Sunday, December 15, 2013
Saturday, December 14, 2013
More on Death
Growing up, I had to extinguish the constant uncomfortable feelings of assimilating oneself to Jesus, I came home in PreK thinking I'd die on the cross like Jesus.
If I had to rank ladies @ my dad's age..
1- Karen Carpenter (deceased, a little older)
2- Sharon Osbourne
3- Siw Inger
4- Frenchie from Grease
5- Olivia Newton-John (older..)
2- Sharon Osbourne
3- Siw Inger
4- Frenchie from Grease
5- Olivia Newton-John (older..)
My C.D. 3I
..I'm gonna record
13 Songs
Folk
1- The Ash Grove - Welsh
2- Simple Gifts - American
3- O Waly Waly - Irish
Classical|Opera (5 Songs)
4 - Fairest Isle
5 - I Attempt From Love's Sickness
6 - Die Forelle
7 - Gretchen Am Spinnrade
8 - Pres des Remparts de Seville - Carmen
Musical Theater
9 - Be Happy - The Little Prince
10 - Wouldn't it be Lovely - My Fair Lady
Pop
11 - The Tide is High https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/die-zeit-ist-reif-karaoke/id54626710 2?i=546267268
12 - Close to You
Movies
13 - Golden Afternoon - Alice in Wonderland (Original Disney Animation)
13 Songs
Folk
1- The Ash Grove - Welsh
2- Simple Gifts - American
3- O Waly Waly - Irish
Classical|Opera (5 Songs)
4 - Fairest Isle
5 - I Attempt From Love's Sickness
6 - Die Forelle
7 - Gretchen Am Spinnrade
8 - Pres des Remparts de Seville - Carmen
Musical Theater
9 - Be Happy - The Little Prince
10 - Wouldn't it be Lovely - My Fair Lady
Pop
11 - The Tide is High https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/die-zeit-ist-reif-karaoke/id54626710 2?i=546267268
12 - Close to You
Movies
13 - Golden Afternoon - Alice in Wonderland (Original Disney Animation)
So
What does Ellen think I need to fix @ how I look, or think in terms how would I need to look? I'm sorry you see my bristly hair. I don't wanna look like mucus.
Why do
people sort me as someone who's not cool like a Late Boomer? Like I'm a dork that needs to be opened up?
Problem
These experimenters won't be quiet. I was into Karen Carpenter, and I usually am into younger women, and now they are saying it's time for my aunt..
Problem
I'm tired of people treating me like an emotional + intellectual baby, sometimes. Sometimes, you just gotta lash out. I don't like speaking in code like they do, neither, it's not fun nor worth it.. :/
Hurt
My stomach area is still hurting from that person. Also, from dropping my food I feel full. I don't see why anyone would think this is here to teach me a lesson. I just had a few strawberries earlier then went to sleep.
Singing
Why do both Charlotte Church and Jackie Evancho sing so old and are sometimes so forward @ their singing? Most people hopefully aren't, mainly young singers. Don't you just sing and wait for people to judge you? I don't get told I'll make it, but people tell me I have a voice like an angel, same with Charlotte Church, hmph, Jackie Evancho is in the money. I do feel that people like them are trying to say "I'm not better" but we're essentially just different.
Message From Karen
I was singing "Wouldn't It Be Lovely" and at the end something, a sound, popped out in me. It was louder, too. It was like a little sack of string wrapped around something.
So..
..why keep making fun of me for not being a teen? I'm still a person. I'm an adult like you.
What's all the fuss, then?..
What's all the fuss, then?..
Well
Ellen, I've had people come up to me wanting to know @ their daughters and not me. Like, I'm not cool. I don't mean you should just give up. I thought things were supposed to work out. I think it's too late for me, and I think no one really finds that befitting to me. I will not give up anything to look like a teen.. :/ ..but I do wear junior clothes.
Let's reincantate people bringing them up from the dead.
