Tuesday, November 1, 2016
Hard to Find Someone?
You don't know how much you prefer certain kinds of people until you have life experiences and can see into them and make them an attractive icon to you.
"Outta Contro'" ("Out of Control")
Some people just flail about hurting everyone thinking it's necessary nature that has to happen and is not caused.
Discrimination
People are pretending I'm not good enough cuza who my parents are and what year I was born, tho I am like offspring age to such people. I don't do that. That makes no sense. People had to do it. It didn't just come.
I have to learn to forget and seek escape.
Why are people acting like I have no hope, that people are controlling my life?
Racial Disappointment
Do you know people who deal with anger from other ethnic groups not accepting them, struggling not to get mad at the other ethnic groups? The only thing that pacifies all these people is saying at least I can have whatever Christina Barrett has that she likes in this life instead.
Strange to notice, Middle/Northern Europeans look more like they have the facial structure in a certain way as black people with the details of intensity like a monkey stretched over. However, Southern Europeans seem to have blank faces. Middle Easterners seem to pray for hope for humanity, and Asians are respectful and cultural in certain ways.
Blessings to all races.
Strange to notice, Middle/Northern Europeans look more like they have the facial structure in a certain way as black people with the details of intensity like a monkey stretched over. However, Southern Europeans seem to have blank faces. Middle Easterners seem to pray for hope for humanity, and Asians are respectful and cultural in certain ways.
Blessings to all races.
Monday, October 31, 2016
Social Stealing
Do you know different people who are often brought up just to take from other socially? They make some excuse for them and people like them not getting enough attention and blame others of all kinds and not themselves.
Did you know..
..Ellen DeGeneres and Sean Hayes are both gay and may have a little Austrian plus German and maybe significant Irish?
"The Big Picture"
Do you know people who calculate what they do and in the end the picture shows them dissing others for sinful reasons and having a blast with that person's friends instead?
"Who's in charge?"
Do you know people who abandon you and sinfully "pleasure" and socially distract your other relationships? Pleasure is good and is to be felt by all, but there is sinful pleasure, which does not mean more pleasure.
Not acting your age
Do you know people who act old to be treated like a baby and steal from others socially?
Must go to bed.
Very tired. And on Halloween? I had a blast. I ate Indian food at someone's house for a little get together in the evening and night. I came home as usual and jammed.
Losing Friends
I have fallen below the par because of this.
I am sorry if I did anything wrong in my life.
I am sorry if I did anything wrong in my life.
What's really interesting?
Are Generation Z interesting? Yes, to follow their babylike ways and nurture them.
"What's the story from A to Z
You gotta listen to me
Listen carefully"
-Spice Girls
"What's the story from A to Z
You gotta listen to me
Listen carefully"
-Spice Girls
"Some People"
are just too lazy to fix their own lives and sometimes act happy with who they are so people will like them.
Something to Offer
Why are people cancelling people out?
I didn't live life like building blocks. I must be misdiagnosed.
I knew I had problems, but it seems like everyone has. I just didn't have, like, a perfectly neat and such of a house with everything I need to succeed laid out. Not a lotta people seem to have by these standards.
You seem uncomfortable and snapping at me, some people. They are intent to say I am not built up, that there was some way for me to escape and go back and be someone else, and that's all I am. It's too late, they say. I don't think the French do that.
Help! I am being brutally attacked by this. People are jealous of me.
I didn't live life like building blocks. I must be misdiagnosed.
I knew I had problems, but it seems like everyone has. I just didn't have, like, a perfectly neat and such of a house with everything I need to succeed laid out. Not a lotta people seem to have by these standards.
You seem uncomfortable and snapping at me, some people. They are intent to say I am not built up, that there was some way for me to escape and go back and be someone else, and that's all I am. It's too late, they say. I don't think the French do that.
Help! I am being brutally attacked by this. People are jealous of me.
Not good enough?
You won't find anyone perfect, and they'll all escape you before you know it, then!
Did you notice what happened?
As we make room for the next generation of "kids" to shine, older young adults back off, but Late Boomers would then "still have it." This is just like cruelty to animals born at a certain age or era. It might have to do with "addictions" of luckier ones that people create for them. (Interesting?)
The answer is not to be mean to nice people who are lucky, tho.
The answer is not to be mean to nice people who are lucky, tho.
Sunday, October 30, 2016
Late Boomers can do whatever they want!
Just because what they want coincides with their generation does not mean they cannot have it. They let other people have it, too.
