I will finish my Disney pass early December trying to go each week.
After that, it's film acting school.
I have been getting healthier with NutriBullet.
I jog like twice a day, for 1/2+ hours each time.
I am ordering Try Food Lovers which is $20/month + $20 shipping. It tells you about "portion control" or rather eating a variety of things you mostly/like.
I am getting Body Beast - Beach Body, which is more like weight training. The other big thing out there on TV is like a dance of the 21 day weight loss program. Body Beast is 91 days. It's only $20/2 months + $10 shipping.
Saturday, August 1, 2015
Food
I prepared a diabetic meal, wheat noodles, 5 zuchhini, garlic, cheese, and oil. Now, I'm having a healthy veggie and fruit smoothie.
Friday, July 31, 2015
Exercise
2 big things out there I know:
-21 Day Fix - more like a dance fitness
-Body Beast - from Beach Body
I'm getting the later which is more weightlifting. I jog like twice a day. My leg muscles are huge.
-21 Day Fix - more like a dance fitness
-Body Beast - from Beach Body
I'm getting the later which is more weightlifting. I jog like twice a day. My leg muscles are huge.
Facebook - Post by Me on My Wall
Facebook is a stressful place. You have all these eyes like watching you. I can sense an attitude in others's posts. No one has much to say. They come in turns, like different flocks of sheep.
How It Worked..
I have been having NutriBullet smoothies and eating snacks between meals to keep myself going and my system. TryFoodLovers the diet is still coming in to help lose fat, too, as well as getting Body Beast - Beach Body which gives you pumped up muscles that are huge on guys.
Disney Sing Along
Beauty and the Beast on the IMDb Message Board for it.
I almost put a bell if they had one. I wonder if Bella sometimes thinks about bells. I dunno I don't much name matches. I think of part of my family when I see a Barber poll.
I almost put a bell if they had one. I wonder if Bella sometimes thinks about bells. I dunno I don't much name matches. I think of part of my family when I see a Barber poll.
Stalked and Pursued
Ellen is like a stalker trying to punish me.
Dr. Phil is pursuing me but not others, messing with the truth in the world. It's quite a spectacle. You'd have to pin me down to get me to accept it. Ah ha ha! Which looks like what he's trying to. Pathetic.
Dr. Phil is pursuing me but not others, messing with the truth in the world. It's quite a spectacle. You'd have to pin me down to get me to accept it. Ah ha ha! Which looks like what he's trying to. Pathetic.
Fallon
I discovered Bella Thorne has a problem.. she thinks because of Mama that she's better than everyone who's older and the only "baby" or youth. She has a nice mom, but I noticed people from Southeastern Florida go into fits for their kids, so maybe.. I know her mom supports her overtaking me cuz she has to.
So, she'll probably go into a catfight and have a fit if someone older wants attention. She really goes around thinking everything is supposed to be about her. It's one thing to want a lot of friends or fame, but you can't tell someone else to stop getting attention. I think I pay attention to her. Anyone would enjoy being the best in the world. Like in Shake It Up, she settles and then comes back and I get the vibe that I'm in trouble and a bad person as the excuse, like she wants all the relationships I earned. Who does that? I'm also affected by people experimenting on me, and unfortunately she's involved. She doesn't have to be so nice to me.
Okay, she has a problem, I have problems, too. I am not being sarcastic. I just am saying something that could be a word for different things but this is like the base definition. The problem tho is other people are upset because they are jealous, but she's really a good person.
LOL, I do know she is upset when like I get attention sometimes, but I mean that in particular is not a big deal.
I know people like Ellen want her to fight me. Well, how do she feel, me, fighting her? That's inappropriate and not good for anyone. I guess she's behind in thinking for fun. Then, in the end, she just says, "Oh, well, I didn't mean that stupid thought!" I think she does things of different interests or thinks I am bad. It's no use being quiet. :|
So, she'll probably go into a catfight and have a fit if someone older wants attention. She really goes around thinking everything is supposed to be about her. It's one thing to want a lot of friends or fame, but you can't tell someone else to stop getting attention. I think I pay attention to her. Anyone would enjoy being the best in the world. Like in Shake It Up, she settles and then comes back and I get the vibe that I'm in trouble and a bad person as the excuse, like she wants all the relationships I earned. Who does that? I'm also affected by people experimenting on me, and unfortunately she's involved. She doesn't have to be so nice to me.
Okay, she has a problem, I have problems, too. I am not being sarcastic. I just am saying something that could be a word for different things but this is like the base definition. The problem tho is other people are upset because they are jealous, but she's really a good person.
