I do it in another way.
Anyway, a younger person doesn't get to be casual around someone born as a Late Boomer more than an older person. You're just living it up.
Saturday, September 27, 2014
Hate It Hate It
What's in it? How can a girl with older parents outdo a lady who's younger? They're still that much younger, yea?
I wonder if they listen to their own parents, then. Yes.. It's true.
I wonder if they listen to their own parents, then. Yes.. It's true.
My friends are so giddy
they don't even know what happened. Smiling in my face like they could have it all.
I don't like the way my dad's acting.
I bet he told my mom no one wants to see her. Like she's not someone special waiting to be met.
More
I will add he put his hand over in inappropriate part like when something went on that caught our attention. He was giving me all these annoying signs. It just isn't right. It doesn't happen to anyone else. People thought I shouldn't live in Central Florida, but I live with my parents.
You be the judge.
I sit in the front at movies, and this time someone decides to sit by me but only because I had a naughty thought this morning and he knew by watching me all confident and happy. I blew it by squirming in my seat because I didn't want to move, but I did 2 or 3 times. I ended up stomping my foot outside and going insane at home alone, just like trembling.
I learned I can't always take the front seat, and I was ready, but this was just stupid and pathetic. I bought 2 books for this film.
I learned I can't always take the front seat, and I was ready, but this was just stupid and pathetic. I bought 2 books for this film.
It's been proven.
I should be in college. Nothing is happening. I want to spend my youth going to Disney. The funny thing is .. yes I wanna act and therefore would have money and time .. but I'm a feeble and poor girl now.
Anyway, it's funny when an adult compared to you says well I did everything right in my life, and if you did yours wouldn't you be happy? No.
Anyway, it's funny when an adult compared to you says well I did everything right in my life, and if you did yours wouldn't you be happy? No.
Is it right?
Maybe, it's not. I can feel someone squeaming away from me. Hurting me like saying no. But that person isn't supposed to be squeaming. Perhaps, they like other people, though, not just me. I've often thought of this and perhaps have indicated it aloud. I don't know if I'm behind other people with older dads, but my life isn't full of emotion now. Where can I escape to? Being alone and independent is 1 way to get things going.
All I Know Is This
No matter how good you are, you won't get what you want until you've messed up in others's eyes.
How do you tell the difference between people?
You think they are the same as their parents, but their origins are both different, and parents have different kids than who they are. Plus, there is indeed some mixing going on between having 2 parents. The mixing is due to the fact that if the parents are different races it has already meant something to someone that that spark isn't there that would be if both parents were white.
Mah Weh (My Way)
I don't like to submit to Late Boomers, but at the same time I don't submit to parental units who are even older.
Friday, September 26, 2014
You just don't get it.
I'm not the one who's a nigger. Imagine if we were all black. This is all Tim Burton's fault.
If someone does something nice to you
someone else is bound to call you selfish and forever love that who was nice to you in the first place.
and if it's even wrong, mean, selfish and pleasurable .. it's still right!
and if it's even wrong, mean, selfish and pleasurable .. it's still right!
Did you notice
stars today are threatening and demanding of you that you worship them in a certain way when they have all they need, like it "came up?" Like, I got a chance and now you think I'm outta your life well I'm not. And it's like yea I keep up with you and would love a Tweet but see you are far too popular. And your fans are wild but loving, like to see nice people interacting with fans.
I think..
..I've been spoofed to miss The Ellen DeGeneres Show. I happen not to be busy but should be. If I were in college, I could watch random clips online. The fact is Ellen didn't decide to want me off. Someone else. And she listened. I don't like that.
What if she doesn't really want me to watch any of it and me watching it became her "burden?"
What if she doesn't really want me to watch any of it and me watching it became her "burden?"
So
Is it worth it to keep up with any program?
I feel chased off them all. Seriously. This is so ***.
I feel chased off them all. Seriously. This is so ***.
TV
I watch The Ellen DeGeneres Show T-Th.. maybe M and maybe F. :| I dunno? I am getting weird messages that make no sense about when to watch.
A teenager today
can be ugly as shit but will still shine through with the magic formula of age prejudice.
