Problem

Stop wasting my time.

Problem

Stop rubbing in ideas to me.

Talking Back

People need to quit insulting me and be more critical of others they "formerly" held divine.  You can't just like rope my feelings and then suggest the opposite to just me.

Roping My Point

I find that when people talk to me they are indirectly mean to me and I suffer.  They just want to stimulate me by being suggestive, and I get this feeling of wanting to do something about their supposed superiority.  I don't think I ever wanted to be perverted.  I just get that it's because of unfair things in my life.

Bothered

My noisemaker started to warble and I can't focus.  My dad was supposed to get me a fan but wants to get it at a store.  It wasn't at one so he wants to go to another.  I asked a long time ago.  I just couldn't go to the store, recently.  Also, there are sometimes random noises.

What do you have to be like?

So, do you have to be like your dad or can you be like his parents?  Like, my dad had a flat face before.  He also had kinda slick yet hairy skin.  I mean, it must make a difference.  I'm just lucky my mom is the opposite.

I wonder...

I wonder if I would have gotten pimples if there was ballet where we lived in the nation's oldest city.

Well Wishes to All

I hope everyone is doing well, but I know that people supposedly don't care.  I caught onto this idea from my grandma that just because my mom is cute that everyone is attacking her for not being European to me.

Problem Growing Up

So, when I was 11 and that thing happened, I think I got fat after I heard we were moving.

Feeling Dirty

I feel dilapidated, unshowered, but still tired from the walk.  Let's see, I didn't shower today.  That means I'm in a grumpy mode.  I need to shop.  I need to lie down, too.

I just feel like fat, greasy, with brushed yet messy hair.

I'm just really mad I guess at the accumulation of problems through the years, but it's good to slow down so you're not winded.  I mean, I'm thinking of the collected fat.  I mean, I'm okay, but I feel kinda tired and dirty like greasy.  I'm gonna take some pills that are to reduce fat, natural pills, that also increase the digestion.

Taking out My Anger

I don't sit there in a daze and submission to my dad because you're older than me and he's older than you.  If I get insulted, I have to like do something.  I like to think of tackling an explosion, but I bet that makes you mad that I get away with taking out my anger.  I feel that in private I got the message from a boy that I have to turn my thoughts into curse words, and then it was encouraged by others, to give him stimulating attention and so I'd be punished all the time for what I thought.  I'm always trying to improve and I mean cursing when used for fun isn't offensive.  I am an honest person, and I didn't do anything wrong.  I don't have a malfunctioning, conscious problem.  I was taught to believe others do.

Problem

Stop insulting me every time I make a point.  You're just racist.

Every time I address a problem.

Problem

If you wanna hang out with someone, why don't you just submit to them?

I noticed Ellen DeGeneres supposedly notices weird things that don't have anything to do with one another and then in private it becomes a big deal.

Problem

I feel my environment has been plotted against me.

Problem

So, where's my money?  You keep bothering me.  Every time I post, I'm bothered.

Problem

Can you just stop impersonating my aunt or get the source of this problem once and for all and don't hurt anyone if they don't mean anything and are just looking for attention?

Problems

So, what's with the acting like the clicks in my room are okay ... like even with things that other people approve of?

I was thinking, people are making fun of me for identifying with my dad in a good way.

Stop surrounding me all of a sudden with insults.  I don't believe you, that this is what I need but that you are bad people.  It seems like all the good people have gone against me that I meet.

Problem

I was just really bothered and feel more annoyed for reacting.  I just felt so overcome and like beaten down.

I will not take this.  I will locate the cause of these problems and why I've been so tortured.  I'm more convinced it was the n word thing.  I don't want to believe my life was an experiment before college and especially not when I moved when I was 12.  My life was miserable.  Since that thing when I was 11, I pretty much lost my looks and eventually well-being.

So, I think that there is the original source, and then there is the person who takes action and then there is the person who is a victim.

My head is pretty sensitive now, too.  It's hard on the outside, and the inside is more stable.

Nitey

Celeb Watch

I just watched Johnny Depp on YouTube playing guitar.