LOL, I do know she is upset when like I get attention sometimes, but I mean that in particular is not a big deal.
I know people like Ellen want her to fight me. Well, how do she feel, me, fighting her? That's inappropriate and not good for anyone. I guess she's behind in thinking for fun. Then, in the end, she just says, "Oh, well, I didn't mean that stupid thought!" I think she does things of different interests or thinks I am bad. It's no use being quiet. :|
The Game of Life
If one person has a problem, I should still be in the game of life.
When it comes to wanting to be a friend. I shouldn't be outed by one mistake.. LOL!
When it comes to wanting to be a friend. I shouldn't be outed by one mistake.. LOL!
Bella on Fallon!
I just watched. Something was on their mind. I wonder why? *Looks around etc.*
They seem really smart and popular. They are there to stay.
I wonder what kinds of people Bella knows now. Something seems sad for her.
I'm glad she's close to someone cuz she really is a good girl, I know. I don't really know, if she's really with that person but I know I'm not and in trouble. I know this person, too, kinda. But I wonder like what surrounds her. She's in films. I guess she's a star. When there aren't many, they tend not to integrate cuz no one is their type nor the diamond in the rough in that regard.
She was definitely great looking. She deserves a lot. She has been a good actor since she was an infant. Too much to take in. I know her hair is milky. She is lovely. I do tell everyone the same thing, you're good but it doesn't mean I'm not good compared to some people, too. They usually get it and listen and think it's funny. There's something special about Bella. I follow her so am learning thru these processes.
They seem really smart and popular. They are there to stay.
I wonder what kinds of people Bella knows now. Something seems sad for her.
I'm glad she's close to someone cuz she really is a good girl, I know. I don't really know, if she's really with that person but I know I'm not and in trouble. I know this person, too, kinda. But I wonder like what surrounds her. She's in films. I guess she's a star. When there aren't many, they tend not to integrate cuz no one is their type nor the diamond in the rough in that regard.
She was definitely great looking. She deserves a lot. She has been a good actor since she was an infant. Too much to take in. I know her hair is milky. She is lovely. I do tell everyone the same thing, you're good but it doesn't mean I'm not good compared to some people, too. They usually get it and listen and think it's funny. There's something special about Bella. I follow her so am learning thru these processes.
Interesting
Bella Thorne should be #1 just to knock me out of whatever my stance was, but when you compare her to the world she probably is all submissive and respectful.. and the problems take precedence, whereas with me you found out I wasn't all white and went in and trashed me. I could have been one of the best people in the world, too. I dunno, why not just like everyone?
Poor People
That really is hard. I know a factory working lady owned a hot tub. I think it's serious. I know I was able to afford:
•NutriBullet - $30/mo for 6 months + a few extra things but free shipping
•Try Food Lovers - $20/mo for 6 months + $20 shipping
•Body Beast - Beach Body - $20/mo for 2 months + $10 shipping
•NutriBullet - $30/mo for 6 months + a few extra things but free shipping
•Try Food Lovers - $20/mo for 6 months + $20 shipping
•Body Beast - Beach Body - $20/mo for 2 months + $10 shipping
Thursday, July 30, 2015
Strange
It looks like anyone will listen to the people experimenting on me. I found big coincidences, like they were suggesting I'm in trouble, just for not having my life together, nothing mean/bad. I don't need people to diss things and mess them up to make weird coincidences rather then like picking people for who they are.
*Coolness*
I noticed that Ellen is cool with Bella. She is presently waiting for her episode to air with Jimmy Fallon, *no worries*. Why am I still in trouble with Ellen? I want to ignore it. I didn't say she did anything or was like something bad. I just know I'm *not cool*. So, mess up with Ellen, she doesn't change if she thinks there's something wrong with you. Most people on the show are half asleep. They just avoid confronting her properly nor at all.
Anyway, just saying something I thought of now.
Anyway, just saying something I thought of now.
Doing Whatchoo Want
Why do you act like you can do whatever you want? I don't care what Johnny Depp thinks/does. It's stupid! Isn't everything for him that seems wrong to him something he says "death" to? Not saying anyone really is stupid. Just what it is, of course. I mean people think they can ruin my life.
People
It seems Bella is open for communication yet admittedly seems to be playing around being inhibited, like she's holding out for something that needs me to be in trouble.
*beep*
You all aren't disciplinarians. You're *beep*. You're just using an opportunity to be mean to me and protect people like an old best friend I had.
