Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Do Jews have a certain look like Africans and Asians?

The thing about Africans is they are totally different from Europeans and Asians.  Asians might be similar.  I don't know, it's just that my mom is from an island in Asia.  There are sexy Asian minorities.  China is like Europe because it's 1 name for 1 big thing.  We think we know exactly what different supposed extremes could be.

What's going around is that this famous actress Kate Beckinsale has 1|8 Burmese or something.  There are some little countries like a part of Indochina between China and India pretty basically.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Indochina

The rest is just the Filipins and Japan and Korea in the northeast.

I feel pretty safe because people always want to know "it's China."  Indochina is neat.  It includes Vietnam.  It's basically goes Vietnam Taiwan & Filipins then Japan and Korea.  So, south China isn't really dark, but northwest is.  I may be wrong, but there are light people.  I am compiling these things to post as well.

So, Asians are very black and white.  They are also attractive but don't look like modern people.  They are so good.  I suppose if someone marries them have to make sure they match.  Like, my mom is pretty disciplined.  She's from the 1950s|60s.  I don't feel the same about other Asians, just my mom.  I hate it when people pick at me and pretend they're so perfect.  I can see the good sides to each of my parents and know about the rest of my family relations.

If I had a mom from northeast China, they'd have that thin crepe skin.  Then there's the northwest which has that athletic Mongoloid look.  The middle has tribes which include blonde hair and blue eyes, like the indians in Europe, in the southeast.

So, I think it's bad when people are mean to very attractive people of another race, which is rare.  Very attractive to me is worldly, a good citizen or someone open to the world.

I think Asians all have freedom.  Vietnam is on the coast and the rest of Indochina have varying degrees of proximity to India or China.  Jews need to worry but not really because they are also so European.  I don't know why north Asia doesn't look Russian.  Actually, there are eskimos and pagans there.

Jews are just jews.  It's a very religious feeling.  Ethnic Jews don't have a certain look nor color in a way.  The color may be like Greece, sometimes light sometimes dark.  I know because there are ones with light hair.

Africans do have a certain look as much as Asian has the Asian features so-to-speak.  It's hard to say.  I think they think that the Caucasoids in the Middle East are Asian but not in that way with the pinched up look.  I don't have blatant things like that because I consider myself a normal person.  It feels more like being Jew.  My hair was not born black, though.  Only rarely was it really that black.  It's sorta a neat color, though, if you like the rest of you.  I think I had more of a white Mongolian look.  I did gymnastics, so I had the athletic look, though in a way I was thin.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Michelle_Trachtenburg

Here is the Jewish look though.  I think I have a handle on it now.  If you watch Audrey Hepburn helping Africans you will see the modern look of Africans.  They really have black skin, not brown like most Africans in the US.  I guess living in the US is what it is.  It feels like I'm getting Jew almost.  I have north American native American, though.

http://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.cherokee-corp.com/diversity/webimages/Immersion-girls.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.cherokee-corp.com/diversity/overview.php&usg=__FRWPmDBsXIEsOAUGwj9b1HQL_II=&h=1943&w=2100&sz=401&hl=en&start=9&sig2=hlcNWwHd9jySsm18xSScvA&zoom=1&um=1&itbs=1&tbnid=UVQHlBdvttT2eM:&tbnh=139&tbnw=150&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dcherokee%2Bgirls%26um%3D1%26hl%3Den%26client%3Dopera%26sa%3DN%26rls%3Den%26tbs%3Disch:1&ei=KxXRTL6qAYP7lwfkwt3ODA

These are Cherokees.  So, obviously, indians have caught on in the U.S.  Europe is an old country, so the tribes are set with blonde hair and the eskimos in Russia and the north pole.

I think the way Asians look is just how they look.  They feel what they feel about Europeans.  Europeans aren't always as delicate in their culture but are very cute.  I think other cultures are mysterious.  I realize Pocahontas doesn't look so European, but she seems to notice the differences.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pocahontas#Journey_to_England_and_death

She seems pretty white to me.  Indians can make themselves European for some reason.  Maybe it was for the beauty they are indian.  The kid looks cute.

