Friday, October 24, 2014
You make it hard
to think and constantly judge me only to find I don't mean that, here in Central Florida, as the culture here.
The News Is Stupid
I don't want hours of footage on the 1st Ebola patient. Guess there's nothing to see.. I heard it was mostly all about violence.
Do you yourself suffer
what you want me to suffer? Or do you think you're "good enough" cuz I don't think that's what other people believe of a lot of people?
People don't want..
..me to ever have felt confident just being a kid. My dad called me little when I started high school, not so.
People today
do not work things out.
They just go by protocol and tell you, or at least just me, off.
There's no relationship. Something stupid always comes up. Then, they call it off.
I get told I'm unattractive.
They just go by protocol and tell you, or at least just me, off.
There's no relationship. Something stupid always comes up. Then, they call it off.
I get told I'm unattractive.
Why have people acted
so concerned about things that happened to me longer than they happened as an excuse to take pleasure in saying I'm not white? They never fixed it. Stuff happens. I just saw what I saw.
TV
I watched "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" today.
Fergie was interesting.
The next girl was nice.
The guests seemed good at the beginning.
I had a bit of a discomfort. I don't really accept nor remember to stop not accepting when people say "half" to me. I wonder why she said it, though. It doesn't bother me in and of itself, I guess, but if she does it she does it. I'm still wondering about it in general. She said "half" to Fergie, maybe thinking about how her baby is half her mom's and half her dad's. She was the one to say on the show that having a baby was hard timewise. She disappeared from the social scene.
Oh, and the young minority boy dancer was very skilled. He looks Asian, but his parents are fat and look Latin American.
Fergie was interesting.
The next girl was nice.
The guests seemed good at the beginning.
I had a bit of a discomfort. I don't really accept nor remember to stop not accepting when people say "half" to me. I wonder why she said it, though. It doesn't bother me in and of itself, I guess, but if she does it she does it. I'm still wondering about it in general. She said "half" to Fergie, maybe thinking about how her baby is half her mom's and half her dad's. She was the one to say on the show that having a baby was hard timewise. She disappeared from the social scene.
Oh, and the young minority boy dancer was very skilled. He looks Asian, but his parents are fat and look Latin American.
Thursday, October 23, 2014
New Forum and Forum Post
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Analyze me racially.
Do you think I am more like a part Chinese-boy than a real person?
Do you believe I did everything I could to be white? Do you think my problems have mostly been from other people? Like the pressure I feel to be more Chinese or more unappealing since I am just a mix?
Do you want me to be more Chinese than white, when I want to be more white? If you were me, would you want to be more white, or are you tricking me that being white isn't that good and not really addictive to you to say you have?
Do you think people are mad at me these days, whereas before I got more respect from anyone who ever knew I was skinny before? How do you explain this anger? Jealousy, therefore wanting me to move away and get in trouble somehow and then change and be uglier and not like the race I want? You believe people can't pick to be worth it, even? Like, an animal, you'd torture and mess around with them?
Analyze me racially.
Do you think I am more like a part Chinese-boy than a real person?
Do you believe I did everything I could to be white? Do you think my problems have mostly been from other people? Like the pressure I feel to be more Chinese or more unappealing since I am just a mix?
Do you want me to be more Chinese than white, when I want to be more white? If you were me, would you want to be more white, or are you tricking me that being white isn't that good and not really addictive to you to say you have?
Do you think people are mad at me these days, whereas before I got more respect from anyone who ever knew I was skinny before? How do you explain this anger? Jealousy, therefore wanting me to move away and get in trouble somehow and then change and be uglier and not like the race I want? You believe people can't pick to be worth it, even? Like, an animal, you'd torture and mess around with them?
Forum Post
Being Egotistical
Do you know people who are literally egotistical? Like, they think they are so good and try so hard and are so known that they become stuck ups and don't even know?
Like, with me, I'm good, I'm nice, I'm polite. Other people get well-liked for their race and generation and are considered the go-to.
Do you know people who are literally egotistical? Like, they think they are so good and try so hard and are so known that they become stuck ups and don't even know?
Like, with me, I'm good, I'm nice, I'm polite. Other people get well-liked for their race and generation and are considered the go-to.
I always have people chasing me
like from the Midsouth saying even New Orleans isn't the South in my presence because they know people from Up North go or would go straight to it. (Being that it is by the water.) And to make fun mostly of people with a parent from Up North who lives in the South.
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"The Ellen DeGeneres Show" - Random Thoughts
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Not Being American
Her mom is from New Orleans and it is not overly American, in some ways, but they have all the fun, in some ways..
Her dad I heard is not American or maybe is more recently in his family straight from Europe or married out of Europe possibly.