TV
They hated someone from Pennsylvania cuza Ellen and I have ancestry there mostly. Well, it's..cuza Ellen? What she represented against me for no reason!
A Bad Person Would Do This
Suggesting I'm "too old" to have had a mom and that they should be "unappealing" if I ever looked up to anyone, messing around with my relationship with different people on the age of my mom, etc. I am not saying I know Ellen did it, but I think she blew it when I cursed at her or about what she did, rather, online, putting annoying noises in my room, etc.
New Twitter Bio
Aspiring Actress ~ age 29 ~ 5'3 ~ brown hair ~ brown/green eyes
I ❤Miami
Born on May 20, 1986
Exercise Program
I can see on TV.. if they performed like Victoria Jackson with that squeaky nasally voice they could be the next Ellen DeGeneres! :)
Ellen
I never thought of violent things until her. I do like her, but I wonder if she's schizo like me and if she made my mom say to take the pills.
Jews?
Why do you act like I'm so weird like I shouldn't touch anyone, treating me like a Jew! I'm in this fight, too! For the Jew! To save the Jews!
aHA!
I saw a white girl on Barney get mad at a black girl when she suggested people like me need something, too, from people for nurturance, like their ***y parental generation, not sure what went wrong tho.
What.. would Ellen be happy the girl got mad at me cuz it's funky? A ha ha that's so funny!
What.. would Ellen be happy the girl got mad at me cuz it's funky? A ha ha that's so funny!
Mean
People keep acting like I'm suddenly not all that. Just ignoring me, acting like I'm *beep*. You all just ruin my life! I don't need this meanness and hurt.
Race
It's not a *given* that if I want something I'm a n***** to you and can't have it.
I can talk how I want to! How dare you *beep* at me!
If you are wondering, I am watching TV.
I can talk how I want to! How dare you *beep* at me!
If you are wondering, I am watching TV.
Kids! What's the matter with kids! To-day!
Everything is for these underdeveloped families with kids.
An Unsafe Time
Even hearing someone supposedly very good and attractive coming into play, people already can sense trouble.
My Rights
Ellen is off her rocker is something I can say to a fan is how it feels when Ellen turns people like Bella or like anyone on me. I don't want the *sacred* jittery feelings like Ellen can trap me and have me and get back at me.
What do I do? I still follow her.. People send me messages from her in private like via the noises in my room. I do want to follow her. People are just overtaking my life like I'm just some robot that doesn't matter but everyone else does!
What do I do? I still follow her.. People send me messages from her in private like via the noises in my room. I do want to follow her. People are just overtaking my life like I'm just some robot that doesn't matter but everyone else does!
A No
that jittery feeling Ellen wants me to get about Bella Thorne getting better attention than me
No one did anything to her. She was still in the game like the rest of the world.
No one did anything to her. She was still in the game like the rest of the world.
Annoyed
Bella Thorne is more special? I already explained she's famous and honestly every dummy knows that they said the nonfamous/middle class people are fat supporting the skinniness of movie stars.. like how downtrodden life gets for people who don't circulate around Hollywood. They gain weight. They gain weight supporting. Anyone who's famous has no excuse to not be how they want cuz they have money and time to decide to spend.
For the other nonfamous folks, did you see Bella act like only she deserves attention? They even tried to claim she doesn't do that. It's obvious she does in Shake It Up. She's just pretending to be nice and then steals away what you earned plus I dunno if Ellen said so. She acts like all the time needing to get attention, you can tell in Shake It Up. She can turn that on secretly against me now. It never turns off when she does it. Well, I'm just trying to say what I see. My opinion is that it's cool but when used wrongly sad.
She looked so nostalgic and romantic, like she has to have it all and those who were like that already can't. She posted online her telling people what to do to her, like to touch her, and that's too funny! Now, I'm just saying what she does and that others deserve, too. I would have said like I said on here that simply in general famous people aren't meeting their fans. I didn't say give me everything. I feel that everything is tapering towards her. So, I am judging the quality and quantity of what I get and moreover even why. I don't really tell people what to do, but I kinda notice when people are keeping others from me. What a dull existence this lives.
I think Ellen likes Bella the baby, and her nostalgia can also make me moody not just her and I find the prejudice depressing, see, younger kids aren't necessarily considered cuter than her, tho kids today are extra cute or extra not quite that word.
You all might as well not even try to do anything like that to me as you know it's done without reason and I find out.
