They won't stop.

Problem

I just got another negative message and am being told I do something bad.  They're clowning around at me, and people are mean to me.  You can't get mad at me.  I didn't do anything bad.  I'm not even allowed to have thoughts.

Problem

What'd I do now??

Upset

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You just do something I don't like and say if I get upset at something else I get punished or say "I said something" else.

Why

were you messing around like that?  I don't believe the reasoning behind it.

All you all do is make sure I'm not like everyone else.

I didn't say it was wrong.

Why DID you think with such simple intentions?

People are REALLY on top in their own way.

For once

I deserve to be on top.

In fact

no one is "better" than me.

I've seen people I admire.

I feel I don't know myself but I don't want to not like myself and turn into an ogre and convince myself it's okay.

Like

if your dad embarrasses you, would you want him to touch you and act like he's Ellen DeGeneres?  I'm trying to argue I do have a relationship.  Obviously not the same.

People are who they are.

I don't want to be tricked into thinking my dad is some things he never was for me.  That's like saying it doesn't matter who a person is, you can get the same feeling from them all.  You don't like that, yourself.  What if I am too old mostly?

Why can't I feel something I want to feel?  I'm not in the right health and physical shape?  Why did my mom decide that for me?  What I did wasn't enough.  It was more than what some kids had.

Why do you

want my dad to affect me in a way I don't like?

I'm feeling uncontrollably upset still.

I'm having trouble with my feelings.

Problem

People take what I say way too seriously and make assumptions and hack at me for it.

Problem

People keep hurting me.

Comedy

these days is sick.

New Shows

I'm recording Madame Secretary with Erich Bergen and New Girl with Zooey Deschanel.

Edit

I edited my new Twitter profile.

I am a success

BECAUSE I HAVE a blog