Johnny Depp is related to the first black woman who freed or whatever and that she had kids apparently with someone white.  I think he is a direct descendant.  I am not prejudiced against blacks as a race but feel different around different ones.  They are so dark I cannot match up.  I do not understand, but I guess the ones who get fresh air are best off too.  Europeans are hard workers.

I'm happy and feel well-accepted overall.

I wonder if my mom and I will get new keyboards

since I spilled water on mine and I have my mom's from using with a laptop and extra computer screen.

Someone broke twice in this house.

They took my mom's checks and brother's laptop.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

I'm dying my hair back to dark brown.

going 2 the gym

i axt mi mom

n she sed i cud work next week, the application

I just had a weird thought...

...not to take Theater so seriously with film because it seems too hard.  Film is something you have to earn.  I wonder if I will go to school at all.  I wanna work so I can buy stuff and am apprehensive about the bus and getting up.  Ballet might be okay, but I just wanna be a real person for now.  They just repeat easy things.

I might do theater, and I might do ballet.  I don't know what will determine, though I really wanna work and get some money.  I am worried about the work schedule, too.  I don't feel good enough yet, neither.  I wonder if I will clean out these little shelves from the garage and where I can put them!

I saw a slimy blackish snake again by our door area slipping away thru the grass.

I do like my dyed hair, too, but am saving money for the DVDs and think this might be enough.  I want a specialist to do it maybe.

o mi god

i just had to masturbate, though i don't know why!  until i start feeling normal which now i do as always after will be this way.  i miss my privacy.

gym

I used to do elliptical and treadmill each 10 minutes, then 20, and today 30.

Masturbation

Masturbation is when you want to watch porn and follow suit in real life.  It's about sex and stimulating the genitals.

There is also the thing like you see English like Julie Andrews in The Sound of Music when she sat on a pine cone.

There are feelings of dizziness that I don't have that are not unlike this.

I can still remember..

..that I was so lucky that this cute guy told the Talented Music teacher about me in drama club that I could play piano for the senior play my freshman year.  The music instructor didn't really play all the notes.  If she told me to do that I could have.  I was stuck at the first page.  The music teacher was different the next year, but she came back as a counselor my 3rd year and counseled me from a notification from my teacher, maybe the history teacher I had 2nd semester 1st year.

They did something very interesting, You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown.  I went on YouTube and found prepubescents doing most of the things online it seemed.  That's just to me so different.  I don't know what it was, each person doing well at what they do most.  Today young people either are very thin and underfed looking, a passing feeling I get, or they look half asleep|half alive.  Sure, the glamor queen will have a certain look, but not everyone can be the glamor queen, unless you are saying everyone can be glamorous if they play their cards right.

Like, I miss where people looked semi-real.  The 2nd year wasn't really so bad.  I was the youngest in drama again, no freshman, though there were a lot of 16-year-old freshman.

Like, it's hard to imagine why young people today have an over stereotypical shrink look, where they are thin but with little substance.  I was never of little substance in my inclinations and things I hold as important.  I wouldn't mind saying that about myself, but it's not true.  I remember seeing little kids and wonder how to this day they look.  I never had many attractive blondes in my class, so I don't know.

Well, Halloween is over.  Is it just me or does class of 01 have a thing with Halloween?  It was so neat they did up the halls so fancy maybe slightly of a scary effect of Halloween.  Well, I was in student council the 1st semester of my 3rd year.  I was a junior class rep.  I was gonna be sec of French, but I got in Spanish.  Gifted was okay, but what is most important is getting on dance team or flag team or cheerleading.  I still wish I did the flag team, though it would be a lot of work.  If I can clean up my stuff, I may do stuff that's fun like that.  My parents support me.  If I work I can get more money.  But, I also can live under their insurance until 26 according to Obama.  I think he is the most attractive president.  My dad likes the one who was killed, JFK?  I read it was Camelot days with kids in the White House.

I should have run for class rep my first year, but I hear they got a good group.  This girl who taught me swimming that summer started to treat me differently when I decided not to.  My homeroom was student council which was also special ed.

I miss those days when you see the older more mature people.  I am see in a way more mature but admirably of a good weight.

I don't have drinking problems.  I even smoked to make sure I had something and wouldn't have to get drunk.  I really just like water mostly though or maybe juice sometime for health and tea.

