Sunday, November 15, 2015

I also noticed..

..they are extremely condescending.

What about all the other people..

..who is supposedly approved of by certain significant public figures?

cont.

I also thought the experimenting on me was incompetent.

I think it is also hypocritical.  They have to right to beat on me for having a hard time in school, especially since it was symbolically promised/said to me this was just an experiment and things got hard with it.

It just wasn't the same.

I used to have fun at performances, live musicals, etc.  For some reason, the magic is gone.  I knew it mattered if people were mean to me cuz they think everyone has to be to fit in.  They acted like it was just to stay safe.  Honestly, to go further, I don't believe it.  I think it is hatred.  I even think it is either/a combination of selfishness and liking someone else (others) better.  I'm right!  I just am not 100% sure if that's what it was.  It might be because we miss the past, too, but I am looking to a brightening future.

Floutist

When I left, I think I saw the floutist lady cuz she was all in black.  She was about 5'6".  She was with a guy a bit taller with a bald spot and grey hair.  Her hair was dyed red and short.  She was with her daughter with hair some past the shoulder, wavy, smooth, reddish blonde, looked tinted or something.  Nice people, well off.  It reminded me of the success of my family except racially they are well off.  (My mom is Asian / Chinese-Indonesian, but my dad is white American.)  It makes all the difference in the world.  Things happen when you are in life.  You can't all hide.  You don't.

IMDb - Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Men Tell No Tales (2017)

Yea, you're right! I should let bygones be bygones. He's generally a good person. Let me tell you.. it seems like it could be a big thing for some people, but why do some people go crazy and let lose and explode saying how hot someone is when they're nothing like them? Opposites attract??

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Re: It's Saturday night. Ask me anything.

Have you ever been to a lake called Ogopogo?

Re: It's Saturday night. Ask me anything.

Yes. I never saw the lake monster.



Re: It's Saturday night. Ask me anything.

You crack me up! 

I watch unusual/supernatural life etc. on TV, or used to. They always have that show of Ancient Aliens on.

Now, I always leave on the BabyFirst channel.  If you watch long enough, you'll see babies, toddlers, children, kids, tweens, teens, youth, young adults, and the mentors/teachers.

Eurasian

Cinderella's Prince


IMDb - The Soapbox

Video of Me Talking to the Prince of Cinderella in Orlando Tonight


I want to go on tour in a musical performance!

The prince had a very major role..............................................


What I Will Do to Get Famous on a Musical Theater Tour

So, my dad said to start here. I have to audition I think in the Spring/Summer for them to schedule the rest of the year.

I will continue to exercise at gymnastics class until then and submit myself to casting agencies, as well

It's possible I will take singing lessons. Singing on my own I must get very lazy. I did try to get a license to post my singing online. In the end, no response. I had already posted singing online..

If I am famous, I cannot post songs for free, so I don't, anymore

You can post old songs, 80 years after the death of the composer.

Strange, but I think, at least with some companies, you can use their karaoke accompaniment for free. At Ameritz, you can sell up to 1,000 copies without paying for their part of the accompaniment. 

Cinderella

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Laziness

Even if someone is lazy of another race, I'm considered lazy.

Lazy Applied Judgement

Even if I am nice, people say I am wrong cuza my race.

Ooh! Ooh!

I know why people would care about kids older than me-if they're Norse-American.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: How come more people are going vegan nowadays?

They aren't kids, so they can eat whatever they want, and it's cool, supposedly. 

IMDb - Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Men Tell No Tales (2017)

It shows that Johnny Depp can get upset. That's all.

My point is that it's confusing he can be so good but so stand-offish and bitter. Nothing that bad, tho. I wonder if he's being bitter wanting to be cute subconsciously. Everyone seems to do things like that, maybe.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Aren't real/full Asians and also notably white Asians really smart but shy around Europeans?

If they want to be white but feel tied down to their culture.. all I can imagine is they'd feel proud talking to white people about their race rather than fighting like no one cares if they don't feel as good as Europeans in some way..

Parenting Magazine Subscription..

I get the Parenting magazine and it doesn't have a whole lotta/if any psychology.  It had a cute craft.

