Sunday, November 27, 2016
Saturday, November 26, 2016
Calling It a Night
I went to mass this evening and got home by bus. It was an exciting mass, contemporary music too I sang in plainsong. I'm going to 2 masses tomorrow morning! Wonder what we will sing!
Well, exciting now I record myself singing better, better technology usage.
It's funny people acted like they served me dinner on a silver platter only to throw me to the streets socially. Don't act like that didn't just happen, amidst other big things happening out there. People will say this is the biggest accomplishment yet in history, whereas before it was Late Boomers being born into the world. "You mean, they're still alive!" Yes! Just a funny catch phrase that came to mind realizing how cool it is that we're talking about it and it's actually people who exist in history in important things today. Baby Boomers encompass the 1950s it seems now. Late Boomers are most popular treats. Their families probably have all the fun. It's funny how suddenly it's all about families. That's definitely not what it's about for me. I wanted to meet people I both am and am not related to. It's hard having 1/2 Asian blood, but I like my mom. It's hard just having a Caucasian dad. I don't know if anyone likes me.
Yea, so people acted like I should be glorified for some reason before, and I tried to say I wasn't good enough it feels or that I don't think they want to do that. Now, I'm nothing, like they had it planned all along. I'm not even nor mean. I only feel sad and upset on the inside and eventually soon the outside when people deny me my rights as a human being to be able to live and prosper in the world and socially, not to feel bumped around for something I did that's past and forgotten. I don't get it. I just see people think I'm an issue. They want me not to exist and end my life, like I'm just a deed to be done and k***ed for fun. I want more than what people will let me have or think they have to do to ruin my life.
Like, before, people are telling me I need all this stuff socially that I don't. Now, I'm called bad.
I hate to break to to you, but I think the reason I get what I do is because I am well-behaved and normal, tho some people may disagree. Also, I call it being experimented on cuz I'm not all that amazing and awesome as others and how I could be. So, that's what you'll get from me, tho I feel I was a lot better off on my own accord cuz I wasn't in trouble for believing weird things that are unspoken. I feel bumped out of family. It is devastating and for some reason re-enters my life.
Hey, I was looking at this star and wondering why people think we should respect Nazis for being white. I respect the Jews that got killed. I know people always respect white people, tho, and if you're not all white think when you're good and cool it's to be shunned as nothing. Also, if you say you like Germany, they think you're just a worshipper of Hitler. In the mid-2000s, "kids" sat slumped over as adults said their kids all say they're worse than Hitler. How gifted and brilliant, but that implies there's something wrong with me and not them. That's not how things were before for me.
I am glad that some people are adventurous and actually talk to me and don't mind getting "the attention.." I think people in my life are being monitored, but I wonder who else out there is like me. I can't tell like I can tell myself out there for some reason, which I do not ask unless truly just interested in something for yourself a bit or how much you are interested, which I don't know why.
You know, I was right. This person I know is important. People shower them with "stimulation" of a sensual nature in a way that was considered inappropriate. They didn't listen. Now, I am guessing the person has been knocked out and is having to hide.
About now, I think of something from "The Little Prince." Highlight for spoilers from book and movie:
He is a little boy from outer space, and he meets a pilot. He has a speech about how special his flower is. In the end, he wants to die. A snake bites. It reminds me of the forbidden fruit. I actually sang the song the flower sings. The prince asks the pilot to draw him a sheep. He had visited a lot of planets. The sheep is drawn in a box, so it won't eat the flower.