So, basically, Bella is no excuse from me if I see that the experiment tells her to do something that makes no sense and doesn't seem nice. What, you think I don't deserve anything when I'm the one being wronged? I can still watch her online. If you want me to be as close to her, tho, we need to see why there are all these jokes about Bella getting things and not me, and even if Ellen said so she'd be wrong. I'm not gonna feel belittled cuza Ms. Millionaire. That's all, not being sarcastic. I'm just.. "not gonna feel belittled." I realize she brings a smile to people's faces and she's not all mean to me but yet others are. Now, how can that be? It's all stuff from random people for the sake of her.
So, I'll end it on a positive note. I'm happy for Bella, but what happened to me? Why do I put up with this - the experiment, my parents, my relatives, acquaintances. Little Miss Millionaire has such a clean cut life and stares nonfamous people out like. She gets hurt if something good happens to me like she has all her marbles, like it's just something that doesn't mean anything, results in no feeling. She's not exactly outgoing but not much of an introvert, which is a compliment in most senses of the word which apply accordingly. "She really is a funny girl that Belle!" You know, this person is all made for this other person, Bella and someone. Her name even is similar if you look at the whole name, many correlations, in that she has genius parents. Her dad passed away in a car accident. She seems to have an energetic, extra friendly mom. So, what I'm saying is they both even had maybe the same hair color, red. What else? They don't have freckles. They just look normal. It might be because of a good mother. The other person is like the age of her mom. I think usually she'd just overlook her, but since I'm like that interested she has gotten really feisty about this, like she wants to know she is in an experiment now if she is. So, the question is, "Do I need to back off?" I have a lot in common with many people. I know it's not really a problem if we both like her cuz it's a productive choice. So, I don't see who making all this fuss is then about.
For the other nonfamous folks, did you see Bella act like only she deserves attention? They even tried to claim she doesn't do that. It's obvious she does in Shake It Up. She's just pretending to be nice and then steals away what you earned plus I dunno if Ellen said so. She acts like all the time needing to get attention, you can tell in Shake It Up. She can turn that on secretly against me now. It never turns off when she does it. Well, I'm just trying to say what I see. My opinion is that it's cool but when used wrongly sad.
She looked so nostalgic and romantic, like she has to have it all and those who were like that already can't. She posted online her telling people what to do to her, like to touch her, and that's too funny! Now, I'm just saying what she does and that others deserve, too. I would have said like I said on here that simply in general famous people aren't meeting their fans. I didn't say give me everything. I feel that everything is tapering towards her. So, I am judging the quality and quantity of what I get and moreover even why. I don't really tell people what to do, but I kinda notice when people are keeping others from me. What a dull existence this lives.
I think Ellen likes Bella the baby, and her nostalgia can also make me moody not just her and I find the prejudice depressing, see, younger kids aren't necessarily considered cuter than her, tho kids today are extra cute or extra not quite that word.
You all might as well not even try to do anything like that to me as you know it's done without reason and I find out.
So, basically, Bella is no excuse from me if I see that the experiment tells her to do something that makes no sense and doesn't seem nice. What, you think I don't deserve anything when I'm the one being wronged? I can still watch her online. If you want me to be as close to her, tho, we need to see why there are all these jokes about Bella getting things and not me, and even if Ellen said so she'd be wrong. I'm not gonna feel belittled cuza Ms. Millionaire. That's all, not being sarcastic. I'm just.. "not gonna feel belittled." I realize she brings a smile to people's faces and she's not all mean to me but yet others are. Now, how can that be? It's all stuff from random people for the sake of her.
So, I'll end it on a positive note. I'm happy for Bella, but what happened to me? Why do I put up with this - the experiment, my parents, my relatives, acquaintances. Little Miss Millionaire has such a clean cut life and stares nonfamous people out like. She gets hurt if something good happens to me like she has all her marbles, like it's just something that doesn't mean anything, results in no feeling. She's not exactly outgoing but not much of an introvert, which is a compliment in most senses of the word which apply accordingly. "She really is a funny girl that Belle!" You know, this person is all made for this other person, Bella and someone. Her name even is similar if you look at the whole name, many correlations, in that she has genius parents. Her dad passed away in a car accident. She seems to have an energetic, extra friendly mom. So, what I'm saying is they both even had maybe the same hair color, red. What else? They don't have freckles. They just look normal. It might be because of a good mother. The other person is like the age of her mom. I think usually she'd just overlook her, but since I'm like that interested she has gotten really feisty about this, like she wants to know she is in an experiment now if she is. So, the question is, "Do I need to back off?" I have a lot in common with many people. I know it's not really a problem if we both like her cuz it's a productive choice. So, I don't see who making all this fuss is then about.
