Is Ellen "out there" "ordering" me to think others are more loved? That's not good in some cases, at all. I mean I like to complain. Give me something I can complain about. People tell me I'm awesome when others find out they believe I'm not. I was pretty popular. I'm not trash, that I know of. That's sad. I feel for those people who get that reputation for what they did cuz I see it's not their fault what it was punished for, and it wasn't for throwing tomatos at me!