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Sunday, September 13, 2015
Annoyed
I stomped once behind a professor some because I thought the city convinced Ginny to be mean to me or else.. and he just goes and all the cool professors etc. like that act bad to me.
Saturday, September 12, 2015
IMDb - The Soapbox
Wow! Sounds like ghosts I've heard of or seen on Ghost Adventures.
I've seen 2 ghosts with color and shape now. I've seen lots of ripples in the air and some black/moving figures.
I went up north to see my relatives for the 1st time in 16 years and I saw a blue ghost boy by my bed lean over like an "L" saying he just wanted to make sure I was comfortable. I just woke up at night. I saw a twisting black figure go out the window. By the way, I like my relatives a lot and am sad I could not be there for so long. I was busy with school, college, my mental illness, and finally I went.
Recently, I was with my mom at Disney World, and I was mad but kept it to myself. I was on the People Mover and saw a somewhat complex monster/alien figure that looked like the shape of my anger, reddish and such warm-colored parts, sitting next to my mom in the dark. I only saw some of it materialize. I was told, it felt, like by God, you can be mean like this if you want or not.
I've seen 2 ghosts with color and shape now. I've seen lots of ripples in the air and some black/moving figures.
I went up north to see my relatives for the 1st time in 16 years and I saw a blue ghost boy by my bed lean over like an "L" saying he just wanted to make sure I was comfortable. I just woke up at night. I saw a twisting black figure go out the window. By the way, I like my relatives a lot and am sad I could not be there for so long. I was busy with school, college, my mental illness, and finally I went.
Recently, I was with my mom at Disney World, and I was mad but kept it to myself. I was on the People Mover and saw a somewhat complex monster/alien figure that looked like the shape of my anger, reddish and such warm-colored parts, sitting next to my mom in the dark. I only saw some of it materialize. I was told, it felt, like by God, you can be mean like this if you want or not.
Opposite Situations..
If you're supposedly so concerned that another has a good well-being somehow, you might try not going out of your way to ruin my life!
Unhealthy
My parents should not treat me like a n***** to practice for the world to receive me as such.
Friday, September 11, 2015
I can't do this.
People treat me specially, but they stopped treating me like I'm white.
I meet mean people.
I shouldn't have been upset in the bus, but these guys were watching me. I just thought bad things mainly. Even the black people some were glum for awhile. They all recovered. How should I have thought? I felt very blank. Maybe, you oughta find someone smarter. I think I have brain damage from all the staying up late doing homework for 8 years.
I meet mean people.
I shouldn't have been upset in the bus, but these guys were watching me. I just thought bad things mainly. Even the black people some were glum for awhile. They all recovered. How should I have thought? I felt very blank. Maybe, you oughta find someone smarter. I think I have brain damage from all the staying up late doing homework for 8 years.
American
Am I a dirty American?
I ate at France in Epcot today. I noticed they kinda have a feel and culture about them. So, I tried to shape up and not just flip flop when I walk.
I ate at France in Epcot today. I noticed they kinda have a feel and culture about them. So, I tried to shape up and not just flip flop when I walk.
Misbehavior
If you're wondering where I learned what bad behavior was, I felt sorry for those who did it. FYI
Personal Comfort
It's funny I am protecting my rights personally, but people don't get that means they need to respect me more. In matters of being with others. They just regurgitated the problem back, like Mickey Mouse.
Thursday, September 10, 2015
Dealing With "What Life Throws at Us"
Why do people not like me? They always said I needed to losen up.
I already have fetishes about pointing out being touched.. kids today want an explanation for exactly what is done to people such as me when they are touched to prevent it from happening in their little world.
Why would I be attacked for feeling good physically alone? Even before I feel that way now, or rather think about it, I remember to pray that anyone can do what I do and never just me and exactly.
I am sorry for weird things I didn't know were wrong, and I hate to tell you this but your future holds a lotta work in the world for things that get thrown atcha. You can rectify it, but there's no promise of being uninterrupted....