Stinted From Birth
Who is born and gets told by their mother they are flawed from their dad and nothing you do can change that? I don't even know if it's a little true. I just know my Chinese mom is attractive, too.
I figured it out.. Ellen.
I was just hurting from the noises. You think what she did for me means it's okay. Or maybe because she is famous?
I mean to say even though I had to get mean messages all the time via noises in private in my room, ticks, etc.. that it's okay Ellen did it if she did because she is Ellen, is famous, and still could do something that was for me. I didn't say she had to do that or anything. I've tried to find other fans to do it with, sometimes, but no such luck.
I mean to say even though I had to get mean messages all the time via noises in private in my room, ticks, etc.. that it's okay Ellen did it if she did because she is Ellen, is famous, and still could do something that was for me. I didn't say she had to do that or anything. I've tried to find other fans to do it with, sometimes, but no such luck.
Wednesday, July 29, 2015
Mm..
So, anyone else out there interested in Ellen? If you made a blog, some hot dude or her could read it. I had a tag for posts for Ellen, too! :)
I also made a public forum from 2013.
Vote for me! :)
I also made a public forum from 2013.
Vote for me! :)
Are you all just here to tell me
I'm too fat and ugly? Cuz I don't see some of the underlying principle. I get "no" for the weird things.
And they've gone crazy with me that I've done something to Ellen. I disagree. I think it's not so. I think she was bad to me, sorry to burst your bubble. It's the person who starts. I was talking about my feelings against what was done. I wasn't mean to Ellen! She was to me cuza my dad. What I said about being tortured and trapped is my right. I don't have to listen to you. You get mad at me for stupid little *beep* every day. Why isn't this just a peaceful time?
And they've gone crazy with me that I've done something to Ellen. I disagree. I think it's not so. I think she was bad to me, sorry to burst your bubble. It's the person who starts. I was talking about my feelings against what was done. I wasn't mean to Ellen! She was to me cuza my dad. What I said about being tortured and trapped is my right. I don't have to listen to you. You get mad at me for stupid little *beep* every day. Why isn't this just a peaceful time?
Goals and Owning Up
So, what's the goal? How many goals can you have? You can't keep me from being upset if you are mean to me for no reason. I thought it was to be appropriate in public. I have it together.
Those visions of Ellen, they're real. She didn't own up to this one. She's involved in an experiment on me, and it's not fun a lot of times because of unfortunate things like this keep happening.
Maybe, I can try and ignore it for now. I disagree with the nasty messages from her on how she views behavior and fun. Own up.
If you can't answer this civilized, maybe this isn't gonna work. I don't wanna be on a bad side, but I also wanna say this is pretty simple. It's what you're supposed to do, sort things out.
Ugh, why am I even dealing with this? There are better things in life to do, like everyone has a different job or skill. It's because they tapped in.
Those visions of Ellen, they're real. She didn't own up to this one. She's involved in an experiment on me, and it's not fun a lot of times because of unfortunate things like this keep happening.
Maybe, I can try and ignore it for now. I disagree with the nasty messages from her on how she views behavior and fun. Own up.
If you can't answer this civilized, maybe this isn't gonna work. I don't wanna be on a bad side, but I also wanna say this is pretty simple. It's what you're supposed to do, sort things out.
Ugh, why am I even dealing with this? There are better things in life to do, like everyone has a different job or skill. It's because they tapped in.
I know what you do.
I know what you do. You put down people who are too big in some way, either fat or tall and fat it seems, and then you shove them into me like that's appropriate behavior, but it's like a r***. The adults listen to you and try to attack me cuz you told them I didn't accept them but am nicer to them than you. They think it's only fair. Looks like they're just worhtless now and gonna "rot in 'Hell.'" Unless, you don't believe in Jesus. Yea, what would Jesus do? Ask Bella Thorne or Ellen DeGeneres about Bella Thorne. No hard feelings on Bella, tho. Just ask, tho. Or ask other teens like her, upstanding people unlike some others. You ask me about Jesus and Hell and Purgatory.
Lost in a Setting
Ever have your parents tell you to do something that makes you not even *beep* to others? Do you ever despise their worth as a parent biologically? Like, you can feel both sides, and there's something wrong with 1? It makes my life simple, worthless, and used. Just look!
Yea, right, Tim!
Tim Burton
I don't need to be called an invalid personality because of you!
Don't get me wrong. I still like him for what he's worth, his kindness and hard working talent. I just know that he thinks I should be mistreated for my race. I don't really believe it's a good idea to destroy the flow of life.
