How It Works

People are superstitious of me, but they are always bad and when I was by accident.

Facebook

yesterday

TV

I should watch Ellen on my cell but feel self-conscious.  May get internet today.  We'll see, want to sleep or do something else.  The connection often fails, in a way.

People play

Around with me on if they are serious.  I can't seem to lodge myself into any fact of nature.

Why

Do people only react to famous people?  It will only be too late.  No more being bad to be cool, no matter who says it.  Being famous comes with a reason, not as a riot for fighting.  Like, it's not for saying life is a complaint.  It's for brave or highly competent people to have some outlet.

Instagram

Instagram.com/christinaannbarrett

I officially stopped being

Checked by my parents until we lived in Orlando.  @ 10 years.

Who forced

The popular people to be unaccepting of me?

Instagram

http://www.instagram.com/christinaannbarrett

My Opinion

Sarah Brightman is rather nostalgic.  Why do you think it is aimed for?  :)

It gets to me.

The French.

Do you ever find

People looming over you a pest?

So

I guess you are stuck not letting people develop and be who they want.  It's all a game of catch from the past.

Also

Everyone says I'm perfect.

What I Find

I am under the idea that things long ago are forgiven.  I'm not an animal.

So Far

Cereal

Apple

Rice and Fried Chicken from Popeye's

..toast w/pb+honey

Fruity candy cane

Jog

I was thinking..

Bella Thorne is a really cool person.  'd love to see her go far.

Why didn't I get a chance at my own life?  Am I an illegal age?  Just unfortunate in a world that isn't about my success, anymore, denying my comparable talents.

Apology

On my cell.  Last night, I was not so nice and was stupid and mean.

Music

I wrote a short song and like 2 1 liners.  Hi as well as deep low.  I might have to make the regular sized 1s repeat.

I guess

It gets delivered today.

IMDb

I might not be able to get on for over a week.

TV

I liked Jennifer Anniston on Ellen.  She is very sweet.

Garth Brooks was also very nice.

There aren't many clips online and my computer was slow .. and the show was interrupted and I ended up turning it off.  Whoops, it may have come back on.

Health

I had an apple today.  It seems I'm getting healthier.  Too bad about the diabetes.  He thought I should get an early start and get shots, but I said no.  Instead, I am gonna get of my psych meds.  I just have to switch psychiatrists.  I could die, lose eyesight.. I can't even get an early appointment.  Should I wean myself?

TV

about to watch Ellen

I guess..

..I got away with myself.  Sorry.  I figured I should not try to be mad cuz it made me more mad, too.

Exercise

Abs - 10 Minutes

Wonder if it tempered me.

Where I'm At..

Laundry

I cleaned and vacuumed my room.

I just need a shelf for my books, might stack em up here.

Looking forward to Ellen @ 3.

Edit

I set my YouTube videos to private.  I'll add more public ones.  I wanted to take away the copyrighted ones.  I do want to be a singer.  The accompaniments didn't indicate neither if we could record over them and post them online.. so I won't.  I can see why.  :/

I don't see

why they point out me cursing or hitting things or screaming.  You just stay positive and say not to do it, not sit there and poke a bug with a stick.  It is worthless to be here.

What I Did

dishes, ate zucchini, washed laundry, ironed, dried laundry, vacuumed

 Now, I have to finish the laundry and wash whites and special things.

Problems

I got upset and squeamed and by accident hit the laundry machine once.  I stopped doing that more now.  I don't know who was on my mind, but it doesn't matter cuz I dunno I just feel out of place, a failure.  They continued to bug me more.  I guess I have to live with it, like Anne Frank.

The Day

I guess I will wash, iron, and clean up my room the best I can without getting a new shelf yet.

another nite another dream. . . .

nap time

Pretty Weird

Last night, I was bouncing in my chair in anger.  I'm still in anger.  I don't want to think about this person every time I post on my blog.

For some reason

when things get stuck in my blog, I think of what it was done to remind me of and it doesn't stop.  It's not that bad if I get mad because it's actually understandable.

Why

has it been so hard to focus here always?

Problems

I don't like the reminder with the +1 and I am not here to listen to whatever anyone says!  You did this illegally!  You could go to prison.  I thought of it again!

Problem

I don't know what to do about this.  I want to get away from these people.

Problem

When my blog loads, I think of a person because of the +1 sign they put when I was upset, kinda like on my old computer the scroll mark on the topic part going up after I got upset all 1 week after seeing someone I like.  Also, they started out saying birthday with this person.

I gotta go..

You shouldn't make me believe I did something bad.  You did.

Bye!

