Monday, July 21, 2014
You
taught those people 6 years younger than me to flaunt that I'm not worth it. With me, you are just strict and boring.
It's true.
Adults thought it was an improvement to make kids feel more self-important than they were.
Do you hate those people born in the 70s and early 80s
who think that they get to be silly about serious things. IT'S MY TURN AND IT'S MY BLOG!
Influence on the World for Greed
I have this teacher who has taught speaking for Orlando characters since hte 80s. She has a dad from Pennsylvania. She is very sarcastic and pleasure-guilty. She rubs in things that no one even notices nor are they supposed to do that, like if you're inhibited. She'll just say, "Yer bad!"
I don't give a lick of shit about Orlando.
They say I'm really amazing but not perfect, as in don't deserve what I want emotionally. How stupid can you be? I am ugly cuza my parents's lifestyles, not because of when I control my life!
The girl didn't
tell anyone to be mean to me.
It's true, though, her attitude. Ya'll are invalids if you just think I'm bad. Ellen deserves to be punished, anyway. Look at her mom. I wasn't even cursing at her unless I did it in a creative way that wasn't exactly it usually or I was crazy heated up cursing about her noises being in my room, the clicks. I'm sorry Ellen, but it's true. Your mom even thinks so. I don't deserve this chaos. I can say what I like without feeling ***, schizo, or held back more! You may disagree, but you're forgetting if I didn't say it we wouldn't know what I wanted to say. How's that? Your mom thinks you need to cool off. I'm not being saracstic nor pretentious. I'm saying you keep being antsy that I need to be hurt emotionally. Now, that's not okay. My mom wants me to learn to deal with it, too. I at least have a freedom of speech, whereas what you do is punishable by the law.
It's true, though, her attitude. Ya'll are invalids if you just think I'm bad. Ellen deserves to be punished, anyway. Look at her mom. I wasn't even cursing at her unless I did it in a creative way that wasn't exactly it usually or I was crazy heated up cursing about her noises being in my room, the clicks. I'm sorry Ellen, but it's true. Your mom even thinks so. I don't deserve this chaos. I can say what I like without feeling ***, schizo, or held back more! You may disagree, but you're forgetting if I didn't say it we wouldn't know what I wanted to say. How's that? Your mom thinks you need to cool off. I'm not being saracstic nor pretentious. I'm saying you keep being antsy that I need to be hurt emotionally. Now, that's not okay. My mom wants me to learn to deal with it, too. I at least have a freedom of speech, whereas what you do is punishable by the law.
Is it selfish..
..when you have too much attention and want others to get none?
That's not what's really happening to me. I think people could just seem to be looking for an excuse. Why do I have to act a certain way to get attention?
That's not what's really happening to me. I think people could just seem to be looking for an excuse. Why do I have to act a certain way to get attention?
OK I admit it. Someone help me.
Someone would turn their back on me and make me feel guilty for reporting that someone was indeed being disgusting by definition. They like that person because of this just to annoy me probably. I don't really enjoy this game.
I didn't post this yet, but my cousin is basically .. considered someone who is more rough, tough, gruff, and fluff. Bella Thorne, like us, is from the same area as Johnny Depp. She's actually worse than my cousin cuz no one corrects her. They don't really tell my cousin no over me, though. The other girl is about 5 years younger than my cousin. See, my family at least knows they are wrong. The rest of the world is in my face and I'm gonna have some fun with it. }:)
I didn't post this yet, but my cousin is basically .. considered someone who is more rough, tough, gruff, and fluff. Bella Thorne, like us, is from the same area as Johnny Depp. She's actually worse than my cousin cuz no one corrects her. They don't really tell my cousin no over me, though. The other girl is about 5 years younger than my cousin. See, my family at least knows they are wrong. The rest of the world is in my face and I'm gonna have some fun with it. }:)
A Bit of Advice I Got
Why would people hurt your feelings only if you are nice to them and like them a lot?
I dunno if it's the answer I'm looking at, but it sure is interesting if people can think things like that.
I dunno if it's the answer I'm looking at, but it sure is interesting if people can think things like that.
Story
There was a maiden of 40 named Ellen. She had a beautiful daughter named Bella Thorne with tight, shiny, curly red locks and crystal blue eyes. She was only 20. Her younger sister Chloe Grace Moretz was 19. The older sister, a maid but also a witch like everyone else, was 30. Chloe liked to play in her dimly lit room with her bluish gray kitten. It was absolutely adorable.
1 of the boys that lived there's name was Josh Groban. He was 35 and had many lovely friends, girls and boys. They were more the candy loving kids, always fooling, but always caring. Chloe came up to him and said she hurt her finger, and he kissed it and it was better. He picked her up and told her a story on his lap with his arms wrapped around her. Now, Christina was watching as their story unfolded.
She sneaked up on her kid sister and said, "Hey, Bella," and tugged at her dance-like outfit.
"What?" she said listlessly and girlishly.
"Let's go spy on Chloe-"
"No!" said Bella.
"Okay, race you to the garden," and she sped out.
She was in the land of flowers. She even thought she heard them talking. Josh Groban was in site.
"Hey," he said, coming down, taking off his hat.
"What?" she said, bemused sprawled out on the flowers. He was a dream to her, such a nice, lovely gentleman. "Well, what is it?"
"Well, Bella told me you wanted me?" he replied.
