Hm, another message?

Looks like I'm not really going back to bed.

My race?  It is what it is to you.

Lessons

I just found another way to search for lessons.  I found a teacher a year younger than me who does piano and voice and I'll do 1/2 hour voice.  I am worried my money is to go to Disney at least once a week plus help to get nice clothes more often.  It would be nice to sing in an organized environment or to see this young singer.  She looks fine, happy and a good weight.. I'll easily understand her.

Just Drop the Baby

Church music is considered classical, always put in some Latins sometime and is with organ.

A problem may be..

..money.  I use $8 for transportation to Disney and then I need at least $10 to eat.  That would cut me off to not buying normal things.. like clothes.  My mom is shopping at Sears for my Christmas, could only seem to ask for 4 things and 2 I need are pants..

So, about how do you feel, now?

I'm looking for not just a graduated singing teacher.. a real singing teacher.  3)

I'm literally

being stared down.  You can't suggest something that dum cuz I did well in voice lessons....

You're all

ridiculously mean and disgustingly callous.

That's all I ask. 3I

All they want isn't for someone to be loud and the same.  Usually, the tone or timbre doesn't work out or doesn't show expression.

Did you find out..

..singers were self-trained?  Maybe not always..

Have they stopped..

..teaching people to succeed in singing?

I think I need to sound less like Charlotte Church because I don't want to be breathy.  I just want to be able to do it.

See, singing high to me is fake for her, like I know it's easier than what she just did, really, but I can't be her.  She doesn't have a variety of timbre up there.  She is very set.  She is very good and entertaining and pleasant, as anyone would say, but I know that for anyone singing high and ringy is just the shortcut and implies to be more than it is in amateurs, unless they have a teacher.  I didn't try to just be loud and high.

Up to Nothing

You're putting down the talent I have, so you're the 1 who's really "up to nothing."

f.y.i.

I wasn't really singing, I was imitating opera singers in fact as my decision, didn't realize it was unreal but bad worse than before.  My real voice is more like standard and not bubbling in opera, you know?  But not pop..  :|

How crazy is this?

Are people's eye's popping out thinking I mustn't be a "real" singer?  What does that mean?  It's suggestive to me cuz I wanted to be a singer and told my parents at age 5 and again at 7 and had been at 6.  I don't want you to hurt my parents.  I did tell both.  Something else making you uncomfortable??  I can't believe you, you are just out to get me.  My mom asked the school and they put me in choir.  I had no clue @ private singing, was just barely a toddler at 5 I mean.  When I was 9, I had a more vocally trained instructor who spoke of private lessons.  So, she was qualified to teach us as a group I figured.  The last teacher taught us to read notes so much, and it was very hard for me in a way but I did it.  With playing it was easier.  I could observe myself at piano, then.  We moved again and in a way I felt timed for private lessons but couldn't keep up in piano..  15 again, seemed late, but it would help.  15, 16, not enough money with me doing piano, organ, ballet, tennis + martial arts.  Too busy @ 17, too, learning classical music and stuff.  I was supposed to do it in school @ 16, but another girl joined my class..  I think they got that girl to get back in.  I learned some singing, and I became a branded student and not really indepenently inclined, after all.. whatever floats your boat but I was active and alive in life, Queen of Clubs.  I did stop after that year to concentrate on ballet and singing!  I ended up in a hard history class and it ruined my life.  And f.y.i., I sang more than the vocal majors in my life.  Most started right before getting in.  I was under the impression most people weren't that comfortable singing to enjoy it, which if you didn't was more suspicious than me in any way.  I liked them but didn't know why they came in flip flops so we'd be concentrating on their feet.  I wonder how I'd do with vibrato had I been trained sooner.  I saw this girl start voice @ 8, did recorder then flute and swimming.  I admire her.  She had an excellent voice but changed in college.  Wanted to be an opera singer, though I must say she had a voice that when I imitated made my voice start to crack all the time, just this year.  It was whispery and sincere..  She said musical theater ruins the voice.. I was always wary of that and kinda clinged to church music.  I tried to sing more normally and not like pop.  So..

I think

I can't hear myself sing.  Maybe, I can now.  I woke up to go to the RR.  I left my Ave Maria on.  Do you think Renee Fleming can sing?  She's done it since she was a baby and her parents are teachers, but I don't see any special thing other than talent that she looks for.  She doesn't really make all the criticisms, so-to-speak.  Her personality is much like Sarah Brightman!!

Well

I know if I took voice at 12 that I would be taught to sing calmly as I had just before then moving.  I would sing in a whispered voice to practice and would have been great.  That point was already past my growing stage.

I can see..

..wut happened..

Should Be Accepted..

but I'm not

Wandering

I'm just waiting for a bomb to tick off and it isn't mine.

Wut

What's really up with Bella Thorne and her ego, being like I think a hint to say I'm not an approved singer when I doubt she's had much training.  3o

I think a lot of people wish to say that of my singing style.  What @ Sarah Brightman's acclaim that she has?  Don't you see it?  I do like to try to sing standardly|classically.  I think I am a real opera singer for sure, I just lost some of my voice, not quite sure how to get that strength fresh again.

YouTube Comment

I posted it on the site

Sarah Brightman - Nessum Dorma - 2013-11-22

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Wow, this is 1 of the best performances of her I've seen, love then all!