I am a bit confused. I don't see how what people out there are doing is exactly correct to "stimulate" someone I look up to in a sensual, suggestive way. I can just see they did it to hurt me cuz they're mad I cursed about Ellen DeGeneres putting hurtful, illegal noises in my room. No one said, "It's okay, Christina." Either, I was to figure to cope and have fun or it's a punishment too now. I mean, I feel so trashy myself in many ways and like I can't stimulate myself properly. I can see how someone I look up to deserves to be treated well. I guess the world decided it takes effort for people to be stimulated and they did it to this person for a wrong reason in this way.. to take away the leadership they once had and a love for me that is affected by them, to be used as a toy for sexual pleasure for who knows who.. the way you feel when someone you look up to is just a baby but feels more than you in some unlabeled way. The only argument of that is that I get cranky too often or only I should be it agreed to not express anger physically even if in a normal way in private in my room at home. So, they think that means it's the end for me. The person was involved, supposedly. Who knows who's involved! I don't. I wonder about people. I know you are to live more like a worker who is a good citizen and not be "me me me" I need everything and deserve social worship. So, then it's funny the commotion with this person and how people can focus with this going on. That means, not everyone is involved, maybe not the creme of the crop. I bet they messed the person up and that it could have been better like before in some ways. I think I do know, tho, that the person "doesn't have much" and lives in not always the most comfortable situations. So, they are looking for things like this, and people have provided that someone they love is in trouble and they should therefore be rendered helpless in their love for me and it hurts, like losing a parent when you're still young, among other things if you get now that other things are very important. Parents are still there, but other things are, too, obviously. Before, I think life was more about family and sometimes other people. I don't know, but maybe it can be seen in that way. Let's think about it, tho, cuz work.. success is 99% perspiration and 1% inspiration, they say. I did something that people saw as bad but wasn't. So, they go on and treat someone I look up to like they're (highlight for spoiler>) Aslan from The Chronicles of Narnia or The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe. I think I have it, I didn't do anything bad to deserve this. I was upset and didn't ever get to think that Election Day was important other than that you have your vote ready. I don't think it was essentially I who caused the election not to be Hillary. Hm, I know my dad claims he cracks under public pressure about these things but also thinks his dad in Heaven wants him to beat me socially and in other weird ways, tho I just deal with it as I can. He also thinks his elderly mom puts pressure on him. I wonder why the person I look up to is the only one with problems, other than the idea that I like them a lot so why not. It should not all got one person. I feel I came and I went. I was supposed to get something, not lose something. This isn't an adventure. I got kicked out altogether from what I liked in college in music, no 2nd chance, and they just said I was too shy to teach music and sing.. 2005, 11 years ago. I've already summed up my life once again for success. I think the movies are not all that's success, but we're getting older. Movie stars don't meet enough people, apparently. I'm not mad at the experiment for this and not at Ellen DeGeneres, tho I think she definitely caused it in a way maybe the person getting too much attention and stuff, like it's not right to be nice to me cuz I cursed at the hurtful, illegal noises she put in my room. It was there for a long time. So, what happened to the person I look up to? Did they decide it was not the program to.. Are they still at adult? I'm not asking for actual things but more ideas of philosophy, not like yea they're feeling youthful now. Just, what's the program? ..and how are we to look at things? If this weren't on Election Day, it wouldn't be like this. Maybe, that, and that I didn't really do anything bad would correct how to look at what is happening outside of just punishing me. No, I did not get special treatment on Election Day. I guess I am worried the person abandoned me most. I am also wondering if they are feeling ditzy and the magnitude and specifics kinda hurt me more than most anything other than that I'm comfortable and critical things. I have worse things in my life. So, like, the person is strict and maybe thinks it's over, but oh yes that's not what they said, tho so mostly am worried about them feeling different from before concerning their affection for me as a younger person and wondering if they lost it in some way that would rattle me. So, I'm not worried about much.
I need to go to bed soon cuz I am excited about the 2 morning masses. I have slept substantially some this week so should be okay. Sometimes, being awake is the right thing to do.
Also, people are under the false belief I can just forget about anything but pleasure, but that is definitely not the case. I get rattled and I can't always find happy things to come to mind. I in fact was just addressing something to do with this point.
Apologies for several things maybe I should not mention. Passing thoughts under some bad influence. I am beat socially so much and I mean people just won't take what happens in my head, like I have something wrong with me. I know, I know, they don't care 100% about apologies. I don't know if it's just me or that other people would get away with things if I didn't live like this.
Huh, I said a lot but to no point. I'll try:
(1) I am worried about the person I look up to being "stimulated" in a certain way, thinking it's because Ellen DeGeneres said to do for 2 reasons, to punish me and because it can be seen as destiny. I am worried I lost them for being imperfect and if it got to their head.
I should go on and say other things but am getting tired to express myself in writing the story or something.