You'd think Ellen'd be down for anything, but then I found she wasn't all American, she's not down for feeling like we're equals, like that's cool, at all.
I have no clue .. wait, yes, Bella Thorne meets fans conveniently on Twitter. Yup.. she does. I don't know, the really popular and famous people like Johnny Depp ignore plebian fans. Tim Burton has meetings in Europe and panels from LA. He acts like something big is waiting to happen. So, no famous people are worth it.. aha ha ha, no offense to anyone in particular. I'm saying that most famous people no one cares about meeting in person. Just Johnny Depp, Ellen, Burton..
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Not Being American
Her mom is from New Orleans and it is not overly American, in some ways, but they have all the fun, in some ways..
Her dad I heard is not American or maybe is more recently in his family straight from Europe or married out of Europe possibly.
You'd think Ellen'd be down for anything, but then I found she wasn't all American, she's not down for feeling like we're equals, like that's cool, at all.
I have no clue .. wait, yes, Bella Thorne meets fans conveniently on Twitter. Yup.. she does. I don't know, the really popular and famous people like Johnny Depp ignore plebian fans. Tim Burton has meetings in Europe and panels from LA. He acts like something big is waiting to happen. So, no famous people are worth it.. aha ha ha, no offense to anyone in particular. I'm saying that most famous people no one cares about meeting in person. Just Johnny Depp, Ellen, Burton..
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Bad Reviews, or How to Hide the Bodies http://t.co/506pEAycgi via @Janice_Hardy
— Marcy Kennedy (@MarcyKennedy) October 23, 2014"As artists, I believe we have more strength—and ultimately more resilience—than most ordinary people. To write or paint or make music, to create something we believe in out of empty air and send it out into the world, is an act of raw courage mixed with a big slug of faith, like walking barefoot on hot coals. We know we’ll survive, but we’d be fools to not expect to get a little burnt once in a while."
I'm having problems.
I just feel my reputation is a certain way with certain people, but I came here to say my dad seems to bother me when around. (Sorry to have to say this.) I might go back to bed? Maybe, later, take a walk? Unless it's too late.
Also, we don't have money, but for some reason I go to to Disney World each week. It's the only non-work and inclusive of worthwhile thing to do here, though I also wanna take gymnastics..
I also have people hating on me.
Also, we don't have money, but for some reason I go to to Disney World each week. It's the only non-work and inclusive of worthwhile thing to do here, though I also wanna take gymnastics..
I also have people hating on me.
Dreams
I had like 20 pets lined up somehow in little containers. I was going upstairs and downstairs to help them in my old house by New Orleans.
The lady I saw at Disney made me think of Ellen. I went up to her and put my arms around her almost on the side and made up sorta I think I have cancer. Of course I made her respond.
Then, I was at ballet, and it was like "class would start soon," but I said I was doing gymnastics.
I don't need anyone, and I mean that literally. It means I need them to go away. I'll be truthful and say I mean why not talk, am I awkward now? Am I a joke because I got interested in Hollywood and actually told people in my early to mid 20s?
The lady I saw at Disney made me think of Ellen. I went up to her and put my arms around her almost on the side and made up sorta I think I have cancer. Of course I made her respond.
Then, I was at ballet, and it was like "class would start soon," but I said I was doing gymnastics.
I don't need anyone, and I mean that literally. It means I need them to go away. I'll be truthful and say I mean why not talk, am I awkward now? Am I a joke because I got interested in Hollywood and actually told people in my early to mid 20s?
A Topic Older People Find Insulting
Doesn't the idea coming up of someone picking you up give you a sense of revolt and shying away?
Wednesday, October 22, 2014
What do you think about this?
Fun, but ill-informed, so far. These kids need to learn to get into themselves. I need to get in the business. I have strong familial values, too, and I learn a lot while at Disney.
My Most Treasured Memory to Rely On
My 2nd one, like the same lady at Disney, she ran with her head down toward the buses, like she knew me.. and I felt it at the bottom of my core, nothing cheating that you can't do. Not too too strong, but very special and interesting..
Will add these things to my website.
Will add these things to my website.
I had some grand fantasy revelation
that these 2 best friends who are swarming the media with their rebellious offcast nature .. what they should have done for activity. The younger one than me should have done modern dance and at the studio could get into ballet and her kind of singing. The older one, both my year, should have taken the singing more seriously and could meet up my other old best friend.
Me, I'm gymnastics and ballet and singing. I'm happy in gymnastics, but I don't know advanced things cuz you'd have to try every day to get that kind of power.
Me, I'm gymnastics and ballet and singing. I'm happy in gymnastics, but I don't know advanced things cuz you'd have to try every day to get that kind of power.