"Oh!" she was shy. She perked up. "Just wanted to spy. Race you to the horses!"
He galloped off after her. They were witch and warlock. They rode the horses across the stream and even over it and far, far away. They were in a kingdom.
"Ooh, what's this-" she started surrounded by others, and he covered her mouth. He put her on his horse and said they were at the palace of Camelot. She had never known what it was. As soon as they stopped, she got off. The horses wandered back home. They went up to the drawbridge, and Josh shouted, "Open Sesame!" The gate slammed down, spraying up dust or dirt. They walked in. Christina was dressed in a favorite party dress which was down t her ankles. Josh held her cuz she musta been scared and he explained to the royalty that they had come here for entertainment. They took Chris and she went to a royal room to learn about music. Josh already knew music. In the end, they all sat together at a round table to eat. She had a large gold goblet of gold. She sipped like everyone else, no taste of alcohol. It was almost like a fruit smoothie but very condensed and slurped more down or rather poured more in her throat. When it was over, Josh carried her up to bed in the palace, and he went off and found some friends to talk to. Christina overheard them and found out there was to be something of a war, which meant people would be checking things out to make sure they are safe and with the cannons ready at the gates. Josh decided to help cuz he was smart. Christina watched afar from the tower. To Christina's surprise, she saw a horse with a horn and wings it flew past her. She saw them talking to goblins and settling things with the poor. At lunch that day, it was grand, the war was over. They all made a big caravan and camped out in some magical trees.
"Josh, I'm scared," said Christina, and he picked her up like Chloe and put her on his laugh and rocked her to sleep, for he loved everyone who came to him. Later that night, Christina woke up and saw a wolf with glaring eyes beyond the fire that surrounded their sleep. She was very silent and missed her sisters.. Finally, it was time to go. Christina ran alongside the caravan like a teenager or little girl. "Josh!"
"What?" he said, kindly.
"Do you know what my favorite thing is?" she asked.
"Cuddling up with me?" he said.
"Actually, I miss being like an older mentor for smaller children. I love you, too."
They took a detour. They had to part the caravan at the bay. Christina was the youngest 1, now, and there were some other people like around 32 and 33. They played London Bridges. Christina got tired and sat by the water. "Careful there," said Josh.
"Why?"
"The water is dangerous and sharks live in water," he said, sternly. She started to sob, and he held her. He picked up the youngest girl.
So, finally the boat came and Christina was happy again and went to the top and talked with the other people nearest her age and laughed a lot.
"Where are we going?" she said aloud.
"To meet Jack Sparrow."
"Oh," she said.
Josh picked up a scared girl with long, blonde hair, and Christina stood guard with the older men, who thought her something of a tomboy, dress off and just pants and a top on. She put on her coat and blasted off orders. It was a long time at sea. They had bundles of food. They finally landed on an island, and a drunk man came teetering forward, and all man and woman alike fell in love at 1st site, despite. "Hear ye, hear ye!" said the youngest boy of 32. "We come - in peace!" Together they all ate, and Jack brought his burly crew. Christina easily became a favorite in her dark red, leather jacket.
1 of the boys that lived there's name was Josh Groban. He was 35 and had many lovely friends, girls and boys. They were more the candy loving kids, always fooling, but always caring. Chloe came up to him and said she hurt her finger, and he kissed it and it was better. He picked her up and told her a story on his lap with his arms wrapped around her. Now, Christina was watching as their story unfolded.
She sneaked up on her kid sister and said, "Hey, Bella," and tugged at her dance-like outfit.
"What?" she said listlessly and girlishly.
"Let's go spy on Chloe-"
"No!" said Bella.
"Okay, race you to the garden," and she sped out.
She was in the land of flowers. She even thought she heard them talking. Josh Groban was in site.
"Hey," he said, coming down, taking off his hat.
"What?" she said, bemused sprawled out on the flowers. He was a dream to her, such a nice, lovely gentleman. "Well, what is it?"
"Well, Bella told me you wanted me?" he replied.
"Oh!" she was shy. She perked up. "Just wanted to spy. Race you to the horses!"
He galloped off after her. They were witch and warlock. They rode the horses across the stream and even over it and far, far away. They were in a kingdom.
"Ooh, what's this-" she started surrounded by others, and he covered her mouth. He put her on his horse and said they were at the palace of Camelot. She had never known what it was. As soon as they stopped, she got off. The horses wandered back home. They went up to the drawbridge, and Josh shouted, "Open Sesame!" The gate slammed down, spraying up dust or dirt. They walked in. Christina was dressed in a favorite party dress which was down t her ankles. Josh held her cuz she musta been scared and he explained to the royalty that they had come here for entertainment. They took Chris and she went to a royal room to learn about music. Josh already knew music. In the end, they all sat together at a round table to eat. She had a large gold goblet of gold. She sipped like everyone else, no taste of alcohol. It was almost like a fruit smoothie but very condensed and slurped more down or rather poured more in her throat. When it was over, Josh carried her up to bed in the palace, and he went off and found some friends to talk to. Christina overheard them and found out there was to be something of a war, which meant people would be checking things out to make sure they are safe and with the cannons ready at the gates. Josh decided to help cuz he was smart. Christina watched afar from the tower. To Christina's surprise, she saw a horse with a horn and wings it flew past her. She saw them talking to goblins and settling things with the poor. At lunch that day, it was grand, the war was over. They all made a big caravan and camped out in some magical trees.
