Monday, November 9, 2015

cont.

They can't say I'm not something about where I grew up partly.

People think if they're not from Florida they're from New Orleans.

A New Race of People

You can't tell me I can't do something cuz I'm from Florida when you have to be interested in people with ancestral Floridian.

Other Races

There's a little Asian boy dancing on Ellen.  If you want me to be like that, why isn't everyone else?

Being Somewhat/Sometimes Alone Online

Why does Ellen get mad at people online hoping to meet people?  She thinks she's the only person people wanna talk to and that she doesn't want them to be online cuz they're bad to her.

Teenagers

Ellen DeGeneres lets teenagers do whatever they want.  I feel like she's bossy to me and is always trying to attack the rest of the world.

Problem

They just made it so when I load the Soapbox on the IMDb Message Boards, the circle circling at the top sometimes won't stop.

Problem

They're starting to annoy me more now.

Problem

They won't all stop buttering my dad up and acting like I'm bad.

Victimization

I believe if people are mean, they need to shape up, not the victim being overly victimized regardless of if they become upset.

Problem

Suddenly, for some reason, the pictures aren't always all showing up on my blog.

Racial Activity

If you think someone else is gonna do something big racially, I can't see why you and others aren't doing it, too.

Girls

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Do these girls look Norse to you?  Danish, Swedish, Finnish?

Problem

My dad is very mean to me in secret, how he behaves and watched me so he can annoy me more acutely.  He rubs in rewarding people who are mean to me by cooing them tackily, like said with an annoying expression, "Okay, very good."  Nothing I do makes anyone think well of me who is big in life for me.  It's super-annoying when my dad does this cuz I'm already super-annoyed at him and them for doing it/annoying me.  It's people I like who they told bad things of me to and somehow convinced them to be mean to me.  They are even scared if someone catches them being nice/and not being mean to me.  They get mad at me for getting mad at them for being mean to me.

Problem

They are just giving me these problems cuz they want to pollute my new blog.

Problem

Whenever I post a problem, they say something annoying to me/give me another problem.

Problem

My dad messed with my pr***** in the way he was calling me from my room for something I told him not to call me for.  He made 2 little hoses towards it.  Supposedly, a bunch of other people, including that he just spoke to my grandma, are involved as the result of this decision.  The feeling/bother/irritation did not go away, and I was reminded of it.

Asian Leopard

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Penguins

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Sunday, November 8, 2015

Lust

I see a white lady on BabyFirst.  She is rather obese.  The baby is looking at her with lustful eyes.  The lady seems like she is pretty European.

Me as a Baby - Aw, how cute!

It seems babies born around 1997/1998 look like me, but people think I needed to look more submissive.

IMDb - The Soapbox

What do you want to be when you grow up?

I want to be a lot of things.

I want to know about Finns and Swedes and eventually other countries like Norway and the Netherlands.

I want to be a good model and a successful actress.

I want to sing like I used to and dance.

Different Kinds of Cultures

Do you like girls with this sorta look, like the one on top with the purple shirt:

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or this:

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Asian girls are still hot.

Swedish Girl
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Shanghai Girl
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"Satisfaction"

Do you know people who need that satisfaction that they're better than you?

Woship

Should we all bow down and worship Finns/Swedes?

They come to America and their fair hair comes with such fair skin, too..

Sad

I'm not a Finn/Swede.. probably Anglo-Irish, which is Norman Viking.

Want

Do you ever wonder why people want what they don't seem to?

Like, a nerdy person being jealous and needing a makeover, like some bangs or a nice brush?

Can't Seem to Prove Myself Someday

I feel watched by people oustide like everything I begin to think and feel is tacky and tr*shy.

IMDb - Johnny Depp

Re: Golden Derby: 5 reasons Johnny Depp can win Oscar for 'Black Mass'



Well, we'll see the other good actors who do or don't beat him. 

Raising a Daughter

Do you know girls who need their parents to carefully and painstakingly craft their mood?  I'd like to imagine  how it'd turn out, otherwise.

You know, I don't feel very accepted for "what I was" as a baby.

Do you know any girls who don't need their parents?

I feel I was manipulated to be ugly as a toddler, black hair, tan skin.

I remember starting gymnastics.  I became a new girl!

Familial Importance

It's funny how important the world makes it for mean people in their family life, while mine being content is illegal, simply.  Like, it's more important when there's a young child involved.