I also don't believe in masturbation so-to-speak yet have an interesting experience with this.

Considered Just Working

I feel too tired from all the strife at school.

I feel bad because I have split interests or talents with music|singing and visual arts, as well as my genuine interest in ballet, theater, and dance.  People admit my art and piano are good.

Posting online is my favorite thing to do.  In this area, the school, UCF, said we have to not do anything outside the theater major when we do it.  I know theater takes dedication.  I can only imagine what that means at the community college level here.  I just fell in love with the computer.  In high school, drama didn't take the same kind of sacrifice.  I don't care about science club nor FBLA.

I almost have a problem giving up any of the 4 arts.  What I really think is I'm very sick from my lifetime habits in school.  Talented Theater was going to be fun, but I found it more interesting to change back to a Catholic school the next year.  The teacher recommended my parents to NOCCA, but I only had one year left.  People joke about film acting.  I think about Audrey Hepburn or other people in movies who came from the theater major.  Also, musical theater is a choice.  I just know I wanna do one course at a time to start with in the summer or probably fall next year.  I do miss teaching as a goal.  I wanted a doctorate in music education, which you can go to grad school online for it.

Working would give me money to buy buy buy.  I think that sounds honest and genuine.  I just have some issues if I am to go in and act with people and feel short.  I think I will wait until I feel better.  I felt very bad trick-or-treating when I was like a midget fairy.

So, now I have to think about my physical well-being.  I could do drama like this.  What if I wanna go back to ballet?  Not many people get famous with anything involving dance.  I know I could solo but can't do many tricks like I'd like.  Used to be I could have done this more seriously and not just for fun for me.  I know this is something else I have to build on.  Either way I greatly appreciate the arts.

Monday, November 1, 2010

I weigh 149.0.

Fall 2011

I just want to take College Algebra online at the main community college.  I have to take 2 more math classes and this will be the prerequisite for the 2nd one.  I think one class a semester is pretty good.  Then, when I'm older, it'll be a good transition to UCF for whatever I'm most interested in.

going 2 the gym

@ 7 PM

Neither

I just like to have time to post on the internet at my leisure.  I am also rebuying Tim Burton movies.  I'm supposed to save up for a glamor shot, too, but these movies cost less than $100 altogether.  Also, I need to start stacking on Johnny Depp's many recordings.

Gym

I like to work out on my own, too, so I can still go to the gym with my dad if I do theater.  I'm good at staying awake, as well.

I see no reason for me to do ballet like that.  It is easy for me to go back, but I am really just excited about theater and need to do what I really want.  I hope I can still have these other things in my life that I like so much.  I'm bred more for doing something bigger than only ballet.

Theater

Now I am more excited about theater.  I think it feels safer to do theater.  It's for film acting anyway.  I'm really not sure.  Like, I might for instance do 1 theater class and see how I like it.  That seems safest.  Part of the reason was I like going to the gym.  I really wanna be a film actor and dance a little but not full blown ballet.

Ballet

So, I wanna do ballet because I know it helps with anything in life putting you in shape.  It's just true.  So what it is is I take ballet at the community college and at the ballet school the adult classes.  The community college can be one night a week.

I still feel a little like theater, but think about Audrey Hepburn having done ballet.  I like acting in general, just don't know what's more worth it.  I would miss majoring in something in the real world.  The gym is getting me in shape, too.  It's just that it's not like I have friends in theater these days.  I think I could become a very good actor or dancer.  I feel safer in ballet so I don't get jealous of new talent.  I will go by that plan a few nights a week.  If I feel like I can do theater and still feel okay then I'd do it, but ballet is such a basic thing, like more than anything for girls to do ballet.  I do miss high school and majoring in arts education.

