They kept making noises in my room this morning that gave me a fake dizzy feeling that didn't feel good.
I found my mom in the kitchen acting like she was all on the ball.
I think someone intervened to do this to get me to think of something violent. They will taunt me that the last person I started liking who's not Ellen is not something I can do. I just thought of throwing a force at my mom's head, was so annoyed and frustrated thought of my cup. I didn't mean to really think to hurt her like with a cup but to throw a force. You can't just take away things right and left. You set this up. My mom was a wreck, would not stop waltzing around like she's taunting me. They let my mom feel superior to me cuz my dad is not attractive in the same way. I am not my parents. I am another person who strives to stay attractive in her own way. They think this will teach me an ultimate lesson, but I find it a frivolous cause. I stopped hitting my sofa, so they will bother me about this because they think that's why it worked. I've been saying they bother me. I have to be walking outside to get away.
Did you know if you attack someone they can try to ignore you or simply just attack back in a way that seems fair and triumphant? What could possibly happen, you wonder? I simply don't like what they did. I guess it didn't make it thru my thick skull that it was to make a statement about my mom, but I see it was wrong overall.
You could say it was an accident, it didn't bring me pleasure. I was feeling depressed and slept more yesterday and went to bed late yet didn't wake up late.
So, no, I do not mean it. I was being attacked, tho, so I'm not the one who should be sorry.
If a thought slips my mind, what right do you have to get me for it, when you were doing something mean to me?
What, does this prove I was weak and dizzy? How frustrating and humiliating!
See, someone did this to make fun of me and to taunt me that I ruin my relationship with someone. My only help is that it was an accident more. I am not a carcass for you vultures to pick at.