1 - Audrey Hepburn
2 - Karen Carpenter (1949)
I'm serious.. Let's do it 1 by 1. These 2 people didn't die a death of violence. Sad to say, I've commited to this earth and do not know if before I would have to die would I solve anything, but it does work out. Well, they are so chased after may they rest in peace, these people. You know fasting makes you feel more. I don't know @ Audrey Hepburn. I think she was sad she didn't look as young as she aged. She was so skinny, too! I know if you don't eat you die! Like, if you lead an active life and are pushed, you'd just die! I told you I sensed magic while at school.. like the other world, but it didn't open up! At least, we are in touch with what it means to have all of who's existed having existed. We should look for things. People are not meant to die. I think science tells us this. I've heard of it. We have to evolve. I always feel this sense of safety myself, but sometimes I worry and sometimes worry @ others. I don't believe we are just science. I don't know why we're just made of atoms. Let's create a Karen Carpenter and from the novel "The Phantom of the Opera," with its many wonderful versions, Christine Daee. I heard the phantom was real. I'm into ghosts, too, and watch Ghost Adventures. It's something to think about on the side.
2 - Karen Carpenter (1949)
I'm serious.. Let's do it 1 by 1. These 2 people didn't die a death of violence. Sad to say, I've commited to this earth and do not know if before I would have to die would I solve anything, but it does work out. Well, they are so chased after may they rest in peace, these people. You know fasting makes you feel more. I don't know @ Audrey Hepburn. I think she was sad she didn't look as young as she aged. She was so skinny, too! I know if you don't eat you die! Like, if you lead an active life and are pushed, you'd just die! I told you I sensed magic while at school.. like the other world, but it didn't open up! At least, we are in touch with what it means to have all of who's existed having existed. We should look for things. People are not meant to die. I think science tells us this. I've heard of it. We have to evolve. I always feel this sense of safety myself, but sometimes I worry and sometimes worry @ others. I don't believe we are just science. I don't know why we're just made of atoms. Let's create a Karen Carpenter and from the novel "The Phantom of the Opera," with its many wonderful versions, Christine Daee. I heard the phantom was real. I'm into ghosts, too, and watch Ghost Adventures. It's something to think about on the side.
TV
I just watched Thursday's "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." That younger girl than me by just a few months was so cute. She's born in August. I liked seeing her hug Ellen at the end. She does singing like Bella, too, not just acting. I was set to be a performer. Since high school, so I'm not too late. I see all these other people made it, where I was very interesting.
It was rather cute, they stood being cozy.. Must be weird with someone like Ellen, to be on like that, I mean it's not like you'll see her at the Oscars in the audience. I'm glad she had such a good experience for herself.
I was gonna go watch "Ellen" but went back, retreated to my computer.
I really liked when the lady fell off dancing.
It was rather cute, they stood being cozy.. Must be weird with someone like Ellen, to be on like that, I mean it's not like you'll see her at the Oscars in the audience. I'm glad she had such a good experience for herself.
I was gonna go watch "Ellen" but went back, retreated to my computer.
I really liked when the lady fell off dancing.
YouTube Comment
link
You are a very good person like I was. I think if I compared ourselves, I'd say that you were a bit uptight, though overall it's fine.. I like some of what you learned better than what I did.
You are a very good person like I was. I think if I compared ourselves, I'd say that you were a bit uptight, though overall it's fine.. I like some of what you learned better than what I did.
Question
What do you think @ Ellen DeGeneres being trapped by her show and things?
She seems to want to keep track of her fans. I am trying to improve my life, but she seems to think we want to do it to give her more to think about. I'd like to change that. I believe in magic, and I wish the people talking to me would be talking @ that. I used to believe I am either older or younger and that we are all equals souls in age. We are all human children looking for our parents in heaven. We are all peers, girls and boys, and we experience love and probably even age difference.
She seems to want to keep track of her fans. I am trying to improve my life, but she seems to think we want to do it to give her more to think about. I'd like to change that. I believe in magic, and I wish the people talking to me would be talking @ that. I used to believe I am either older or younger and that we are all equals souls in age. We are all human children looking for our parents in heaven. We are all peers, girls and boys, and we experience love and probably even age difference.
Happy @ Yourself
Do you think it's racial hatred to tell a person your race is better? What if it's the same color?
Well, I'd like to know, too..
Well, I'd like to know, too..
Friday, December 13, 2013
A Bit Upset
My mom was standing by me in an annoyingly and rejectedly affectionate way after getting my psychiatrist to bump my medicine intake.. and I was closing something and it just ended up spilling, the way she was moving! All tacky! I am not my parents!! And I got fat cuz I couldn't have more of what I cooked and I'm onto my next recipe. I didn't like the 1st, but it did well for me. The next thing isn't as healthy.