Everyone "Getting Down"
Why do people think it is time to get down! with people my age and when they are mean to me in a funny way it's okay but when I'm a bit zany and sharp it's not?
Significance of and Meaning With Hight
If people in general are even physically big/tall or things like that in order to be a leader, why in the end would other people agree to have them take from other social/emotional arrangements/situations for themselves or let others do so in their stead? (No offense to anyone. I was trying to get into the theory of this. I'm not trying nor wanting to socially attack anyone. It has to do with my hight.)
Some of Generation X and even Late Boomers seem more short and less likely to be comfortable leading.
I guess all I can say is that cute, athletic females are the short ones and look good when they are young.
I was worried about not having a strong build more than reaching a certain hight if I could, for a time.
People have needs, tho, and some people make sacrifices or take advantages out of the norm lifestyle to get some end.
It surprises me how tall some Generation Z girls are.
I just don't get with me why I was tall at puberty but short thereafter against my will, when we moved from Florida to Louisiana.
I think the norm hight for females is a little taller than me. I heard 5'7" was considered lanky from a source. "Big" people are usually the short ones. I'm glad to be in some middle ground. Maybe, all the sleep I lost in school trying to focus on and complete homework halted my growing but just for awhile.
Some of Generation X and even Late Boomers seem more short and less likely to be comfortable leading.
I guess all I can say is that cute, athletic females are the short ones and look good when they are young.
I was worried about not having a strong build more than reaching a certain hight if I could, for a time.
People have needs, tho, and some people make sacrifices or take advantages out of the norm lifestyle to get some end.
It surprises me how tall some Generation Z girls are.
I just don't get with me why I was tall at puberty but short thereafter against my will, when we moved from Florida to Louisiana.
I think the norm hight for females is a little taller than me. I heard 5'7" was considered lanky from a source. "Big" people are usually the short ones. I'm glad to be in some middle ground. Maybe, all the sleep I lost in school trying to focus on and complete homework halted my growing but just for awhile.
"The English"
How can the English be always more specific than the US? They are the ones who pack up on tea times. No wonder they are all for being super tall. Not to mention the fantasy that Europe is more physical.
Emergency vs. "Baby out With the Bath Water"
It's funny how it's urgent and an emergency to get some people feeling pretty loopy and stimulated, while others are scorned that nothing will ever be significant to them about any times.
Saturday, October 29, 2016
Threw Up
Chinese
Pizza Lunchable
Chips
I threw up in the sink and cleaned it up. It all came out. I guess I had a lot of cereal for breakfast around noon. We ate out around 5 or 6. I just tickled my throat, and I had to throw up. I felt that there was something that shouldn't be there like up ready to come out. It didn't hurt at all and I didn't feel full. I've taken pain killers in the past when my back hurts from eating too much with the help of side effects from pills. Maybe, that's why I didn't feel much there. This is the 1st time I remember a lotta throw up flew outta my nose, at 1st. It didn't hurt, and I don't know that I felt anything, at least this time. I needed to throw up, but if I was out, I might have time to find a place to throw up. I'm sucking an orange Halls cough drop, yum. Yes, I brushed my teeth after. Back to lying down trying to fall asleep.
Pizza Lunchable
Chips
I threw up in the sink and cleaned it up. It all came out. I guess I had a lot of cereal for breakfast around noon. We ate out around 5 or 6. I just tickled my throat, and I had to throw up. I felt that there was something that shouldn't be there like up ready to come out. It didn't hurt at all and I didn't feel full. I've taken pain killers in the past when my back hurts from eating too much with the help of side effects from pills. Maybe, that's why I didn't feel much there. This is the 1st time I remember a lotta throw up flew outta my nose, at 1st. It didn't hurt, and I don't know that I felt anything, at least this time. I needed to throw up, but if I was out, I might have time to find a place to throw up. I'm sucking an orange Halls cough drop, yum. Yes, I brushed my teeth after. Back to lying down trying to fall asleep.
Now, what?
Are you even comfortable talking to black people or like white people or Europeans? Germans?
Tomorrow
I have to wake up at 4:30 A.M. and leave my home by 6:00 A.M. to go to my favorite masses at church. The 1st one has more congregational singing, and the 2nd one usually the pastor presides over.
Ah!
My mom is so cool.
She is Asian, but she is in on the cool and "mature" white stuff, stuff I can actually learn from.
