I can say something and not be told to say nothing. I just don't wanna think @ it. I have a life that involves sleeping.
I got the message across.
Monday, December 23, 2013
Problem
Ellen, stop messing around with my little brother. I'm the 1 who's watchin' the show, now.
IN FACT SOMEONE DO SOMETHING FIX IT I ALREADY DON'T THINK ANYTHING JUST HAPPENED..
IN FACT SOMEONE DO SOMETHING FIX IT I ALREADY DON'T THINK ANYTHING JUST HAPPENED..
Inconvenient and "Unintelligent" or Just Not a Good Idea??
I walked home and there was an annoying African American girl jingling her dog in a hateful way all the way home. I think someone told her to do it in the experiment, like Ellen. She will be mother to my age, not 10 years younger only!! Anyway, Ellen, don't talk back, but my brother was offset ***ually because of you and his kids he's not sure of, he goes on a streak, and you all offset it cuz people are racist. My mom blames you. You can't do anything, you never listen, your show is painful to watch. You would listen to someone other than me, my mom, I see.. Well, I came home and like he wanted to exchange some idea with me and we weren't like "cool" or something. My house is not 1 of hate. Give my brother a chance, ya'll.. Why didn't he come home happy? A problem with the teachers? He never listens to me.
Also, my brotehr is slicing vegetables and he wanted to slice my brains in half so I can't dream now! YA'LL GET AWAY FROM ME I CAN DREAM IF I WANT YOU DID IT AFTER I KNEW @ A LADY WHO WAS EVEN OLDER THAN MY DAD TO SUGGEST ONLY I CAN'T ENJOY HER AND MAYBE DREAM @ HER
Also, my brotehr is slicing vegetables and he wanted to slice my brains in half so I can't dream now! YA'LL GET AWAY FROM ME I CAN DREAM IF I WANT YOU DID IT AFTER I KNEW @ A LADY WHO WAS EVEN OLDER THAN MY DAD TO SUGGEST ONLY I CAN'T ENJOY HER AND MAYBE DREAM @ HER
Question
Why does Ellen care @ mean people? Wait, what was I gonna say? What did I do? She likes people who don't talk much unless it's on 1 of her shows or episodes on TV. I don't think I was rude, not just now, too. Maybe, she is just attacking me on purpose. I am not Non-European-liking. So what?
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Question
Why is Ellen suggesting things that don't have a reason and taunting us @ not having kids?
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How weird is it that instead of even being my friend.. you all kill me saying I'm sweet, shy, quiet, and to get outta my shell a lot, too.. then how much you hated shy people.. doubting my talent now.. only bc of things like Charlie and the Chocolate Factory to pretend I'm bad?
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I'm mad.
I have 3 shows to catch up on but have the holidays to do it. It's too much cuz I never feel good. I am so accomplished talent-wise and got kicked out for nothing. And I don't mean Ginny in Orlando.
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I got so upset I turned the show off. She just plays around and wants to push us. I was always considered likeable. She's taken in by little Timmy Burton. I don't enjoy her like saying I have to wanna watch something like that or something like that. I feel made fun of for someone such as me liking her. Well, actually, you see, I am gonna have an internet show and even painting my garage now..
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Question
Ellen, why do you just act sarcastic @ me? I only get mad if someone does something to me.
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Sunday, December 22, 2013
Woke Up
You might think I really miss Karen Carpenter for what I got outta my dad being born in 1950, but I get more outta her dark hair and I guess eyes.. I don't know that I'd ever want my hair and eyes dark, actually. However, I grew up most of my life with that kinda look. I actually do like her for being in my dad's class a lot, but he has blue eyes and it's very different. He just has a whole different kinda world provided. It seems just as prominent. I found.. oh I forget. Oh, I found that I was able to understand why she died meant people could have prevented it. I still beleive it could have been that she's really hiding like Amelia Earhart, but I mean it only makes sense for the same reason she would take her life to begin with. Maybe, she wanted to get away from things. I know she may have died like a martyr. I do not really understand other than to be amazing. I imagine that's when Jesus died, too. It's just sad. I do not get why just how in some ways. Whatever is best for her, to rest in peace. I don't really agree with it but respect her wishes.