Kids With Either Older or Much Younger Parents
If my world was shit for the devilish kids of older parents who don't even appreciate them, then is it really my turn, seeing all that you gave these young kids and how much you grant wishes of older kids whatever it is they have been able to accomplish? I do care, but it seems older kids did not accept me in my age compared to them as they were tamed to do as time came for them to follow and they've already had their own kids. I was listening to my favorites from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, and you'll notice the bells in the song for Veruca. It was a bit tacky to me, but it sorta tells the whole story. That age and their "young" parents from Late Boom can be described as attractive in a way that makes them ^feel good^ whereas I assume I ^feel worse^. I will not group my self with kids with the older parents.
Thursday, December 12, 2013
Cramps
I also have female cramps from that person who made it hard or weird to poo, and it feels like an unhealthy touch. It's a forward feeling.
Interesting?
My mom upset me. I was just wiggling outta another secret message from my dad. She seemed to shun me like I was my dad.
Need to Exercise
Just got my female thing and feel like resting, feel kinda irritated emotionally. Towels drying..
These workout DVDs are pretty strenuous. I took a walk just now, too, for like an hour or more. I wanted that drink.
I'm guessing a little later I might to an easier exercise.
These workout DVDs are pretty strenuous. I took a walk just now, too, for like an hour or more. I wanted that drink.
I'm guessing a little later I might to an easier exercise.
Playing With Me
People around me can feel through magic to irritate me with their touch. Someone messed with my ability to poo okay.
Back
I went for a walk and got a drink. I might go lie down, don't have anything to listen to, like maybe Christmas radio, though. Or I might "play on -my- computer.."
Just Watched
Renee Fleming singing "I Want an Old-Fashioned Christmas" and an interview @ the arts. It was such an entertaining singing! She's such a nice singer!
What you think when you see her..
..Ellen, just someone who's older or someone old enough that you wanna call mommy on? I haven't called mommy on anyone. It's funny cuz there's a girl a year older than my dad who died from fasting too much in the end..
Oh, and me, I think mommy is born in 1940? That makes sense. I'm probably not really old enough. The funny thing is that doesn't include transes of ***.
Oh, and me, I think mommy is born in 1940? That makes sense. I'm probably not really old enough. The funny thing is that doesn't include transes of ***.
Problem
So, I did what I was supposed to and it ^violently^ goes to someone else. I am having problems m..!
I mean @ my not being a true blood Southerner from parents. Fine, then let me talk to your parents. They were nice to me.
I mean @ my not being a true blood Southerner from parents. Fine, then let me talk to your parents. They were nice to me.
What I Think
If you violently want Ellen and violently hate me, you're wrong cuz it was meant to be and I do want her to meet other people to a great degree and me I mean I don't even have to know her the most, don't know if I would. I probably get to think @ her more. A lot of people think she's Jewish and then maybe they're better but really like her. I just mean Ellen has a better figure, and some people are stupid enough to think well black people have a more typical human figure. What figure do you want?? See, I caught ya! You always like the people with the basic figures most ***ually. Maybe, people with atypical figures are different.
Upset and M..
I know you all in general good kids with good desires as well as most others do not get told your fat Mamma is Ellen DeGeneres to you. You all are just doing this for Nell Burton! Saying I did something wrong to her online! I don't belive the only people are the Lord God the Father the Almighty, Jesus Christ, Our Savior, and the Holy Spirit of God.
For stupid questions, yes, in some ways Ellen DeGeneres can resemble our parents but not in all. She isn't us, after all..
I just took my 2nd ever anger pill and I feel so angry I wanna chop something up, I think I just chopped up myselfin my mind. That might be why people practice self-harm, parents being too ***ual yet uninteresting.
For stupid questions, yes, in some ways Ellen DeGeneres can resemble our parents but not in all. She isn't us, after all..
I just took my 2nd ever anger pill and I feel so angry I wanna chop something up, I think I just chopped up myselfin my mind. That might be why people practice self-harm, parents being too ***ual yet uninteresting.
In the Car
My mom was at me and I was talking @ singers I guess and guess I should say to those who know what I said that I feel insulted as a singer but still think you're all beautiful people who sing with the angelic voice. Your skills are all the product of hard work overtime, and I commend you for your accomplishment in life and hope that you all become very happy.
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
Dessert
The fudge didn't work. I feel like I don't wanna do anything. I think people are just playing around with me..
