I sit at home and am waiting to get in a movie.
I just did ironing, washing clothes, cleaning my room and bathroom to a reasonable degree. Want to go for a jog, shower, watch Ellen. I got 3 books to movies:
(1) The Boxtrolls
(2) The Book of Life
(3) I asked about a book for Big Eyes by Tim Burton, coming out this Christmas.
You know famous people hacked into my life and know all about me and are doing mean things to me? Like, they think people I know are "discoveries" over me and that I'm not as cool compared to them. I don't think that's true, but it's too late. They've lied to me, too. I have nothing to do and am sick of this- sick of these people bothering me. In fact, they watch me on cameras, the nurses or whatever. I thought it'd be cool, but it's mostly about sh t. I am not even rich enough to look decent all the time, and my mom got me sent away and put on pills I still take which make me tired.
So, I'm happy about the books, about to go check on getting the book The Boxtrolls is based on, I think Monsters in the Attic.
And also what the people do are done with insinuations, can't catch me being fooled as though I was just being nasty. I don't know what's going on, but it seems to invariably include me in uncomfortable and tacky ways.
Also, it's very abusive here and with my crazy dad.. he kept beating the car wheel yesterday, and it made my hands feel a bit funny. He beat the wheel almost the whole time the light was red after I asked about someone here sticking their rubbery hand out like they're playing piano.. it was a sight to see.
So, excited about books!
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Overview
Sorry, if you know what I posted pertains to.. I didn't say anything bad, but I said something, like I said.
I wanna jog and shower before I watch Ellen. I cleaned my room and had ironed clothes and am washing clothes.
Why are people keep bothering me just because of that 1 time I walked outta my room and for some reason it seemed annoying? I never do that on purpose. Just leave me alone. I went to Disney, I have UCF the jazz radio on, and the talking is incessantly trying to dig at me.
I wanna jog and shower before I watch Ellen. I cleaned my room and had ironed clothes and am washing clothes.
Why are people keep bothering me just because of that 1 time I walked outta my room and for some reason it seemed annoying? I never do that on purpose. Just leave me alone. I went to Disney, I have UCF the jazz radio on, and the talking is incessantly trying to dig at me.
I'm tired of being treated this way
and getting uptight.
It's nonsensical and inappropriate. What if someone saw?
It's nonsensical and inappropriate. What if someone saw?
They don't even think..
..they should have something going, but someone seems to have hurt that part of me at Disney, some guy in front of me affected me, kept moving around in an annoying way. I shoulda told someone.
Like, it seems that we're stuck on something. I just see this as an ongoing pattern. I'm supposed to supposedly react, but I don't think that's right, neither. I think what I think and don't have to "do something.."
Like, it seems that we're stuck on something. I just see this as an ongoing pattern. I'm supposed to supposedly react, but I don't think that's right, neither. I think what I think and don't have to "do something.."
I should just ignore the signs.
I don't like watching myself in deep shit on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." People all hate me. This show is important.
I don't know how to go about my repetitive life.
Maybe, I will look online at Ellen's show and see if there's any sign to avoid it.. and why. If it's cuz I used to curse about the noises she put in my room, I'd go over my anger each day and apologize and didn't actually curse at her most often I think. If I did, I blotted it out to some degree or something. I just know I was in check. It's not okay that she put those noises in my room. She thinks that's what should make me in trouble.
I said I was fine with her talking a lot to others, but I don't like talking ABOUT it, like them saying it's to punish me for that and that if I didn't do it it wouldn't happen. Why not do it, anyway? No, I do not accept that as a punishment, and it even made me upset about it in material when my mom, probably via message from Ellen, rubbed it in.
I think she became more touchy and sensitive about when I complain about things and thinks it's based at her cuz she thinks that's what should be going on in my life, her paying attention to someone over me. I already said it was okay technically but am annoyed if it's just punishment.
I think I will just enjoy it. I can make fun of it, but that seems to tick them. I mean, what's wrong with it? Why make it a huge punishment thing? And still it's something I do now, I watch the show.. Why judge me falsely, too? Why just say I'm like a bad person or not that good?
Also, my dad is bugging me without warning. Ever since Tim Burton, Johnny Depp, and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, it's been this way. You can't say that they're not an element to the world, now, too, just because it's not about you! In some ways it is about everyone as a whole, though.
I said I was fine with her talking a lot to others, but I don't like talking ABOUT it, like them saying it's to punish me for that and that if I didn't do it it wouldn't happen. Why not do it, anyway? No, I do not accept that as a punishment, and it even made me upset about it in material when my mom, probably via message from Ellen, rubbed it in.
I think she became more touchy and sensitive about when I complain about things and thinks it's based at her cuz she thinks that's what should be going on in my life, her paying attention to someone over me. I already said it was okay technically but am annoyed if it's just punishment.
I think I will just enjoy it. I can make fun of it, but that seems to tick them. I mean, what's wrong with it? Why make it a huge punishment thing? And still it's something I do now, I watch the show.. Why judge me falsely, too? Why just say I'm like a bad person or not that good?
Also, my dad is bugging me without warning. Ever since Tim Burton, Johnny Depp, and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, it's been this way. You can't say that they're not an element to the world, now, too, just because it's not about you! In some ways it is about everyone as a whole, though.
Issue
I see someone is fooling incessantly with me. The next day..
Why am I suddenly unwelcome? You all are mean. Can you accept that? Maybe, nothing matters, not even fame. I don't want to be joked around with from those free above. Maybe, 1 of them is really depressed but done the deed.
Just saying what's going on, no offense. What's anyone out there think?
Did I do something too much? I don't know if I've slipped, but I'd be sorry if I had.
Why am I suddenly unwelcome? You all are mean. Can you accept that? Maybe, nothing matters, not even fame. I don't want to be joked around with from those free above. Maybe, 1 of them is really depressed but done the deed.
Just saying what's going on, no offense. What's anyone out there think?
Did I do something too much? I don't know if I've slipped, but I'd be sorry if I had.
What I Have
Ellen and Bella think everything I say is about them.
When I go to Disney World, some guy in front of me bugs me the whole time by moving around funnily and it even can cause hurt. For some reason, still, my neck won't crack as deeply, as it always does.
When I go to Disney World, some guy in front of me bugs me the whole time by moving around funnily and it even can cause hurt. For some reason, still, my neck won't crack as deeply, as it always does.
Do you ever think
about when people chose to talk to you and then someone else comes up and suddenly they're better? and you're no good? I was looking at an ad for Sleeping Beauty, and her head was hanging downm like some sad kid who thinks she's been treated wrongly by someone and deserves more.
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