So, how does it work, is it like weaving a spider web? or like all that stuff that people born in the late 1960s, 1970s, and early 1980s possess some knowledge of? and their parents "know a thing or two." I can kinda see where the elderly are coming from, but I don't think like that. It's too much and not in me like that. I seem to know a good amount of, if not seemingly most, catch phrases today and can read into habits, especially ones in the US. It is very nice being 1/2 American and 1/2 non-American. I wonder if Canadians and Latinos and Australians feel that way.
Hey, you learn this stuff by reading into people. It doesn't have to be written nor rehearsed.
She is Asian, but she is in on the cool and "mature" white stuff, stuff I can actually learn from.
So, how does it work, is it like weaving a spider web? or like all that stuff that people born in the late 1960s, 1970s, and early 1980s possess some knowledge of? and their parents "know a thing or two." I can kinda see where the elderly are coming from, but I don't think like that. It's too much and not in me like that. I seem to know a good amount of, if not seemingly most, catch phrases today and can read into habits, especially ones in the US. It is very nice being 1/2 American and 1/2 non-American. I wonder if Canadians and Latinos and Australians feel that way.
Hey, you learn this stuff by reading into people. It doesn't have to be written nor rehearsed.
Rule #1
You can't say Asians are not pretty and that they don't have pretty noses.. and that they are colorblind! They might have the same physical ideals and guidelines as you.. just like you'd say black people do.
Blacks and Asians
It's inappropriate for someone who's not all white to talk to whites, but it's a meaningful, tight situation when black people are around.
1 Rainbow
Supposedly, Asians are white with black hair.
I say this because when people have interracial babies they might be white if the non-Caucasian parent is Asian and not white if the non-Caucasian parent is black. Middle Easterners are already classified as white.
I say this because when people have interracial babies they might be white if the non-Caucasian parent is Asian and not white if the non-Caucasian parent is black. Middle Easterners are already classified as white.
Wanting to Put Nonwhites in Line
When nonwhites say they hate other people who are not all white, white people get at them for supposedly admitting they have nothing to offer, like they claim about their fellow people who are not all white. If someone has nothing to offer, they should leave others alone.
Fighting Racism
You may think there is no reason to nurture a young person who is not all white.
However, think about what happens when you do not nurture a young person who is all white. They wouldn't turn out better than someone who is not all white, necessarily.
This just proves an easy explanation that nonwhites are as good as whites. You may want to identify what white is, but you shouldn't degrade nonwhites. Whites are just as mean as nonwhites, as in both would spite at others racially. Nonwhites spite at others racially to try to get ahead.
However, think about what happens when you do not nurture a young person who is all white. They wouldn't turn out better than someone who is not all white, necessarily.
This just proves an easy explanation that nonwhites are as good as whites. You may want to identify what white is, but you shouldn't degrade nonwhites. Whites are just as mean as nonwhites, as in both would spite at others racially. Nonwhites spite at others racially to try to get ahead.
Friday, October 28, 2016
Update
Pages - Me
Physical Traits
•eyes - brown / with greenishness most of the time but can be light greenish blue when waking up
•hair - brown and black, getting straighter now and lighter
•skin - flushed, white, tanned
Physical Attributes
•hight - 5'2"+
•weight - 153 pounds
Physical Traits
•eyes - brown / with greenishness most of the time but can be light greenish blue when waking up
•hair - brown and black, getting straighter now and lighter
•skin - flushed, white, tanned
Physical Attributes
•hight - 5'2"+
•weight - 153 pounds
Getting Attention
What happened to the kids born around 1997/1998 with parents born in the late 1950s to 1970s?
It seems it's all about those parents now, for their sake and others.
Why can't it be about our personality? The generation seems more multi-faceted as a deciding factor, like blonde hair has been now.
It may seem like a surface thing, but I lived where this prejudice did not exist as a deciding factor. They really took their kids in and taught them the ways. I can't ever do it cuz it all went behind closed doors to those kids! Don't ask where my mom and dad are in this. That's unimportant, maybe, maybe for now. What about kids with parents of different ages? I thought parents were smart and could teach their kids how to have better lives. I don't know if that's so. Can someone born in 1950 really instill that in their kids? They can incite it in people born around 1960. I'm just jealous. I'm cool, but I didn't get that. I also claim to be an emotional person.
You know, some people it seems who are good but in power would follow the trend and say pretty much that's how it should be, they get that kind of recognition and continue to minister that way, but others feel bad about themselves, like they act like they don't get love and blame innocent people who have problems like this of their own.