Theater Versus Dance

http://www.seminolestate.edu/arts/theatre/the-atre.php

Theater seems like it'd be good and safer to do.  It would help my with dance if I change my mind after a semester.  I miss theater and was considering it secondary to music.  The thing is I also took ballet then.  Now I want to pick one thing and am not sure which.  I am thinking theater though I prefer not to have to read thru plays and also prefer not to I dunno.  I am thinking that ballet is more talent based and will do that.  So what I do is take ballet once a week at the other community theater and the rest of the times I take adult classes at Orlando Ballet.  Absence is another issue, but now I always feel like getting out.  Dance is just so magical.  I also heard that theater is a high school thing.  It's too serious any other way.  I just don't know which one I like better.  I'm in better shape, so the classes might be more pleasant for ballet.  I need work on ballet so think I will just do ballet.  I do miss high school theater.  I am not sure.  I could have done theater if I gave up piano, but now high school is over and so is cheerleading.  So, now my one thing will be ballet.  I am resting up to get better and feel like going out more now.  I just study Tim Burton movies now, too.  There is some chance of me doing theater, though, since I also wanna be an actress.  It seems if you wanna be a film actor that you should have other options.  Also theater acting isn't film acting.  I did it all thru high school so-to-speak.  It was good though could have been a lot better.

Halloween

I had a good Halloween this year.  Halloween is always good.

The best part was a Haunted Mansion where you go in the front porch covered in black and stuff and then this statue reaches out and gives you a bowl of candy.  Then I go outside and the statue there like says boo or comes out to get me.  I said ahh!  I was trying to make for an escape for whatever was happening.

It was cute the ones in a bag, too.  It seems like I mostly got some good chocolate, like Twix and a little 1 inch Milky Way in the bag with some other of chocolate.

I lost weight upon going to Halloween in my costume, so that made me happy, that I'm really seriously losing weight.  My dad told me to eat all the candy slowly over time.

Well, my weight went back up to 150|151.  I placed the candy outside my room in the dining area.  I also just had a big bowl of cheddar pasta shells.

I was considering wearing this same costume next year, like usual.  Or, I could get something scary in advance.  Some of it was sold out, and I had money issues.  I'm glad my credit card is working again.  I used it to get Planet of the Apes again to study Tim Burton, the director of The Nightmare Before Christmas and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.  Also, can you believe they made a $500 music box of the music by Danny Elfman in his movies?  I used to have the Nightmare Before Christmas music box but never got it to work.  I wish I never spent my money.  I'm glad getting the DVDs back to study at some leisure.  I really use these.  I get $50 twice a month, and the DVDs are pretty cheap.

So, I just hope my weight stays down.  I see my mom got some of those foam containers with food, 3, probably one each my dad, mom, and I.  My brother stays in the dorm even though we live here.  That's like me 45 minutes away.  I had some problems there when they told me not to be in Music Education.  I was thinking of switching anyway.  I just wish I could have gotten a degree because I'm 24 now.  I'm just happy I have my computer to post on the internet and privately in my room.  My dad got me a good one since I'm always on it.  Have you ever heard of acer?  I just realized that's the kind my parents got.  My keyboards stopped working, too.  The last one water spilled and it even makes the mouse stop working.  My dad said this was a really good computer, like he really liked it.  I almost wanted to get the Apple, but they got me this in the mail instead.  I was gonna get it, but I wasn't sure at first.

So, I have to wash my costume and put it away in a box or up in my closet for now back in my old room.  Now, I am in the garage.  I wonder what else I could wear the costume for, too.  It's fun to dress up.  I could use it to take pictures of myself.  I wanted to set up my garage for that.  I better start cleaning and putting out the small shelves.  I also have a mini table and bar stool to eat on.  I have a DVD shelf and a bookshelf that's not big horizontally.

Before, I was Elizabeth Swann in the Oriental looking outfit, and before that a glo skeleton but didn't go trick or treating or don't remember it then.  My parents or dad said they saved the Pirates of the Caribbean Oriental one, but I guess I don't see it.  I tried to get rid of it, but my dad said he thought they saved it.  I was just trying to make more room at the time.  I'm glad I already ordered Planet of the Apes.  It was only $7.99.  Yet, I couldn't get 2 at this time.

My dad said how good my computer is, so I guess that's why I have Acer.  It annoys me though it sounds like, "Asian."  I hate anything that's not European racially other than to enjoy the benefits and beat.  From the library I just got some music from islands and Mid East and Celtic 3 CDs that go together.  I gave up on reading Shakespeare and am not sure maybe I should just go ahead and take dance instead of theater.  Or, I could take theater before it's too late I think.  I'm not sure because I aspire to dance.  I really like posting on the computer.  I could just take General Studies, as well.