Another Thing
People don't like fake hair, maybe unless they like the cut. I'm trying to be an actress.
I feel like I'm falling for a trap.
Like I am hated for having course, black hair and I'm gonna dye it and not like it and not know why until after.
Like that's the only reason I am hated. My looks. I didn't "do" anything!
Like that's the only reason I am hated. My looks. I didn't "do" anything!
Problems
They should not make me close to my dad and make him important like that in my life. Like, they're always wondering about what it was like around him. I mean in the bad way.
I don't know that I want to be "close" to anyone.
I don't know that I want to be "close" to anyone.
Let's try getting this through.
You don't care about me and what I'm saying, and my dad is very mean on the inside.
My dad admits he is mean, but at the same time he thinks he is just being strict and open to everyone in general in the same way.
In the end, my dad is messed up and not someone you want to get close to most of the time. Why? He is messed up. He looks at me "with love" that I'm disgusting like him, like I'm him, and I'm not! Orlando is super annoying. They did this. I'm gonna have to undo it, somehow. We never lived like this. Now, he's just an evil man like all the other evil men out there. My mom can't get enough. It's not that she knows I'm skinnier than him but that she and others actually believe I am my dad. Even if other girls are their moms, too.
My dad admits he is mean, but at the same time he thinks he is just being strict and open to everyone in general in the same way.
In the end, my dad is messed up and not someone you want to get close to most of the time. Why? He is messed up. He looks at me "with love" that I'm disgusting like him, like I'm him, and I'm not! Orlando is super annoying. They did this. I'm gonna have to undo it, somehow. We never lived like this. Now, he's just an evil man like all the other evil men out there. My mom can't get enough. It's not that she knows I'm skinnier than him but that she and others actually believe I am my dad. Even if other girls are their moms, too.
All This Shit Is Based off Of
Is the shit my x best friends think they got off me worrying and e-mailing them and they wouldn't e-mail BACK!
What Happens
People are paid to torture me, basically. They just sorta leave me hanging and won't leave me alone, somehow at the same time.
If you make up a point of reference
You'll think something else made me think of what to say. But no, I just post what's interesting.
My #1
I cannot say 1 thing. It would seem inappropriate. Yet, may I ask, is everyone's #1 after their self Ellen?
Question
How can Ellen claim to have been nice to me? I think that was some thing she can't claim. She is partly very mean, and I don't want to get her to show off that. I did want to follow her, and I knew it wouldn't be it for me because of Tim Burton and what he done. She already is intimidated by my dad. She's made to be that way. It's no use. Ellen, I give up. How can any person in this world be a #1 for me. Etc. I need some thing in this world I can trust, and it's not who it used to be but probably has to be a thing, like for some it's the beach.
Did anyone interested out there happen to notice
how much nicer Ellen is to Portia. I am me. If someone is amazed it's because I'm also amazing, like all the amazing people are, like we all are.
Why would the board, I mean world, bet its hide on the care of someone as accomplished as Ellen?
No offense, I guess it should make sense, of you read more than one of the sentences.
Well, yes, in the other way of looking at it we can appreciate Ellen for who she is, but why would she care about what people think as a group? She doesn't have to. She likes to admit what we already know. She doesn't know it's because people think we're shit if we're not someone famous.
Why would the board, I mean world, bet its hide on the care of someone as accomplished as Ellen?
No offense, I guess it should make sense, of you read more than one of the sentences.
Well, yes, in the other way of looking at it we can appreciate Ellen for who she is, but why would she care about what people think as a group? She doesn't have to. She likes to admit what we already know. She doesn't know it's because people think we're shit if we're not someone famous.
So so so
I am not here to hurt anyone. If you wanted attention before is your fault. If you want it now figure a way to get it cuz it looks like unfortunately right now is your turn, whether or not you are ready, the world loves you for your race.
I don't need parents.
I don't need parents. Parents don't need me.
It's just the family that's important. Not the being in charge of me, which has become messed up..I haven't really lived with people being in charge of anything I did as though it were bad. I wasn't bad. I was not cared about.