"Josh, I'm scared," said Christina, and he picked her up like Chloe and put her on his laugh and rocked her to sleep, for he loved everyone who came to him. Later that night, Christina woke up and saw a wolf with glaring eyes beyond the fire that surrounded their sleep. She was very silent and missed her sisters.. Finally, it was time to go. Christina ran alongside the caravan like a teenager or little girl. "Josh!"
"What?" he said, kindly.
"Do you know what my favorite thing is?" she asked.
"Cuddling up with me?" he said.
"Actually, I miss being like an older mentor for smaller children. I love you, too."
They took a detour. They had to part the caravan at the bay. Christina was the youngest 1, now, and there were some other people like around 32 and 33. They played London Bridges. Christina got tired and sat by the water. "Careful there," said Josh.
"Why?"
"The water is dangerous and sharks live in water," he said, sternly. She started to sob, and he held her. He picked up the youngest girl.
So, finally the boat came and Christina was happy again and went to the top and talked with the other people nearest her age and laughed a lot.
"Where are we going?" she said aloud.
"To meet Jack Sparrow."
"Oh," she said.
Josh picked up a scared girl with long, blonde hair, and Christina stood guard with the older men, who thought her something of a tomboy, dress off and just pants and a top on. She put on her coat and blasted off orders. It was a long time at sea. They had bundles of food. They finally landed on an island, and a drunk man came teetering forward, and all man and woman alike fell in love at 1st site, despite. "Hear ye, hear ye!" said the youngest boy of 32. "We come - in peace!" Together they all ate, and Jack brought his burly crew. Christina easily became a favorite in her dark red, leather jacket.
A Sincerest Apology
My dad made me mad and I said something a bit graphic. It was totally deplorable, but he had just yelled at me or something.. It seems worse now. I really like this person, too, I dunno I have schizophrenia. I think that's what it is. I imagined myself in place in begging for forgiveness. Bad thing is people could find out. So, imagine me dying like that. Punish as you will. I was feeling outta it and did not really mean it. I dunno why I thought and said that. Oh, yea, it reminded me of my pizza, and then I said it later. And of course I didn't think of it like really happening. :( I'm very sad now.
Sunday, July 20, 2014
Tuesday, July 1, 2014
Problem
Ellen is messing with my life. She wants me to regret saying I wanna fight w/her, and now ppl are getting something out @ my singing abilities. She's been fighting w/me.
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Wednesday, April 16, 2014
Tuesday, April 15, 2014
TV
I just watched "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" as always.
The monologue was very interesting, I'm glad she's having so much fun. She certainly deserves to have the best of times. Her outfit was cute. I take it she does like the color blue. She had such a snazzy coat, and her shirt under was spiffed nicely, as well. It was red plaid.
The babies she showed looked good and healthy and ready to be good children and have a good time in this world. I feel ready to be a mama but nah. Maybe when I'm 40. It would be harder to find a boy. I am ready for someone different, but if it's a different race I guess I'd just try to make them white.
It was so funny when she erased on that screen. I can tell now that anything she does puts a smile on the face of kids born around 1997.
Kate Walsh was very captivating. She kept putting her hair back, and it looked nice. I am like that, too, like my hair down mostly but when up looked special. As a child, I was alays in pigtails unless it was short, ages up to 7. She looked good pole dancing. She didn't seem to have anything down for it. I dream of Burlesque a few times.. I need to spiff it up.
Ellie Goulding was a really good singer. She seemed very happy and did a real good job.
Marlon was a nice personality with a nice daughter and mother, reminds me of my family.
The girls in the contest were so fun to watch. If I were there, I think I'd be zoned out, unfortunately, unless I got more sleep or something.. anyway, it was nice to see them, think they were from Michigan.
The audience today was nice and interesting. It's interesting to see them have expressions about what was going on.
The monologue was very interesting, I'm glad she's having so much fun. She certainly deserves to have the best of times. Her outfit was cute. I take it she does like the color blue. She had such a snazzy coat, and her shirt under was spiffed nicely, as well. It was red plaid.
The babies she showed looked good and healthy and ready to be good children and have a good time in this world. I feel ready to be a mama but nah. Maybe when I'm 40. It would be harder to find a boy. I am ready for someone different, but if it's a different race I guess I'd just try to make them white.
It was so funny when she erased on that screen. I can tell now that anything she does puts a smile on the face of kids born around 1997.
Kate Walsh was very captivating. She kept putting her hair back, and it looked nice. I am like that, too, like my hair down mostly but when up looked special. As a child, I was alays in pigtails unless it was short, ages up to 7. She looked good pole dancing. She didn't seem to have anything down for it. I dream of Burlesque a few times.. I need to spiff it up.
Ellie Goulding was a really good singer. She seemed very happy and did a real good job.
Marlon was a nice personality with a nice daughter and mother, reminds me of my family.
The girls in the contest were so fun to watch. If I were there, I think I'd be zoned out, unfortunately, unless I got more sleep or something.. anyway, it was nice to see them, think they were from Michigan.
The audience today was nice and interesting. It's interesting to see them have expressions about what was going on.
Apology
On IMDb, I said Ellen had a good mom, meant her success might be her ideas, not that Ellen didn't do anything as in saying just had a good mom on IMDb.