I bet he did it to **** up to my dad. That makes me even more mad cuz I know that even Johnny Depp does that!
See, Tim and Johnny can't seem to click, anymore. *It's not for them, it's for the kids* They are selfish aha ha ha! Just joking @. Don't know what else to say.
Isn't it really Johnny Depp's fault? His fans are so rude, stuck up.
I don't need to be called an invalid personality because of you!
Don't get me wrong. I still like him for what he's worth, his kindness and hard working talent. I just know that he thinks I should be mistreated for my race. I don't really believe it's a good idea to destroy the flow of life.
I bet he did it to **** up to my dad. That makes me even more mad cuz I know that even Johnny Depp does that!
See, Tim and Johnny can't seem to click, anymore. *It's not for them, it's for the kids* They are selfish aha ha ha! Just joking @. Don't know what else to say.
Isn't it really Johnny Depp's fault? His fans are so rude, stuck up.
Undeserving in Public
What of the statement against me that I took the whole world and didn't deserve it or am a thing of the past when I didn't ask to be a thing? Ellen? So what?
Violent
I can't believe I have the TV star Bella Thorne in my life cuz she's so intimidating. In "Shake It Up" on TV she was either told to be mean or is just more forward. She is weird acting like the only thing for her is to show off and acting condescending about if people give her attention. It seems like with me it's a phobia of hers. That's okay. She just needs a mommy sometimes and not someone like me cuz I'm 10 years older. I like women 10 years or so older than me, tho, like mommies. I wonder if there's more to come. I just don't like feeling like I'm in trouble.
Just don't want me in the picture sometimes..
..well, that makes sense for Bella. It makes sense in general.
Ellen + Bella
Ellen acts like for Bella, "There, that wasn't so bad," against me and it's bad and *beep* for me.
Pretty Serious
It's pretty serious to Bella Thorne this whole relationship thing. I forget what I was gonna say.
I see 3 people on Tweeter..
Bella Thorne
Chloe Grace Moretz
Jackie Evancho
all talking in low, "deep" chosen voices to act like they're there for you but they just want all the attention after you give them your trust on whatever they just proposed
Chloe Grace Moretz
Jackie Evancho
all talking in low, "deep" chosen voices to act like they're there for you but they just want all the attention after you give them your trust on whatever they just proposed
Ellen
I wish I never watched her! I wouldn't be in trouble. I'd been harassed by my dad and talking to my Gramma every night before watching her. I stopped calling my Gramma on my birthday cuz I was tired of it.
1 reason I stayed away from her was not to get in trouble. Now, look! My life certainly is not trouble-proof. So, hey, what's the big deal?
She never said she'd hurt people if I don't stop. She didn't clearly say anything else at all. I mean, it was my blog. It was actually marked for mature readers. I was just mad. I see not only can you not trust me, but I can't trust anyone else.
No one *beep* gave me any advice to lighten the blow of Ellen! I was trapped in the dark, felt the cold shoulder, some things people go by for weird reasons that don't make sense rather than just because. Most people have a support system where they are. No one even reads my blog that I know.. but they would if I got it before! Perhaps, if more people talked to me or read my blog online this wouldn't have ever happened. I can get mad if someone attacks me!
1 reason I stayed away from her was not to get in trouble. Now, look! My life certainly is not trouble-proof. So, hey, what's the big deal?
She never said she'd hurt people if I don't stop. She didn't clearly say anything else at all. I mean, it was my blog. It was actually marked for mature readers. I was just mad. I see not only can you not trust me, but I can't trust anyone else.
No one *beep* gave me any advice to lighten the blow of Ellen! I was trapped in the dark, felt the cold shoulder, some things people go by for weird reasons that don't make sense rather than just because. Most people have a support system where they are. No one even reads my blog that I know.. but they would if I got it before! Perhaps, if more people talked to me or read my blog online this wouldn't have ever happened. I can get mad if someone attacks me!
Ellen
Doesn't she seem to look hollow? Also, do you find her a settling person? I like when she smiles at her audience. However, like, right now, I shouldn't feel like I'm in trouble cuza her.
Don't Mind
If whiter Asians ignore me because I'm mostly Southeast Asian.
That does not mean I want Ellen DeGeneres to ensure that that's unnaturally so. She does stuff sometimes via people experimenting on me, see.
I hope the more Indochinese are okay.
That does not mean I want Ellen DeGeneres to ensure that that's unnaturally so. She does stuff sometimes via people experimenting on me, see.
I hope the more Indochinese are okay.
