People are being mean to me, some, the ones that are closer to me. I don't think that will train me to behave well. I can try, but I won't have gained any strength. I keep getting messages via noises in the house etc. I wonder if I need a nap. I didn't like because my Gramma stressed me out that I had to materialize something I wasn't ready. I don't remember what else I was about to say. Oh, yes. I was worried about my heart. I was about to dream what I materialized, and I woke up, thinking I had drunk something bad for me but it was the acid in my stomach. I didn't have a light near me but got up and went for it saying like wheezing over and over something like, "Oh, my God."