Weird Split Family
Split as far as interest.
So, you say you did it with my dad, like I haven't, but yes I had to have. It shouldn't have been painful.
So, you say you did it with my dad, like I haven't, but yes I had to have. It shouldn't have been painful.
Funny
Ellen DeGeneres had people from the audience sing "Let It Go" in turn.
In the letter, I was like, yea I'm a real singer, so, wouldn't be as funny.. and that no one else can sing it as good as me unless they are hiding their riches.
In the letter, I was like, yea I'm a real singer, so, wouldn't be as funny.. and that no one else can sing it as good as me unless they are hiding their riches.
3 Submissions
to Ellen
my talking fish
my talent that no one else has to sing Let It Go literally
my talent singing Let It Go or accompanying new talent for Beats Music
my talking fish
my talent that no one else has to sing Let It Go literally
my talent singing Let It Go or accompanying new talent for Beats Music
Exercise
You need to keep up your heart rate for 30 minutes a day of exercise. I got it up to above age 20, got past 170 on the elliptical when I was on for 3 minutes. That's my new exercise, treadmill included as a major part. Pool was closed. Pool is good for the arms..
Submitting
I am submitting my talking fish to get on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." Answers no and yes every time.
TV
Those Who Kill
I really enjoyed this week's episode last night, shows on Sundays. She was with her mom and hugging on the floor. It seemed like Chloe executed a very desireable and good hug! The mother was styled to look younger than she really was, with straight red hair and bangs and feathered. C Jensen was very attractive, probably a bit maculine. I can tell she really likes Ellen but is about an inch taller. Ellen comes from where people are shorter. I think she's bigger than they think. She probably has her own issues, as well, like anyone.. She is so much like Ellen. They both have French last names and had white hair. Both very physical. Not much happened this time. I think they gave a report of death. Next week, we see 2 children.
I really enjoyed this week's episode last night, shows on Sundays. She was with her mom and hugging on the floor. It seemed like Chloe executed a very desireable and good hug! The mother was styled to look younger than she really was, with straight red hair and bangs and feathered. C Jensen was very attractive, probably a bit maculine. I can tell she really likes Ellen but is about an inch taller. Ellen comes from where people are shorter. I think she's bigger than they think. She probably has her own issues, as well, like anyone.. She is so much like Ellen. They both have French last names and had white hair. Both very physical. Not much happened this time. I think they gave a report of death. Next week, we see 2 children.
Looking Out for Her
I like thinking about how Ellen feels or used to feel. I guess she needs it, but it'd be nice to talk about it more, maybe make her feel better.
Problem
I was informed it was time to always punish me and time to touch others, ha ha ha. You have no idea how good I was. This is ^sad^. How picky can the onlooker be? I didn't take care of myself and was stubborn to disconnect from the benefits of still being in grade school. Well, they wasted time all day at school and gave too much busywork on top of it or as it.
Story
There was a girl named Alice Jensen. She was a big sister and had a mother named Elly. She loved her sister Ana and baby sisters and brother. Alicia was so excited and sat down with Ana and carried Ana through the town.. Guess she was quite small.
After that was over.. she went to Mama. She said, "Oh, Mama Dear, I'd love to go to New Orleans!" *sad puppy dog eyes* "Why sweety!" *a hug and a final-rub* She lifted her from the ground and had everything under control for her, such a big but real girl. Mama was 20 years older than her and quite big now at age 40.
After that was over.. she went to Mama. She said, "Oh, Mama Dear, I'd love to go to New Orleans!" *sad puppy dog eyes* "Why sweety!" *a hug and a final-rub* She lifted her from the ground and had everything under control for her, such a big but real girl. Mama was 20 years older than her and quite big now at age 40.
411
Instead of some people feeling good from Ellen, we are put on the naughty list and watch people get thrown in accepted, yea I'll admit if you like, like a *** toy!
So, what are we looking at.
Does Ellen express a disdain for being treated pervertedly or just welcome any arousal and stimulation? She probably at her age just figures it wasn't really above her.
I just realized how inappropriate this is and how bored yet frustrated I am. It's a mature topic about feelings not using any taboo words. This sounds like material also Ellen'd like. I just feel that 1st I find my dad stimulating her and when I turn around it's, "No, it's not!" He does not even watch her though has answered my questions about her online. It's just useless battling I get from my parents, random people, and random noises people put in my room.
I just realized how inappropriate this is and how bored yet frustrated I am. It's a mature topic about feelings not using any taboo words. This sounds like material also Ellen'd like. I just feel that 1st I find my dad stimulating her and when I turn around it's, "No, it's not!" He does not even watch her though has answered my questions about her online. It's just useless battling I get from my parents, random people, and random noises people put in my room.
How I Feel
1stly, you forgot I was an adult. I did get addicted to perverted feelings as a kid, when I was 6. I just thought about it. I 1st m********ed at 7. No one cared about me growing up. My parents made my hair black. How can you not know how to keep getting it lighter and same with my eyes? That's why I had to do that. I thought of for some reason it came to me being left in a sack and my teacher finding me, in the desert, like a dream. Then, I would fantasize about animals in liquid? Nothing else serious. I guess I got something about being rescued in a pit of balls. I imagined them over and over in bed, but when I woke up I didn't expect them. I never felt someone feel me up as a kid. I get some stimulation from other things. All the time I don't stimulate myself, I feel uptight. In bed, I sometimes find something theoretically thinking. I guess it's best to imagine things like hugs cuz you can't be hugged as long as someone wants to bestow it upon you.