What I'm here to say tho is they highlighted that the Peanuts movie was out for "winter" break, which is early November.

IMDb - Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Men Tell No Tales (2017)

He just seems like he could have been a nice person when he got famous but is more critical in personality and limited in exposure.

Friday, November 13, 2015

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Re: When it comes to beating others seeming more White/European..

I mean why would someone pick on another race trying to be like white people?

It's like when someone who's not all white wants to be white, something suddenly comes up, people telling them to be ugly like their own r***.

Eurasian

Re: When it comes to beating others seeming more White/European..

Okay.Now i get ya.

I dunno.
Do they say that to you,Christina?

Re: When it comes to beating others seeming more White/European..

They clearly think that. I hear clues in what people around me say.

Not everyone is married to this problem.

Eurasian

I feel a real bond..

..to this little girl dancing on BabyFirst, with Dance Time Boys, who looks part Swedish with medium-long white blonde hair and a young, cute look.  Like, we all love Ellen.  This girl is cut for success.

IMDb - The Soapbox

I mean why would someone pick on another race trying to be like white people?

It's like when someone who's not all white wants to be white, something suddenly comes up, people telling them to be ugly like their own r***.

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I mean what's it to you if a person wants to be a certain way and has a certain personality?

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: When it comes to beating others seeming more White/European..

you are clearly talking about spreading white supremacy and racism. like that's a new idea?

Re: When it comes to beating others seeming more White/European..

Well, I heard a blonde ditz on a talk show when I was still a high schooler say shruggishly, something like, "There are only 3 races, black, white, and Asian."

Meanwhile, back at the ranch..

Eurasian

Another Actor from 1950

born before my dad

Michael Meyers, the character being portrayed.  I saw 2 of like 4 or 5 shows.

So, that's

Michael Meyers the character - earlier 1950
Chuckie the character - earlier 1950
Roger Rabbit the character - August 1950

I worship them all in these shows!

Dr. Phil seems younger, September 1st, 1950, and I actually watched and followed all of him online for like a month.  I think he's pretty polite, but maybe he was blackmailed.

Feminine Stereotype I am Drawn Towards

Ellen DeGeneres
Jane Lynch (who hosts Hollywood Game Night and is like 6'1")
Rachel Maddow (Politics)

People would find someone like me saying this as disagreeable.  They think there's not enough love for everyone.  It's like penguins pushing other penguins off the rock and into the water.  It's to test if there are predators.

Cool Guys Born in 1950

My dad - July
Roger Rabbit - August
Chuckie - earlier

Dr. Phil is born September 1st, 1950.  It was a cool show to watch for about a month, everything and following online.  He's rather funny, more exposed than the other 2 I mentioned.  I liked it when he said, "'Dis'is my show!" to a guest on there, I think a big black guy.  I like him, just feel he was unfortunately rubbed into me when I stopped watching, like in a weird way.  I do find him funny and like Tim Burton maybe not wanting to admit when like someone else needs a turn to think and judge him.  I don't know why he went a little crazy about being judged.

The lesser exposed ones did their act well, but I don't know what they do as people now.  I was extremely attracted to them.  I liked Dr. Phil.  He seemed cool.  I'm sad I don't have time to watch everything I want on TV, and I was not big on TV growing up as a kid and teenager.  I have pressing needs of my own, too, concerning lifestyle and it's a bit freakish.  Also, Dr. Phil doesn't seem like a show for someone like me to drop in sometimes because it draws me in like I have to participate.  I do find I like just dropping in on Jimmy Fallon and Stephen Colbert.  I almost got on Dr. Phil.  He's seen my video!  I'd like to meet him and feel I've learned a lot about him.

Similar to Judge Judy, like her a lot.  It's a little stressful to watch.  I think she's from NYC.  I think she's born in the 1940s.

Facebook

Richard and Karen Carpenter Fan Page

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Just because black people are nice to me, white people want to use it to destroy me racially.

Thursday, November 12, 2015

Trapped in a Bubble

What do you think about people hating you if you do something they don't like you in particular doing or you just messed up or got upset?