There is some thing in everyone where you feel a little that they are in charge of you but nothing hugely tangible in sight for sore eye.
It's just the family that's important. Not the being in charge of me, which has become messed up..I haven't really lived with people being in charge of anything I did as though it were bad. I wasn't bad. I was not cared about.
There is some thing in everyone where you feel a little that they are in charge of you but nothing hugely tangible in sight for sore eye.
You wanted care and perfection
someone to give a shit, and you got it. Isn't it totally ridiculous everyone finds fault in me? I don't care.
Thursday, September 25, 2014
This is hilarious
As your bright and tiny spark,
Lights the traveler in the dark.
Though I know not what you are,
Twinkle, twinkle, little star.
Lights the traveler in the dark.
Though I know not what you are,
Twinkle, twinkle, little star.
RED ALERT
People are dissing me thinking I'm like the best person anyone in the world could be. They are waiting for some little curl with fluffy white hair and sparkling blue eyes. I don't think everyone likes that. Sure, it's okay. It's just not better. Or is it? We can't all be that way. Like, old men, out.
My Love of English
I have an old best friend who was an English major. I encouraged her in Politics. That was her dream goal. Why do English for Pre-Law? Isn't Politics reading? Reading about naked people thousands of years before Christ? That was my experience in HONORS English. See, I wanted a well-rounded education, too, and I got one for a year. All it is is exposure. I don't remember it. I encouraged my old best friends to come to Loyola in New Orleans with me, but I guess it wasn't special enough with me. I respect her high intelligence, don't think I'm joking.
Early on, I feel I made the decision to do English more than History and so stayed in the Catholic school. Religion was so easy and made so much sense. I was barely conscious of what was going on. The teacher was from Pennsylvania, so pretty astute.
I liked reading fantasy and fiction by myself. I don't know what you'd call things like Alice in Wonderland and A Little Princess. Children's novels. I still haven't read a lot of things, like Little Women, Pride and Prejudice, Great Expectations. I may have owned a small version of Great Expectations. I remember looking through it. Now what? I'm at a loss? It's not special anymore?
Why would people who can read but didn't express early respect for it be dodging the darts as an English and Psychology major?
Early on, I feel I made the decision to do English more than History and so stayed in the Catholic school. Religion was so easy and made so much sense. I was barely conscious of what was going on. The teacher was from Pennsylvania, so pretty astute.
I liked reading fantasy and fiction by myself. I don't know what you'd call things like Alice in Wonderland and A Little Princess. Children's novels. I still haven't read a lot of things, like Little Women, Pride and Prejudice, Great Expectations. I may have owned a small version of Great Expectations. I remember looking through it. Now what? I'm at a loss? It's not special anymore?
Why would people who can read but didn't express early respect for it be dodging the darts as an English and Psychology major?
I think they bribed
the schools in Slidell to each have a certain problem, and mine was history as everyone complained. I did bring home my book to read for fun but never had the energy by a landslide. If I left, I wouldn't be in accelerated English. I got all the highest grades averaged in the end, but I lost so much sleep. I think I should have done something to keep my blood flow. I just didn't want to ruin my figure (shape.)
Stupid School
None of it is really building the soul, like history who cares? But we need to learn to read things that are worth it were it to exist.
We need to learn other things, too.
We need to learn other things, too.
TV
I also watched Lindsey Stirling on The Meredith Show. I waited the whole show just to see her as soon as it came on. She is so lovely.
Soaked In
Josh Groban on the Meredith Show
He talked about his life, the fact he is learning to fly. They played a game with paper planes where they both got bullseye in the 2 or 3 times they went, as they got closer.
He talked about how there's a Twitter for all his body parts, and I found it very funny!
He seems like a good guy to have around and seems to live a pretty good life. I wonder how he's taking society.
He talked about his life, the fact he is learning to fly. They played a game with paper planes where they both got bullseye in the 2 or 3 times they went, as they got closer.
He talked about how there's a Twitter for all his body parts, and I found it very funny!
He seems like a good guy to have around and seems to live a pretty good life. I wonder how he's taking society.
Interesting and Currently Popular Question
This is a part of my personal life, and for some people this post is not meant for their eyes.