I was influenced
to keep my blonde hair, it's all we have, all these people who seriously want to be like Ellen for others. I'm considered a baby.
It doesn't ever work that way..
I thought my dad thought I ever had an easy life as a ½ Asian. He thinks if something was not at a complete loss then that means I had it better in the way I didn't. That means I'm on top of myself more than he is. And this is since I was little.
People's Esteem Transformed
They used to be more apologetic. Now, they think it's about 1 person, me, being wrong, and therefore they are always on about something that I'm wrong that has nothing to do with me. People were more humble and less provoked. People in Orlando are very provoked.
Fun Black People
Black people have the most fun. Maybe not the best fun.. wrestling alligators? I mean like a colored woman cooling down by appreciating water. I'm indian, so I'm colored. I guess I have it the best.
Race
I think since Caucasian and Asian skulls are so similar that it would feel a lot like the same build but with a lot of differences in heritage.
To really transform would be to understand Middle Easterners. The ones with shawls I know are very pretty. I'm seeing more and more of them at Disney World.
Black people are actually very smart with their 6th sense if that even exists..
Asians "invaded" Germany and Scandinavia. Spain is maybe older than Africa. The Asian and Negroid skull have a bump on top. Asians have bumps on the sides of their eyes.
To really transform would be to understand Middle Easterners. The ones with shawls I know are very pretty. I'm seeing more and more of them at Disney World.
Black people are actually very smart with their 6th sense if that even exists..
Asians "invaded" Germany and Scandinavia. Spain is maybe older than Africa. The Asian and Negroid skull have a bump on top. Asians have bumps on the sides of their eyes.
Nothing Left to Live
It seems Hollywood ended with Tim Burton and Johnny Depp. We forgot about everything that made up this world and to be thankful for "different" experiences. You never know what could have been waiting around the corner..probably more corn fields to pick.
I don't feel we got it done or even out of the way. I think we destroyed this world..
Concerning Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, I think people just went crazy over how good they are and how much they all want to be the one to be the best in the world, like that can even exist...
I don't feel we got it done or even out of the way. I think we destroyed this world..
Concerning Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, I think people just went crazy over how good they are and how much they all want to be the one to be the best in the world, like that can even exist...
Caucasians
Why do some people go out of their way to exclude people who are mixed or not Caucasian? They act like they hate them so much. That's not right. Some of them look Caucasian or are attractive.
Right and Wrong
If my dad is suggestive to my younger brother in a way he wouldn't dare speak to my mom or of himself, he should not play around saying he is a "product" of them even but altogether not do it because that is the concrete example of when you are pushed to do the right thing. We don't need to be pervs in the world. We learn by feeling good and to ward off bad feelings, not by being pervs.
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
Question
Why is Sarah Brightman posting to send hidden mean messages? She thinks she's a cool teen, but she's an somewhat aged lady who never learned to grow up. They let people like her and Kate Bush do whatever they want in England. They always feel good but come out with a cold attitude toward Americans.
Maybe in ancient times
Asians were smarter but not more ***-like. Like a smarter animal. Maybe not happier.
It's over, I'm calling it off.
Fine, be comfortable around people for their blood. Say what your baby should be. Something you have when you're a zombie cuz yer whiter than everyone else. My life ends how my life ends. I can't even be in style.
What does anyone think? Another dead end.
What does anyone think? Another dead end.
These people need to stop.
I'm not gonna do anything for you. You want Ellen to seem more youthful but younger than me. Like that typical dream of how you treat Late Boomers when your parents are Early Boomers!
I C UR DOODOO
You're all flipping out that Ellen is like the greatest because she attained blonde hair and can flail around in party all the time, while the rest of us sit out.
This diarrhea is all over!
No offense to Ellen herself. She's just a sweet, young, and part Askenazi Jewish girl. She follows the negative crowd at times, but who doesn't?? :p Did I say "young?" HA!
I think the light hair is another attribute that makes Ellen so loveable. Her brother is a boy, so maybe the black hair fit him and seeing as how good his sister came out. He's already a product of intelligence. He seems martyrlike and that he outdoes Ellen. Here comes a flood of girls who are the oldest in their families shreeking out that they're the oldest.. :p
Now, the hair thing bothers me cuz my hair was not light much for long. I wonder if I was considered ugly, even, by the time I hit Pre-K. I think so. My parents should have took my hair more seriously. Why didn't the kids like me for how good I was, though? Black hair was not considered out. It seems Ellen's brother is there for a flirting toy, and I don't mean it in an unkind way, just that it seems she supposedly tried to live with all the drama and not realizing that these people she might sneer at don't have all the drama. Really, it's miserable when it sinks in how dark your hair is. Also, I wanted my chance to be pretty, but I grew up and it feel like it's too late. I'll have to spend possibly over $60 recoloring my hair and $30 more for fixing products! What I most want is to maybe grow it out again and try to get it lighter, but I might stick with this trying to be like Ellen until who knows when. I just have to spend more time on my hair if and when I shave it again.