I think the answer is yes it's partly because of Ellen DeGeneres but maybe not this much. The other 2 things, I think I definitely lost something in the relationship and no I don't think it had to get to their head.
I know people used to make loud noises that bother me, but I mean are they wired up to be stimulated this way? It's not important if they care about me but that they're okay because maybe they're also hurt, like psychologically/psychiatrically.
I guess I am wondering if they are checking out of life or retiring, too, because of this. That would also disturb me if this is why because it's like they were literally taken from me. I see things that way. I have been already and have something big I think of like this, that when people say I'm not good enough when I met someone prestigious and they're getting in my business and trying to socially beat at me for it.. they're just taking away something good someone good got that they need, see what I'm saying? You can't just take away everything from me.
Well, okay, nite!
Well, exciting now I record myself singing better, better technology usage.
It's funny people acted like they served me dinner on a silver platter only to throw me to the streets socially. Don't act like that didn't just happen, amidst other big things happening out there. People will say this is the biggest accomplishment yet in history, whereas before it was Late Boomers being born into the world. "You mean, they're still alive!" Yes! Just a funny catch phrase that came to mind realizing how cool it is that we're talking about it and it's actually people who exist in history in important things today. Baby Boomers encompass the 1950s it seems now. Late Boomers are most popular treats. Their families probably have all the fun. It's funny how suddenly it's all about families. That's definitely not what it's about for me. I wanted to meet people I both am and am not related to. It's hard having 1/2 Asian blood, but I like my mom. It's hard just having a Caucasian dad. I don't know if anyone likes me.
Yea, so people acted like I should be glorified for some reason before, and I tried to say I wasn't good enough it feels or that I don't think they want to do that. Now, I'm nothing, like they had it planned all along. I'm not even nor mean. I only feel sad and upset on the inside and eventually soon the outside when people deny me my rights as a human being to be able to live and prosper in the world and socially, not to feel bumped around for something I did that's past and forgotten. I don't get it. I just see people think I'm an issue. They want me not to exist and end my life, like I'm just a deed to be done and k***ed for fun. I want more than what people will let me have or think they have to do to ruin my life.
Like, before, people are telling me I need all this stuff socially that I don't. Now, I'm called bad.
I hate to break to to you, but I think the reason I get what I do is because I am well-behaved and normal, tho some people may disagree. Also, I call it being experimented on cuz I'm not all that amazing and awesome as others and how I could be. So, that's what you'll get from me, tho I feel I was a lot better off on my own accord cuz I wasn't in trouble for believing weird things that are unspoken. I feel bumped out of family. It is devastating and for some reason re-enters my life.
Hey, I was looking at this star and wondering why people think we should respect Nazis for being white. I respect the Jews that got killed. I know people always respect white people, tho, and if you're not all white think when you're good and cool it's to be shunned as nothing. Also, if you say you like Germany, they think you're just a worshipper of Hitler. In the mid-2000s, "kids" sat slumped over as adults said their kids all say they're worse than Hitler. How gifted and brilliant, but that implies there's something wrong with me and not them. That's not how things were before for me.
I am glad that some people are adventurous and actually talk to me and don't mind getting "the attention.." I think people in my life are being monitored, but I wonder who else out there is like me. I can't tell like I can tell myself out there for some reason, which I do not ask unless truly just interested in something for yourself a bit or how much you are interested, which I don't know why.
You know, I was right. This person I know is important. People shower them with "stimulation" of a sensual nature in a way that was considered inappropriate. They didn't listen. Now, I am guessing the person has been knocked out and is having to hide.
About now, I think of something from "The Little Prince." Highlight for spoilers from book and movie:
He is a little boy from outer space, and he meets a pilot. He has a speech about how special his flower is. In the end, he wants to die. A snake bites. It reminds me of the forbidden fruit. I actually sang the song the flower sings. The prince asks the pilot to draw him a sheep. He had visited a lot of planets. The sheep is drawn in a box, so it won't eat the flower.