This is not an excuse to say Ellen should do that. I think the world has took charge of these things. I just blame 1st grade. You think I numbed an addiction. I haven't numbed a hug addiction. If I need to feel something, that's something you should feel..
You know, though, I feel attacked like my dad wants to change me.
This is not an excuse to say Ellen should do that. I think the world has took charge of these things. I just blame 1st grade. You think I numbed an addiction. I haven't numbed a hug addiction. If I need to feel something, that's something you should feel..
You know, though, I feel attacked like my dad wants to change me.
"Sore Loser"
I am under the impression more that people want to touch Ellen DeGeneres and not me but are feeling sorry for Ellen and basically feeling her up. You see, I don't wanna be felt up in certain ways. We can't just have the ideal time. I'm not devastated over anything, but I'm looking into a kindling fire in the wilderness.
So, I want to know, I just feel Ellen is more touched than most people. Why are we feeling sorry for her, what's there, her private life? I'm just saying I wanna know, wanna know what people think about if people have more or less a tendency to touch her. I mean, of course, if someone is a good toucher. It might just include love at some point or once in a great while, a certain feeling that isn't what naughty people smile at.
I do want her to be touched in however puts her on her feet in the end or if not then something where she's not literally cringing in front of others. Her cringing being touched in front of others is not a big problem but is not a good thing and in that way I thought was a problem.
So, I want to know, I just feel Ellen is more touched than most people. Why are we feeling sorry for her, what's there, her private life? I'm just saying I wanna know, wanna know what people think about if people have more or less a tendency to touch her. I mean, of course, if someone is a good toucher. It might just include love at some point or once in a great while, a certain feeling that isn't what naughty people smile at.
I do want her to be touched in however puts her on her feet in the end or if not then something where she's not literally cringing in front of others. Her cringing being touched in front of others is not a big problem but is not a good thing and in that way I thought was a problem.
TV
I'm watching Jail, shows rough environment jailed people face. They speak to me! But how and why. Etc.? Well, gotta talk to something I guess. =/
Problem Numero Dos
My 1st problem was that "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" would be constant agitation about arousing and stimulating Ellen.
My 2nd problem is that it's all about arousing and stimulating her, over children.
Disclaimer: Nothing against Ellen, but who is doing this? I mean no harm. This is a serious topic. I feel I am always in trouble and can't get out. I will not submit to this. This is very annoying. I have no escape and then have nothing to turn to. All I know was I saw Johnny Depp on the show and this happens. I just saw it bud as a symbol. It's nothing too bad. It seems we can't get my dad to stop being suggestive. That's what I said: we can't get my dad to stop being suggestive. I knock down the bar a notch, he knocks the gold back to where it was again. I didn't even get to say anything! I just thunk't!
Now, Ellen may need this, but I don't even like being touched by my dad like he's the Madonna. I know plenty of people who would skirt by their time without touching her at all. I want people to not bother my dad, too. I like when I see boys who like him.
In a way, this isn't much. I've lived the years watching people wanna just arouse and stimulate Ellen like she's the young kid. It isn't much also cuz my dad is like touching me it feels since Tim Burton and Nell Burton as an issue. I don't like it. People are forcing it upon me. It also is making me feel violent. I'm not saying Ellen isn't much, I see. I've already said how I thought this thing wasn't good. I don't get to get close to anyone and sometimes m********* each day, stuck in my room with everyone against me for so long. I didn't do anything illegal. I will start work and the online school for safety of my future. This isn't a joke. I don't look back on these years with a smile. I should be able to spend time not working and feel okay enough I can work out and stuff and become a successful actor, but I'm stuck with uptight, upset parents. I still have some problems with how my belongings are organized and the neatness level of my room. I will slowly rectify it, but I don't like going through the motions. If I became famous, I would be different. We should learn to do things normally without sacrificing what's right, like living a happy life like in a cottage baking fine food. I have an audition in June, hope I can make it. I can't seem to lose much weight. I just found the treadmill was good for me. I kept my heart rate up high on it and the elliptical for over 15 minutes, 30 being the ideal. It was above age 20. That's a blessing in the rough. I am getting a wig next week, too, cuz my hair is so short. I might wear it at the audition.
So, what isn't much is the annoying tingly feelings I have as though I've been touched in a way I don't like someone to touch me. I don't like my parents's secret ways of getting in my life in private, popping up stimulating me in bad ways. All I know of concretely is like when my dad drives me. He does it for Orlando, but I don't want him to touch me like that. I thought it was so Nell Burton could feel more in sync with her own dad. They are treating me like I am disposable. The thing is my dad does what he does, and it was time for me to be even more in the world. They simply told me to go home, and now I am older and working! I am horrified at people judging my morals and the aesthetics of me from a long time ago! Who all is doing this?!
So, watch someone and then be with someone else, and your good feelings won't be able to happen and for no good reason. I'm treated like I'm puny. It's like my dad won't allow me to feel good by someone else and instead feels the other up. That is horrifying the way they do it. It's them instead of me feeling normal. I don't see what the big deal is. I need to live my life and I wanna be a famous actress.
