Sunday, September 7, 2014
Do you think you're smart
to be gifted to think of being mean to someone who's innocent who you think did something? Someone in the capitol of Lousiana said to execute someone piece by piece, like "the death penalty was too good for him."
That's Louisiana.
They state the ideal, and THEN they sign out and go along with the crowd. It's very subtle.
You act like I deserve
to be bossed around. I can see like a lady yelling at me, "No!" ("No, Christina!") I didn't deserve any punishment! It's not that they did anything but this attitude.
Interesting
Why are people so mean to me about questioning this girl getting attention when they talk to me? It just seems suspicious. I don't think it's right. Why not just talk to everyone, instead? I mean, people are acting like she's better. That's what. I like people getting attention, in this way. I'm not trying to start something, but I wanted to kindle a small fire so as not to set a big one, later. I'm worried. People around me. I feel so alone, though. I think I deserve to know people, but I mean I don't expect it to be famous people. You know, people are mean to me, anyway. :|
What makes a person bad?
I think about how bossy etc. kids are born in the Fort Lauderdale area.
They take attention away from you. That's really what they do, I'm not trying to imply something else, at least not now or not in this way or whatever, not sure what floats your boat. I don't really know. It doesn't make sense to be so vicious to me about it, in some ways, but it might be agitation of the population I'm talking about. I mean, yea, no need to over-worry..
But, yes, they get to live on the beach and they take attention away from you naturally. Why do they get to do that? They won't do that to me again.
Why do they live in the special beach family place, when you've lived there once but get hated on for getting to do that, while these other people continue to be brats taking all the attention away from you?
They take attention away from you. That's really what they do, I'm not trying to imply something else, at least not now or not in this way or whatever, not sure what floats your boat. I don't really know. It doesn't make sense to be so vicious to me about it, in some ways, but it might be agitation of the population I'm talking about. I mean, yea, no need to over-worry..
But, yes, they get to live on the beach and they take attention away from you naturally. Why do they get to do that? They won't do that to me again.
Why do they live in the special beach family place, when you've lived there once but get hated on for getting to do that, while these other people continue to be brats taking all the attention away from you?
I don't appreciate
you whiny brats making fun of me about how I feel around older people "cuz you know what I said when I was a kid and the oldest with brats around."
Saturday, September 6, 2014
When you are the only one who comes out alive
You'd think you'd be praised.
Yes, I like things with others. See, if they were negative, I'd be negative. Like, if there were no pretty people to play with it'd be like living with toads.
Yes, I like things with others. See, if they were negative, I'd be negative. Like, if there were no pretty people to play with it'd be like living with toads.
Did you see
Charlotte Church and Josh Groban go phew and Sarah Brightman barely make it? In singing with fame, regardless of what they sound like? They are beautiful to me.
Do you suppose..
..they had my best interests at heart? I asked again at 7, and my mom was frustrated. Where could I sing? I was always with them!
My dad doesn't even talk to me.
Why would I twinkle bunny sing at him? You all suggest I do some perverted things. My parents didn't have me sing that ****ing early. I wanted to at 5 when I was introduced at school. Pre-K was just art, and I already was a good artist. I still like being an artist, but I'm not right now, focusing on getting a living acting. I do more than 1 art. My stuff is all messed up, I need to refurnisth or put things away.
So, do you think my parents thought I needed to wait? I know they would think my singing was silly if I did it when I was 1 or 2. They would think I was their little twinkle bunny, some insignificant fantasy to be manipulated and m*****ed. I can't believe it. I even wanted to play flute. How can I face those losers?
So, do you think my parents thought I needed to wait? I know they would think my singing was silly if I did it when I was 1 or 2. They would think I was their little twinkle bunny, some insignificant fantasy to be manipulated and m*****ed. I can't believe it. I even wanted to play flute. How can I face those losers?
Why are people telling me I am no good?
What about acting? Today, my dad kept saying I couldn't act. You think you can live with yourself?