When it's not about you being the kid..

..Why are people so totally dissed, like they're sure you're not worthy as their greatness?

Johnny Depp should be a real goody good..

..He should not follow some code of upholding worthiness, like it's about denying anti-whites and using the mixed race as punching bags.

What happened to that nice guy who made it to Captain Jack Sparrow and Willy Wonka?  He acts like a punk.  You know, to win people who are really like that over.

And what about Tim Burton?  He's scared of mixed race people now.  He somehow has to put his needs over others and in ways that seem weird and hard to pinpoint, but it probably can be pinpointed and maybe talked of.  You know, I guess, when people are busy and working on their own thing, when people expected something different of them.  He seems like a nice guy.  Maybe, it's hopeless for some to see him as a father figure.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: If film/tv were reality what would be worse:

It seems that reality is false. 

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: "It doesn't matter how much I hurt myself, I still feel the same"

It seems impossible for some people to feel something is very wrong, with their lives. ðŸ˜’ 

Gymnastics

My arm hurts so much I can hardly wipe myself when I go to the bathroom.

It doesn't feel any hurt when I'm not using it, at least not now.

Gymnastics

It's a successful experience.  My skills as a kid are still there, a lot, in a way.  I feel more fit and want to do beginning ballet, to advance later but get these steps down.

IMDb - Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Men Tell No Tales (2017)

What about Ellen DeGeneres? She was always under the radar. ..It's not like Johnny Depp is the only person in the whole world..

Prize

I just won the highest prize in a contest of 2 round trip flights in the next 2 years.

Oh, I know..

..I don't have the right to complain and don't finish some of my thoughts.  Aha ha ha!  Sure, I don't have the right..

Girl From Florida?

Something in Orlando Floridians go to.

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She doesn't look like she's from Tampa.

She looks like Bella Thorne, who is from Southeastern Florida and acted since a baby.  Not sure when she left, but I was under the impression it was when she started her acting resume at 5, according to IMDb.

IMDb - Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Men Tell No Tales (2017)

Re: Idea for the title...

Yea.. Sometimes, I feel his characters are without a point and with unending insistence.

It's probably definitely that you wish you knew him and the movies were reality, "but we're getting there."

I more wish for his movies to become realities than to meet or even just to know him a little bit.. but I guess with his character played by him in them, as no one else can play them but him, exactly.

I feel sorry for the kids born around 1997/1998 because the world was so bad after Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) came out, tho it's been worse for everyone else. 

Wednesday, November 11, 2015

Problem

I don't have what I need to be happy.  If I'm not supposed to have it, I don't.

IMDb - Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Men Tell No Tales (2017)

Re: How do you feel about younger generations with this franchise?

They're just snoots trying to get their way, believing only they deserve something in life.

You know, I've also sensed that people dislike things once people like me start to like them. I hope that's not why. I'm not sure who these people are nor where they come from, cuz I know a lotta people are sacrificial in ways they are confused to be. People forget them in the peanut gallery. Someday, things will be different.

And, right, little children don't notice how cool it is on the outside, it seems. They might just get their information and feelings of it from their parents, who probably grew to resent it. They keep it in and the world doesn't know. It's sad, maybe they couldn't soak it in like the previous generation of kids. 

cont.

People who know me well, like my parents and grandma, are able to channel me in negative ways, and I just think, "No, Stop, Leave Me Alone," and they won't quit.  They seem to be able to affect me in a bad way so I can't think and just feel irritated, moreso my mom and grandma in that way.  I don't see my grandma much, but I feel my dad thinks about her, his mom, and does stuff because of her, what she thinks/communicates.  I come in ready to be in a good mood, too, and this happens.

cont.

I just realized that The Ellen DeGeneres Show is head over heels.  I, however, find it hard to find the other dedicated fans and cool people who are gonna become something in the world.  I hope it's around when Ellen DeGeneres is here to reap benefit rather than just everything going downhill.

I almost feel as tho I'm preventing that happiness from seeping in.  It should make me happy.  It does make me happy.  I just feel hated.  Doesn't matter, but I am trying not to let that seep in when I'm so upset about how my life goes, like it isn't worth it to some others.