"Good" vs. "Bad"

If good people are nice enough to leave you alone, why do I have to deal with bad people?  Who do they think they are?

Girls

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Do these girls look Finnish?

Penguins

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Saturday, November 7, 2015

Upset With Myself

I got so mad when I couldn't get the Word Captchas to work.  I got bumped into a worse mood.  I must be getting more and more upset, lately.  I don't even know what I was on.  At least, I didn't like do it for real as opposed tot thinking it.  I felt like something was overcoming me.

I just told myself to ignore stuff!  I just felt my opinion.  They won't let bygones be bygones.  I'm not mean.  Unfortunately, they are.  I just felt like I was being duped into submission, I think.  But I just told myself to ignore things.  It seems that always happens.  I just didn't want to be duped, as in being told to suddenly think badly or whatever..  I also feel critiqued for what I chose to say about this aloud.  I'd just like to have a nice conversation where things make sense and have reasons.

I don't need to think these things.  It's like getting mad if a loved one gets sick.  Or if you get poked at incessantly.  I feel I'm settled, now, but I thought very negatively.  I really don't wanna deal with what other people think of it.  They've collected things from my past and popped them up.  I wasn't really being bad and attacking.  I just was being defensive and felt a bit upset at what it meant and for some reason was like possessed, I think, which is not something I should do..  Things like this didn't used to happen.  I think it's too much stress now from my dad over little things.  You try.  I can't seem to see these consequences in a positive light. I'm actually just 1/2 his kid.  I never thought of it that way before.  I feel abused for my other 1/2, like he had it in him to handle me and make things impossible for me to think I'm a deserving life.

I'm not up to wanting my dad mistreated.  He may be the hub/source of the issue, but I want his happiness spared.  So, I have to keep that in mind..

I don't know how to right this wrong.  I did sorta stomp my foot walking away if you think about it or care.  No fits of anger of late, tho.

I get fed an incident every day.  That's not how life goes.  I can settle and be happy now, but I know I bothered them before or recently.

I feel like I'm not to be trusted yet also not left alone.  I did recently realize it was up to me to propel and accept my life.  I'm getting up there..

I don't know what to say for relief from these people, even prayer.  I'm already settled from the incident.  They get worse and harder to settle from, but I haven't had the physical fits as much.  I don't feel right physically, probably the meds.

I feel like I'm okay.  So, good night.

Mean Secret Messages

Some people act like they're nice, but they don't agree with me racially or other things.  I keep getting mean secret messages, tho.  There's no work to distract them or fun.  Maybe, if I basically make a mistake, I will never get anything out of some people, "cuz they don' need me."  They just don't.  I was some mistake in their life.

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IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: If you saw a famous pop star in hell.....

I was at the Wax Museum in the nation's oldest continuing city. They had a display of Michael Jackson with a song playing with laughter in the background. He was walking in a graveyard. 

You all aren't better than me.

What a failure of a crowd.

Question

Why are you rubbing in someone to me but not others?

Josh Groban - UFO

Looking for Emotional People?

If it's mean to suggest someone guesses they're superior, then why can they basically/clearly seem to do it?  I guess there are other people in the world who are their equals.  I am one of those people, but you don't have to talk to me if you think I'm not.  I'll judge you myself.  I said you didn't have to think of me that way.  I have my own opinion of what's good.  What does anyone think?

Question

Do you just think you're better than everyone else?  So, you wanna pick on me and even say someone else is, like, the best person in the world and let them be mean to me?  That doesn't even make sense!

If you have an issue, stick to it.

Uh-What?

You can't really be that mean.  Come on, what is it?  Everyone thinks I'm very nice.

Hair

I'm still attractive when I have black hair.

Emulating

Do you know people who emulate others in a tacky way?

Feeling Little

I bet teenagers are only the ones allowed to feel little and special.

Different Kids

Why would a black want kids with a white, just to see kids?  A white person could have them, too, but why?

Out of the Way?

If you don't care about Asians you shouldn't care enough to hurt me cuz in a way I really wouldn't like being just Asian neither.

Norse Girls in Their 20s

Norse girls copy the US and therefore aren't as attractive.

Kids With Southern Parents

I saw this baby on BabyFirst from Alabama, which is between Mississippi and Georgia and has the oldest city in the US.

Oh, do you know..

..some people who are really annoying?

Being Nice

I'm a nice person.  Why keep bothering me otherwise?