Problem
Why does my dad want to keep me from singing? I'm not his twinkle bunny. So what if I didn't sing like his twinkle bunny? I don't want to sing like anyone's twinkle bunny!! I want to be confident and ure of myself alone without singing "up" to him, like some twinkle bunny. I didn't talk about it before, but you're invading my life. My voice could have been great. I will stop at nothing whoever did this to me.
Frank?
Why do you think I can't sing, Ellen DeGeneres? I have sung well many a time. Is that also not true? People loved my singing and still would. I even know how to get my voice back. I'm focusing on getting a job as an extra in a movie, now, so I don't die someday without having done anything in the world and aim to get a college degree.
I could have been great.
Aren't I? Why do people shy away? Don't mind the reference I got it from. It does seem like a statement has been made. Pretty much, people think I'm nothing? Naw.
Some people reject others as a living. Then, they say you're tacky for wanting approval, attention, time.
Some people reject others as a living. Then, they say you're tacky for wanting approval, attention, time.
What's worse?
My friends being spammed help and concern by my incessantly over a long period of time like I'm not a bundle of sunshine
or
Ellen DeGeneres putting the noises in my room and it bothering people that it happened .. and my "sins are not to be forgiven" that I was in pain when I cursed about it and you can look at it in past blogs? I cursed at her only a little and subbed my dad in more so as not to get mad at her. Silly, I know, but possibly an important start. The thing is you could get me mad enough to curse more..
But people keep worrying about my old friends doing something mean because of that - see, they didn't e-mail me back, etc.. like I wasn't a cool friend. No note on their part of this as to why. I think they should be considered guilty for things they've done to me, along with what I did.
or
Ellen DeGeneres putting the noises in my room and it bothering people that it happened .. and my "sins are not to be forgiven" that I was in pain when I cursed about it and you can look at it in past blogs? I cursed at her only a little and subbed my dad in more so as not to get mad at her. Silly, I know, but possibly an important start. The thing is you could get me mad enough to curse more..
But people keep worrying about my old friends doing something mean because of that - see, they didn't e-mail me back, etc.. like I wasn't a cool friend. No note on their part of this as to why. I think they should be considered guilty for things they've done to me, along with what I did.
I liked knowing others places.
I just wanna go back. My aunt and cousin live there, and I wanna be occupied. I was thinking of it being:
1) Miami
2) Fort Lauderdale
3) Key West
4) New Orleans
5) the Cleveland area
1) Miami
2) Fort Lauderdale
3) Key West
4) New Orleans
5) the Cleveland area
Who's wit'me?
I feel pangs of pain when I think about how I left Fort Lauderdale and how it's considered to be unreachable. Why? Because other people grew up there.
Why is Key West
so crappy? It's like New Orleans, but New Orleans has NE influence. What about the cool places like Texas??
What would you say about
the uniqueness of Sarah Brightman's voice? Is it so unique and so good that it's thee winner? I used to be "good."
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What would you say if
all of a sudden famous people were reaching out to enough teenagers after it's too late for you to care?
Budding Ideas
take time
Things famous people took a peanut-nosed stand on I am open to figuring out. I mean, it's not just who I am but ideas.
I mean like giving other people attention..which I assume they will.
Things famous people took a peanut-nosed stand on I am open to figuring out. I mean, it's not just who I am but ideas.
I mean like giving other people attention..which I assume they will.
Vocaroo
overall 1/5 :( - felt different, but who knows.. maybe I will change the rating.
Record music with Vocaroo >>
Record music with Vocaroo >>
So what..
Ellen is making everyone wear glasses for safety in Hollywood? I said sorry and that I thought she was an adult and wouldn't mind I said that. Ellen implies most of her beliefs when they are so obvious it should be all she says on the show ahaha not really.
She's smart. My mom had an eye cancer and then breast and then bone.
She's smart. My mom had an eye cancer and then breast and then bone.
What's this?
Now, Tina Fey owns glasses? OMg, is it cuz I said Ellen DeGeneres was m********ing in pleasure over my mom's glasses? I didn't mean it like that! I'm not the evil 1 on the net. My mom got glasses, for Christ's sake, and I know it was when I'd been watching Ellen and she got in 2 car accidents that made her wear glasses.
Don't blame your glasses on me!!
Don't blame your glasses on me!!