I feel taunted that I'm a suck up if I am able to behave well on the inside just to let them test me out and never have anything that means anything in a way to say.

My life is like nothing, even if others care/help.  It's because I'm considered a failure and am kinda for some reasons, mostly being kicked outta my college major.  So, if anyone cares about people like me, that'll hurt them, too, if they are nice to me and try to be good or something.

I guess some things never were or never should be for me over others.  I still have a bone to pick, tho, but not about this.

A Worthless Existing

If there's something worth it in life, I haven't found it, yet.

I'm not afraid to dip my toe in the pool, and I get things done.  Don't go off and bother me like I don't have the right to say that etc. and talk at me like I'm supposed to answer but you won't really listen.  It's not as though it's everyone's fault.  I hope it isn't.

So, what do you think about that?  What am I wasting my time on?  Being badmouthed all the time by a lotta people?  Look, I had something in life.  You don't have to get all jealous and mess it up for me.

I didn't say anyone had to do anything.  I said my life wasn't worth it now.

Americans Being Better Than People

I don't feel upset so much about the naked idea of being part American, but it gets me worked up when it's about having stuff and it's stuff I don't have, while I know White Americans are being lifted up into the spirit of Europe and defended as better by some.

Think about this.. run into Jews, Latinos, Australians, Canadians... were these better people?  There's a scale.  Europeans are at one end, and either everyone or just Americans are at the other end with everything else in between.  So, I'm not really against anyone, tho.  I've felt attacked, tho, like consistently by Jewish females, unless you mean the ones who still look "real."  Actually, the little ones get mad at me for not looking white but not being as dark.  ..Face it.  It's fact.  Ehe he he!  If you have a reaction, I hope you respond clearly and not in a derogatory and somewhat dangerous tone.. like don't shout from the ceiling/top of the wall.

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

I liked the black lady from New Orleans who we saw has been on the show a few times.  She did seem to be from the region.  Very nice lady.  It's hard to believe she runes like almost 5 miles or whatever a day.  She made me feel typecasted or stereotypical on the show.  You know, smart but feeling lo.  Like I'm outcasted racially and as a person.

Mom and Baby

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Girls should not feel guilty about raising children' - Telegraph
She looks Swedish..

Norse-Looking Girl

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Cute Picture

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It won't let me paste.

The one on the right seems to be the one triumphant, clearly.  The one on the left looks overly mature.

2 Pretty Girls

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The one in the middle looks Finnish.  The one on the right looks part Swedish.  The other looks like more of a mix of other things.

Jennifer Lawrence

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Well, yes, it looks like she's making it well in Hollywood.  She must have been working out or on a good health plan.  She is so sweet and smart.  She's really popular, must have a lot of friends, maybe more than she can handle.  This is called a pixie cut, and she looks like Tinkerbell!  She'd be a good Tinkerbell, like the one in Pan, which came out recently.  She seems to be more of an actress, so maybe that's why she's more intellectual than like a lot of other people usually overly sporty.  Of course, if she likes being sporty, she could be seen that way, too.  She just has this certain look about her that's hard to describe, but you think about it a lot.  She seems like a very independent young lady.  I remember being her age, was pretty fun..

IMDb - The Soapbox

When it comes to beating others seeming more White/European..

and you see someone extremely attractive do you automatically push someone else aside and say you wanted to be that way more all along?

Say, the other person clearly wants to be as European as they can be, and, tho, you're really a slacker. You just want it and fight it out using race and ethnicity as the bottom line, like you don't have to want it, work at it, and you don't want the other person to have it for some strange reason. 

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

Seth Rogan seems like a nice guy.

Justin Bieber seems to be looking for himself and staying cool and on good behavior.  I wonder if he is happy.

I liked the little girl from NY state who drives a go-cart.  I'm not sure who really won the driving contest.  She was spunky with nice dirty blonde hair and probably blue eyes.  It's interesting to see someone from there where it's sorta cold.  She also had 2 French braids, like pigtails.  She was so upbeat and smiling on the outside at least.  Seemed a bit tough and rough.  It surprised me how she was, but she's more into outdoor things maybe.  She wasn't fat but seemed big set.  I wonder if she'll slim out as she grows up.

