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They are vile and disgusting.

I have a right to be mad about Ellen DeGeneres.. for ruining my future relationships. I didn't post my confused thoughts, tho. I don't know what's these people's problems. She looks "low and dirty" on Twitter today. Talking about tearing up stuff symbolically for other meanings. She won't stop being mean to me!

Problem

They're using the excuse someone I like did it.

Problem

Supposedly, it's my grandma. When they made noises that tapped into my hips.

Problem

They keep acting like I'm the bad one.

Problem

They made some noises that affected inside my hips that took away the tight feeling. I was upset before at them doing something else and this keeps coming up.

What's going on? This shouldn't be happening. You're taking away my freedom.

Hello.. I said to stop.

Sunday, November 22, 2015

Problem

I keep not watching Ellen on Fridays. I hope I do, tomorrow is Monday. It's fun to see her chronologically.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: Who is the most narcissistic poster on the Soapbox?

Yes, but I found that when someone is mean to you if you are mean back others hold something against you unnecessarily for a long time. I find this too true. They think that justifies the attacker.

Thanks, tho, your words ring true.

I wasn't exactly mean, just hurt and thought I had a right to be defensive. I used curse words but not incessantly at that person.. Now, I can't get back my life to normal. It's like it's okay to see me smiling driving a garbage truck.

Other posters here seem to be standing in line to get into the detention room. *drumroll* *symbols*

Life Before

My life was nice before Ellen DeGeneres. What is she on, seriously? Something like that, I mean no offense in how I use this phrase, "What is she on?" Something isn't right. Something is not there. Obviously, I care and I'm suffering.

...

"Bummer"

Ellen DeGeneres is someone who really sees that people have to be mean to me cuz she's sacred and I cursed about her putting hurtful noises in my room.

Problem

I'm the one who's normal. You keep bothering me. I can't seem to relax. My mom is so mean to me all the time because my dad is mad at me. He just doesn't want to get a heart attack. :(

Problem

If something I think seems wrong or don't they threaten what I do.

Problem

You all care about your kids and not me, not even my parents. You won't leave me alone to socialize.

Problem

They are always being mean to me. My mom and at least a little that my dad thinks is worth to muster..

Oh, yea.

Ellen DeGeneres seems to have one underlying issue, that everyone isn't a smiley clown with bright hair.

..who goes around being overly perky and reveling to some degree in physical features that oneself possesses.

What is the source of the problem?

I used to meet people and have a successful outcome.

Issue

I can't seem to help from keep feeling Ellen DeGeneres has gone off the deep end, but I am concerned about her..

It's hard to remember why, but it's pretty obvious.

Maybe, I'm just mad at the messenger..

Issue

They keep playing with my computer.

Problem

Why does Ellen DeGeneres try to beat me up?

Problems

They are doing things to me I don't like.

Issue

So, if Ellen DeGeneres gets mad for a reason, why can't I?

Problem

They're playing around trying to hurt me for no reason.

Problem

They keep making someone I like look outlandish and silly.

Problem

It seems I can't live in the world because of Ellen DeGeneres. Everything for me is for Bella Thorne. She says well I pay attention to you, but when I'm not watching the show it's like I can't talk to anyone else.

Problem

They are trying to imprint someone on me for no reason.

Not Backing Down

If people don't wanna be around someone and that someone shies away, why do they get to attack me?

Problem

It seems true Ellen DeGeneres has gotten me convincingly alienated from others cuz it doesn't matter. If not, it's my dad or the experiment. I didn't do anything to deserve this kind of treatment.

Problem

Look, I don't know what's going on with people torturing me in my room with the computer and noises.

Hm..

I bet Ellen DeGeneres knows other people are unnecessarily racist to me.

Question

What did I do to deserve to be seen as unattractive?

Issue

I shouldn't just be mad, but I question the suggestion about Ellen DeGeneres supposedly "meddling" in others's lives, mine and people I know. It probably isn't her, and we should give her the benefit of the doubt. However, someone could be out doing something. We don't know. I just know a lot of mean things have been secretly said or symbolized. Why would you insult me just to have me ignore it?

Problem

They keep trying to make my body feel dead, like someone I like suddenly said to do it.

Happiness Is..

People are happy with freedom and security.

Problem

They shouldn't be able to control my life.

Problem

They keep tossing me aside when I post my problems here.

Problem

People keep acting perverted by saying about me, "It's not 'it,'" in a perverted way, like I'm "not some typical girl with blonde curls."

Problem

Ever since I cursed about the noises in my room or whatever, it seems I can't feel good with other people because of Ellen DeGeneres being involved. She didn't have a problem until I was able to stop, at least using curse words. She just can't admit it was wrong. I had a right to be mad, and I guess I just lost it. I don't have to do that, but I guess it seemed okay in circumstances and I wasn't even really cursing right at her mostly and blotted out entire words. They are fighting me and bothering me. They are making life not worth it. They keep overshadowing me with Bella Thorne, too, like all the stuff I deserve is now nothing, relationships, attention, approval. I need to find a way to get my life back since Ellen DeGeneres and this "stuff." I'm very upset. Ellen DeGeneres thinks it's okay and I feel confined by the belief of Tim Burton and her that a non-famous person can only know 1 famous person, too, because Ellen DeGeneres thinks I'm bad. They are watching and talking to me in my room with clicks. They are taking away all my happiness. My parents are always mean in attitude towards me, too.