Why would there suddenly be a girl in your class with a big nose when everyone's dream is to have a big nose? It seems as though some parents think their kids are not ready for a big nose or the parents didn't have a big nose and they think it should be the same. I just feel labeled the bad guy. I know, it sounds like we're complaining and being unfair to those with a big nose who are well-liked.
Sometimes, it was the shape of the nose. Mine went from smooth to with such visible holes.
Why would there suddenly be a girl in your class with a big nose when everyone's dream is to have a big nose? It seems as though some parents think their kids are not ready for a big nose or the parents didn't have a big nose and they think it should be the same. I just feel labeled the bad guy. I know, it sounds like we're complaining and being unfair to those with a big nose who are well-liked.
Sometimes, it was the shape of the nose. Mine went from smooth to with such visible holes.
Look-Alikes
JonBenet Ramsy looks like Charlotte Church. I saw a picture of her with her mom. I like her mom.
*jumps up naked from under the bushes*
I know very young people gave up on Ellen DeGeneres because her mom's last name is Askenazi Jewish.
*they still are waiting to catch you and see if you do it and have ways of making that not happen*
*they still are waiting to catch you and see if you do it and have ways of making that not happen*
Doesn't it seem like
there'd be more Portias for Ellen? Is Portia a locked up case? Not offensively speaking.
Wednesday, September 24, 2014
Update
I had to take out my ballet video from one of my Tumblrs cuz I realized I didn't have the rights to the song.
A Great Deed Doer
I think what Ellen does is great, airs a program hoping to infuse the current population with an hour of "laughing." You know, like "the people" she shows, poor black kids usually who feel stuck in the dirt.
I'll put this one up to my blog.
as opposed to up on the IMDb Soapbox message board.
I am very careful not to have any issues with anyone and to fix if anything's wrong.
What do you think about how I am always treated like something's wrong and there's nothing else for them to do?
Something wrong is something you fix, not something you try to keep on about. Things don't just keep popping up, like the same thing over and over until something else happens.
I realize that there's now always something wrong in the world. It isn't me, though, if anyone can figure.
It's a very sensitive and highly important thing to me, so me dealing with this is none but strange. It's strange because I care and I fear even with me realizing new things to fix that something will always happen.
Isn't it natural to feel pain when someone hurts you? When you talk about it without insulting anyone, why the problem? I am not really talking about anything, but I still feel something waiting pervading over me. I even sometimes detach myself from some things in order not to weigh the issue with it but not totally I mean.
One argument is others's insecurities allowed to be taken out on me as a precaution. I am told I can ignore it, but that doesn't seem like it's rolled out nicely. I would think something negative, and I feel I've been declawed of my natural thoughts and that now only words can provoke those feelings in me.
Lot of things went bad for me, and I can't seem to fix them, like it's someone else's game and they're winning, which is always how stories go when you hear them told. What's important? Because of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, suddenly people are all attacking me and I'm outwardly and blatantly wrong, when I just told you I was like the only one who seems to care about being polite and let be?
I am very careful not to have any issues with anyone and to fix if anything's wrong.
What do you think about how I am always treated like something's wrong and there's nothing else for them to do?
Something wrong is something you fix, not something you try to keep on about. Things don't just keep popping up, like the same thing over and over until something else happens.
I realize that there's now always something wrong in the world. It isn't me, though, if anyone can figure.
It's a very sensitive and highly important thing to me, so me dealing with this is none but strange. It's strange because I care and I fear even with me realizing new things to fix that something will always happen.
Isn't it natural to feel pain when someone hurts you? When you talk about it without insulting anyone, why the problem? I am not really talking about anything, but I still feel something waiting pervading over me. I even sometimes detach myself from some things in order not to weigh the issue with it but not totally I mean.
One argument is others's insecurities allowed to be taken out on me as a precaution. I am told I can ignore it, but that doesn't seem like it's rolled out nicely. I would think something negative, and I feel I've been declawed of my natural thoughts and that now only words can provoke those feelings in me.
