TV

"The Ellen DeGeneres Show" was nice.  The African-American from New Orleans seemed to have the culture down but only excluding Asians.

The boy with the speech problem was so cute, was born with a brain problem.  I guess we'll eat away at what others thought they'd get, even if some of us can't have kids..  :(*  Let's give Ellen a daughter!  She needs 1!  She can have 1!  What guy?  It'd be nice if she had the daughter when I wish I had a little sister.  She can still be like a mom to you.  I realize her daughter will be younger.  I guess I'm saying this for attention, so I mean it's for her, though.  So, that boy goes around in a hat and suit and tye.  So cute!  What else?  The Asian was cute, he talked totally American and only had like his personality looks as Asian.

"Where am I?"

You know you're safe if you're in on at least musical theater and hopefully classical singing.  You may not see it, but 1 day you will and you will believe it.

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More on Death

Growing up, I had to extinguish the constant uncomfortable feelings of assimilating oneself to Jesus, I came home in PreK thinking I'd die on the cross like Jesus.

Admitting It

I think it is admitted when the natural features of an Asian fit the ideal.

If I had to rank ladies @ my dad's age..

1- Karen Carpenter (deceased, a little older)
2- Sharon Osbourne
3- Siw Inger
4- Frenchie from Grease
5- Olivia Newton-John (older..)

My C.D. 3I

..I'm gonna record

13 Songs

Folk
1- The Ash Grove - Welsh
2- Simple Gifts - American
3- O Waly Waly - Irish

Classical|Opera (5 Songs)
4 - Fairest Isle
5 - I Attempt From Love's Sickness
6 - Die Forelle
7 - Gretchen Am Spinnrade
8 - Pres des Remparts de Seville - Carmen

Musical Theater
9 - Be Happy - The Little Prince
10 - Wouldn't it be Lovely - My Fair Lady

Pop
11 - The Tide is High https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/die-zeit-ist-reif-karaoke/id54626710 2?i=546267268
12 - Close to You

Movies
13 - Golden Afternoon - Alice in Wonderland (Original Disney Animation)

New Videos of Me Singing

1 - Close to You - December 14, 2013
2 - Close to You - December 14, 2013

So

What does Ellen think I need to fix @ how I look, or think in terms how would I need to look?  I'm sorry you see my bristly hair.  I don't wanna look like mucus.

Why do

people sort me as someone who's not cool like a Late Boomer?  Like I'm a dork that needs to be opened up?

Problem

These experimenters won't be quiet.  I was into Karen Carpenter, and I usually am into younger women, and now they are saying it's time for my aunt..

Problem

I'm tired of people treating me like an emotional + intellectual baby, sometimes.  Sometimes, you just gotta lash out.  I don't like speaking in code like they do, neither, it's not fun nor worth it..  :/

Hurt

My stomach area is still hurting from that person.  Also, from dropping my food I feel full.  I don't see why anyone would think this is here to teach me a lesson.  I just had a few strawberries earlier then went to sleep.

New Photos

New Photos of Me



I also made my Twitter and IMDb profile picture the 2nd 1.

I just feel..

..like people changed their minds and decided not to accept me as a singer.

Singing

Why do both Charlotte Church and Jackie Evancho sing so old and are sometimes so forward @ their singing?  Most people hopefully aren't, mainly young singers.  Don't you just sing and wait for people to judge you?  I don't get told I'll make it, but people tell me I have a voice like an angel, same with Charlotte Church, hmph, Jackie Evancho is in the money.  I do feel that people like them are trying to say "I'm not better" but we're essentially just different.

New Facebook Video

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Lovely Article

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Ghost

The Ghost of Karen Carpenter

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Message From Karen

I was singing "Wouldn't It Be Lovely" and at the end something, a sound, popped out in me.  It was louder, too.  It was like a little sack of string wrapped around something.