So, we watched Hereafter the day before Halloween, my dad and I.  He though Paranormal Activity 2 was too scary, so we didn't see it.

I think I will take dance at Valencia.  I'm not sure about the theater.  Part of it is I think it will get me in shape and don't think I can do both at the same time.  My other plan was just to take ballet though.  Then I would take ballet somewhere else when they do modern dance or when I can.  My dad used to pay for it, so maybe he still can.  Actually I get in shape more from the gym, so maybe I will just do theater, then.  Dance is easy and for if you're very comfortable and in good shape.  Okay, now I'm excited about theater.  I dunno though.

So today is a holy day and so is tomorrow.  We don't go to church because my mom works on Sundays.  I stopped going before because I felt sick.  Now I am a lot better and could go out if I wanted, though I am still taking care of my blackheads, though they had been getting better.  I think I will put on a pore strip now.  Okay, I did.

I just need to clean up my room soon and then things'll be good.  I had a good Halloween.  I am so happy I can see the difference before in the picture and on Halloween in the new picture.

Also in January my dad said I am going to see a skin doctor for my blackheads.  Maybe they can do laser work.  Usually, these strips work well.  I was so happy how I got in shape from the gym, though.

Another thing to do is to also do Jazz and Tap or just to go to Orlando Ballet at nights.  I wonder if my dad and I will make money from the music.  Already I was called and given some gift money, like food stamps.  So, I can use the money for more ballet, as well.  I think I will just take ballet or do theater, though it seems ballet is more important.  I was thinking of being a theater teacher, but now I wanna do ballet.  I wish I could still do both, but I can't.  I dunno, though.  I can get famous either way and theater is a lot of fun usually.

http://www.seminolestate.edu/arts/theatre/the-atre.php

Maybe I can just skip general studies for now.  That is my plan.  I wonder if I should start with one course.  That's what I think.

Okay, I'm gonna go start cleaning up my hair dye mess.

I don't want it to be because I am mixed.

I don't want things to happen because I have Native American or something.  I don't like that when others get their way and assume I'm special just to make me feel weird, when they sit on their bums and have time to ruin my life.  I blame them too and think it was a bad example.

I do feel awkward.  I just find I am not my parents and less like I would be indian.  It's always that way.  Plus, I don't have the paper to find exactly what could be up.  It burned in the building's fire a long time ago.  Like, what if it was something else?  In China in the center there are tribes with blonde hair and blue eyes I used to have saved or could find on Wiki.  It's like indians living in China like they do in the rest of Asia and parts of Europe.  They may be considered as nomads.

I sorta don't believe I have indian because it's way less than 1%, which is what's most popular.

Blast for the Past

All I want back is the past all the time.

It would have been killer cool to do my hair differently.

I think though my biggest problem was not blackheads but people knowing I was half Chinese(-Indonesian.)  They seemed interested in me like anyone else otherwise.  Even in kindergarten they asked so I came home and asked.  I remember how happy I was I wasn't Japanese because I hear it's not as Asian though it's in the far east, Japan and Korea.  China rounds up so that the Filipins are the south far east.  Taiwan is about it.  Vietnam is just like Chinese, though they also come from a less rocky terrain.  I just know that because Chinese are some so smart and beautiful and European looking that the kids could turn out to be as desirable as an islander if one parent is European I just think.

I've felt uncomfortable because I know that my mom is a champion in her world and I am nobody.  I used to be somebody for all the hard things I did growing up keeping in schedule, though the homework went quickly when I was active physically.  Having piano made me feel special.  My other regret is not getting on the internet just like this when it was getting out as we were moving to Greater New Orleans.

I think I could be a good cheerleader.  I lost a lot of weight looking at my Halloween costume shots and comparing the one before and after.  I got some 3 flavor ice cream because I told my dad I wanted real ice cream.  I guess next time I'll get the sandwiches.  We have frozen yogurt too to use for smoothies.  I blend the 3 flavor ice cream for a shake.

I can round up to terms.