Lot of things went bad for me, and I can't seem to fix them, like it's someone else's game and they're winning, which is always how stories go when you hear them told. What's important? Because of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, suddenly people are all attacking me and I'm outwardly and blatantly wrong, when I just told you I was like the only one who seems to care about being polite and let be?
Possessive of Their Kids
I saw a man who looked born in the 1960s and I saw Chloe Grace Moretz's profile and it looked like a baby.
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
No matter how much anyone would try
Ellen would be closer to people with parents from the South even if your family is from Florida.
I just noticed she seemed to really like Dakota Fanning, for example. Not to get snotty, but it seems that the world is changing, and people from the South only if having blood prior from there get attention..
I just noticed she seemed to really like Dakota Fanning, for example. Not to get snotty, but it seems that the world is changing, and people from the South only if having blood prior from there get attention..
Question
If someone "brings it," how does that happen to them .. just to make them happy?
Then, to show off, others manipulate them? Like when to be nice to who and do what.
I mean, so people bring it if they are sweet, shy, and get lots of attention, with probably more simulating private lives than the rest of us, to what they know? Someone just said this happens. So, I started to wonder. I apparently am not finished..or am I? xp People have a big deal with me when I feel stimulated, like some think I'm not supposed to do it, usually it seems that people one's own age would think that or in my case.
Then, to show off, others manipulate them? Like when to be nice to who and do what.
I mean, so people bring it if they are sweet, shy, and get lots of attention, with probably more simulating private lives than the rest of us, to what they know? Someone just said this happens. So, I started to wonder. I apparently am not finished..or am I? xp People have a big deal with me when I feel stimulated, like some think I'm not supposed to do it, usually it seems that people one's own age would think that or in my case.
I dunno
If I call my Gramma outside
there'll be cars and some people
I need to ask my dad for the #
Dunno if it's sleep time or something, for her and otherwise me
there'll be cars and some people
I need to ask my dad for the #
Dunno if it's sleep time or something, for her and otherwise me
Did you ever notice
they treat people born in the late 1950s and early 1960s like they are so special?
Gramma can you hear me?
I need to call her sometime when I'm out walking. I feel so sluggish when on the phone at home.
I thought the English
wanted straight for New York or something. You know, it's great, and they're a pure and original heritage.
What will my dad do when he finds out
he likes Ellen and not me because of him?
Of course, I support his getting better as a person and might have solidified this desire in magnification. Something did happen, I felt cornered that he'd be whining in an attractive way.
Of course, I support his getting better as a person and might have solidified this desire in magnification. Something did happen, I felt cornered that he'd be whining in an attractive way.
TV
The Voice needs to be proclaimed its specialization in POP music and not like it could be classical. It was like that on Rising Star, though.
You think you're here to wait around
and take over my life? Prolong it until I'm too old to establish one?
IMDb - The Soapbox
I might take voice lessons.
It costs $300/month. That's $75/week. I took from a theater and speech specialist for $200/month as a deal.I was wondering if I should try and land on Broadway or just keep trying to be an actor through an agency.
I need to add power to my voice, again, and a voice teacher can infuse that capability.
Otherwise, I go to Disney World each week, would have to give it up.
He is saying he's like a temporary influence. He has a Masters, I dunno.
Then, I can't dye my hair. I think I could make a good actor as is. I have experience in high school, which seems most important.
Startled
There is no romantic generation of people finish off their silly mood like a teenager while in their 20s making babies born then unable to survive in the wild.
Treating people my age like Late Boomers were teenagers when I was born at the late ages of 25-30..
I don't want to "get 'something' started."
Like they're a baby and the center of attention in some global movement.
Will all Late Boomers end up in trouble?
Disregard my dad's or others's insecurities. I won't end up without anyone as a parental unit to me. Even people less than a year older do what that is.
What about my dad's generation?
Treating people my age like Late Boomers were teenagers when I was born at the late ages of 25-30..
I don't want to "get 'something' started."
Like they're a baby and the center of attention in some global movement.
Will all Late Boomers end up in trouble?
Disregard my dad's or others's insecurities. I won't end up without anyone as a parental unit to me. Even people less than a year older do what that is.
What about my dad's generation?
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