Racial Denying

Latinas seem to deny like other ethnicities that they are not Norse and never get in the game and deal with the problem.

A Negative, Ungrateful World

This world has become a negative and complaining one, where people are all considered void.

Connecting With "Life"

So, people born around 1997/1998 aren't set up at all to be in connection with life like what was accomplished in the 1950s, 1960s, and 1970s.

"You know what I hate?"

I hate it when people play a game that if you get mad at them it means you're bad when they're mean and it's like "everyone does it."

Lazy Baby Boomers

They just conveniently identify me and make fun of me and sit at that.  Like, saying I'm just like everyone else and suddenly am a failure.

Bells

History

When kids born around 1997/1998 see something from the flower/hippy generation, they just think they know it's something for them and, "Oh, the other generations just made a mistake."  For them, this is history.

Doest my ears deceive me or

does Generation X not appreciate things from the 1950s, 1960s, and 1970s?

Undeserving

Do Late Boomers/their kids really deserve to be as special?  They seem mean.  It's not like it didn't really happen.  I'm speechless!

Young Souls

Those with young mothers, enjoy pecking at life together trying to understand it and look up to elders.

"Just imagine.."

Imagine people born with white/light hair in times when thoughts are deep.  They just insert themselves into the program, like they're cut out, and think the goodies are for them.

Think of when life was still a mystery.  It should not all be about the kids today.  They don't seem to depend on me for all that I am.  I'll get old without having accomplished anything.

Being Asian

If I did not want to be Asian at all and all these white people did, why do some white people like where I live in Orlando, FL, also get to be more white and accepted by Asians?

Living Freely and Mobiley

It might be nice to see someone actually considered attractive from Europe identify, but they're the one getting all the glory still.  It seems to have gone amiss since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) with Johnny Depp as Willy Wonka and Tim Burton the artist as the director came out.

"I'm innocent!"

You aren't the one who in the end had to listen to being represented by black people while no one else is, even black people in this case.  You can't say I did something wrong.

"No Probob"

People in the US who are only or mainly only Norse probably have no problems.

Think of the American dream.

"A Funny Moment"

Why do some people want just me to bow down to them?

"Haters Gotta Hate"

People all are going psycho hating on me.

They even get close to their kids in inappropriate ways because they hate me so much that's how they want to pretend that it's me, not them tho bet they didn't know that.

BabyFirst

I wonder how the young people get on BabyFirst.

This little toddler who I can tell from her skin and other features that she must be Latino.  She is very upset and seems unresponsive to direction.

I watch babies/toddlers/kids and teens on BabyFirst

The Latino and Asian toddlers look sad.

Girls

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Do these girls look Norse to you?

An Old Piece of Knowledge?

Even between Spain and England, they find ways it's better not to mix racially when having kids.

I typed this from memory:

Bonny Bafto's off to sea
Silver buckles at his knee
He'll come back to marry me
Bonny Bobby Shafto

Bobby Shafto's fat and fair
Combing down his yellow hair
He's my love forever more
Bonny Bobby Shafto

Best to resolve traits of your own race.  Everyone is different and has their own goals.

Criticization

Do you think some people point out little things you do wrong to garner positive attention for themselves, while taking from others?

Fair Skinned Latinas and Blacks

They seem to be most prestigious if they are petite/fit.

Wondering

Spanish people should come to the US and lose their tan.  I don't think they should interbreed unless they are fair, at least.  Even then, I have seen problems, tho.. even tan skin.

I know Italian Americans, some are fairer skinned than ones with black hair.  I almost mistook I think Italians or possibly Spanish in the US for black.

I really like people who are all Latino, tho, like the petite blondes.  They remind me of Middle Easterners, very strict.  I've seen them more than once.  Their hair might have been dyed/bleached, but I think they were really blondes, for some reason.  I mean, it's like I knew that's what it was and didn't have to think twice.

I am concerned because people deserve to be happy and also for people who come from mixed ethnic families, especially in the US.

Sure, a dark Latino or Italian could breed with a fair white person.  It's supposed to be about making a happy baby, tho, not just reaching being functional in the family's eyes.

White and Black

I'm convinced.  The Spanish are European.  I always said this to myself.  Go to Spain, they are white.

Different species are like Asians, and a different kind of animal is blacks.  Blacks have a different sized and shaped skull.  That's all there is!  I'm something of a History expert now.  I can put 2 and 2 together.