Well, I should have used a pore strip sooner, period.  I think as early as possible I should have asked for something or rinsed my face at least more.  I know I could have fixed it in 4th grade though.  It seemed a little early still.  Like, by the end when I was 10.

I wouldn't want to be on the dance team if I have that many problems.  I did wanna do the plays for drama and when I was in Talented Theater just handed out programs and helped backstage.  It's about being able to deliver.  I went to some smaller schools so ended up performing there.  I felt I had a well seasoned personality by that time and can't help to this day the damaged cells in my body from taking on too much.

A Life Full of Regrets

My biggest mistake was in 3rd grade not practicing with the other girls who weren't moving and interested in cheerleading.

I lost my next chance when I decided not to do it in 6th grade. We moved, and there cheerleading began in 7th grade. I made my next big mistake then. Then not actually going to the dance team tryouts for high school. I made flag team, but this friend didn't make it too who was older and things were never the same at that school after the beginning. I would had been doing this 2nd year, flag team, if I stayed. It's just too much if there's no one there to watch me on Fridays and look for me. Dance and cheer are no easier. I wish now I just wanted to have fun.

I may look forward to doing theater as a major at a community college, but dance just isn't the same. I know it will be okay with me because I'm from Florida. Looking at teams today, I think I have to make it if I have nothing big wrong.

My priority is to get better so I feel more like I did before I moved to the New Orleans area. I still wish I did what I still wish I did. I know I can make it on all these teams. I feel somewhat blessed to have experience with baton. I was Twirler of the Year my 2nd year and was leading younger kids my 2nd year.

Like I can catch those moments where I'm more awake and ready to figure things out. My safe bet is to take one theater course, Acting I, at a community college. I could go to the other one and take dance, though, dance and modern. I have to wait until the beginning of the 2010-2011 year. So my big debate is just on if I should do theater or dance because I'm not starting with both.

Why would someone be mad in a wrong way in the first place?

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Red

Before I also was stuck with the initial red.  I told my dad I won't shave it off this time, too.  Now it is bleached and may have to be redyed after I try the stuff to take out this color.  We wasted then would be hovering around $50 for nothing.  Just because I didn't know how bad it was to do it yourself.  My dad cuts my hair, too.

Removing the Hair Dye

It didn't work well on my hair.  Wal-Mart here sells those things in the hair dye aisle, on the middle top shelf, that gets rid of hair dye.  It has a picture of a few women and says what it does.

So I have on my Halloween hat, but it didn't work on all of my hair, just on the top mostly with some tint on the other parts.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

going 2 the movies

2 c hereafter

Natural Hair

Too bad I got rid of the ones that show hair that's not black and brown.  It started out with blonde highlights from the sun.  Then, I had strawberry hair smooth on black slightly frizzy underneath.

Dying My Hair Again Tomorrow

I have bleached it before.  I have to bleach my black hair and see if the blonde works.

Friday, October 29, 2010

149.6

going 2 work out

and dye my hair

146.8

I lost all this within a short period of time, like overnight.

I lost weight.

Now, I am down to 147.2.  Before I was around a little over 150.

Still Sick

lying in bed

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

jogging

working out with my dad at home later

Eating With My Fam

I'm just cooking rice waiting for it to eat with the orange chicken.

All thru high school

I went to ballet once a week though I wanted more.

If you were wondering about my parents

My dad's birthday is July 25, 1950, and my mom's is the 23rd 1959.

I'm losing my double chin.

I did all the weight machines and then did elliptical and treadmill for 20 minutes each.  I came home and jogged some.

Also it's fun my dad does the bike and I'm too sore to sit there long.

I just got done in the laundry.

I feel a bit sore and tired from working out. I did all the dishes already.

Am I the latest person to be a theater major?

I strangely, hearing the theater auditions, wanted to do that second to music.  Something happened and Hurricane Katrina came.  Now I am 24 and trying to think clearly again since I was like 19.

Monday, October 25, 2010

Going to the store

and vet and gym today.

Theater

It just helps me focus to realize a foreign object that being dance.  I know I can make it.  It's up to my choices.

I kinda wanna do ballet instead, but for some reason it doesn't look like the right choice.

