about the person getting attention, tis fine.  I think tho that something has gone a step higher, f.y.i.

Apology

Sorry I came off so harshly.. I am rather fed up with people being hurt?

No Authority

I don't care if you come from yappety yap England.  You don't "pro ceed to carry out your plan."  Like you're all in charge.  How amateurish!  What do you think, anyone?  There are cute people from England a-plenty.  I hate the ones who are all into the US.  Well, the way it seems to be going.  They just delve in for the "bad stuff."

Problem

and then I'll get Word Captchas,

Problem

They are trying to draw attention things to me, an icon, and concerning the posts part of blogging.  They won't leave me alone.  They think I'm like 11 lords a leaping posting what they do.  This is shitting up my blog.

I would be so happy

without all this.

Problem

It's very slow, and I'm trying to get my Facebook!  Quit asking me about things from the past!  *BEEP*

Problem

My computer and Paint are slowing down.

Prayer

for my greedy, quick soul

Prayers

for sinners

I don't know, I think  my dad kinda did it, but this is all too bad for him.

that sinners don't exist

Issue

They keep thinking I "did something."  I am also in the cool crowd, not you all alone..

Issue

(They are still funning with me.)

So, the person really meant it, how pathetic.  It's spreading around.  I was thinking I was just mad.  I can sense their giddiness.

HA

Making fun of me wanting to be a performer and I still couldn't get it cuza my dad bothering me while I try?  But accepting Bella Thorne off on her own but still with mommy to support her, like Lindsey Stirling, too?

Problem

I can't get rid of the feeling.

Problem

They are being mean to me and might be lacing an important message with guilt to even look at it.  I felt compelled to tell about it.  Also, Annie came out a week before Christmas, but we were at my Gramma's.  I didn't like it.. overall.

Problem

They are ruining my family relationships.  I can't see the good in it!  *BEEP*  (They just made letters appear behind the *BEEP*  GET AWAY I DON'T GIVE A CARE @ YOU!  NO I SAID STOP YOU ARE BAD)

Problem

What a bad supper, what do I have to think on, now?

Issue

Well, I think people are being weird.  Should I regret being mad, at all?  No, these experimenters are being goofs, and I'm very much left alone.  Also, I found a message from someone to be too true.

Problem

Am I being punished for something else petty?

And why are they interacting with me all tackily?  I was just mad, don't let me feel bad.

What?

What do you want?  I didn't think it was okay.  It wasn't done to you.

(I SAID STOP IT!!  They said it'd be in Pirates of the Caribbean.  LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE YOU FREAKS!   I SAID STOP!!)

Problem

They keep making my text blink on Notepad.

Problem

I CAN'T GET RID OF THE FEELING!  *BEEP*  THAT PERSON!!

Cursing

I did try to leave out more cursing.  What about *beep* doesn't matter.  Does it?  I've had people curse at me for no reason, and I don't get mad cuz it's not like these people attacking me..  I don't think it's okay.  They are pampering this other person.  Why couldn't my dad just get over himself?

So..

..what did I do wrong, now?  I was attacked.

Problem

YOU *BEEP* I WANT THE FEELING TO STOP WHAT IF WE DO IT TO YOU

Problem

THESE PEOPLE WON'T STOP BEING GOOFS

Problem

They made me so mad that when I closed my garage door the inside one that muffles I did loudly.  Wonder how this'll affect me.  I did it quickly without thinking..

I can't get that feeling out,  My dad's been super elated.  That person keeps posting shit to me like it's an exercise.  WELL I SAID YOU WERE BAD!

Problem

THIS PERSON KEEPS BEING MEAN TO ME.  AN IMAGE OF MY DAD CARRYING ME STUCK IN MY DAD'S HEAD ALL SUPPER.  QUIT TOUCHING MY PARTS!  Now, they are actively including this other person, too, and as better.  Like I did something.  And it's just *beep*

I AM NOT BEING NICE TO YOU FOR THIS, YOU ARE MISTAKEN!

Problem

This person went psycho and is trying to stimulate me and others about me with shit.

Problem

Some weirdo keeps spouting out negative fascinations about me online at will.  Used to be my friend!  Get out, stupid experimenters!

Problem

I stopped m********ing for awhile, and now look..  How can we control what this person does?  I don't want negative messages.  Stop acting like my dad has that real problem etc.

And they are still talking to me how the page loads!  I SAID STOP.

Problem

Someone keeps dissing my life online.

Problem

They're making my pages take longer to load.  STOP IT *BEEP*

Upset

Another day to trudge online and feel tacky whilst I watch others in supposed glory.

Problem

They're being annoying.

I told you to quit!

Problem

Quit it stranger, talking to me by the time you make my page load!

Problem

Like the noises someone put in my room, you cannot go and tell me what color to make my skin (yellow.)  Can anyone explain this radicality?  The lunacy?  It doesn't make sense.  They are trying to punish me with big things.  I just posted something on my mobile blog about how my dad drove yesterday.  Sometimes, I post about where I am, usually if I'm alone.  Supposedly, someone else is shitting me this, too.  I will not take this, you.  You will stop right now.  I'm not gonna lose my relationships, too.  Git yer annoying nose outta my Goddamn hole, you!