If you wanna know, I forgot to give my parents the credit bill and they put it off more and I can't get an apartment in Miami. My room is painted Miami.
I don't know why my parents wouldn't want me to live with them. They want me to have fun, I know. I was supposed to be able to fix up to act. I have no idea what to do. I don't mind turning myself in now. It's not working. I'm stressed @ my Shakespeare monologue I like so much. It would be a strain to learn something else I don't like, truthfully, though I asked for more concrete help from my dad, who didn't seem to wanna connect on that.
I feel ripped off, that Ellen feels all this pleasure from my dad! This is a nightmare! Ellen and dad don't go! My dad is being strange.
People are always bugging me for things I did as a slip. I am not a bad person. I am always good, and people greet me with a sneer. Then, they go on to being mean to me for not liking it.
So, Ellen can have fun, but I feel they are k***ing her off as far as feeling good goes. My dad will not get in the way of someone mothering me. Someone help! This is so bad! People can't act like this to me. I don't wanna feel that. I wanted my normal life. I've had more exciting times! Teen years..childhood..comes and goes. Let's see if my dad has a problem with me feeling good from others. I wonder if he even hurt Ellen. What if someone did to him the same thing he does to them?? Why does Ellen wanna turn on inappropriately if my dad didn't do it-if so that means something else. I can't have him always touching himself when I think about Ellen. I don't know why I don't turn on to my parents like with very attractive people who approve of me and always even thought I was better..though they did go back and act sly. Nothing specific for anyone. Ever since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, people's bubble's been burst. I don't need someone famous, but I want my life to be at ease. I would seek out famous people cuz I also wanna be famous though I seek out others just as much.
I didn't quite feel up to elaborating on my dad feeling us up, but it's a thought on my mind. Go ahead, whatever you wanna feel, though I don't think anyone'll like it-what the message was. I mean, it didn't fit. Do you want my dad to get on the show and put his hand between the legs of Ellen DeGeneres? We shouldn't make a big deal of it, but it is a question. How will we get Ellen felt without these tingly punishments? Is there something special about people born around 1960 like they're always right? Why can't I just enjoy stuff without epic things seeping in? And it has more to do with me! And no offense to my dad, just a dad question. Don't expect anything back-on that.
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My 2nd problem is that it's all about arousing and stimulating her, over children.
Disclaimer: Nothing against Ellen, but who is doing this? I mean no harm. This is a serious topic. I feel I am always in trouble and can't get out. I will not submit to this. This is very annoying. I have no escape and then have nothing to turn to. All I know was I saw Johnny Depp on the show and this happens. I just saw it bud as a symbol. It's nothing too bad. It seems we can't get my dad to stop being suggestive. That's what I said: we can't get my dad to stop being suggestive. I knock down the bar a notch, he knocks the gold back to where it was again. I didn't even get to say anything! I just thunk't!
Now, Ellen may need this, but I don't even like being touched by my dad like he's the Madonna. I know plenty of people who would skirt by their time without touching her at all. I want people to not bother my dad, too. I like when I see boys who like him.
In a way, this isn't much. I've lived the years watching people wanna just arouse and stimulate Ellen like she's the young kid. It isn't much also cuz my dad is like touching me it feels since Tim Burton and Nell Burton as an issue. I don't like it. People are forcing it upon me. It also is making me feel violent. I'm not saying Ellen isn't much, I see. I've already said how I thought this thing wasn't good. I don't get to get close to anyone and sometimes m********* each day, stuck in my room with everyone against me for so long. I didn't do anything illegal. I will start work and the online school for safety of my future. This isn't a joke. I don't look back on these years with a smile. I should be able to spend time not working and feel okay enough I can work out and stuff and become a successful actor, but I'm stuck with uptight, upset parents. I still have some problems with how my belongings are organized and the neatness level of my room. I will slowly rectify it, but I don't like going through the motions. If I became famous, I would be different. We should learn to do things normally without sacrificing what's right, like living a happy life like in a cottage baking fine food. I have an audition in June, hope I can make it. I can't seem to lose much weight. I just found the treadmill was good for me. I kept my heart rate up high on it and the elliptical for over 15 minutes, 30 being the ideal. It was above age 20. That's a blessing in the rough. I am getting a wig next week, too, cuz my hair is so short. I might wear it at the audition.
So, what isn't much is the annoying tingly feelings I have as though I've been touched in a way I don't like someone to touch me. I don't like my parents's secret ways of getting in my life in private, popping up stimulating me in bad ways. All I know of concretely is like when my dad drives me. He does it for Orlando, but I don't want him to touch me like that. I thought it was so Nell Burton could feel more in sync with her own dad. They are treating me like I am disposable. The thing is my dad does what he does, and it was time for me to be even more in the world. They simply told me to go home, and now I am older and working! I am horrified at people judging my morals and the aesthetics of me from a long time ago! Who all is doing this?!
So, watch someone and then be with someone else, and your good feelings won't be able to happen and for no good reason. I'm treated like I'm puny. It's like my dad won't allow me to feel good by someone else and instead feels the other up. That is horrifying the way they do it. It's them instead of me feeling normal. I don't see what the big deal is. I need to live my life and I wanna be a famous actress.
If you wanna know, I forgot to give my parents the credit bill and they put it off more and I can't get an apartment in Miami. My room is painted Miami.