How are other people a smooth experience and I'm not? Maybe, I had the right intentions but not the right help and environment. Money, greed. People think I don't deserve things, but they say it for the wrong reasons. Who's to say? Why don't I have something else to unwind to? Other young people seem they can have full and active social and emotional lives. They are supported by people of many ages.
I see the kids born around 1997/1998 with younger parents were raised to feel pleasure and others weren't so much as a generation and treated like dolls and then there are outcasts within that group as well. These kids born around 1997/1998 are antsy that people born in the 1970s/1980s watched them grow up. I feel I've been treated like a joke by people born around 1960 and treated harshly by people born like in the late 1960s, like they were the ones watching me, like I can't succeed at anything with varying amounts of attention or not. I wasn't given things to work on, not like that, these younger kids.
I feel like some people think I don't deserve a lotta things and in the end I will grow old and die sad like it does not matter for me but does for others.
It seems it's all about those parents now, for their sake and others.
Why can't it be about our personality? The generation seems more multi-faceted as a deciding factor, like blonde hair has been now.
It may seem like a surface thing, but I lived where this prejudice did not exist as a deciding factor. They really took their kids in and taught them the ways. I can't ever do it cuz it all went behind closed doors to those kids! Don't ask where my mom and dad are in this. That's unimportant, maybe, maybe for now. What about kids with parents of different ages? I thought parents were smart and could teach their kids how to have better lives. I don't know if that's so. Can someone born in 1950 really instill that in their kids? They can incite it in people born around 1960. I'm just jealous. I'm cool, but I didn't get that. I also claim to be an emotional person.
You know, some people it seems who are good but in power would follow the trend and say pretty much that's how it should be, they get that kind of recognition and continue to minister that way, but others feel bad about themselves, like they act like they don't get love and blame innocent people who have problems like this of their own.
How are other people a smooth experience and I'm not? Maybe, I had the right intentions but not the right help and environment. Money, greed. People think I don't deserve things, but they say it for the wrong reasons. Who's to say? Why don't I have something else to unwind to? Other young people seem they can have full and active social and emotional lives. They are supported by people of many ages.
I see the kids born around 1997/1998 with younger parents were raised to feel pleasure and others weren't so much as a generation and treated like dolls and then there are outcasts within that group as well. These kids born around 1997/1998 are antsy that people born in the 1970s/1980s watched them grow up. I feel I've been treated like a joke by people born around 1960 and treated harshly by people born like in the late 1960s, like they were the ones watching me, like I can't succeed at anything with varying amounts of attention or not. I wasn't given things to work on, not like that, these younger kids.
I feel like some people think I don't deserve a lotta things and in the end I will grow old and die sad like it does not matter for me but does for others.
Ballet
I might take ballet classes for adults twice a week, for beginners/intermediates. Hopefully, I can start soon, maybe sometime after the trip next month. I have the things I need already, leotards, tights, shoes, bag.
Thursday, October 27, 2016
What's there to live for!
I'm looking forward to 2 things, Halloween and a trip to the nation's oldest continuing city here in Florida, where I used to live.
Wednesday, October 26, 2016
Precautions
Do you ever take precautions that bad things don't happen concerning people? like as far as getting attention and having an identity go?
Agitated
I look up to people, and other people think I'm bad and publicize them so I can't look up to anyone anymore.
Issue
They are acting like I did something in feeling bad when something bothered me and I wanted to talk about it and are making fun of me sometimes like oh they don't accept my mom cuza I did that.
I don't know why this is important, but no I'm not feeling that and don't think it'd be all that good completely.
I don't know why this is important, but no I'm not feeling that and don't think it'd be all that good completely.
Issue
They don't get I get treated like shit a lot while others feel inappropriate feelings supposedly that feel good. I'm not saying they can't do it. I just want you to be aware that "there are other people in the world." They keep getting mad at me.
Sorry if
I said anything wrong about anyone, but I don't think I meant to.
I guess we'll have to agree to disagree, otherwise. I usually reserve such thoughts.
Problem
They said this was a part of them like with someone else, but that is not what this person stands for. Bite me.
So..
How nice to treat this person!
I am glad church took care of some of this business.
Did they mess with my hands privately? I don't have issues.
What now? Clearly, people are mad.
Not Over, Yet?
I went to the kids's mass, and I heard the person I look up to is "still out of it" and bemused they messed with the spiritual strength of my hands.
One unsuccessful relationship is getting in the way of another.
My hands feel different!
Why be even harder on me with my burden of having to interact with my dad when I run into him at home?