I am a bit confused. I don't see how what people out there are doing is exactly correct to "stimulate" someone I look up to in a sensual, suggestive way. I can just see they did it to hurt me cuz they're mad I cursed about Ellen DeGeneres putting hurtful, illegal noises in my room. No one said, "It's okay, Christina." Either, I was to figure to cope and have fun or it's a punishment too now. I mean, I feel so trashy myself in many ways and like I can't stimulate myself properly. I can see how someone I look up to deserves to be treated well. I guess the world decided it takes effort for people to be stimulated and they did it to this person for a wrong reason in this way.. to take away the leadership they once had and a love for me that is affected by them, to be used as a toy for sexual pleasure for who knows who.. the way you feel when someone you look up to is just a baby but feels more than you in some unlabeled way. The only argument of that is that I get cranky too often or only I should be it agreed to not express anger physically even if in a normal way in private in my room at home. So, they think that means it's the end for me. The person was involved, supposedly. Who knows who's involved! I don't. I wonder about people. I know you are to live more like a worker who is a good citizen and not be "me me me" I need everything and deserve social worship. So, then it's funny the commotion with this person and how people can focus with this going on. That means, not everyone is involved, maybe not the creme of the crop. I bet they messed the person up and that it could have been better like before in some ways. I think I do know, tho, that the person "doesn't have much" and lives in not always the most comfortable situations. So, they are looking for things like this, and people have provided that someone they love is in trouble and they should therefore be rendered helpless in their love for me and it hurts, like losing a parent when you're still young, among other things if you get now that other things are very important. Parents are still there, but other things are, too, obviously. Before, I think life was more about family and sometimes other people. I don't know, but maybe it can be seen in that way. Let's think about it, tho, cuz work.. success is 99% perspiration and 1% inspiration, they say. I did something that people saw as bad but wasn't. So, they go on and treat someone I look up to like they're (highlight for spoiler>) Aslan from The Chronicles of Narnia or The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe. I think I have it, I didn't do anything bad to deserve this. I was upset and didn't ever get to think that Election Day was important other than that you have your vote ready. I don't think it was essentially I who caused the election not to be Hillary. Hm, I know my dad claims he cracks under public pressure about these things but also thinks his dad in Heaven wants him to beat me socially and in other weird ways, tho I just deal with it as I can. He also thinks his elderly mom puts pressure on him. I wonder why the person I look up to is the only one with problems, other than the idea that I like them a lot so why not. It should not all got one person. I feel I came and I went. I was supposed to get something, not lose something. This isn't an adventure. I got kicked out altogether from what I liked in college in music, no 2nd chance, and they just said I was too shy to teach music and sing.. 2005, 11 years ago. I've already summed up my life once again for success. I think the movies are not all that's success, but we're getting older. Movie stars don't meet enough people, apparently. I'm not mad at the experiment for this and not at Ellen DeGeneres, tho I think she definitely caused it in a way maybe the person getting too much attention and stuff, like it's not right to be nice to me cuz I cursed at the hurtful, illegal noises she put in my room. It was there for a long time. So, what happened to the person I look up to? Did they decide it was not the program to.. Are they still at adult? I'm not asking for actual things but more ideas of philosophy, not like yea they're feeling youthful now. Just, what's the program? ..and how are we to look at things? If this weren't on Election Day, it wouldn't be like this. Maybe, that, and that I didn't really do anything bad would correct how to look at what is happening outside of just punishing me. No, I did not get special treatment on Election Day. I guess I am worried the person abandoned me most. I am also wondering if they are feeling ditzy and the magnitude and specifics kinda hurt me more than most anything other than that I'm comfortable and critical things. I have worse things in my life. So, like, the person is strict and maybe thinks it's over, but oh yes that's not what they said, tho so mostly am worried about them feeling different from before concerning their affection for me as a younger person and wondering if they lost it in some way that would rattle me. So, I'm not worried about much.
I need to go to bed soon cuz I am excited about the 2 morning masses. I have slept substantially some this week so should be okay. Sometimes, being awake is the right thing to do.
Also, people are under the false belief I can just forget about anything but pleasure, but that is definitely not the case. I get rattled and I can't always find happy things to come to mind. I in fact was just addressing something to do with this point.
Apologies for several things maybe I should not mention. Passing thoughts under some bad influence. I am beat socially so much and I mean people just won't take what happens in my head, like I have something wrong with me. I know, I know, they don't care 100% about apologies. I don't know if it's just me or that other people would get away with things if I didn't live like this.