I don't know why my parents wouldn't want me to live with them. They want me to have fun, I know. I was supposed to be able to fix up to act. I have no idea what to do. I don't mind turning myself in now. It's not working. I'm stressed @ my Shakespeare monologue I like so much. It would be a strain to learn something else I don't like, truthfully, though I asked for more concrete help from my dad, who didn't seem to wanna connect on that.
I feel ripped off, that Ellen feels all this pleasure from my dad! This is a nightmare! Ellen and dad don't go! My dad is being strange.
People are always bugging me for things I did as a slip. I am not a bad person. I am always good, and people greet me with a sneer. Then, they go on to being mean to me for not liking it.
So, Ellen can have fun, but I feel they are k***ing her off as far as feeling good goes. My dad will not get in the way of someone mothering me. Someone help! This is so bad! People can't act like this to me. I don't wanna feel that. I wanted my normal life. I've had more exciting times! Teen years..childhood..comes and goes. Let's see if my dad has a problem with me feeling good from others. I wonder if he even hurt Ellen. What if someone did to him the same thing he does to them?? Why does Ellen wanna turn on inappropriately if my dad didn't do it-if so that means something else. I can't have him always touching himself when I think about Ellen. I don't know why I don't turn on to my parents like with very attractive people who approve of me and always even thought I was better..though they did go back and act sly. Nothing specific for anyone. Ever since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, people's bubble's been burst. I don't need someone famous, but I want my life to be at ease. I would seek out famous people cuz I also wanna be famous though I seek out others just as much.
I didn't quite feel up to elaborating on my dad feeling us up, but it's a thought on my mind. Go ahead, whatever you wanna feel, though I don't think anyone'll like it-what the message was. I mean, it didn't fit. Do you want my dad to get on the show and put his hand between the legs of Ellen DeGeneres? We shouldn't make a big deal of it, but it is a question. How will we get Ellen felt without these tingly punishments? Is there something special about people born around 1960 like they're always right? Why can't I just enjoy stuff without epic things seeping in? And it has more to do with me! And no offense to my dad, just a dad question. Don't expect anything back-on that.
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College Online
I guess I want to go to University of Phoenix online and get an AA in Communications.
Each class is $1275. I guess I'll start with 1. At least, it's at my own pace I think unlike when you do it at a community college or maybe other regular college online.
So, I hope I can get a loan. It's all $26775. I started school on a scholarship. My other option is online maybe 1 course at 1st at a community college here. It can be as low as less than $300 a course, not a big difference maybe.
Each class is $1275. I guess I'll start with 1. At least, it's at my own pace I think unlike when you do it at a community college or maybe other regular college online.
So, I hope I can get a loan. It's all $26775. I started school on a scholarship. My other option is online maybe 1 course at 1st at a community college here. It can be as low as less than $300 a course, not a big difference maybe.
A Blog Comment by Me
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This show she is with her mom and dad. I found it a nice stabilizing episode, but it's being cut short to 10 episodes, the original 10 that were recorded. Her relationship with the guy seems to be doing well. Next week will show more action.
This show she is with her mom and dad. I found it a nice stabilizing episode, but it's being cut short to 10 episodes, the original 10 that were recorded. Her relationship with the guy seems to be doing well. Next week will show more action.
Adults are adults.
Yes, what did I do? People are so mean to me sometimes. I want to know about people being mean in advance to eradicate anything in you. Why not do it orderly like via writing online?
Monday, April 14, 2014
Same Ole Same Ole
What do you think of the nature of Orlando where you just constantly poke at someone to get bad thoughts to spurt out by accident, not by speech but knowingly to others? I know certain words and have been in a certain place. I remember I settled and said no I don't mean it in any way no matter how downcast nor bewildered I am. Now, I don't even touch certain words, like online.
For anyone who thinks they know what I'm thinking of, I mean nothing bad, sorry about this.
For anyone who thinks they know what I'm thinking of, I mean nothing bad, sorry about this.
Reddi Wip
"The sound of Reddi Wip is the sound of joy."
It's like 6 calories for whipped cream on fruit.
It's like 6 calories for whipped cream on fruit.
Defining Myself
On TV, while watching Forensic Files, I see the lady say "that's why she's here" to share the stories, like if you think you're smart about it she's there for what she's there for.. I thought it sounded like she was talking to teenagers.. I feel sorry, imagine those little girls who don't sit around on their butt like me, all skinny and feeling aroused possibly - I don't know.
I noticed ways I looked like I was 30. It's hard to explain my generation. My mom won't let me tell her age, but my dad is born in 1950. My problem is my parental age. Say, my mom is any younger, that's okay. I can't be like a teenager today anyway because of my dad's age. I don't know what to do, but I also heard that 1950 is a real cut-off. I just don't understand why I was left out of the fun. I try to be amazing as I am. Maybe, being like that isn't the most amazing thing for other people. I mean, they have faults. They are faults I did not give up, like Johnny Depp being so alluring or, as you'd say, hot. He can be Willy Wonka and Jack Sparrow. I can't do that. A lot of people think they can. I'd like to see it on YouTube.