Bed

beddy bye

Dating Site

eHarmony

I'm not provided for

just by watching TV and certainly not being stuck where I am

Another Message

They said I can't touch kids.

A Note on People Concerning Ellen

Why not think of what's really important to you, not a who to blame specifically but a what.  What do you think of the Late Boom generation??

Apology

Also, sorry I went crazy about talking about something funny.

Apology

for when my mind ran away from me.  I find I can't concentrate and feel funny.  I think I am getting better.  People keep attacking me, and I try to ignore it.

Problem

This person is less perfect than I, and I am a pretty perfect person.  They just keep boring in these mean secret messages.  I just m********ed.  They set it up.  It's ruining my singing.  So are these psych pills I don't need..  Of course, my mom makes me.

Problem

I posted about what my dad did when he went with me somewhere, and I got the stupid, cruel, flippant message that I should make my skin yellow when I like white and pink and some tan.  I feel like a spider is dropping in next to me while I try to have had a good Christmas.  This person ruined it, took part in somewhat strange gifts and other big things.  They won't be nice to me and also won't leave me alone so I can live my life happily.. I was saying it's good to take a break from things and come back.  I am not the emotional beggar in this scenario.  It's more than obvious.  This person plays around, like, "Gimme a sandwich," for instance.  What does that say about a person?  "Gimme, gimme, gimme."  This person provides a small amount of emotion to others, as well.  Or is it that most people are really shit themselves?  I think most people are, but I don't mean ill will.

Problem

I make "little mistakes" and someone keeps threatening me and acting threateningly to me.  They do big mistakes on purpose.

I get down

bin layin off the m***********.  Like my diet.  I'm not hungry for desserts now.. a stressful day, thought everyone who gave me a racial slur was a n***** or s***.  Guess they don't take to that which they beckon unto themselves.

I shudder at what my singing will be like, skipped a day, alas.

Update

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In the car

Thanks to someone I got an partly sorta unbearable "ride."

All these supposedly good people for me result in my dad getting  "giddy" but over me.

Lost It

I was upset at people acting like I wasn't white.  I guess the word shit is not liked.  My dad acted like I can't "have" someone.  It's my ****in life!  Leave me the Hell alone!!

There's no one like it.

Only 1 person is voluntarily extra mean to me in ways others don't believe, and I'm tired of being told I follow this.

Problem

They keep sending me secret messages and rubbing in stuff.. like that if anyone I like I meet I can't like be like that, they want it for someone else and won't stop like poking at the person.

New Picture of Me

link

So

I end up having to be in more trouble and apologizing when I didn't do anything.  Sometimes, words come to my mind, but I seem to have been made unable to think things rather than a curse word or something.

Problem

Get this, someone's crapping up my holidays, and I don't know who all.  Every holiday, Thanksgiving and Christmas, I get a "surprise" reminder of something, like tattling I did something when I didn't mean to do anything.

Merry Christmas!

2015!

Story

There was a girl named Rebecca with light gold hair and greenish blue eyes.  She was 14 and wearing a sky blue dress.

There was a boy named Jonathan who was 20.

There were other friends younger, as well.

It was Chrstmastime, and the lake was opened for skating.

Rebecca wondered, should she get a pet?  Sure!  What kind, a dog or cat, she did not know.  She sidled off to the lake and enjoyed trying to skate but was able to remain on her feet.  After she was done, she ran to the group house filled with people, who were still successful and it was a huge house.  Some people just liked to make their way helping out.  It was time to open Secret Santas.  She had a box and inside was a ticket in order to go somewhere and pick out a pet.  She said she wanted to go to the pet shelter, run by some lively boys who loved life.  She went off alone, a smile on her face.  She saw the cutest thing.  They said they called him Tiny Tim.  It was a cat!  A cat with a limp.  It was so sweet.  It hobbled along.  It was pretty, actually, with cream and tan.  It's face was not as punched in.  The tail was rather thick, like a wild cat.

So, she took it home and fed it milk and it survived very well.  :)

Rebecca had another friend, a lady who was 30.  She was gone.  She found Jonathan and asked ot take a walk and he came, to her surprise and pleasure.  They talked about the romance of life.  Sometimes, he touched her, and she learned to smile more at him and about life.  She was feeling  uppity in joy of her disabled, cute, wild-looking, fancy cat.

I can even see

"the real princess" sitting on her throne.

HA!

I don't think people do that.

What Really Happened

My dad had me do it.  He kept acting irritatingly around me.  I am tired of the signs.

A Pathetic Report

People are rubbing in I can't "have" a person, as usual, whatever that means, if I hit something or suddenly if I think of something violent.  I don't really live to do that.

Fell

I stepped on some bottles in a bag and I sorta was lowered down to the floor as I fell.  A bulb went out, the colored one.

TV

I watched Bob Ross the painter.  I am recording the painting on this channel.

TV

Did anyone catch the Fort Lauderdale Christmas?  I'm watching it a 2nd time.  I also rented Mickey's Christmas Carol.  Last night Muppets were on.

New Picture of Me

link

Bed Soon

Something hit me.

Everyone likes Ellen better than their spouse/partner in some way.  I don't admire Portia for acting like it was a hard choice to say yes to Ellen cuz something better might come along .. cuz nothing will.  :p  No hard feelings, just talking.