Huh, I said a lot but to no point. I'll try:
(1) I am worried about the person I look up to being "stimulated" in a certain way, thinking it's because Ellen DeGeneres said to do for 2 reasons, to punish me and because it can be seen as destiny. I am worried I lost them for being imperfect and if it got to their head.
I should go on and say other things but am getting tired to express myself in writing the story or something.
I think the answer is yes it's partly because of Ellen DeGeneres but maybe not this much. The other 2 things, I think I definitely lost something in the relationship and no I don't think it had to get to their head.
I know people used to make loud noises that bother me, but I mean are they wired up to be stimulated this way? It's not important if they care about me but that they're okay because maybe they're also hurt, like psychologically/psychiatrically.
I guess I am wondering if they are checking out of life or retiring, too, because of this. That would also disturb me if this is why because it's like they were literally taken from me. I see things that way. I have been already and have something big I think of like this, that when people say I'm not good enough when I met someone prestigious and they're getting in my business and trying to socially beat at me for it.. they're just taking away something good someone good got that they need, see what I'm saying? You can't just take away everything from me.
Well, okay, nite!
Casserole
I made some and see some changes necessary. It's got more bread stuff / dumplings this time. It goes with butter in it and cheese. I cut up fresh vegetables.
Friday, November 25, 2016
"Cruel and Unusual"
I've never heard of anything so cruel. Something really worked out between me and someone else, and now they're being tampered with like they have some deep, dark secret about who they supposedly are.
I feel the union of 2 made 1.
Saying I am shit and don't deserve to live and talk. Well, I think what I say on here is very interesting. Compare it to you having sex, maybe a little understatement.
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Good / Bad / Ugly
It is okay if someone wants to feel sex and pleasure, but it isn't a good idea to mindlessly engage in random nonsense that ends up with many people feeling hurt. You's gots to WERK (You got to work!) True, it seems some things are 2nd nature. By gosh, this is bigger than 911! Naw, ain't it the truth! "Isn't this so exciting?" Um, not if you're involved in a bad way with when something is bad.
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"This is 'The Fall of the House of Usher!'"
I became so sensitive to sound as a music major that I heard voices my 2nd semester.
People With Feelings
I cannot say any one race does not have feelings, to introduce myself.
I forget what I was gonna say.
So, what do you think people should feel?
I forget what I was gonna say.
So, what do you think people should feel?
Yes, what do people feel??
I don't know why in some way I feel dizzy. Maybe, I'm moving around. It doesn't come with a tingly feeling.
"Let's talk about love.."
What do you think of stimulating people in ways like giving them a lot of public exposure and then arousing them due to that fact? Some people face more pressure than others.
Nitey Nite
I guess I'l turn in. Looking forward to church tomorrow and Sunday. "These boots were made for walking, and that's just what they'll do. One of these days, these boots are gonna walk all over you." I got new boots for Black Friday and they even have heels, the largest size there I saw for women, tho I used to be a 3.
Hillary!
Did you know I acted on Election Day like I would any other day, just a bit mad to myself but no public outbursts?
Unfortunately, I think it's too late.
Unfortunately, I think it's too late.
Wrong!
Did you know I was told that things for me will never get better, only stay the same for awhile or get worse?
"Ain't it the truth?"
Just because someone was too mean to me does not mean I did anything wrong.
Things don't always go how I intended, and I don't foresee the future.
Things don't always go how I intended, and I don't foresee the future.
Tired
Had a snack. Was fatigue already. Maybe, I should lie down. I'm a little upset about how I reacted when I was shocked.
Just Watched the Freiburger Barockorchester!
in Pareee
They were great! It was so much fun to actually see them, and they sounded wonderful tho I did not understand what to focus on, maybe because I have so much of other ethnicities.
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They were great! It was so much fun to actually see them, and they sounded wonderful tho I did not understand what to focus on, maybe because I have so much of other ethnicities.