Do you think people are
*** with happiness however they found out I thought to spam advice to old friends? They didn't say not to. I was being tortured by my environment and had no one to talk to, nothing to do. Forgot about blogging, etc.
Another Thing
I feel guilty for my mom's bone cancer that will leave her weak for 1/2 year. What if it is supposed to happen to me, in others's view? You could take that too far and do it with every little thing. It is a marker in the road.
What to Do
Even if I say, okay, I'll have those old friends in my life, which makes no sense cuz I was gonna.. but they wouldn't write to me that soon.
I just don't like how when I do something it means I'll never live life as a person without being bugged about it. Like, I see everything has gone to them for me spamming them advice cuz I was worried. Actually, it was cuz I didn't think of getting a blog most of my life. I just knew it wouldn't be perfect. I wasn't always too late, but I feel invaded of my privacy because of Tim Burton for some reason, like my writing is so shallow and and not very personal.
Who are the ringleaders in being mean to me for stupid stuff? I didn't spam spam. I just spammed. I had no one to talk to, like nowhere to go (no car at least and no money,) and nothing to do. I'm sorry if you are a ringleader and I called it stupid. I really am not the kind of person you think judging by minor mistakes. Why is it that it's such an accepted joke all of a sudden not to be interested nor aroused by me cuz I'm 1/2 non-white? You get aroused by non-whites.
I just don't like how when I do something it means I'll never live life as a person without being bugged about it. Like, I see everything has gone to them for me spamming them advice cuz I was worried. Actually, it was cuz I didn't think of getting a blog most of my life. I just knew it wouldn't be perfect. I wasn't always too late, but I feel invaded of my privacy because of Tim Burton for some reason, like my writing is so shallow and and not very personal.
Who are the ringleaders in being mean to me for stupid stuff? I didn't spam spam. I just spammed. I had no one to talk to, like nowhere to go (no car at least and no money,) and nothing to do. I'm sorry if you are a ringleader and I called it stupid. I really am not the kind of person you think judging by minor mistakes. Why is it that it's such an accepted joke all of a sudden not to be interested nor aroused by me cuz I'm 1/2 non-white? You get aroused by non-whites.
Friday, September 5, 2014
Book
I found hidden treasures in the children's section. I already read the "Junior" novel for Frozen, no pix. I got the book of the Box Trolls, not the one it was based on which is bigger. I'm so excited!
I just saw The Remaining with Alexa Vega and some other people.. funny how names don't make it these days, shoulda trusted me to act the parts.
I just saw The Remaining with Alexa Vega and some other people.. funny how names don't make it these days, shoulda trusted me to act the parts.
Automatic Respect
You may think I'm shit, but I used to have a voice. I was convinced by Johnny Depp to stop singing and have a normal life if I still could, but I didn't talk, and my voice is nothing to be excited over, thought it used to be in some way.
I don't know!
I'm sorry I blew!
I was already mad. For some reason it's hard to think then. I try to not listen now, but that doesn't really seem to be working, yet. :( It sounds crazy to me. I don't agree that someone is better than me, though. So, like, even if you want to pretend I am in trouble or think I need to be taught a lesson, then just teach me the lesson rather than upsetting me. You see people upset at shit all the time. Small shit. Good people, respectable people who everyone knows is European.. Maybe, part of your message is that I'm not white, but how can you honestly tell? I'm not shit. I see other people of my race, maybe shit in some ways, but not all people of my race. People just don't want other races to succeed cuz they think they know they will always be that race even if they want to forget it, literally, like me, and succeed in the end. I don't know if people are really messed up and how, but I do feel sorry if they are not like successful and being comfortable and not to crazy, mistakeningly thinking whites all want to be Asian still. I mean, I think some people are like .. a certain way that doesn't suit me, like physically, and that might be what's going on.
