Friday, October 28, 2016
Getting Attention
It seems it's all about those parents now, for their sake and others.
Why can't it be about our personality? The generation seems more multi-faceted as a deciding factor, like blonde hair has been now.
It may seem like a surface thing, but I lived where this prejudice did not exist as a deciding factor. They really took their kids in and taught them the ways. I can't ever do it cuz it all went behind closed doors to those kids! Don't ask where my mom and dad are in this. That's unimportant, maybe, maybe for now. What about kids with parents of different ages? I thought parents were smart and could teach their kids how to have better lives. I don't know if that's so. Can someone born in 1950 really instill that in their kids? They can incite it in people born around 1960. I'm just jealous. I'm cool, but I didn't get that. I also claim to be an emotional person.
You know, some people it seems who are good but in power would follow the trend and say pretty much that's how it should be, they get that kind of recognition and continue to minister that way, but others feel bad about themselves, like they act like they don't get love and blame innocent people who have problems like this of their own.
How are other people a smooth experience and I'm not? Maybe, I had the right intentions but not the right help and environment. Money, greed. People think I don't deserve things, but they say it for the wrong reasons. Who's to say? Why don't I have something else to unwind to? Other young people seem they can have full and active social and emotional lives. They are supported by people of many ages.
I see the kids born around 1997/1998 with younger parents were raised to feel pleasure and others weren't so much as a generation and treated like dolls and then there are outcasts within that group as well. These kids born around 1997/1998 are antsy that people born in the 1970s/1980s watched them grow up. I feel I've been treated like a joke by people born around 1960 and treated harshly by people born like in the late 1960s, like they were the ones watching me, like I can't succeed at anything with varying amounts of attention or not. I wasn't given things to work on, not like that, these younger kids.
I feel like some people think I don't deserve a lotta things and in the end I will grow old and die sad like it does not matter for me but does for others.
Thursday, October 27, 2016
What's there to live for!
Wednesday, October 26, 2016
Precautions
Issue
I don't know why this is important, but no I'm not feeling that and don't think it'd be all that good completely.
Not Over, Yet?
I went to the kids's mass, and I heard the person I look up to is "still out of it" and bemused they messed with the spiritual strength of my hands.
One unsuccessful relationship is getting in the way of another.
My hands feel different!
Why be even harder on me with my burden of having to interact with my dad when I run into him at home?
They are just pissed off I was gonna do for others what others did for someone.
They threw away my relationship in the end cuz they're jealous of what I've accomplished and acquired.
I had something, and now I have nothing! cuza my dad! I still am concerned about him. I think because I simply thought my dad is old enough to start worrying about death they think they are powerful and should cut things short. I don't believe in you people. Nothing is good cuza my parents making life crappy.
They are supporting someone else doing things that others who really want to can't, maybe just not creative enough to do something right and out to get me. I didn't say they couldn't do it. I just got into a mess and was attacked. Who cares? People don't know what they're doing, but that shouldn't ruin my life.
I am here and interested but don't know what else to say and surrounded by confusion.
I also am getting that someone I know has to bind with someone else.
I just am a bit perturbed.
People here are all up in my business and in the end taking my relationship from me. They said this person is stimulated forever in a certain way. They want me to be crap and like them. I didn't do something to deserve this. Would you like this trip? Life has not been seeming well.
I said it's okay if this person feels very good, but some other things happened.
Problems
I think I just got in a bunch of trouble.
People are telling me I did things I didn't do. They are steering thoughts wrongly.
Supposedly.. or they thought.. me using the word "selfish" ^meant something^ that I did not intend for it to. I said people made someone feel selfish. Love is not selfish.
I am at church and so I thought there are people there. Why not make them feel that way?
So, if I look up to someone do you pour alcohol down their throats every day?
What isn't selfish about doing that to someone? Who are you to judge you did what was best for others? Make it real by blaming me? Why make it so no one trusts anyone to make them feel good for admitting what I say?
I didn't want go say this but guess my blog and not other people will be the parasitic host and its place. There are people who act meanly here, too.
Why are my private feelings abused too much? Is it cuza my dad? Other people don't live like this. So what? Do only others get a reward and no one else and say I did something? Wow, that's pretty nitpicky.
I bet you think I should not post this, but I don't want it to leak into this reality. You know I gotta go soon and can't revise this. Like I said in my last disliked statement, no offense. I just want to post my life, not doing anything wrong nor saying someone should not feel pleasure and like that.
People are threatening a relationship and having their fun saying I hang with someone else forever and not have my other relationship. What sinful people. They don't know how life works. You know what I feel, but what did I do wrong? I used the word "selfish" fine.