I feel too tired from all the strife at school.
I feel bad because I have split interests or talents with music|singing and visual arts, as well as my genuine interest in ballet, theater, and dance. People admit my art and piano are good.
Posting online is my favorite thing to do. In this area, the school, UCF, said we have to not do anything outside the theater major when we do it. I know theater takes dedication. I can only imagine what that means at the community college level here. I just fell in love with the computer. In high school, drama didn't take the same kind of sacrifice. I don't care about science club nor FBLA.
I almost have a problem giving up any of the 4 arts. What I really think is I'm very sick from my lifetime habits in school. Talented Theater was going to be fun, but I found it more interesting to change back to a Catholic school the next year. The teacher recommended my parents to NOCCA, but I only had one year left. People joke about film acting. I think about Audrey Hepburn or other people in movies who came from the theater major. Also, musical theater is a choice. I just know I wanna do one course at a time to start with in the summer or probably fall next year. I do miss teaching as a goal. I wanted a doctorate in music education, which you can go to grad school online for it.
Working would give me money to buy buy buy. I think that sounds honest and genuine. I just have some issues if I am to go in and act with people and feel short. I think I will wait until I feel better. I felt very bad trick-or-treating when I was like a midget fairy.
So, now I have to think about my physical well-being. I could do drama like this. What if I wanna go back to ballet? Not many people get famous with anything involving dance. I know I could solo but can't do many tricks like I'd like. Used to be I could have done this more seriously and not just for fun for me. I know this is something else I have to build on. Either way I greatly appreciate the arts.