It's hard for me to understand people who didn't grow up thinking they were a part of a bigger culture which altogether make up the white culture.  You know, even darker Europeans really want to be white.  Another tip from me, a history expert.

I also decided Asians were already the same color as white people with both white and tan skin.  They feel the same way about their skin color.  I guess some white Asians really are racist to darker Asians, the way white people don't give 2 cents about why their skin is white tho seem to treasure it highly.

Drowning out Some of Life in Orlando

I have BabyFirst on, and it still doesn't seem to be doing the trick.  It has helped a little, and so has starting church last weekend.

"Abusive Relationships"

Why are the people I like abusing me so that I can't associate with people I like?

Unnecessary Things

People think to express that you mean something to them, they do things that are close in uncomfortable ways.  These are people who "didn't make it" in life emotionally.

"You can't fool me!"

People think that situations are uptight that something needs to be said, even if it's wrong.  They like to use me to insult, as tho that's why, but I know they just want to be mean to me.

I also notice people are mean just to me.  If someone did something wrong, that doesn't mean I need to be treated wrongly, too.

Wolf

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Penguins

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Friday, November 6, 2015

The Little Red Haired Girl

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Highlight for spoilers from the movie:

Everyone should just like her character.

Fandango - Peanuts Character Personality Test

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You're LUCY!
You’re smart, talkative and bossy. You have a romantic, playful nature, and aren’t above taking the football away from Charlie Brown.

They had this nice picture:

On TV

Baby care.  Dark people holding any sort of kids.  A Scandinavian-looking young American girl in bare feet, maybe age 19 or 20.  She's having fun shaking instruments, blowing bubbles.  It's all about her.  The kids can tell she's no mom.

I'd like people to treat me like that's my race.

What did she do?

Wednesday, November 4, 2015

Twitter

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

Monday, November 2, 2015

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

David Spade is a genius funny!

Giada De Laurentiis was also a very smart lady as a cook!

Tayt Anderson, a young boy who needs/had a heart given to him because he was born with his heart as a 1/2, and his mom are so sweet.  Their lives have been very rough, especially Tayt.  He needs to be able to relax, I think, and be active like other kids, however possible.

We saw clips of Mrs. Ellen DeGeneres before and she actually seems to be looking well now, tho it's peculiar.

All the Blondes

Why now do blondes get all the attention for being sweet and possibly shy?

YouTube

Dody Nolan - New Orleans

You'll like the 1st song until it is over at about 2:00.

Finally!

Beef for supper!

My dad made beef and noodles last night, and it tastes kinda strong.. and good!

Isn't it clear to see..

..from that link in the IMDb post with Bella Thorne shouldn't she be not hanging out with me as much?

I mean look how much she is mean to me..

I feel trapped in a bubble, and I don't know why.

Yer Dad + Yer Mom - Yay or Nay

I'm just me!

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: Why do elderly people like diners so much?

Can they also take up too much space?

Re: Why do elderly people like diners so much?

No, there aren't enough to go around. Too many Baby Boomers.

Eurasian

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: Is this true about Northern California Hispanics?

Bella Thorne, whom Ellen DeGeneres is fond of or crazy over or whatever, I get the message. She keeps pimping younger people like Justin Bieber.

Do you think people with darker/non-Caucasian dads are hotter?

She's at the bottom of this list. She's intimidating and invasive. I feel singled out for her to pick on me. I was interested in her long before, but now I don't know about this. If it weren't for Ellen DeGeneres, I may have stopped following her the way I stopped following Chloe Grace Moretz, longer ago.

Here's the list:

http://imgur.com/a/ivOyo 

I realize what I'm saying sounds inappropriate, but it's not really.  You can probably guess how I really feel.  I'm not trying to put down Bella Thorne nor Ellen DeGeneres.  I feel my soul is being sucked out, tho, unlike before.  Maybe, I'm just not lucky.

Come on, you've gotta admit the truth in some conversations.  The poster was merely mentioning Cuba.  My opinion is the Spanish are Caucasian and hope they feel more at home when they relocate.

At least, this poster will be able to apply.

I don't know about this accepting Bella Thorne in every way.  I do feel girls with the dad being darker are hot.  I just don't know, tho.  She seems messed up, sad to say.  I think she was just coming out of the situation and into this mess.  Maybe, she needs to think of herself as Mama's girl rather than playing it safe exerting herself the other way.