I already have fetishes about pointing out being touched.. kids today want an explanation for exactly what is done to people such as me when they are touched to prevent it from happening in their little world.
Why would I be attacked for feeling good physically alone? Even before I feel that way now, or rather think about it, I remember to pray that anyone can do what I do and never just me and exactly.
I am sorry for weird things I didn't know were wrong, and I hate to tell you this but your future holds a lotta work in the world for things that get thrown atcha. You can rectify it, but there's no promise of being uninterrupted....
The Ellen DeGeneres Show
Hilary Clinton was very nice.. the little girl was so cute and it was so cool how she met Hilary Clinton. I find it amazing. She is so good and apparently interested in Presidents. I wonder if she does any other things, like exercise things, perhaps, etc.
Yes, Hilary Clinton I imagine would make a good President. She certainly is smart in how she feels and recalling facts. She is a nice person. She does seem a bit more gentle in certain ways than the male Presidents. I have an interest in Politics very much so because of my interest in things like race. The international and interstate affairs interest me. It might be pretty cheap for starters, but in some way it certainly is something.
Pink is an amazing person. She rocks out but is so sweet, too. She looks up to Ellen, which gives me great of a certain kind of confidence..LOL! It just shows how nice people can be. The song seemed very cool! Her hair was interesting. I guess seeing Ellen she'd want it a natural shade. Wow, she looked good as a child!
I wonder if LA changed her looks. I guess, like Marilyn Monroe, she grew up. Also, I know she was a gymnast.
You know, I am familiar with seeing or experiencing her style in these pictures. It was only for 1 year, when Titanic came out, 1997-1998. I moved to La in 1998. I think, overall, things are worse, and I never really experienced that in a certain way. I don't know who everything changed for.
Anyway, I see what's cool about what she's wearing, too. It is very cute stuff. They must have some better stuff up north. There was cool stuff here, but generally the people who got things shipped in musta had some booty! Not much style to speak of here in modern terms.. certain things. I forget what I meant, tho. Maybe, there wasn't much variety. I couldn't afford the detailed stuff..
Yes, Hilary Clinton I imagine would make a good President. She certainly is smart in how she feels and recalling facts. She is a nice person. She does seem a bit more gentle in certain ways than the male Presidents. I have an interest in Politics very much so because of my interest in things like race. The international and interstate affairs interest me. It might be pretty cheap for starters, but in some way it certainly is something.
Pink is an amazing person. She rocks out but is so sweet, too. She looks up to Ellen, which gives me great of a certain kind of confidence..LOL! It just shows how nice people can be. The song seemed very cool! Her hair was interesting. I guess seeing Ellen she'd want it a natural shade. Wow, she looked good as a child!
I wonder if LA changed her looks. I guess, like Marilyn Monroe, she grew up. Also, I know she was a gymnast.
You know, I am familiar with seeing or experiencing her style in these pictures. It was only for 1 year, when Titanic came out, 1997-1998. I moved to La in 1998. I think, overall, things are worse, and I never really experienced that in a certain way. I don't know who everything changed for.
Anyway, I see what's cool about what she's wearing, too. It is very cute stuff. They must have some better stuff up north. There was cool stuff here, but generally the people who got things shipped in musta had some booty! Not much style to speak of here in modern terms.. certain things. I forget what I meant, tho. Maybe, there wasn't much variety. I couldn't afford the detailed stuff..
So..
..do something really "smart" and you get pleasured? Why for me is that not an option? The Chinese???? I want to get out of this circle of hatred. I never imposed myself on others, exactly, meaningfully.
The Ellen DeGeneres Show - Facebook
Me and two presidential hopefuls.
Posted by Ellen DeGeneres on Thursday, September 10, 2015
They need a break.
Right to Fight??
People wait for something disagreeable and use it as a reason to say they are right to fight you.
"Looking fo'l this?" ("Looking for this?")
Are you ever nice so people will say you're better than others?