So, I hope everything is okay.  I am tired.  I hope I don't have to be punished, and I am 28 and I know they are doing it for no reason, even if nothing had happened.  What do you think about what they did?  I had nowhere to turn.  I should have thought thru.  I hit a road block.  I got worried.  I had eaten and was about to sleep, but my mom just came in to talk about tomorrow, like we were supposed to.  I don't really see it as losing a person each time something happens or if something physical does come up, again  I see it as a shadow hanging over me.  I wonder if I lost something for being frantic.  I think I already lost things, too, it seems now.  It felt better before.  My life is trapped and confined to certain things.

2 Weeks

I think they go into the week after, too, until Friday.  So, might not watch then, neither, I think.  Bon voyage!

As of now

I wanna watch Ellen again starting tomorrow.  I plan to skip the week after to keep up with Sarah Brightman's concerts online if they go up.

Problem

I encouraged someone on Twitter, and they threatened I deserved to die but they can't do it..

Problem

Every time I post because of what came up they made it so my blog shows +1 next to each post and posts it to my Google profile, which is not something I like.  I know someone is laughing at me because they do this and treat me like an animal.

So Sorry Stupid Self

I should have thought thru.  I was in bed, almost asleep.  Now, I'll know.

naptime!

Problem

Yer not stopping, you criminal!!

Problem

They made my page take longer to load.

Problem

You're treating me like an animal.  You think I'm a n*****?

Get that feeling away, too.

I have to go somewhere, today.

Problem

What's Ellen doing now?  She can't do that.

STOP

They said, "No, you're going to look at me."  GO AWAY."

I hate to squeam and jump again.

You stop it.

I don't care if it gives me more views per post.  That's shit.

Problem

You take down the reminder right now.  They made all my blog posts go to my Google + page. and it says so when I post!  I don't care what you want.  You're a criminal, and I could send Ellen to jail for this.

Problem

Lat night, I wa sin a lot of pain with them bringing up messages, so I squirmed to myself.  I didn't know what was going on.  I forgot that I wasn't supposed to like do something physical like that or I'd lose a relationship.  It took me awhile to stop.  I'm still upset, tho.  It looks like it might come up.  It's fine in a way, but this didn't make sense  I don't have freedom to think how I like.  I don't feel well, neither.  Like something's been like nailed into me.  I don't think they "take" excuses.  Oh well, I must think things thru even more and learned to ignore things.  I didn't scream loud enough to be heard much and was just moving in my chair, not hitting the table.  I really don't want to lose a relationship because I was in pain and it hurt a lot.  It's unfair.  I don't wanna go along with these superstitious people.  This was special to me.  They were wrong.  I'm not doing this.  Why are they acting like they have dominion over me now?  You should not have done what you've done.  Don't go lying to me.  What was I to do?  I was afraid I'd ruin my computer, too.  So, I channeled that energy another way.  I don't think they can take away a relationship unless the person decides to.  I don't think that will happen.  I don't like how if I do something physical they think that to be "easy."  No one was even in here.  My mom was doing laundry, but I wasn't that loud.  I can't have little things cause me to lose my favorite relationship.  I don't need to be counseled and mad a spectacle of, neither.  What you did was harmful.  You just wouldn't stop, and now I have to pay for you all.  At the time, I forgot because it'd been awhile that you'd do this.  I don't like doing it myself.  I feel provoked more to do it than that I'd wanna.  Sorry!  I just don't see how I'm not allowed to really do this if I got really bad-feeling.

Problem

They are messing around.  My blog had a weird address at the bottom.

I SAID NO

YOU THINK I'M STUPID?

cont.

You have no right to do this.  I said no.  That doesn't make sense.  I never will listen.

I'm not alone.

And no one wants to talk it out with me.  I stayed contained.

Why did you just say that?  "Want/s?"  I told you I AM NOT GIVING UP ANY PERSON FOR THIS.

So

Very sorry about my stupidity.  I wish I didn't start squinching.  I'm stuck here trying to sleep.

Problems Go

I'm feeling  better about being less tacky, tho.

..good night

Problem

My feet feel numb and tingly.

You don't give other people these problems.  What the *beep* do you think I am to speak to me in such a way?

I know what you're gonna do now.

You think I am not set with someone, were waiting to see me lose it.  QUIT IT.  It's hurting me.

Problem

I SAID NO

All the posts are now saying +1.

I SAID NO

I'm not playing your jokes all night on this.

I don't want that person to be in my life watching me.

I SAID NO

I am not listening to you and taking someone I like outta my life cuz I got physical.  I SAID NO.  I don't care what anyone thinks.  This experiment is  bullshit.

Problem

What will this do for my singing voice?

Confused

I didn't really get it.  I did, but they wouldn't stop.

Now, they're gonna wake up someone and make them mad at me and do wrong things to me.

I NEED MY PRIVACY.

Problem

Now, my legs are puffed up.

You now, this shit ruined everything.  I didn't hit the table.  I stomped on the floor to stop it!  I SAID TO STOP.  How stupid is this?  They really won't shut up.  I demand you stop.  You know, we started this with Ellen.

