Tuesday, August 25, 2015
Not Seeing
Did you know kids think my attractiveness is fake? That their trashed looks are a submission to good?
"Violence is not the answer."
Why is Ellen violent about an issue of having a dad from Europe I think and mom from New Orleans?
It seems like it takes all her might.
She tells you you're not as good in this if it's an issue she has.
See, I wasn't negative, I just spilled the beans.
It's the road that leads to nowhere, no pleasance. It's the nightmare from your worst fear/s.
About it being about not being as good as her, it's just her belief, a belief anyone could have. I'm not being weird.
It's like the big thing that lets her make it in the end.
It's like she's teaming up with Bella Thorne cuz her dad is Cuban and she does have a good mom..
You know, my dad has some inferiority complex about me thinking I can achieve something any American can because of "cheating" with the benefit of a mom from out-of-the-US and probably "babying" me in ways I don't like like a boy in a bubble who's 1/2 Asian.
And my Gramma, not sure when she got so fierce where she has to actively punish me for no good reason, via the experiment.
It seems like it takes all her might.
She tells you you're not as good in this if it's an issue she has.
See, I wasn't negative, I just spilled the beans.
It's the road that leads to nowhere, no pleasance. It's the nightmare from your worst fear/s.
About it being about not being as good as her, it's just her belief, a belief anyone could have. I'm not being weird.
It's like the big thing that lets her make it in the end.
It's like she's teaming up with Bella Thorne cuz her dad is Cuban and she does have a good mom..
You know, my dad has some inferiority complex about me thinking I can achieve something any American can because of "cheating" with the benefit of a mom from out-of-the-US and probably "babying" me in ways I don't like like a boy in a bubble who's 1/2 Asian.
And my Gramma, not sure when she got so fierce where she has to actively punish me for no good reason, via the experiment.
Monday, August 24, 2015
Status Quo
So, what's the status quo for Americans.. be a strawberry blonde from California? Straight, smooth hair?
A Big Thing - Latin Americans - Going Too Far
Do not mistake the hardships and some identity at least of Eurasians and maybe full Asians and also the other hapas.
Don't just say we're basically at the climate of the Latino and deserve to be buried under their own mistakes/"flaws" and like with blacks, too.
If you didn't catch it in the wind, being Eurasian is both difficult and therefore prestigious. It should be smart and efficient, too. It doesn't mean we're dissing anyone.
Don't just say we're basically at the climate of the Latino and deserve to be buried under their own mistakes/"flaws" and like with blacks, too.
If you didn't catch it in the wind, being Eurasian is both difficult and therefore prestigious. It should be smart and efficient, too. It doesn't mean we're dissing anyone.
I'm just so sorry
I go thru stages and need to be set right. I spoke of it in an apology in my Problems blog.
Sad
Someone was a little mean and I was a bit upset about things back, a sweet thin blonde hair dyed lady.
My sweet, sweet people of Central Florida, like a teddy.
My sweet, sweet people of Central Florida, like a teddy.
Cleanup
Thanks to my mom for the idea, I just cleaned my bathroom. I put things I may or may not use later in a storage area and have a few things on the counter with one side clean for guests with makeup and things I use also in drawers.
I am so thankful for this idea. I also rummaged thru my room and cleaned. I don't believe it that I never have been quite so inspired. I want to redo the house to make nice visiting areas. I hold some of the trash.
I am so thankful for this idea. I also rummaged thru my room and cleaned. I don't believe it that I never have been quite so inspired. I want to redo the house to make nice visiting areas. I hold some of the trash.
Sunday, August 23, 2015
What Seems to Be the Problem
It's going down. Things are getting worse for everyone in some way and it was already bad before. People are in a contest to see who's the goody good etc. We need more new faces in Hollywood because they're around. People are so upset that someone could make them unpopular.
My opportunity seems stifled by weird experiences with others that people can take guilt from me with. I didn't need that to make it.. in my life.