"Who am I?"
Without my mom's traits, who would I be just from my dad and some neutral denominator? Like a dark English-American woman? I have a feeling my eyes would not be as blue.
Life As It Were
I don't like how I left French culture for s***! No offense to the people of Orlando.
Wondering
Is anyone mad if something is not for a certain person? Or when it isn't?
Me? You wanna know.. no. You could use it to hurt me.
Me? You wanna know.. no. You could use it to hurt me.
The Ellen DeGeneres Show - Facebook
What reason would make someone not like the 1st one LOL cuz I'm more an old-fashioned girl with an authentic taste in things. Maybe, Ellen holds that, too, or embodies it as herself as it is.
(She lip sung "Do You Know Where You're Going.." from 1975..)
(She lip sung "Do You Know Where You're Going.." from 1975..)
Problem
Cool, famous people, especially the females, are all just being s****y to me sometimes. It's like they made the decision.
"Stop! In the name of the law!"
I'm not here to find out you're bad to stop you in life but to make things right.
Ellen - Who is she?
Ellen thinks things are for her just cuz she was a blonde. She didn't realize that's what she thought, maybe.. Maybe, I'm never anyone to say, but "it's the truth, it's actual, everything is satisfactual."
Hatred for Me, Now
It seems random people take it upon themselves to treat me as bad and fight against me for others, like Bella Thorne.
Asian
Why do people have me set up as tho I want to be "retarded" as an Asian? Like, they address me as "you wanna be Asian and I don't."
Wednesday, September 9, 2015
Problem
A lotta people I know thru the experiment are very mean and don't have much to say compared to me. I think I just saw a tumbleweed blow by. People think I am the worst person in the world, but there are still normal people out there, too.
Keeping Up
I don't have to write, but I write, and when it's time to make that point, I write in order to display/include the catch message.
If I don't like being bugged..
If I don't like being bugged..
Look, my dad does not claim to be making people do these things.
Look, my dad does not claim to be making people do these things.
Can I make a point??
If you accept people from Europe and say you don't accept me just to make some point somehow.. you'd say you're kidding but you're not. So, this applies maybe to lots of folks out there.
Forgetting and Figuring Wrong
When people forget things, they tell others they are stupid for thinking of something they already knew.
By Popular Demand of the Demons
I've deleted a part of a post people went apes over being out of place and mean.
Question
Why do people think people my age are nothing but *** receptors?
I mean, we work and do a variety of really good things. *** is not always #1.
I mean, we work and do a variety of really good things. *** is not always #1.
Thinking of Something
I never challenged anyone. And didn't, like, to their face. I just talk talk talk talk. When I talk, there's reasons.. It's fine if someone doesn't like me, but I have the freedom to figure it out if it was someone I like..
Problem
They're trashing me like I'm programmed to be one spoiled, rotten kid. I left my towel from the pool hanging up for my wash of it.
They have a list of things they've already blown off to blow off again and again every time they disagree, like a "trigger reaction."
They express hatred for me and test me to die and injure myself.
I just come in, and something I made sense of comes up, like it was wrong and I don't have freedom of speech.
They just threatened me.. They can't keep-
They have a list of things they've already blown off to blow off again and again every time they disagree, like a "trigger reaction."
They express hatred for me and test me to die and injure myself.
I just come in, and something I made sense of comes up, like it was wrong and I don't have freedom of speech.
They just threatened me.. They can't keep-
"A Way Out"
But I'm smart.. the hurt doesn't last forever and assertion of thought comes quite easily and naturally, "like a glove!" My only problem is some people sorta think the status quo is not to think certain things or moreso even words.
Low Class Workers
Are people jealous of the strength and life in farmers? They never seem to finish what they set out to do, tho.
Another Rule About Me
I don't need to be "babysat." Like someone over my shoulder always telling me I'm "wrong"/bad.
I just had a realization.
Bella Thorne, a great person, rubs the wrong way as the harshest EDIT person in my life.
