OK

I'm moving my stuff, now!  I might make it!

Well, I was upset I felt uncontrollably upset, could not chill out, was cleaning up and thought of something suggestive that others find was a type of message.  It might be something she likes, but I don't think so, in a way.  I mean, maybe, but I don't think it was what she specifically intended for.  Maybe, she likes Cher, though, who knows, who knows..

I am taking a stand

against Late Boomers and their parents.

My gramma set me up to get mad so she can knock me out in a programmed way.  She was just plain nasty.  How can I deal with this?  It already happened.  It's her fault.  All this shit because of your ordeal with Nell Burton and me calling her the N word..though you didn't say anything @ it but signaled me to do it.

Well

OK, I jogged and have started a list of groceries.  Looks like cabbage soup, which I could have made now, and the lecipe :| (recipe.)

Well

You can't fix it..

..and I wanna jog though my dad will be here too soon-bye.

Weird

Now, I want the balloons I saw on the costume on my birthday..  This isn't funny, I know someone's laughing, depends on who, though..

Question

I found a nice shirt..  it looks like a party dress..  Did someone in the experiment get them to do it?  What if in the end I don't have anything I like to wear that was made to be sold?

What I Do Now

If you were wondering, I have to tell myself stuff so I don't get more mad, like oh I am not doing that, oh I don't approve, no, I'm not doing it..

Problem

I told you I was upset, but I didn't think anything violent.  I don't even know why I'm posting this.

Question

Now, I noticed Bethenny is a candy girl.  I am an Ellen fan, I know they planned this for me.  I will not put up with all these weird things, but I mean of course it's okay..  I don't like the attitude I am sensing.  I wanted a clean, new way of blogging.

Well

I posted this cuz I was so upset @ my aunt.  I am also upset @ the message.  It's very inappropriate.

I will not do it.

I am getting outta this experiment trap.  My dad is the 1 who is gonna be beaten theoretically for always being so intruding, @ me though.  I forget what it was, but his making up stuff won't "hold over."

Problem

I found that these people experimenting on me or whatever will do something because of this.  I didn't really do anything and figured out each time why I felt so bad.  I was doing the dishes and don't usually do that.  I did them yesterday, too.  I know I get a temper when I do things like ironing, but lately it's been rather easy.

Well

I was upset because so much has centered on something that actually does't matter - my aunt invited herself on my birth date when I was 1/2 her age, but I just wanted a special time with family.  I now go out with my other aunt for a concert each birthday, and my gramma called me for like a year and bothered me.  I just visited her again.  Something that will astound you to know is Sarah Brightman came to give a concert, next is Josh Groban who we aren't seeing for some reason, and around my birthday is the despicable Cher who had adoring fans.  Are they feeling for Sarah Brightman inappropriately for no reason?  I know it was the wrong thing to do, but what made me mad and kept not feeling okay was @ my aunt having importance in a suggestive way.  I didn't tell anything to her but was hurt and told my family..

Well

I'm reserving a ride to the Disney auditions.  I am not getting there as early nor leaving as late.  I'll leave 4 hours from when auditions start..

Well, it's scheduled, but it's so early.

Mood

I wonder if I need to go for an ea'ly mo'ning joge (early morning jog.)

And as for me

The Disney parade would help with my performance skills.  I don't know that maybe it's better than a small role in "Finding Dory" because Ellen DeGeneres is Dory.  It would help make me less shy, though Tinkerbell doesn't talk.

Set & Focused

I really need to lose weight, think I could make it @ Disney.  I don't know why my mom made me fat.  My room I just need a bit more sprucing, got the chords piled up, and wanna change computer tables to the 1 that doesn't shake.  Guess this big table will be used for a variety of things.  Something else I need is a hat stand for sweaters and stuff.  I have an extra little table for the fish bowl, I see, if I sew, maybe same for the rat, need to buy another maybe cuz my harp is on 1.  I just had a hot dog and am making a hamburger.  Unhappy, need to make a list to shop.

Twitter

Plan

Well, I found 2 more agencies, gotta be careful cuz if I apply and don't make it, no more left.  I am getting the impression I'm good enough compared to others or something but am not being accepted.  I just am not ready, maybe.  I go to audition, and they think I'm fat or something.  I think I will, though, apply for the Disney parade cuz I'm so restless.  If I get much thinner, I can apply for "Finding Dory," see if I'm ready for the Disney parade auditions for Tinkerbell, would be nice for life now.  My mom had me apply for a job, so.. help from an agency.  Also, I'm so hungry like for a soda or a snack or something.  I was dieting, but sometimes I'm not.  I use money for things other than food, too, like new clothes.  If I know there's something I really like, I can come back, later.

I have to

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move the computers to the sturdy table and I guess use the other table for the fish and a rat and my art.  Not sure where I will sew.  My dad is supposed to take 1 computer away.