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Black Friday
I got 3 pants, 2 sweaters, and boots I can wear to church. 1 pair of pants has like a flowery indent and is black, another plaid, and 1 nice and black. The boots have like 2 1/2 inch heels. It's more like leather or rubbery. 1 sweater has the base of the neck covered and is striped, and the other is kinda funky in design in stripes with pink, black, and white. I had a Chick-Fil-A spicy sandwich and a cup of water. I just got a soda and have several pennies to my name.
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A Solution Suggested
Why would someone because they are born at a certain time matter over me? I should matter, too.
Why make fun of my parents only when it comes to me? I don't wanna be connected.
What would happen if this happened to someone to whom this does not happen?
Thursday, November 24, 2016
I'm watching The Princess and the Frog by Disney.
What is the most popular instrument there? Saxophone? The next could be trumpet or the bass.
*cartoon between an American and a non-American*
American - This was supposed to be about me.
Non - No!
American - *silence*
Non - We just all wanted to use fame to feel good.
American - Okay!
Disclaimer: No offense to anyone. This is just for fun. I didn't mean anything sarcastic.
Non - No!
American - *silence*
Non - We just all wanted to use fame to feel good.
American - Okay!
Disclaimer: No offense to anyone. This is just for fun. I didn't mean anything sarcastic.
Thanksgiving
We're having Thanksgiving dinner in a couple hours.
I hope everyone has a Happy Thanksgiving! This and the 4th of July and even Memorial Day Weekend and maybe Labor Day Weekend are big American holidays.
Speaking of work, how did the clowns in school make it to the top? I was promised much more than this. It was supposed to be about me.
I hope everyone has a Happy Thanksgiving! This and the 4th of July and even Memorial Day Weekend and maybe Labor Day Weekend are big American holidays.
Speaking of work, how did the clowns in school make it to the top? I was promised much more than this. It was supposed to be about me.
I really don't have to worry about this.
I know it's not my fault Hillary lost. No one listens to me, anyway.
Why
does Trump have so many supporters. I was gonna say why does Hillary have so many haters? She has since the election of 2008. I already knew there would be problems ahead.
Wednesday, November 23, 2016
Not Fair
None of my grade schools had orchestras that I know of and my parents didn't let me take violin.
"Happiness"
Why would my happiness be taken from me and given to someone else, whom I do not want to name. Imagine, someone in the family, someone popular, ex-best friends, etc.
So
Do Late Boomers give off dizzy feelings about kids born around 1997/1998? They just expect more, like older generations did with mine.
I noticed.
Ever since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) became popular with Tim Burton as director and mostly Johnny Depp in the role of Willy Wonka.. Adults have turned off to making young people feel good.
Misery, Agony!
My life is very miserable save for things like materialism and the things I do to make up for it and being good at building myself up in certain ways.. etc.
Someday?
They are acting like someday this pain inflicted on me will stop and life could be glorious and young.
They keep saying I'm in trouble for nothing.
They keep saying I'm in trouble for nothing.
I'd already decided..
..my parents deserve to be free from my wrath.
Why, tho, when we go out do they act like I'm scum dragging behind with a thin, raspy voice?
Why, tho, when we go out do they act like I'm scum dragging behind with a thin, raspy voice?
Tricks
I ended up flunking college and being mentally ill because they pressured us to do too much work. They acted like that's what gets you ahead in life, and like that's the only way maybe to be the best you can be.
What They Went For
Orlando, America. They went for too much sexually. Now, there's nothing left to say or do, except when I get in trouble again for my private thoughts, to report that it happened.
I never said I did.
It's not time for me to feel bad all the time and play around with other things concerning this, inappropriate things to suggest. Is this some jungle gym for others to play in?
not really
but I feel a lotta regret.. that people think I am an outspoken figment of existence. When I'm just in my room with it together.
Getting a Little Attention
Isn't it crazy how people think only young people who prostrate themselves as an actor in a movie are deserving? No, that's their own problem if they are famous and don't like something about it.
I don't believe in England and Germany :( because/in that
nor any replacement country
because/in that they are watching our thoughts to monitor them and make sure it's all microscopically "judged" or we're out. How rude. I was around foreign exchange students.