Theater is okay as well.  It's the reading that gets me.  I thought theater was not supposed to be so much to remember, though I had no problems.  I wish I started this when I was 9.

Problems With Reading Comprehension

I still want to do theater, but there's a myth about high school theater or kid theater being better, not too late.  I think that dance is very important and that it's about socialization.  I work out at the gym and jogging.

They divide these classes into beginner, intermediate, and advanced.  I take it I will progress in jazz but not hip hop.

Dance

http://www.spotlightdancecenter.com/adult_schedule.htm

I want to go here and take adult hip hop and jazz.  I am sure it will help me become a dance team member with the kind of competition I've looked into.

I always wanted hip hop, and jazz.  I already know how to do ballet, too.  Just dancing is fun and it's a nice achievement to get down and working.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

They told us.

The grandfather told us.  But, he doesn't look that way.

The Nigger in Me

Well, my dad's mom has ancestors on her dad's side that have some kind of Native American that was burned down where the records were kept.  Shultz may be Swiss Jew, and Kifer may be Polish Jew, though none spoken of.

Chinese, Vietnamese, and Korean

People get disappointed in the Chinese but still ignore them.  I only know of Johnny Depp having significant amounts of Native Cherokee blood.

There are things about Asian that seem more likeable to Europeans.

Anyway, my mom's ancestors lived at the capitol area of Indonesia probably for 500 years.  There are newer Chinese there, and the Sundanese is Taiwanese from like a million or thousands of years ago.

Here is a shot of Taiwanese province woman in China with a HK guy:

http://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://p1.img.cctvpic.com/20091220/images/1261298211438_1261298211438_r.jpg&imgrefurl=http://english.cctv.com/20091220/102471.shtml&usg=__pV5RL7qPyJE7n75YihbPBClNFvQ=&h=450&w=301&sz=23&hl=en&start=45&zoom=1&tbnid=AAhCKeJ6L2WOPM:&tbnh=160&tbnw=117&prev=/images%3Fq%3DSoutheast%2BChinese%26um%3D1%26hl%3Den%26sa%3DN%26biw%3D1680%26bih%3D850%26tbs%3Disch:10%2C456&um=1&itbs=1&iact=rc&dur=281&ei=dAecTOGQHcH38Aa03fT0DQ&oei=cAecTMKaGMT_lgeI1qDLCQ&esq=2&page=2&ndsp=32&ved=1t:429,r:3,s:45&tx=68&ty=72&biw=1680&bih=850

So, it's pretty obvious that the picture of my mom is Chinese.  Why did it matter in the first place?

I wanna put up some pix of my ancestors which are from my dad's side, though.

I guess I feel a bit upset but not really.  It's just how I talk, my dialect, and I am mad that people are so mean because I feel singled out recently going out all weekend, so sorry but I can't go back and fix what I write all the time because when I did that was how I lost my opportunity moving.  It seems like it's sarcastic, but it's not.  I wonder.  I can't ask anyone to accept me, but when people do they try to play around.  It hurts.

I just noticed.

My hair grew back in white and strawberry blonde, the hair on the top limb of my arm, it is a little fuzzy and sticks out.  I've had white hair on my face, but my brother's was more noticeable.

Going to see that owl movie

first eating out and later walking around the mall

It took awhile.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

She was a ballet star in the community.

Having just posed a picture of my mom...

...she was the #1 champion of gymnastics.  She did ballet as a child since there was no ice skating and then in high school she did gymnastics.  She was thin and is petite.

I just lost a lot of weight.

Well

That took awhile.

I wonder why I can't send myself a friend request on MySpace.

Going 2 the Mall

Friday, October 22, 2010

I wonder what rides I will go on.

I'm definitely not doing the boat.  I don't like the swings.  I can do the revolving things and if there's that ride that has boats that fly in a circle with loud music, called for us the Rock and Roll ride.

I'm also apprehensive about Halloween.

We are eating supper there, too, so I wonder what it will be.  I just ate kinda a lot.  I won't throw up on a ride though.

It never gains otherwise.

My weight did sky rocket.

I'm going to a festival tonight.

I wonder what's wrong with our new neighbors.

I did see them this time.

The lady at this little gym I go to knows my name!

