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Sunday, September 21, 2014

I'm in trouble.

I stopped calling my Gramma a couple years ago. I feel I'm being pushed to talk to my family and never get to know anyone successful like myself. I do like being with my parents. I like talking to my aunt. I should start. I spend my time upset posting what it is on my blog a lot, tho. I wanna call my Gramma when I'm outside taking a walk, hopefully this week will happen. I'd like to call once a week, again, or so. At one point, it was every day.

What do you think

of my old best friends knowing the world partly is there to charm them, while the rest of us wait, just because I spammed them out of a fury. It was all advice and stuff, tho. I was worried about them, but I shouldn't have.

OK

So, think of actors. What keeps them going is more big projects. What does that say for the rest of us?

Also, watching Ellen can be very difficult. She tries to help people feel better.

Again

Why are people pretending to be more withheld than someone such as .. myself? I am considered shy and sweet. I don't need someone to pretend to be there for me.

It seems

unsupported to have nice and organized activity. It's a private place where people just use it to go to Disney. There's no "feeling" about it.

If I were somebody

it'd be different. Instead, you all attack me for things I did when I was attacked then, too, and lost all my friends. They just stopped. Won't talk to me now.

I'm a nobody. My college and high school records are crap. I am not going back to put more on it right now, neither.

You know..

..it's really lonely and frustrating, having a sick mom and only going out alone once a week to Disney.

I did realize there was nothing special about how I looked and maybe getting more physically fit again would help. So would doing something, but I'm too old for all that's provided to kids by high school and if they aren't "kicked out of their major" and uncounseled about things and forced to get help, like your plans they want to know to match what you do and when you do what or whatever.

I guess I gotta be careful

not to be a weirdo.

Think about it.

The people born in 1991 have it so much better than in 1990. Everything is about them. So, they have something we don't that they fall back on. They're the age that shines.

Stuff

link

Clearly, those born in 1990 have it worst. They are under the submission of mistaken adults, and the next generation 5 years later experience ecstasy and a feeling of solidity.

Weird

Why do people want kids to be obedient yet unattractive? That was the opposite sentiment.

I also need to pray

that my family is safe after how I felt last night outside.

La. is 1st class.

I am in a 3rd world culture.

Like, there was a murder of a couple with an attractive, sweet Spanish lady and a white guy who's obese and older some. The case was big over the gulf course. I know that what hits right away in that modern culture, La., they would be talking about how the wife would take advantage of the money and whether or not it was good for her, like if she's spoiled or deserves it. Here, they'd be wondering about killing the accused.

Still in Vigil?

Maybe, you should teach me a lesson. I decided to leave if the cars bother me.

Why

are other siblings told they are like their siblings in a way I'd like but not me?

Ya

Pretty foolish. Only a smart person would notice. I am treated haphazardly because it's through a screen and technology and not out in the world yet.. that's what I'm concerned about, that it's like this at all, even if just because I'm behind a screen and not active in some thing in the media.