Old Text Box
1/8 Irish, French, German
1/8 3rd Generation Irish-American
1/4 German, Irish, Dutch, French
1/2 Dutch-Chinese-Indonesian 6-700 years
Heritage:
Pennsylvanian+New Yorker
Hometowns:
SE-NE-SE-NE FL,
New Orleans area,
Central FL + Orlando
Height: 5'-5'3"
Hair: Brunette, Curly-Wavy
Eyes: Hazel
Skin: White
Preferred College Major:
Singing + Ballet
Other Interests:
Art
1/8 3rd Generation Irish-American
1/4 German, Irish, Dutch, French
1/2 Dutch-Chinese-Indonesian 6-700 years
Heritage:
Pennsylvanian+New Yorker
Hometowns:
SE-NE-SE-NE FL,
New Orleans area,
Central FL + Orlando
Height: 5'-5'3"
Hair: Brunette, Curly-Wavy
Eyes: Hazel
Skin: White
Preferred College Major:
Singing + Ballet
Other Interests:
Art
What is your problem!
I sang whenever I could! Why don't you lighten some of my load and think @ why you kicked me out?
f.y.i.
When people come up not really caring about classical music nor @ their attitude, the teachers don't like them. I hope they don't do that to make other people look good. I wasn't on the list of "delinquent singers.." I only stopped ballet and singing to grow and improve my acting, which is more important. However, I've been back since 2010.
IMDb - The Soapbox
I can sing more than most people..whoops was that mean?
Why are people trying to hit a point at me about my weakness in singing since wanting to become an actor like Johnny Depp? Other than the fact he did Sweeney Todd and didn't act it out much.. For your information, it's about quality and not quantity. What will you tell all those other people who started singing later than me? I taught myself to sing after being in choir and things. I've taken lessons, which I've been respected at very much, that was 2004. And for more information, I did sing Andrew Lloyd Webber, Les Miserables, church music too, some soft rock pop.. quite frequently judging by my homework and shyness around my parents. I also had a life and exercised! That put me ahead even more to what I am to this day. Why are there people playing around with me about this so much? What's the big idea, jealous I can just "sing" and not just sit there and try to get something technically and never go beyond what others do? As for the title of my post, I mean that you learn singing and I've gotten some booty from it. You are welcome to learn to sing as much or better.
Why are people trying to hit a point at me about my weakness in singing since wanting to become an actor like Johnny Depp? Other than the fact he did Sweeney Todd and didn't act it out much.. For your information, it's about quality and not quantity. What will you tell all those other people who started singing later than me? I taught myself to sing after being in choir and things. I've taken lessons, which I've been respected at very much, that was 2004. And for more information, I did sing Andrew Lloyd Webber, Les Miserables, church music too, some soft rock pop.. quite frequently judging by my homework and shyness around my parents. I also had a life and exercised! That put me ahead even more to what I am to this day. Why are there people playing around with me about this so much? What's the big idea, jealous I can just "sing" and not just sit there and try to get something technically and never go beyond what others do? As for the title of my post, I mean that you learn singing and I've gotten some booty from it. You are welcome to learn to sing as much or better.
Problem
Why are you gaping at me and suggesting I can't sing?
Stop judging me. I didn't do anything to you. You're the 1 who needs to learn to be nice.
Why can't I sang? I've sang ardently well since I was 9. I've always loved classical music.
Stop judging me. I didn't do anything to you. You're the 1 who needs to learn to be nice.
Why can't I sang? I've sang ardently well since I was 9. I've always loved classical music.
You thought this made sense..
..No, just because the generation problem exists does not mean you should die.
Saturday, December 21, 2013
I know now he
I know how she died. Her metabolism was pumped way up with all the food when she was at the hospital.
Update
I starred off 2 songs on my website. I -really- lost my voice. I never said I -was- a good singer.. Everyone else says that when I sing.
The funny thing is..
..I -have- always liked singing. I wanted experience badly. I had to do also gymnastics as a kid for exercise and later on piano to learn music.
Problem
My mom always comes in and stares at me with a sarcastic grin and like cuts in after ideas like she thinks I gave in. I am not shit! I am just as cute as someone with a dad 10 years younger.. my mom might be young.
I only got..
..1 chance to guess how to be good and that chance has fleeted away, though technically I was not bad..
Should I care @ my parents?
Our relationship.
My dad thinks I'm stupid if I think I don't need to be punished just for walking in the kitchen.
My dad thinks I'm stupid if I think I don't need to be punished just for walking in the kitchen.
Problem
What now, did you think @ my little brother, like having a fetish, literally?? Stop telling me everything I say is wrong. Just forget it! I'm just talking @ something. You did something.