Carelessness
I also found they are careless, like if I mean something specific, they think of something big that's related. And, yes, these are raw thoughts.
I figured it out.
Ellen will keep trying to punish just me and not others, but she won't admit it. I found watching Bella Thorne on Shake It Up on TV that she knows Ellen won't punish her for anything she punishes me for partially using the excuse she is younger and therefore cuter.
No!
People are mean to me now and are acting like I did something and Bella gets it all and doesn't get in made up trouble.
Tuesday, July 28, 2015
Question
Why do you want Bella to bump me outta this life? ..I forget. I just know that no one else is getting bumped out. I'm not bad.
Unaware
Ellen does not seem to know what she's doing to people by making Bella seem like she's more important. It apparently isn't just .. I forget! She just does that to annoy me and acts like she has to do it. No, I do not accept it. This is ridiculous. I didn't do anything wrong, neither, just cursed at something that was appropriate to curse at. She thinks she's the best person in the world cuza what her Mama does. Ah ha ha. I don't mean to attack her, but this is true and funny. I didn't dis her.
Problem
My new obsession. But you already know that if you have been tuning into my snapchats @nexboard https://t.co/UhHoqlIeLq— bella thorne (@bellathorne) July 29, 2015 She keeps *beep*ing just me off.She thinks her weight means she's better, but honestly every dummy knows that it was a big thing that came out admitted as true that Hollywood people get it easy to get thin, while we support their energy and we get fat.
Then she complains to "icons" I like that are appropriate for me and acts like "this is the situation, do it to me. But whoever you do it to, don't let it be Christina." I don't care what's going on with Ellen. She sure is acting up for saying every action from a person counts. For someone who sponsors you, you sure don't go thru what I had to. Don't compare yourself to the world and say you need more than everyone else. She's just racially/ethnically insecure because she's "biracial" or multiethnic or colored. We don't need to put up with this. I did say it was cool with me that she gets some attention over me.
She's just sad they wired in I did not respond to/bow to her Tweet of someone. She wants to say I can only like one person. That's a flawed belief of Ellen. Notice she only does it to Portia?
I am the kind of person to be into some of these things. Ellen overrid it for Bella. She did it with an evil heart. Life is not in fact about only talking to one person. She's all innocent and special and her only punishment is when she does what everyone else does. I wanted to be special, and instead it went to her! Stealing my ideas, are we? I mean, that's fine if she's special, but what's this attitude? I don't care if Ellen said it was all for you. I don't think she did, tho. Bella is so funny acting all forlorn with her millions as a child star thinking that no one else deserves anything cuz they couldn't get as skinny. She probably does not eat enough, but I hope she eats right.
I am not 100% sure what's going on with Ellen ruining my life, but if she didn't I'm sorry I misrepresented you, tho I believe I am factually correct. You can pay attention of course to whoever you want. I see you all tho think it part of your life to hate on me and think you can punish me.
I am not mad at Bella, really, and as for others I think they're just messed up, honestly, and people blame it on me or doing things for me.. tho they don't do that when it's for Bella.
This is one of those "bottled up" groups of feelings. They just come out. They seem perfect but are not right.
Also, Bella is being too nice but can do it in positive ways.. I just find the public opinion and that of those who mess with me to be funny.
I did just say last night I am so happy someone as talented as Bella gets good things. I'm just mad at all the people who dis me at the expense of her.
I admit I don't do much for her and am glad someone does. I do know outside of just Bella that people .. I forget.
It's just so funny. I am not saying this to be mean but more to be funny.
Bella is able to be too nice, but I'm poor and can't seem to be much. Sometimes, we find controversies and it's cuza Ellen. I just feel so many people are mad at me for no reason, like when bad words come up. I don't want them to. They are all hypnotized under the belief they are okay to be wrong to me and replace me with Bella, all that I worked up towards in my life, sadly isn't it with Bella, neither. I want to know more about this. You can't wish just 1 person away for no reason. She doesn't do it to everyone else.
Why?
Why is Ellen in my business like this? Why is all the things I deserve for Bella Thorne cuza her?
She put noises in my room and I cursed about it. So what? Lotta people do that to other things, and they matter, too, and you can't say who matters and who doesn't just like that. She did something to me. I didn't start anything with her. I can do whatever I want. I didn't break the law. I didn't want to curse at her, tho. I know Ellen is a game for you "losers" who are so mean. Like, ooh, what did you do when you watched or were on the show? I wonder.. she's not mean like that to anyone else, keep telling them they are wrong. What's the point if you can get in trouble when you are right?