I see you were selfish to protect Ellen that I'm not worth it because of my dark hair and you don't even want me to say it. Go ask my parents. I think they wanted me to do something else to get my hair light, but they have dark hair and I didn't want them to be able to ever beat me in any way.
This diarrhea is all over!
No offense to Ellen herself. She's just a sweet, young, and part Askenazi Jewish girl. She follows the negative crowd at times, but who doesn't?? :p Did I say "young?" HA!
I think the light hair is another attribute that makes Ellen so loveable. Her brother is a boy, so maybe the black hair fit him and seeing as how good his sister came out. He's already a product of intelligence. He seems martyrlike and that he outdoes Ellen. Here comes a flood of girls who are the oldest in their families shreeking out that they're the oldest.. :p
Now, the hair thing bothers me cuz my hair was not light much for long. I wonder if I was considered ugly, even, by the time I hit Pre-K. I think so. My parents should have took my hair more seriously. Why didn't the kids like me for how good I was, though? Black hair was not considered out. It seems Ellen's brother is there for a flirting toy, and I don't mean it in an unkind way, just that it seems she supposedly tried to live with all the drama and not realizing that these people she might sneer at don't have all the drama. Really, it's miserable when it sinks in how dark your hair is. Also, I wanted my chance to be pretty, but I grew up and it feel like it's too late. I'll have to spend possibly over $60 recoloring my hair and $30 more for fixing products! What I most want is to maybe grow it out again and try to get it lighter, but I might stick with this trying to be like Ellen until who knows when. I just have to spend more time on my hair if and when I shave it again.
I see you were selfish to protect Ellen that I'm not worth it because of my dark hair and you don't even want me to say it. Go ask my parents. I think they wanted me to do something else to get my hair light, but they have dark hair and I didn't want them to be able to ever beat me in any way.
My Generation
I think Generation Y is considered Echo Boom. So, we don't feel as "small" but like miniature adults. People between those ages are more "natural" and don't build nor paint a fence in feelings.
How do you feel about
saying the youngest people of the 1st original generation of XYZ are right to say that being smart is a trade of theirs and that it's actually naughty, like to smart adults who put you down for race or whatnot? I'm thinking in this case it would mean people 2 years older than me, so born 1983-1984. Shouldn't my generation be able to do what they do???? I don't feel as humiliated. :| I might have done something to deserve it that way and am also therefore not counted in on their generation....
You must feel so good
to be the one not in trouble. You all live by a shitty code because I didn't do anything really bad to deserve this. You waited until I came home to be mean to me about college and trap me to get fat!
TV
I watched the 1st 1/2 of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."
I really liked the girl who was only 4 years older than me who had her hair short and light but not as short .. as Ellen. She is like stereotyping her, and I find it interesting. In some ways I feel older and in most ways I felt younger.
I really liked the girl who was only 4 years older than me who had her hair short and light but not as short .. as Ellen. She is like stereotyping her, and I find it interesting. In some ways I feel older and in most ways I felt younger.
I'm being stalked!
I feel like all the famous Pennsylvanians are lame ass and trying to chase me.
The goal is to boss me around, when they got nothing to say to me.
The goal is to boss me around, when they got nothing to say to me.
You know what I found out?
I had my body parts and things in place, so that's as good as and not worse than a blonde but without the hair to allow me to continue to feel better.
Monday, October 20, 2014
You'll never guess what I just found out.
Ellen is sensitive to the fact someone like her could be as good as she is. Like famous and popular.
I guess other people took it too far.
They went crazy mean and did things that were unnecessary.
It happened to happen when Johnny Depp became more popular with Tim Burton, too.
It happened to happen when Johnny Depp became more popular with Tim Burton, too.
I caught them red-handed.
The Comedian.. the lady is flirting that Bella Thorne is better than me. Read my damn blog, lady.
No Offense
Kate Bush really does that.
I like her, but like there's some things that don't click. I don't like how people think I should be *** concerning her and how she is compared to me.
I like her, but like there's some things that don't click. I don't like how people think I should be *** concerning her and how she is compared to me.
The Voice Kids
I noticed a pretty lady with short hair like medium Ellen that is white in the audience near the outside. They really come here for the p***.
Love Everyone
Let's wish Ellen luck on enjoying herself and helping those on her show and with the messages she has for teens today.
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