I noticed ways I looked like I was 30. It's hard to explain my generation. My mom won't let me tell her age, but my dad is born in 1950. My problem is my parental age. Say, my mom is any younger, that's okay. I can't be like a teenager today anyway because of my dad's age. I don't know what to do, but I also heard that 1950 is a real cut-off. I just don't understand why I was left out of the fun. I try to be amazing as I am. Maybe, being like that isn't the most amazing thing for other people. I mean, they have faults. They are faults I did not give up, like Johnny Depp being so alluring or, as you'd say, hot. He can be Willy Wonka and Jack Sparrow. I can't do that. A lot of people think they can. I'd like to see it on YouTube.
Would you?
What do you think of those people who feel violent but would never commit a crime? If they became more casual, they could get in trouble because that's letting down their guard.
TV
There was a guy who thought he'd never get caught, 17, for stabbing a girl 95 times to death while she fought back, 25 - he was sentenced to a life in prison.
TV
So, I did watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" today. I am now more capable of being alert watching it each day. My adventure is not yet quite over, but it could be. The Mexican lady was fun but seemed shy about her performance. The game Ellen had was sweet. The kids|young people seemed to have a lot of fun though a bit of discomfort admitted there LOL obviously. She also invited a nice, very polite-seeming gentleman. I wonder if he intimidated her by being so serious.
I have had questions about things, like how she feels about how others treat her I guess. I wish they would do more good for themselves and not be so meek but rather embrace the moment like it's it for them like anyone.
I do also wonder, I'd love to know and visit with other famous people-but I was thinking more along the lines of the 1s around 5 years apart from my age. I would like to meet or possibly know Ellen had I the chance. I would love to know her, but it's not something I have to do. Most people would say yes I have to be Portia, but I'm not. I'm sort of a doer, but my goal is a bit watered out. I mean, if I said what I wanted it'd be to learn more about Ellen and if there is anyone like her. I can't even just go all out and say ooh famous I have a lotta love for that person.. I mean, there are other fish in the sea. I do want to find out who she is, like what it is about her, her needs, who she really is, what she's hiding that we could figure out. She is simply an accomplished woman, and many women her age have had their life and now she seems left in the aftermath cuz she's famous. We never expect to be as good as someone with her likings, and it's confusing her feelings on us and how we watch her, how much is healthy for us, etc. It's her work. It is like an adventure, but I think you have to participate online.
I have had questions about things, like how she feels about how others treat her I guess. I wish they would do more good for themselves and not be so meek but rather embrace the moment like it's it for them like anyone.
I do also wonder, I'd love to know and visit with other famous people-but I was thinking more along the lines of the 1s around 5 years apart from my age. I would like to meet or possibly know Ellen had I the chance. I would love to know her, but it's not something I have to do. Most people would say yes I have to be Portia, but I'm not. I'm sort of a doer, but my goal is a bit watered out. I mean, if I said what I wanted it'd be to learn more about Ellen and if there is anyone like her. I can't even just go all out and say ooh famous I have a lotta love for that person.. I mean, there are other fish in the sea. I do want to find out who she is, like what it is about her, her needs, who she really is, what she's hiding that we could figure out. She is simply an accomplished woman, and many women her age have had their life and now she seems left in the aftermath cuz she's famous. We never expect to be as good as someone with her likings, and it's confusing her feelings on us and how we watch her, how much is healthy for us, etc. It's her work. It is like an adventure, but I think you have to participate online.
TV
I was just watching "The Voice." It's a nice night.
The competitors .. they really let it out for like soul soft rock.
The competitors .. they really let it out for like soul soft rock.
Wednesday, April 9, 2014
New Topic of Interest
I can sense it in the air from watching Ellen.
People with Asian genes don't do as much Caucasian things. I disagree with keeping those people from enjoying what progress has to offer and in the world and when you simply are allowed to partake of theirs. I may have accidentally done some bad things, but that's what's happening, anyway.
People with Asian genes don't do as much Caucasian things. I disagree with keeping those people from enjoying what progress has to offer and in the world and when you simply are allowed to partake of theirs. I may have accidentally done some bad things, but that's what's happening, anyway.
Acclaimed Movies
Nowaday, there are movies of great acclaim, such as the Pirates of the Caribbean series.
Here's an animation that didn't quite make it to the big screen, Disney Pixar's 3D Newt:
I 1st brought myself actively online to discover a method for getting into, again, Pirates of the Caribbean 4. Pirates of the Caribbean 3 was my 1st Pirates of the Caribbean movies, and I saw it at the cinema..
It's sad the plethora of knowledge I may have gained were I up and up enough to ask permission to see a rated R movie.
Here's an animation that didn't quite make it to the big screen, Disney Pixar's 3D Newt:
I 1st brought myself actively online to discover a method for getting into, again, Pirates of the Caribbean 4. Pirates of the Caribbean 3 was my 1st Pirates of the Caribbean movies, and I saw it at the cinema..
It's sad the plethora of knowledge I may have gained were I up and up enough to ask permission to see a rated R movie.
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Older Women
I have a lot of care for them. My dad is around their age. I wish I could visit people or something like that. Too bad not much is gone on online, yet. I was gonna just post pix of me in a wig, even though my hair seems to have grown back in.
I hate how people make fun of kids with older parents. They act like the younger 1s are for them.
I hate how people make fun of kids with older parents. They act like the younger 1s are for them.
Weird
I can't believe how much some people don't care @ me. I think I was framed. I'm used to being very respected until Johnny Depp and Tim Burton. Now, they wanna think I've been under watch since like 12.
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