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For Real
Why was 10 years of my life wasted because I thought Tim Burton and Johnny Depp had big plans for the world? I'm serious. I'm straggling trying to take on the violin so I can get back into real music, something I feel I know the feel of or something well.
While we're at it, what's so mean about what I said? It's just the truth. How else should I say it??
While we're at it, what's so mean about what I said? It's just the truth. How else should I say it??
My Generation!
Why only my generation they say is like a thinking robot that cannot feel any emotion/pleasures? Like, everyone else pretends to be stupid but have all the fun.
cont.
That quote is not intended to offend and is sung by a German boy in Pitch Perfect 2, so I just thought of it cuz it was about "a girl" or whatsoever.
AH! Caught this!
I'm not supposed to look too good next to someone Ellen DeGeneres's age but people younger than me to and they can. It was supposed to be an age issue!
I knew it! They blew it!
Other people are getting respect like I used to before I flunked college.
Like, they are being moved up to the right people when they do. It's a certain thing and I have a feeling for it. Like, they are going thru the motions and then they get special treatment. Me, people are all mean to me, and no one gives a care. They know special things are going on, and they get to do big things and people love them.
Like, they are being moved up to the right people when they do. It's a certain thing and I have a feeling for it. Like, they are going thru the motions and then they get special treatment. Me, people are all mean to me, and no one gives a care. They know special things are going on, and they get to do big things and people love them.
Feeling Badly
I always have to be thrown to the floor in reverence to when I talk about teenagers etc.
While I'm Here
I'm probably the biggest fan.
I collected stuff and drew them and always thought about them, like in bed.
I collected stuff and drew them and always thought about them, like in bed.
The Original 101 Dalmatians (1961) Cover
Did you know I had the books? I flipped thru all my favorite parts, but the characters are different.
About the Virtual Holocaust Here
I was a nice, behaved, good-working person.
Now, "Oh, Christina, we have to k*** you, you're a n*****." "You aren't what you wish you were personality-wise or as a soul." "We're the good ones who do and want good things cuz we're 'white.'"
Now, "Oh, Christina, we have to k*** you, you're a n*****." "You aren't what you wish you were personality-wise or as a soul." "We're the good ones who do and want good things cuz we're 'white.'"
Oh, wow.
"How do you get?"
You behave yourself and act nicely towards other people .. whatever they do.
You behave yourself and act nicely towards other people .. whatever they do.
This is it.
It was a trick. I got kicked outta college numerous times but not as a criminal. They are preventing me and others like my generation from succeeding. We aren't happy without school.
"Tell me, baby girl, what I need to know."
People in Orlando are shit racistly.
You know, you can't look into a soul. They are dull. They have nothing in them in that way. They have nothing to say to me. Nothing has happened. I'm surprised they know what 1 + 1 is.
They think nonwhites are shit, meaning blacks and Asians. They ignore them if they know they are black or Asian. They act like they are in the Holocaust, for real, and it's been this way. They don't deserve that. I'm serious, they acted like they are ^innocently^ recreating it here in America for greatness.
cont.
and this whole experiment. I was supposed to see my real mother and know my real age and have siblings and fun.
Failed Attempts at Talking to People
I liked my group singing teacher in college, and supposedly she was secretly watching me and to be my new mother and I'd sing and dance. My life became an experiment where people watched in private, her and random folks.
I liked a singer in an Irish group and started learning harp, but she was closed off for some strange reason, very popular and well-liked.
I liked my organ teacher and played organ, but now we don't talk and I live with my family somewhere else.
I liked my piano teacher in college, but unfortunately I had to leave.
My music teachers still are where I used to live in a strange city, but now at recent have fled.
I liked my theater teacher, but I moved schools.
I liked a singer in an Irish group and started learning harp, but she was closed off for some strange reason, very popular and well-liked.
I liked my organ teacher and played organ, but now we don't talk and I live with my family somewhere else.
I liked my piano teacher in college, but unfortunately I had to leave.
My music teachers still are where I used to live in a strange city, but now at recent have fled.
I liked my theater teacher, but I moved schools.
Is that insanity?
I didn't do bad things on purpose as a child. No one would ever get at me like that. I was very well-behaved as much as I could. I remember I got in trouble in kindergarten by mistake and it was considered bad to me.
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