I was already mad. For some reason it's hard to think then. I try to not listen now, but that doesn't really seem to be working, yet. :( It sounds crazy to me. I don't agree that someone is better than me, though. So, like, even if you want to pretend I am in trouble or think I need to be taught a lesson, then just teach me the lesson rather than upsetting me. You see people upset at shit all the time. Small shit. Good people, respectable people who everyone knows is European.. Maybe, part of your message is that I'm not white, but how can you honestly tell? I'm not shit. I see other people of my race, maybe shit in some ways, but not all people of my race. People just don't want other races to succeed cuz they think they know they will always be that race even if they want to forget it, literally, like me, and succeed in the end. I don't know if people are really messed up and how, but I do feel sorry if they are not like successful and being comfortable and not to crazy, mistakeningly thinking whites all want to be Asian still. I mean, I think some people are like .. a certain way that doesn't suit me, like physically, and that might be what's going on.
What to Say About All My Relationships..
or pretend relationships with people.
Well, I don't want to cause anything, honestly, and I don't know who does and doesn't know they do it..
Yes, people seem to say I'm smarter than my dad.
Well, I don't want to cause anything, honestly, and I don't know who does and doesn't know they do it..
Yes, people seem to say I'm smarter than my dad.
How I Am
Well, I was irritated and cursed at people in my head again, maybe too tired and not too happy. They just kept bugging me like I'm a sin or I did something. I was squirming and stuff in the car and being loud getting things. My dad claimed he noticed. He talked and the rest of the day went fine, technically.
Well, I haven't permanently outed, if that's what you're wondering.
Why does Ellen teach people the hard way? It looks like her mom set her up to be the only 1 to succeed, not meaning it in the offensive way. She grew up to live a certain way because she's from New Orleans, but I don't believe that. Let's see why she doesn't have these problems. All I can say is, I think you should express emotions sometimes through curse words cuz it's funny, and nothing wrong with stomping your foot if not for a bad reason. It might just show extra emotion.
Well, I haven't permanently outed, if that's what you're wondering.
Why does Ellen teach people the hard way? It looks like her mom set her up to be the only 1 to succeed, not meaning it in the offensive way. She grew up to live a certain way because she's from New Orleans, but I don't believe that. Let's see why she doesn't have these problems. All I can say is, I think you should express emotions sometimes through curse words cuz it's funny, and nothing wrong with stomping your foot if not for a bad reason. It might just show extra emotion.
I can see it happened.
In a way, a thought isn't bad, but it's something to take into consideration of thought and stop. I'm being harassed, and I guess a thought just came to me and ticked. Just wanna stay out of it. Can't seem to avoid the negative messages.
I wasn't too mad
@ Ellen, but I had to say I know she did it in some weird way. Thanks for looking out for me, but I don't need it.
Questioning
So, Ellen is going through the process of questioning 1's disposition in love? Like, maybe it's not okay to be with boys, like someone said that and threw that up for me? When things for me were getting interesting? You all hate me and left the end empty for me and stole from me emotionally. You say everything is simply inappropriate that I like. We were over this when I was in grade school. I'm not 2. And I'm not a terrible 2.
I don't appreciate
the monkey business that's been going around, like JuJu on the news talking about a favorite singer pronouncing Ju the wrong way for me. In Asian instead of English. Get away from me. Ellen, if you believe in sacrificing people like that, you need help or you're not gonna be someone for me. I saw you do it. I'm not doing it. Period. I don't know what's the problem, but I refuse to accept this. If you were my mother, I'd be upset. Why? Because that's what you said you'd do. Wait, you're just selfish or scared for yourself that would mean. Well, my mom worked out fine. Why don't you be 1/2 of our dads?
I will not be
given to my dad as a baby if I want to feel someone else is like a parent to me. That's not the point! They are silly people. Don't make them get too much closer in a certain way. This isn't a very detailed post. It's like you didn't let me have any opportunities and I never had any close friends. Wasn't that all I used to talk about that you all consider complaining? I didn't grow up with computers and didn't know if I should start a blog, yet. Guess we should ASAP.
Message
Your starting out video reminds me of me getting all this attention when I do music. It was crazy.
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What is your primary race|ethnicity?
(1) White|Caucasian
(2) Latino
(3) Black|Middle Easterner|Pacific Islander
(4) Italian
Mine is German.
(2) Latino
(3) Black|Middle Easterner|Pacific Islander
(4) Italian
Mine is German.
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