Favorites

Old Favorites

On TV

Baby care.  Dark people holding any sort of kids.  A Scandinavian-looking young American girl in bare feet, maybe age 19 or 20.  She's having fun shaking instruments, blowing bubbles.  It's all about her.  The kids can tell she's no mom.

I'd like people to treat me like that's my race.

What did she do?

Kids With Southern Parents

I saw this baby on BabyFirst from Alabama, which is between Mississippi and Georgia and has the oldest city in the US.

New Favorite

Dance Time Boys on BabyFirst.  They go into a ballet studio with older girls rehearsing The Nutcracker.  Little kids are sitting around.  They show the face of one girl lying down partly and you see her eye is so clear and blue and pretty.  Her hair is straight and white.  I think we saw her get up.  Has to be Swedish.

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

IMDb - Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Men Tell No Tales (2017)

How do you feel about younger generations with this franchise?

Appreciative in different ways or maybe to a lesser degree significantly? Do you think the people around high school and college age when this came out had a better grasp or not? 

IMDb - Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Men Tell No Tales (2017)

Re: Idea for the title...

Some people in the peanut gallery seem to not think this is worthy and in step of more awards.

That's like Titanic (1997) not winning the Oscar.

It's not a revolving wrong. I doubt the people who beat Johnny Depp could really do as well. I've seen people at Disney World do a close job of it in more technical ways, like the voice, which surprises me. 

Monday, November 9, 2015

New Blog

Welcome!

Welcome to my BlogSpot!

Article

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"Aspiring models and actors have become starlets from their Instagram selfies."

Take me there!

Problem

Someone who seems nice is being weird and mean.

People Who Try to Impersonate to Impress

Do you get people in some way acting like they're Ellen DeGeneres to you and can say whatever they want and you can't?  I mean, Ellen is special and does things right, also nice.

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

The dancer at the beginning was cute, a young Asian boy.  This is the 3rd little boy I've seen with a mature haircut, recently.  He had something like a mohawk.  The other 2 had like a rope of long hair in the back of their head.

It was nice to see Ellen's mom.  I so like seeing her and Portia.

Justin Bieber was very cool.  He's here all week!  He talked, sang, and played a game with Ellen.  It was amazing.

Shonda Rhimes, Ellen DeGeneres's partner's boss for TV, seemed very intelligent.

The girl at the end playing the game seemed nice.

Problem

They said I couldn't be from where I'm from cuz I'm bad.

Trying to Be Cool to Others in Other Places

Have you heard of something being inappropriate or rude?  It may be a complex statement, but still.

Problem

Someone acted like I can't act like I'm from New Orleans but others can to them, even if they're not from there.  That's not right and not for them to decide.  The other people got to do it.  I'm actually partially from New Orleans and Florida.  They're also judging me falsely about my hair/color.

I think that other people should be allowed to be from a worthy place.  I'm not saying anything bad about them.

I think it's people who are desperate to toot their horn about having a good heritage background after someone like me made something of my life despite where it's been from.

In Florida, we were told more ancient Floridians are just like us namely, like breaking it down by that you can have a parent from there, or even a grandparent and so forth.  We all have a history in this world, and in a way Florida is no mystery.  What about the indians?  So, is living here the magic wand for you?

What?

I feel Ellen DeGeneres keeps labeling me as bad.  Basically, no one likes me much whether or not I'm good/fun or whatever.  I was considered a good person to talk to.  People who can't be trusted anymore have just been defaming me.

cont.

They can't say I'm not something about where I grew up partly.

People think if they're not from Florida they're from New Orleans.

A New Race of People

You can't tell me I can't do something cuz I'm from Florida when you have to be interested in people with ancestral Floridian.

Other Races

There's a little Asian boy dancing on Ellen.  If you want me to be like that, why isn't everyone else?

Being Somewhat/Sometimes Alone Online

Why does Ellen get mad at people online hoping to meet people?  She thinks she's the only person people wanna talk to and that she doesn't want them to be online cuz they're bad to her.