My dad and I go there about each night.

It took me so long to lose weight from the M&Ms cookie ice cream sandwiches.

I had all but one that my dad had.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Working Out All Night

SLT

I remember at Slidell Little Theatre after we did You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown as the senior play that the kids in YATS (Young Actors Theatre) sang it as a special number.  It seemed renowned.

Who I Hung With

I always clung to the outcast, you know try to be nice.

So, I put the peppermint patties in two large bowls for Halloween.

I got this huge pack at Costco.  It had 175 small sealed wrapped patties that we're gonna use for Halloween.  I told my parents we'll need to like give 10 to each kid.

I'm going to a festival

sometime this weekend, from church, though I'm too sick to sit through a service.

Flag Team

This girl I hung out with who was a year older and played flute in the band didn't make the flag team, though.  I think I was only gonna do it if she did it.

I took down my Facebook blog.

I just said about online people "removing me" from their friends and about if I should see relatives, Thanksgiving, my aunt's new place..

I landed a role.

In elementary school we read to get a part, and I got picked because I was most enthusiastic.  It was hotel managers for when Mary and baby Jesus were looking for a place.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

College

I wonder if that was a guy from UCF.

I just did 11 laps.

We have a loop I run in.  I don't know how long it is.  It takes 10 minutes or maybe more.

So I started going faster than a dead jog near the end.  My mom called me right when I hung up checking messages, for credit cards and things, college.

Excited

My dad said to see a dermatologist in January.

I wish I did flag team.

I made it for my second year.

I like My Fair Lady, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory themes.

I have so many pictures and videos.

I hope they weren't really lost in Katrina.

I just lost some other picture.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

How can Italians take away race

from Chinese|Oriental?

My dad says

I'm seeing a dermatologist this time about my blackheads or whatever they were|are.  The grease comes out like pegs on a pore strip.  It seems natural to me.  I just waited too long and never used pore strips until 21 when I came home from school already and we moved again.  I was sleeping with my brother after Katrina in an apartment with his dog.  I did have a laptop but just looked up stuff and stuff and planned out some school schedule dreams,

Last time I went to a spa lady twice, first in her home and second in a place.  But, she didn't do anything different as far as sucking out blackheads banging in my forehead with the suction like ripping.

Do you ever feel singled out for trouble?

What do you think about kids

getting smaller?

Some are tall

some are not.

Do people realize the jokes they make about beer?

They think that "drunk" = bad and that it means something that's not to their liking, like if they think someone nice is stuck up for people liking them, they'd say that's a drunk fantasy.

I wonder if I'm vaccuuming or sweeping. Why not?

I can try to neat up my clothes, but I dunno.  I hang my clothes to dry in my old bedroom.  I'm in the garage.  I want to get rid of the short shelves just taking up so much space.  My dad just set up the living room for music.  This guy is coming today to help with music, an Italian named Danny, tonight.  My dad is gonna get shoes that fit me I said at Wal-Mart because I want to spread my toes when I work out.  The laundry room is right next to the garage where I'm staying.  Maybe I need to move out the drawers to somewhere so I can use the whole thing.

I'm saving my energy for laundry.

Then I can see what the situation in the kitchen is.

I'm doing laundry and have to fold towels!

Why was this guy shaking his leg the whole second half?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PN0qSWpfuOo

This one is better.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x-YOJulZzUM

Oh my ... , is this guy ... ?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h4dxCAa0DbM

I look like Mia Wasikowska.

http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/135/l_d447f0f7e9e64338a6bdef37320e32d6.jpg

She is the girl who starred as Alice.

I wonder if people are starting to

let you not worry about things that are of your race but not your parent, like if you're a south Chinese without slit eyes you won't have extra skin nor a monolid.

I think it's important because usually people pick on those they are more jealous of and leave the rest alone.

I am looking for class pictures.

I don't see what I'm looking for, at least not yet.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Gone

I'm helping my mom take my brother's dog to the vet.  I will work out later after supper, 7 PM.

I'm back.

We also went to Popeye's.  It went well.  They took blood sorta on the side of my arm.  :s

I'm going to get my blood taken.

Then, we're going to Popeye's.  We might go to Costco, too.