Successful People

Did you notice most successful people aren't as mean as Ellen DeGeneres?

Disclaimer: Mean - she's rough and tough and it comes off that way to many people. I find it mean to me.. not sure what else to say about that. Don't feel like writing a long thing about it.. I mean, it's overly obvious.

Problem

They are saying mean things to me on IMDb via other posters.

Saturday, November 21, 2015

Funny

I know people listen to and accept those who are mean. Probably just racism.

Problem

They won't stop telling me I am bad.

Facebookers

People who go on Facebook just a little are not to be trusted. They are wallowing in self-pride.

Logic

I thought if someone was mean to you, you could be upset back.

What's possible?

about me being bad in the future?

Attention-Seekers

You don't have to get mad at me to get attention.

Upset

I'm not upset at any physical happening but that I keep getting told I'm not good.

Lies?

Don't make innocent Ellen DeGeneres look bad.

Issue

Every time I feel good, Ellen DeGeneres the childhood blonde "gasps."

Pattern

People like to make the lives of those who are low uplifted and don't wish to better the upper crust socially.

Problem

They keep trying to bemusedly tell me I am mistaken somewhat frequently.

Youthfullness

People forget they are nicer to younger people and tell others older that it doesn't work that way.

Problem

I don't know, but I think this is coming from the experiment, but Ellen DeGeneres thinks I no longer deserve people to be nice to me and make me feel good.

Younger People

I'm not listening to this nonsense of how younger kids with younger parents are in some program where we feel how they deserve more.

Problem

They keep acting atrocious around me, silly, like all around and insulting at the same time.

They're taking relief in the fact I am thought to be in trouble. In reality, they probably were in check at some point and were released by Johnny Depp. People in general are like this.

Deserving or Undeserving

How do people gain the status of deserving everything while different kinds of people don't?

How Silly

People think if they make you feel upset on the inside that you did something mean on purpose. And if they won't stop bothering you..

Problem

If people have a problem, they should not wait until it's too late to tell someone.

Problem

They keep playing around with me.

Problem

They keep bringing up Bella Thorne and say I don't deserve anything. Ellen DeGeneres did this, supposedly. Everyone does it for her.

Mistreatment

People encourage other people to be happy but not me. They think being an experiment is enough for me.

I see other people are upset and no one gets upset back.

They act servile/submissive. Like, they think they are good to.. want to punish or be mean to others like they deserve it. It's taken as a sign of interest, and they are encouraged in their wishes.

Problem

They keep acting like my possible future daughter is being hurt/made fun of. I was upset and they brought it up, which made me more upset. I think my grandma and oldest aunt are behind this.

Problem

They leave me off with a mean secret message.

Problem

It's like someone disappeared from my life.

People Being Better Than Others

Are kids really more appropriate than young adults today that they deserve better?

I don't understand..

..what do people expect to accomplish in life if all they do is sit around like a baby, in that aspect?

Evil Racism

What do you think when people think Asians are evil? Like no one should be nice to them?

Problem

My mom tried to imprint ugliness on my face. She was acting like I was the bad one and tapping me out. I keep having to fight off some feeling.

Problem

They are saying more threats.

Problem

So, this making my possible future kids dead thing seems to be true, they say. They did it. Like k***ing the comforts.

Problem

There are more suggestions of my being called not white on IMDb that might have lasted a long time to say and make the statement.

Problem

That poster is still calling me not white.

Problem

They keep saying I did something to someone or acting like it.

Problem

An account online just said someone said something about me not being white, but I think it's the people experimenting on me.

Problem

It feels like they're k***ing my possible future kids. I feel like I can fight and have to do that to not let it happen/

Problem

They acted like someone said my possible future kids are dead.

Problem

They are frequently sending me negative messages.

Problem

Ellen DeGeneres keeps sending secret messages that are negative, blaming, and hateful. I am in an experiment, and I get these messages as symbols/sounds..

It hurts my feelings to be hated.

She just has me on her blacklist.

Racial Assumptions

If you downgrade another race, like by having a 1/2 Indian (India) boy and wondering if they want to be raised as not white.. because it's obvious other races always want to be white.. then why not racially downgrade people from the white race where possible?

Problem

They keep acting like my possible future kids have problems. I used to suck it up, and now an old teacher in the city/Orlando has a problem cuz I felt upset and also quit.

Problem

What's so offensive about what I said about what Ellen DeGeneres already does?

Problem

They are threatening me for what I say on my own blog.

Problem

Why is Ellen DeGeneres acting like she's withheld being the dainty one with me as a monster and sucking it in about me being supposedly bad and her effortlessly perfect? It's like a ruler or something, and a new measurement comes in regulated time/space.