Teenagers

Ellen DeGeneres lets teenagers do whatever they want.  I feel like she's bossy to me and is always trying to attack the rest of the world.

Problem

They just made it so when I load the Soapbox on the IMDb Message Boards, the circle circling at the top sometimes won't stop.

Problem

They're starting to annoy me more now.

Problem

They won't all stop buttering my dad up and acting like I'm bad.

Victimization

I believe if people are mean, they need to shape up, not the victim being overly victimized regardless of if they become upset.

Problem

Suddenly, for some reason, the pictures aren't always all showing up on my blog.

Racial Activity

If you think someone else is gonna do something big racially, I can't see why you and others aren't doing it, too.

Girls

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Do these girls look Norse to you?  Danish, Swedish, Finnish?

Problem

My dad is very mean to me in secret, how he behaves and watched me so he can annoy me more acutely.  He rubs in rewarding people who are mean to me by cooing them tackily, like said with an annoying expression, "Okay, very good."  Nothing I do makes anyone think well of me who is big in life for me.  It's super-annoying when my dad does this cuz I'm already super-annoyed at him and them for doing it/annoying me.  It's people I like who they told bad things of me to and somehow convinced them to be mean to me.  They are even scared if someone catches them being nice/and not being mean to me.  They get mad at me for getting mad at them for being mean to me.

Problem

They are just giving me these problems cuz they want to pollute my new blog.

Problem

Whenever I post a problem, they say something annoying to me/give me another problem.

Problem

My dad messed with my pr***** in the way he was calling me from my room for something I told him not to call me for.  He made 2 little hoses towards it.  Supposedly, a bunch of other people, including that he just spoke to my grandma, are involved as the result of this decision.  The feeling/bother/irritation did not go away, and I was reminded of it.

Asian Leopard

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Penguins

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Sunday, November 8, 2015

Lust

I see a white lady on BabyFirst.  She is rather obese.  The baby is looking at her with lustful eyes.  The lady seems like she is pretty European.

Me as a Baby - Aw, how cute!

It seems babies born around 1997/1998 look like me, but people think I needed to look more submissive.

IMDb - The Soapbox

What do you want to be when you grow up?

I want to be a lot of things.

I want to know about Finns and Swedes and eventually other countries like Norway and the Netherlands.

I want to be a good model and a successful actress.

I want to sing like I used to and dance.

Different Kinds of Cultures

Do you like girls with this sorta look, like the one on top with the purple shirt:

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or this:

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Asian girls are still hot.

Swedish Girl
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Shanghai Girl
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"Satisfaction"

Do you know people who need that satisfaction that they're better than you?

Woship

Should we all bow down and worship Finns/Swedes?

They come to America and their fair hair comes with such fair skin, too..

Sad

I'm not a Finn/Swede.. probably Anglo-Irish, which is Norman Viking.

Want

Do you ever wonder why people want what they don't seem to?

Like, a nerdy person being jealous and needing a makeover, like some bangs or a nice brush?

Can't Seem to Prove Myself Someday

I feel watched by people oustide like everything I begin to think and feel is tacky and tr*shy.

IMDb - Johnny Depp

Re: Golden Derby: 5 reasons Johnny Depp can win Oscar for 'Black Mass'



Well, we'll see the other good actors who do or don't beat him. 

Raising a Daughter

Do you know girls who need their parents to carefully and painstakingly craft their mood?  I'd like to imagine  how it'd turn out, otherwise.

You know, I don't feel very accepted for "what I was" as a baby.

Do you know any girls who don't need their parents?

I feel I was manipulated to be ugly as a toddler, black hair, tan skin.

I remember starting gymnastics.  I became a new girl!

Familial Importance

It's funny how important the world makes it for mean people in their family life, while mine being content is illegal, simply.  Like, it's more important when there's a young child involved.

"Good" vs. "Bad"

If good people are nice enough to leave you alone, why do I have to deal with bad people?  Who do they think they are?

Girls

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Do these girls look Finnish?

Penguins

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