Problem
Stop acting all iffy as if that's not how it is. So what if I'm still a kid? I'm living my lost life from high school and elementary school. :| Why don't you just stop being mean to me!
Why..
..doesn't Ellen just get that she's older than these people on her show, these kids or young Hollywood stars? I mean, she makes fun of people with 1950 dads born in the 1980s. I didn't say she was my mom but that she was the right age at the time to be 1. As for with me, I mean I wouldn't ever make fun of a kid for that. For me it was like 12 and I was old enough to be a mom, though I still was a kid. So, I dunno, but it just makes sense as a long time ago people were moms at that age. So, this is just new, and I mean I just find it a joke to say otherwise cuz it'd just make me mad. I think it would most. What if Ellen was born in the 1980s?
Funny Things
Why does Ellen try to make me feel guilty @ what other people do? Stop acting like I'm just a 1950 person. Ya'll'll pay for this, obviously. She's old enough to be my mom but instead thinks she's the cool teenager, showing off like I'm stupid and should die.
...
Well, that's mean, and I catch things like that that others do. She seemed nice, but she just called me a nigger. I could tell by the way my camera turned off. How do they code that in? You think I'm worthless because I don't know how to do something like that? It's too bad because it's important to know about things like that and they got me upset over its usage and will just use it against me.
...
I dunno, I said what I said and I don't deserve to be punished. I was upset and some bad words back hit, though they just popped up in my head as I lay down. I felt so bad when my dad came in and I feel m..
I don't want Ellen to get out that I'm shit because I'm not my dad. If she were her dad that'd mean something, wouldn't it? You can't judge who I am by my parents. I am not fat and I am not gay. Nothing wrong with being fat, but you think I can't be skinnier because of my dad. What's with all these twig girls? You just think my fat is my dad, stop touching me!
...
Well, that's mean, and I catch things like that that others do. She seemed nice, but she just called me a nigger. I could tell by the way my camera turned off. How do they code that in? You think I'm worthless because I don't know how to do something like that? It's too bad because it's important to know about things like that and they got me upset over its usage and will just use it against me.
...
I dunno, I said what I said and I don't deserve to be punished. I was upset and some bad words back hit, though they just popped up in my head as I lay down. I felt so bad when my dad came in and I feel m..
I don't want Ellen to get out that I'm shit because I'm not my dad. If she were her dad that'd mean something, wouldn't it? You can't judge who I am by my parents. I am not fat and I am not gay. Nothing wrong with being fat, but you think I can't be skinnier because of my dad. What's with all these twig girls? You just think my fat is my dad, stop touching me!
Problems
My dad and I were going somewhere, and I got ready. I just lay on my couch to take a quick nap. It discouraged me from my excitement @ Karen Carpenter when he came and was like .. hello are we going .. not typical of him to do most times.
I know I got a message from Ellen when my camera turned off.. just to say I'm a nigger. I just said something @ her that wasn't bad, like that I don't drink.
Now, my head feels empty but groggy. My mom stopped in, too, after.. I dunnow what's wrong with my dad, he's just a fatboy. That is to say, everyone is pushing me to him when we've had a reserved relation. They want it to be like he's Ellen and I'm the fatty. I dunno, don't think he needs to change and diet too much so that he's just skinny skinny. I'm just saying, I am a propa woman, and they're like throwing pie in my face over my dad all the time. He's not really "Fatty." I feel like I'm up late or something. I feel like I ate fat today, which I did. I feel like a picture of my boy sibling.. I don't want it. It's him like my dad! No, I don't need my dad to justify my looks. That's just an insult. You didn't say something nice. You just said he was fat now. Go away. You wanna "do it" with your own dad like that? He's not to be in my life! I had a fine life! Well, don't be a dummy and think I won't talk to him or something, but he doesn't "have to be the 1." What if we did this to you? Ijust don't like it in that way. I'm not gonna describe what way, but a way you did.
I know I got a message from Ellen when my camera turned off.. just to say I'm a nigger. I just said something @ her that wasn't bad, like that I don't drink.
Now, my head feels empty but groggy. My mom stopped in, too, after.. I dunnow what's wrong with my dad, he's just a fatboy. That is to say, everyone is pushing me to him when we've had a reserved relation. They want it to be like he's Ellen and I'm the fatty. I dunno, don't think he needs to change and diet too much so that he's just skinny skinny. I'm just saying, I am a propa woman, and they're like throwing pie in my face over my dad all the time. He's not really "Fatty." I feel like I'm up late or something. I feel like I ate fat today, which I did. I feel like a picture of my boy sibling.. I don't want it. It's him like my dad! No, I don't need my dad to justify my looks. That's just an insult. You didn't say something nice. You just said he was fat now. Go away. You wanna "do it" with your own dad like that? He's not to be in my life! I had a fine life! Well, don't be a dummy and think I won't talk to him or something, but he doesn't "have to be the 1." What if we did this to you? Ijust don't like it in that way. I'm not gonna describe what way, but a way you did.