The Ellen DeGeneres Show
I hope everyone is watching out for Ellen.
Taylor Swift is a great girl. On Twitter, Ellen said she was her best buddy. I hope she's found what she wanted in one. A lotta us dream to achieve the ideal as we grow, and we don't realize how good we have it. I feel with me that people are looking for answers and possibly anticipating the change in the big picture, as only they should regarding that.
Then, I remember seeing the wonderful Muslim. I think the Middle Easterners are great people and accomplishers. I think they need to understand how to and that Americans often make themselves feel good, tho I am not taking the opportunity to suggest it as something weird. I think people should have Islam and the Middle East more available to them. I know they can grow with them. Things seem to roll along while there's this snap of unconsciousness. I feel she is a saint to the Catholic church because she was shot in the head for professing her beliefs. I myself wanted to be a Muslim. I am honestly not ready to give up my hair. I feel I know I am not well-versed in normal ways because Pennsylvanians aren't as super boosted in a part of the IQ that for instance people in NYC are. They hope and hope and hurt others.. You know, NYC, people are so fast-paced cuz they are emotionally smart. That's what the New England area is like. I think it's even more than dreamin' in NYC.
Taylor Swift is a great girl. On Twitter, Ellen said she was her best buddy. I hope she's found what she wanted in one. A lotta us dream to achieve the ideal as we grow, and we don't realize how good we have it. I feel with me that people are looking for answers and possibly anticipating the change in the big picture, as only they should regarding that.
Then, I remember seeing the wonderful Muslim. I think the Middle Easterners are great people and accomplishers. I think they need to understand how to and that Americans often make themselves feel good, tho I am not taking the opportunity to suggest it as something weird. I think people should have Islam and the Middle East more available to them. I know they can grow with them. Things seem to roll along while there's this snap of unconsciousness. I feel she is a saint to the Catholic church because she was shot in the head for professing her beliefs. I myself wanted to be a Muslim. I am honestly not ready to give up my hair. I feel I know I am not well-versed in normal ways because Pennsylvanians aren't as super boosted in a part of the IQ that for instance people in NYC are. They hope and hope and hurt others.. You know, NYC, people are so fast-paced cuz they are emotionally smart. That's what the New England area is like. I think it's even more than dreamin' in NYC.
Ellen
Why does she seem to think people with an older dad are too stupid and s****y for her? My mom won't let me use her age. She makes them seem like bad people, like she's ready to attack and drop them so she can get on with someone special/else. I don't mean to offend Ellen. Ha ha, was something about this post funny, tho?
Turning on Me
People are acting like I make people pay too much attention to me, but I'm as happy as a bug in a rug on BlogSpot in my main blog.
I'm very attuned to others's needs and shifting them away when need be.
Why should this weird mumbo jumbo materialize into reality?
I'm very attuned to others's needs and shifting them away when need be.
Why should this weird mumbo jumbo materialize into reality?
"Everyone makes 'mistakes.'"
I might not know some things, but I know people fight me. You just have to tell me cuz I can't always figure lots of things out. I didn't want to do anything wrong. Sometimes, I want conveniences. Sometimes, I have an issue and no one helps.
Disbelief About My Past Deeds
I guess I just can't believe I'd be in trouble and do things with keeping in mind it's about someone, like when I judge what to do, if something's okay or not or optional or not. Like, I don't base my judgments on winning over other than simply is it an option, okay or not. I did realize my mistake possibly. For some reason, what I do is never enough. I mean, realizing it was wrong was not enough. I think I was worried. I should have realized it was.. "unnecessary."
People are wondering if I should painfully feel submission to someone just because of something I did wrong, like read the wrong page in the paper or was too harsh on the dog. Well, it was something else. I don't really know what I need to do that is wrong right now.
They keep pushing me to feel submission to my dad, but I know it's just cuz I don't want to. I am already older and an adult. These things don't exist other than in perversion and pain. It's a mistake. In a way, I have nothing to do with anyone, like submission to parents.