Problem
I didn't like what I just made and have 1 thing left, but I was trying to close the top and felt tired from the new medicine etc. even after sleeping a lot and then it all fell on the floor. My mom was behind|beside me moving a little specifically. I have 1 more recipe and am not sure if I'm too happy @ it, only found 1 thing I liked a lot to make and am not very excited. My mom said we have imitation crab, instead. I worked hard to cut the garlic and ginger.. and was tired and hungry as I prepared my food. It's also supposedly someone else doing it, again, interrupting me while cooking. Someone else interruped me from getting food.
O Dear 3I
Cooking. And. Cleaning.
You know I've been on IMDb for 7 years and I'm still considered not a long poster?
You know I've been on IMDb for 7 years and I'm still considered not a long poster?
Question
What do you think @ people not listening to Tim Burton with Johnny Depp and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory?
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TV
I just watched "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." I see she plaqued Tom Hanks to a foremost seat in the audience. I wonder what it was for. He seems like a cool guy to me.
The married couple were so cute. The lady looked a lot like Vanessa Paradis and reminded me of Sarah Brightman. She had long curly hair. The guy was very dark black. They'll make a great couple! Wonder if he wants to retire now like I did, but now I'm sweeping the streets. Oh, the girl was so fair, too, for a colored person. I guess I'm partially colored but not a lot. It may be a stron coloration.
What else? Why -does- Ellen have that thing with the long arms? I think it's cute..
It seems that she's recognizing the generation of her kids, but why would I waste my time and life.. it's true it makes older kids sad to see the baby. But they make it so that they don't even think people my age and a bit older are like young enough to feel parental affection from them. It's not really something that seems characterstic of me to say, but I say it outside of talking about things like people like Ellen DeGeneres.
Does anyone know how people get a plaque from Ellen as a seat in the audience? This is the 1st time I've seen. Johnny Depp was on with Michelle Pfeiffer and Chloe Grace Moretz. He tattooed Ellen on his elbow pit area. I almost think it said Ellen & Johnny. Do people lie and have a secret desire not to be nice to kids and to feel like the kid? Why do famous people all hold out? I need to make my internet show. I do wanna make money performing since that's what I do, so I am looking forward to sending in a picture by February for Pirates of the Caribbean 5. Otherwise, I'm excited about my singing though feel a bit depressed altogether at the moment. I don't know, maybe I need a walk. I can afford some candy, maybe cook tomorrow.
The married couple were so cute. The lady looked a lot like Vanessa Paradis and reminded me of Sarah Brightman. She had long curly hair. The guy was very dark black. They'll make a great couple! Wonder if he wants to retire now like I did, but now I'm sweeping the streets. Oh, the girl was so fair, too, for a colored person. I guess I'm partially colored but not a lot. It may be a stron coloration.
What else? Why -does- Ellen have that thing with the long arms? I think it's cute..
It seems that she's recognizing the generation of her kids, but why would I waste my time and life.. it's true it makes older kids sad to see the baby. But they make it so that they don't even think people my age and a bit older are like young enough to feel parental affection from them. It's not really something that seems characterstic of me to say, but I say it outside of talking about things like people like Ellen DeGeneres.
Does anyone know how people get a plaque from Ellen as a seat in the audience? This is the 1st time I've seen. Johnny Depp was on with Michelle Pfeiffer and Chloe Grace Moretz. He tattooed Ellen on his elbow pit area. I almost think it said Ellen & Johnny. Do people lie and have a secret desire not to be nice to kids and to feel like the kid? Why do famous people all hold out? I need to make my internet show. I do wanna make money performing since that's what I do, so I am looking forward to sending in a picture by February for Pirates of the Caribbean 5. Otherwise, I'm excited about my singing though feel a bit depressed altogether at the moment. I don't know, maybe I need a walk. I can afford some candy, maybe cook tomorrow.
Problem
Why do some people talk to me and wait until they make me upset and then they stop?
In the end no one'll talk to me.
In the end no one'll talk to me.
More..
I can't look up someone at the top of my Facebook. Why are you wasting my time talking to me? I could be sleeping.
Problem
My aunts have a problem. People won't stop being mean to me. Also their post was at the top and it reminded me of Splash Mountain. Quit being mean to me @ recording myself! I don't do it to think of Ellen, actually, but you're nasty to say that.
Problem
Another stupid message from my aunts, they showed a lady who had young parents.. who seemed upset they were missing.. They come up with shit for me. Why should we care about their schizophrenic nature? I am not really schizophrenic.