Problem

Why don't you care if I'm upset?  Are you black?

Problem

They won't quit.

Someone 1+' this post.  I don't know if it was me.

Problem

I see what they are doing.

Hey stop making fun of me!

I still won't take this.

What if this comes up?  That's all I want to know.  I don't want my birthday ruined.  What about all these other messages?  They are sending more.

Problem

A car said my favorite weekend now!

My mom won't stop.

I NEED TO REALLY GET TO BED YOU BASTARDS.

Problem

STOP

Problem

OK, they've lost it.  My fingers hurt.

Problem

You have no right to infiltrate my birthday in any way.  I have nothing against anyone.  My mom is joking this is like Portia.  Tell her to shut the Hell up.

Problem

They really won't shut up.  This is sick.  I need to get to bed!

Problem

I had to squeam with myself and now they think I did something.  LEAVE ME ALONE.

Problem

They keep saying something now and I have to go to bed!  I wake up so early!

Problem

Why do you keep acting like I'm in trouble?  That's what's wrong.  Hey, they think I am submitting.  They are losers.  You all won't stop bothering me.  I don't feel well.  I won't take this.  I don't know what to do about what you said.  When people dig in it really hurts.  They just affected my nose!  That's not nice.  Go away.  I want my nose and everything.  Quit bothering me.  They won't be quiet.  They are so annoying.

Problem

They also were being sarcastic and won't stop.  They said, "1 day," and did 2 new different things.

Problem

I don't want to be bothered about this.  I'm really worried.

Problems

It started out with someone cornily saying, "You know what to do," in a corny partially squeaking or honking voice.

Problems

I'm trying to sleep, and my mom comes in to ask about tomorrow cuz I didn't see her cuz she was with my dad.  Make a long story short I know she pleasures in me being in trouble, and they put a person up for my birthday, when it wasn't the place.  I writhed a lot about it and need help cuz I have bad karma.  Anyway, I am depressed.  I don't like how I'm just with grumpy Dad it feels when I only come out to eat and when I need to.  What happened to when I was with lots of people?

TV

I will decide to watch Ellen again hopefully by Wednesday.

Problem

They made a machine in the garage tick every so often.

Today, my dad was attacking my mom and sometimes me with how he acted and made noises in the kitchen.  My mom also made me upset in the kitchen.

Twitter and Facebook

Most famous people I know do Twitter.

Now, targeted audience, that's another thing.

An Apology

May be overrated.

I am sorry I am so stupid.  That's what it was.

Back

I got part of my outfit to wear to Ellen.

I got a cool book (c) 2013 of striving to be a personality type with tests, researched the brain and old tests, the MBTI.

I got it as a paperback cuz it was for personality and they have diagrams and tests and nice font.  I mean, I use a NOOK, which is a Barnes & Noble tablet.  I get magazines there if I do, too.

Sorry

I almost posted something about other people's opinions that was very much not that nice.  I guess I should learn to think.  I try.  I just keep messing up.  I do admit I feel interrupted and don't want to be like dissed in that way.  I wouldn't mind if someone said about me what I was going to say, tho.

I noticed something.

Every time someone popular comes on, it's about dissing me, their popular tools.  Like, how they look.  Like they aren't actually thinking of me.

New Video of Me Singing

I want to submit this to a music agent.  :)

Hypnosis

You are trying to make me feel like I did something bad.  If I ever feel loved/liked, I won't really feel it.  It's like a big joke.  I have to talk to the underdogs and outcasts.  Not really being alone doesn't always help.  I feel bombarded with hatred from liars and scapegoats.  It's like something you can't take but can learn to ignore and forget.  It represents a place in your life you once had you can't go.

I have a real life, and it's not about being "experimented" on.  I don't deserve to be imprisoned.  Anyone could lash out for being treated badly all of a sudden.

Edit

I fixed my website so that it has a menu.

New Picture of Me

I'm so sorry

I keep saying weird things.  I tried to be more in it in English..

Things

OK, so I  just woke up and had leftover pizza.

I got carried away explaining something some I didn't post, nothing mean, but I didn't post it, in the end.  Maybe, by a certain point, I could feel it wouldn't be a good idea.  I didn't think it was appropriate, even though is is kinda important.  Better to come up with it outside of other things.  I might be haunted.  I feel followed.  I saw signs this morning of it.  It made me mad.

I also had some Halloween candy.

They don't wanna talk about it, so I don't know how we will do anything about it if it is a topic you are interested in bringing up/going into..  I lose everything if I make a mistake, but others don't.

They actually are rude sending me these messages.  I'd like to ignore them like they are not there, in a way.  What if they aren't?  It's possible.

So, I'm sorry if how I lived my life has offended you.  I don't really know.. guess I should bring it up on its own.