Thursday, August 22, 2013

Dream

So, I had such a strange experience.  I wanted to hide in a bed at a swimming pool that was all like black and white|gray.  I wanted to have fun and pretend someone picked me up cuz I was h***y.  I never did.  It was long-winded, about going back, about being in like a movie, no one sees you in bed.  I felt stimulated by my comforter and sheet, which I hand't slept in in awhile..  I woke up and finished the deed though I did not do much.  Guess I'll grow outta it.  Wondering @ what came over me.  I don't believe I am really that h****.  I dunno, I mean, not really sure what it is.  I don't want people to touch me all the time.  Well, you'll see I've come to like that, as well, but perhaps it was the stress.  I dunno, though, you see, I like to also touch people but am afraid of my race and weight.  I seem to be able to stimulate people and make them forget @ it.  Nice thing to do whether or not I do.  :/  Not sure @ this dream.  It was interesting, like people I knew knew what I was doing and like a girl was my bed.  So.  Kinda okay, some danger, but I didn't think astray.  We had to stroke across the pool and not like startle nor touch the octopus.  On the way back, it was like in our place, though I thought it wasn't even in the pool but sitting on the dry other side.  An attractive lady @ group Tuesday said she's going to Wet 'n' Wild.  What do you think @ being touched by someone?  I'd like that.  :)  I dunno @ my parents, maybe it would make me m*********.  When I hug them, I feel like not good enough.  It is sad, I mean there are other things to do in the world than hug people. I know.  :|

So..