Problem
Ellen is onto me about my 1950 dad. Well, don't, I don't have problems! Don't you know that? Stop rubbing in that man like that.
Problem
Why are ya'll doing stuff for certain someone and why do I have the anger pill I already asked for that supposedly didn't exist? STOP being nasty to me, you'll pay for this.
Problem
MY DAD WON'T STOP BEING MEAN AND THEY STARTED TO SUGGEST MY DAUGHTER WAS 1950 MOLD LIKE MY DAD'S BIRTH - I WANNA HIT SOMETHING THEY WON'T STOP THIS IS YOUR FAULT ELLEN IF NOT JUST MY DAD
Did I almost die?
I was walking around this place, a clear dream to remember, the 3rd big block of sleep. It was like a big "hall" like an extended reunion. It was huge, though. It had weird dream things. 1 person went to a certain place and the humungus giant got him and ate him. We were all still there. These round animals colorful slid down something cuz he would not eat them. I was invited to come out and I hopped about as I seem to do. I didn't actually eat anything but was ecstatic @ dessert being made. A girl around my age somewhere was mixing chocolate chip cookie dough. I remember I had 2 big pills, too, and in real life I was supposed to get an extra small 1. I had the idea it'd be green like my clear contacts are now. I finally was so scared I was in some trees but wanted to come out maybe. Then someone came in and picked me up a few times and put me down. I liked when the person was walking like a recording I did and sorta guided me with her arms holding me. I felt it was like my mom's hair, shorter then I guess lying down, maybe just her hair in a bed.
Mad?
I didn't get whole-heartedly mad at the standard Ellen DeGeneres. I just didn't like the hurt. I tried to ignore it but wanted to post it online. It came off differently. Maybe, I was upset, though.
Dear
Ellen,
I cannot be a talk show host right now cuz I need to bump it up, exercise and get in shape, do social and work activities.. :/ Pirates of the Caribbean has a glimmer to it.
I cannot be a talk show host right now cuz I need to bump it up, exercise and get in shape, do social and work activities.. :/ Pirates of the Caribbean has a glimmer to it.
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
Not to Mention
Just being kids, our kind isn't interesting to hook up with, though that was my goal still.
I mean, really, "what" comes up?
I mean, really, "what" comes up?
Punishing Me
You all act like I'm a person who starts trouble, a trouble-maker. When you get mad at me for something that's not that bad, like drunk driving, you won't forgive me.
Pampering Her
So, what -did- you like @ "Ellen?" Was it that she was interesting? Ordinary? I know I did those 2 things and I was NOT supported, so how can I trust the world if I feel like shit no matter what I've done? It's racism.
This happens with everyone who does this who's not non-Caucasian. What if I'm the best or 1 of the better 1s? What if I'm really good as a person? I don't feel anything special @ who I am. Don't try to take it back..
This happens with everyone who does this who's not non-Caucasian. What if I'm the best or 1 of the better 1s? What if I'm really good as a person? I don't feel anything special @ who I am. Don't try to take it back..
Problems
I saw Ellen and my mom parading @ my Gramma moving to Florida and my mom moving away someday to Indonesia. I'm worried the cursing did it. That's mean, I Was upset and Ellen wouldn't stop the noises in my room. She lives whatever life she choses cuz she has money and no one experimenting on her and can see her mom every day who supports her as a person!
Either way, I get mad by the by. I get threatened and hurt, too. My Gramma was nice before the N word thing etc. She started coming down here when I missed a summer to do stuff in the city, summer things or programs. I did a musical and went to college early.. 1 summer I worked but still went on vacation. She told me to call her more, too, then, but I never remembered to do so and follow through with it.
Either way, I get mad by the by. I get threatened and hurt, too. My Gramma was nice before the N word thing etc. She started coming down here when I missed a summer to do stuff in the city, summer things or programs. I did a musical and went to college early.. 1 summer I worked but still went on vacation. She told me to call her more, too, then, but I never remembered to do so and follow through with it.
What if..
You tried to hurt me and I just didn't let it get to me and then you got mad because of it?
TV
"The Ellen DeGeneres Show"
Today was a really good episode. I liked the tennis, want to try some myself. The Russian girl was really nice, too.
Today was a really good episode. I liked the tennis, want to try some myself. The Russian girl was really nice, too.
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