My opportunity seems stifled by weird experiences with others that people can take guilt from me with. I didn't need that to make it.. in my life.
Health
I feel a little sick after returning my NutriBullet and waiting even willing to give up Disney money to get a Nutri Ninja. I saw a commercial for Vitamix, the people made me upset.., and it said nothing about nutrient extraction, tho it probably has it and is a little more expensive. I tried to find out.
Problem
My dad keeps getting in the way of my private thoughts with this. I want that out sometimes. I can't feel good.
Why?
Why does my mom try to tell me who I am? I am clean and fit in the upscale crowd. See how I'm treated? I can't even post a picture online. I agree my dad is mean. I don't like how she insults him for some things, still.
Question
Why is Ellen so negative? I'm not trying to be insulting! Like, she seems to round off all other people in spite as being a problem and overstating the obvious when people have so much to offer and try to live up to.
Upset Nights
Do you appreciate someone who sends you to bed upset every night?
I was so upset for being depreciated I decided to try to get a job I liked. It'd be a professional environment, at least.
I was so upset for being depreciated I decided to try to get a job I liked. It'd be a professional environment, at least.
PRoblem
Why do you all do things that are bad that you think Ellen really wants you to do? I can't see her doing it, but I was just told for awhile she was!
Problem
I'm not a bad person.. Why are you messing around? You all have no place to tell me who or what I am.
Issue
People are mean to me and get mad if a bad word comes to mind around/to do with others, but they do wrong things to me. It didn't happen that much before.. Who trashed my life?
Problem
Stop acting like I'd submit to someone like you. Rattling on? You can't monitor me. Leave me the *beep* alone.
Life Goals
•make it in Hollywood
•be like Johnny Depp in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005)
•be like Ellen DeGeneres and not sure who else and have a talk show
•find myself a ballerina and singer
•live in places I like
•Fort Lauderdale
•Miami
•Key West
•New Orleans
•Finland
•Jakconsville
•get my hair to grow in lighter
•fair blonde/partly reddish/light gold
•get my skin to be fairer
•white
•pink
•career
•Music Education?
•work with little kids and teens
•be there for my peers
•live a nice life and when with others
•be like Johnny Depp in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005)
•be like Ellen DeGeneres and not sure who else and have a talk show
•find myself a ballerina and singer
•live in places I like
•Fort Lauderdale
•Miami
•Key West
•New Orleans
•Finland
•Jakconsville
•get my hair to grow in lighter
•fair blonde/partly reddish/light gold
•get my skin to be fairer
•white
•pink
•career
•Music Education?
•work with little kids and teens
•be there for my peers
•live a nice life and when with others
Older Young Adults
Why do you always make older people right and love younger one? What do you think you are?
I'm on 3 different "programs" to make me skinny.
•Vitamin Extractor (getting a Nutri Ninja now)
•Try Food Lovers
•Body Beast - Beach Body
•Try Food Lovers
•Body Beast - Beach Body
Other People
I know for a fact other people do things I get in trouble for that I shouldn't. Ellen said she did it.
Overproctive
Why do some people's parents protect them so much? We try to fix the problem, and this is what we get.
Waiting
I got a NutriBullet and had to return. I have to wait.. it's so easy to get thin and healthy with a vitamin extractor, but I don't have one and am already beginning to revert more to pigging out than otherwise. Money!! I knew this would be a problem! I was concerned about my future.
I see people
on TV who can open up without cracking their voice in disgust of how people treat them.
cont.
•and why with such risque would it have to happen to anyone? You're literally killing off all talent in some way without real love, so why not stick to your own job or do it right?? I didn't say I was particularly talking to anyone! I'm making a point about a problem "good people" have.
Impossible
This is impossible, having a relationship with all these weird things coming up that I'm not okay.
How prestigious is your American family?
I dunno, they seem like they'd be prestigious. Mine were Northern farmers. Italian people sometimes get along with me, which would make me very happy. I might have some Southern European. What makes me feel left out is people in Finland with some Hungarian influence.
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