They are just pissed off I was gonna do for others what others did for someone.
They threw away my relationship in the end cuz they're jealous of what I've accomplished and acquired.
I had something, and now I have nothing! cuza my dad! I still am concerned about him. I think because I simply thought my dad is old enough to start worrying about death they think they are powerful and should cut things short. I don't believe in you people. Nothing is good cuza my parents making life crappy.
They are supporting someone else doing things that others who really want to can't, maybe just not creative enough to do something right and out to get me. I didn't say they couldn't do it. I just got into a mess and was attacked. Who cares? People don't know what they're doing, but that shouldn't ruin my life.
I am here and interested but don't know what else to say and surrounded by confusion.
I also am getting that someone I know has to bind with someone else.
I just am a bit perturbed.
People here are all up in my business and in the end taking my relationship from me. They said this person is stimulated forever in a certain way. They want me to be crap and like them. I didn't do something to deserve this. Would you like this trip? Life has not been seeming well.
I said it's okay if this person feels very good, but some other things happened.
Problems
I think I just got in a bunch of trouble.
People are telling me I did things I didn't do. They are steering thoughts wrongly.
Supposedly.. or they thought.. me using the word "selfish" ^meant something^ that I did not intend for it to. I said people made someone feel selfish. Love is not selfish.
I am at church and so I thought there are people there. Why not make them feel that way?
So, if I look up to someone do you pour alcohol down their throats every day?
What isn't selfish about doing that to someone? Who are you to judge you did what was best for others? Make it real by blaming me? Why make it so no one trusts anyone to make them feel good for admitting what I say?
I didn't want go say this but guess my blog and not other people will be the parasitic host and its place. There are people who act meanly here, too.
Why are my private feelings abused too much? Is it cuza my dad? Other people don't live like this. So what? Do only others get a reward and no one else and say I did something? Wow, that's pretty nitpicky.
I bet you think I should not post this, but I don't want it to leak into this reality. You know I gotta go soon and can't revise this. Like I said in my last disliked statement, no offense. I just want to post my life, not doing anything wrong nor saying someone should not feel pleasure and like that.
People are threatening a relationship and having their fun saying I hang with someone else forever and not have my other relationship. What sinful people. They don't know how life works. You know what I feel, but what did I do wrong? I used the word "selfish" fine.
Tuesday, October 25, 2016
Movie
He sang "Everybody Wants to Rule the World" with an eager band, which probably wants to rule the world.
Cool!
link
Who wouldn't want a body like that! Ooh Lah Lah!
The main difference is I'm fat and my legs are wider. I wonder if I'll ever have a picture close to this!!
She'd look lovely in natural hair. She could bleach it in the sun. I wonder if she needs sunblock. I guess white skin being popular is making a comeback.
How does your picture look in comparison hers?
Who wouldn't want a body like that! Ooh Lah Lah!
The main difference is I'm fat and my legs are wider. I wonder if I'll ever have a picture close to this!!
She'd look lovely in natural hair. She could bleach it in the sun. I wonder if she needs sunblock. I guess white skin being popular is making a comeback.
How does your picture look in comparison hers?
Pixels (2015)
Josh Gad (1981) from Hollywood, Southeastern Florida
This is really cute.
I saw this one in theaters. I think it was pretty big, in a way.
Highlight for spoilers and there's a link to a picture:
Q*bert link
It seems..
like I have to do the right thing and that's the right thing to do. It seems like it's okay.
I guess..
..I was wondering cuz it's fun to follow this person and they come up in my life. They don't have to like me. I hope I am nice to them, at least now. What did I ever do to them? Listen to others? Well, I have always been that way. I figured she was punishing me and sometimes thought I wasn't okay racially and should be sorta tossed aside at some points, maybe to punish me or something. So, I joke about feeling suppressed, tho I don't know if it seems that way to you. I think someone tells them to be mean to me and don't blame them for that.
Well
Not sure what went wrong. I knew this would happen.
It's not important that I posted this, but it's rather something in my life that's fun to write about cuz I like this person. Like, why do you go on Facebook?
It's not important that I posted this, but it's rather something in my life that's fun to write about cuz I like this person. Like, why do you go on Facebook?
Monday, October 24, 2016
Just because the world has been blessed
with a lovely girl does not mean it's the dream to hurt the rest of us.
What now?
There's no point. This is just bad. Anyone would think so. I was being careful! It seems I can't do anything right. I left it at that, but something just keeps coming.
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