She is an evil monster.
She acted like she had to be mean to me. I thought I heard my mom and it broke my singing and it turns out it was the experimenter taking her place, literally.. but Ellen doesn't know.
Sorry to Say
Ellen DeGeneres is an invalid, postpones my feeling good and lags behind. Ha ha ha. She'll like this joke.
New Videos of Me Singing
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O Waly Waly - December 21, 2013
Scarborough Fair - December 21, 2013
Both Sides Now - December 21, 2013
Leaving on a Jet Plane - December 21, 2013
Come and Trip It - December 21, 2013
Gesu Bambino - December 21, 2013
To a Wild Rose - December 21, 2013
Let the Bright Seraphim - December 21, 2013
O Waly Waly - December 21, 2013
Scarborough Fair - December 21, 2013
Both Sides Now - December 21, 2013
Leaving on a Jet Plane - December 21, 2013
Come and Trip It - December 21, 2013
Gesu Bambino - December 21, 2013
To a Wild Rose - December 21, 2013
Let the Bright Seraphim - December 21, 2013
Question
Is it ever too old to start singing? I've always sang and have experience and juice used up and lost. I took a break to get healthy and work on my acting by posting online and making myself more sane but didn't get out enough.
Annoyed
All people wanna know @ is if people get mad at me to chase me away.. eventually just they would remain....
Did it..
Did the divorce inevitably do it? Or the fact her mom would say something.. I have family like that.. Just ignore it...
The Question Everyone Asks
What was it.. :( What made Karen Carpenter hopeless and anorexic to the point of unavoidable death, some thought crept over her, but what caused it??
Safe to Say
Since my dad is in Karen Carpenter's class and is not too too much younger but my mom's even younger mean I'm safe to say she's a big parental figure??
I never!
I never told Tim Burton he couldn't have a special relationship with his daughter like it was tabboo, but he's mean to me and not you, too.
Trash Kids
Why has it been said kids today are just trash and deserve no affection from anyone in the world, really, we're just trash, our own mistake, and our parents did nothing wrong and neither did anyone else in the world??
I just found out..
..my generation is @ like Italians, indians.. Karen Carpenter would like younger kids.
I don't think m.. helps. I don't feel accepted as I go around, like around my dad, feel shy, not dressed, neither cuz I wanna nap and don't have money for nap clothes and wear glasses and have shaved hair.
I don't think m.. helps. I don't feel accepted as I go around, like around my dad, feel shy, not dressed, neither cuz I wanna nap and don't have money for nap clothes and wear glasses and have shaved hair.
Well
I guess Karen didn't want to be there for us. Think @ being too submissive in life, the younger generation. What if she was mad @ her body? It seems as though it wasn't hers. I am actually trying to come in tune with the situation, people thinking of her body reincarnating and all. I am actually wasting time trying to figure out life.
Raising Souls|Seeking Ghosts
Since Karen Carpenter was killed from the hospital putting on 30 pounds in too short a period of time and she could have been brought to life on the spot, was looking good, I mean now I dunno. She wasn't an old lady, died @ 32, no life since. Her body may be preserved young.
In Another Way
I feel I'm acting nonchalant, like I have my roots somewhere else.
I feel myself a numbness that shouldn't be. It's the numbness I've become. Never do I want to redress my life of emotions until I can lay me down in safety.
I feel myself a numbness that shouldn't be. It's the numbness I've become. Never do I want to redress my life of emotions until I can lay me down in safety.
Never Been Quite So Upset Inside
@ Karen Carpenter not taking a sabbatical but dieting..her killing herself or the fact she is so decidedly and reasonably dead. I'm sure we could summon her likeness. I dunno, I watched the videos and something hit me by my recycle bin on my desktop.
Grotesque Figures he he he
Ellen thinks she's pointedly nice but makes intrusively constructed jokes. Like little messages you get, like that don't make sense to a lot of people, like oh you're bad or Christina is bad.. she is the 1 who is working out this morning and yadada. I was wondering how she's "all polite" if she claims to do these 2 different things.
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