People are wondering if I should painfully feel submission to someone just because of something I did wrong, like read the wrong page in the paper or was too harsh on the dog. Well, it was something else. I don't really know what I need to do that is wrong right now.
They keep pushing me to feel submission to my dad, but I know it's just cuz I don't want to. I am already older and an adult. These things don't exist other than in perversion and pain. It's a mistake. In a way, I have nothing to do with anyone, like submission to parents.
Well, good night!
Went to Disney today.
Went home.. watched Ellen. Good show, but it got me confused/thinking.
Have a meeting with a music professor tomorrow which was planned almost a year ago.
Went home.. watched Ellen. Good show, but it got me confused/thinking.
Have a meeting with a music professor tomorrow which was planned almost a year ago.
Sunday, September 6, 2015
Age
So, 15 year olds today do things I couldn't when I was 15. They're trying to say I'm too old. In fact, I was pressured to get big by the time I was 15 like the previous generation. 15 year olds today, tiny, no probob.
Bad Reactions
They're trying to say I'm bad and to train me to react like I don't deserve anything I would otherwise be happy about.
Let's the world be honest..
..they are being nice to someone else in certain ways and are being genuinely partly inappropriate with me.
I liked someone, and now it's all about someone I already know having to have them all to themselves.
I liked someone, and now it's all about someone I already know having to have them all to themselves.
Cranky
Late Boomers get cranky when they find out it's about someone else.
They were trained to dislike people 20-30 years younger but like people 35-40 years younger.
They were spoiled with lots of attention and don't want it to change with the onset of kids in the world and the older age.
They were trained to dislike people 20-30 years younger but like people 35-40 years younger.
They were spoiled with lots of attention and don't want it to change with the onset of kids in the world and the older age.
Unfair Advantage
I notice Ellen does things to older people that are mean that she doesn't do to younger people.
Competitive Edge
I guess some people try to have a good look just to beat out a certain person they hate. I feel someone is telling me to succumb.
Saturday, September 5, 2015
Hollywood Cuts
You know how Tim Burton made cuts in Sweeney Todd? He sure made a cut in his career as far as making things as big as Charlie and the Chocolate Factory goes.
I can sing bouncier..
"The candyman can cuz he mixes it with love and make the world taste good"
but don't have that faraway nasally voice like the dude in Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. He's trying to talk more to make it sound ***y.
but don't have that faraway nasally voice like the dude in Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. He's trying to talk more to make it sound ***y.
The Three Caballeros - Donald Duck
The old buildings look like where I got to live as a kid for 3 years, the nation's oldest continuing city. I loved the old stuff so much! My mom often took my little brother and I on walks there. However, this movie seems more festive, too, and newer.
I thought of something really nasty.
I'm listening to the credits of Pirates of the Caribbean 2. It sounds like Charlie and the Chocolate Factory's sentiment to people around my age. It sounds like either they want to support people my age or rub in that the prejudice against us were as alive as ever.
A Joke, Not Taken Seriously
Everyone thinks I am a joke and cannot take me seriously.
Like, this is it? It's not. Like, to say I can say something real and have it go over in my circle.
My Mom
How can anyone think she spoiled me? My mom is a different race. You are just playing the contest about speaking to people who are your parents's age without being as close in every way to your own parents, like that ever was a big deal or meant anything. I think it's just a test to see if you're just a bad egg or nut.
Impossible to Act
I want to act but not challenge people like Johnny Depp, tho I wish to be of some stature. It seems Americans not only know what they're doing but risk their reputation, like we all have to do it.
"No Point"
Johnny Depp doesn't seem to have a true, personal point, just wants to fit in and look flashy in whatever he acts out, even in Pirates.
He He He
Do you think some affection was bad?
People in Orlando have bemused smiles. I can catch what's behind that expression.
People in Orlando have bemused smiles. I can catch what's behind that expression.
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christina is right abotu ellen