She put noises in my room and I cursed about it. So what? Lotta people do that to other things, and they matter, too, and you can't say who matters and who doesn't just like that. She did something to me. I didn't start anything with her. I can do whatever I want. I didn't break the law. I didn't want to curse at her, tho. I know Ellen is a game for you "losers" who are so mean. Like, ooh, what did you do when you watched or were on the show? I wonder.. she's not mean like that to anyone else, keep telling them they are wrong. What's the point if you can get in trouble when you are right?
The South
Why do you look up to and accept what Ellen does but not me concerning the South? I mean accomplishments.
Bella Thorne
If Bella Thorne is supposed to have what I earned, that's wrong.
If she can be bad cuz she doesn't have what I have, that's wrong because no one else does.
If she can be bad cuz she doesn't have what I have, that's wrong because no one else does.
A Laughing Stock
Ellen and her *** ways. Can you guess what that is? She seems like she's wallowing in a low dirty grumble turning people on in tacky ways. Ring a bell? There are just some things, even in good people, we care to avoid.
An Influence
Ellen or her mom to her.. something Ellen does wants to be stimulated and she seems to be so in "inappropriate" and questionable ways. She is acting jealous and ruining other people if they don't do it already. A ha ha ha.
I hope this is not offensive. I'm just dishing out the facts, not being sarcastic.
I can see the shine in her eyes when she meets someone younger and wants to feel them up and m***** them cuz she's ***. I know people worked with Drew Barrymore, 2 younger girls, Chloe Grace Moretz and Bella Thorne.. and they came out in trouble with how they were acting or something. They were "changed."
It did get a bit crazy when I started committing myself to Ellen. It was perverted with Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, too, the way we spread our legs and h*** for them or think about how they feel about their fame.
I hope this is not offensive. I'm just dishing out the facts, not being sarcastic.
I can see the shine in her eyes when she meets someone younger and wants to feel them up and m***** them cuz she's ***. I know people worked with Drew Barrymore, 2 younger girls, Chloe Grace Moretz and Bella Thorne.. and they came out in trouble with how they were acting or something. They were "changed."
It did get a bit crazy when I started committing myself to Ellen. It was perverted with Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, too, the way we spread our legs and h*** for them or think about how they feel about their fame.
Plan
taking film acting now + going to Disney
while applying to college, hoping to make it in a film otherwise - college for singing and ballet
while applying to college, hoping to make it in a film otherwise - college for singing and ballet
In the Wrong
What do you think about acting like a loon towards me day in and day out when I'm trying to live my personal life.. that someone prestigious is telling them what to say and it's mean. No one cares, and I know it was for Ellen that people do it. I don't exactly "Let It Go."
Clearly, some people weren't thinking in my shoes. So what about curse/"bad" words? They just came up in my head. Other things do with others, as well. I think something sparked a recent onset of anger. I can't relax in my own home.
Why do I have to give in to anything, like my weight, just because of something I did that mustn't be that bad. Sneaking around, offsetting my lifestyle.
Is it the Ellen thing to do to say I'm in trouble without proper explanation and denying that of yourself cuz I haven't exactly blasted some of you thru the roof.
Look, no hard feelings from me to anyone, yet I feel in some battle with others and others who did things radically I wouldn't expect before. I'm not bad. People are mean to me. I don't mean anything bad.
Come on, aren't you genuinely down-to-earth? I didn't pose as the danger. It's like everyone went crazy since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005.)
Again, sorry if this comes thru as something bad.
Clearly, some people weren't thinking in my shoes. So what about curse/"bad" words? They just came up in my head. Other things do with others, as well. I think something sparked a recent onset of anger. I can't relax in my own home.
Why do I have to give in to anything, like my weight, just because of something I did that mustn't be that bad. Sneaking around, offsetting my lifestyle.
Is it the Ellen thing to do to say I'm in trouble without proper explanation and denying that of yourself cuz I haven't exactly blasted some of you thru the roof.
Look, no hard feelings from me to anyone, yet I feel in some battle with others and others who did things radically I wouldn't expect before. I'm not bad. People are mean to me. I don't mean anything bad.
Come on, aren't you genuinely down-to-earth? I didn't pose as the danger. It's like everyone went crazy since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005.)
Again, sorry if this comes thru as something bad.
Look, I don't care for these people being mean I know cuz
I don't agree with the part of my dad's opinion as a wish for me to be in trouble with "all the cool people."
Pathetic
I don't know about anyone else, but I don't need my dad telling me like I'm some puny little thing, "Y-yer punished." Also, why does Ellen think this is some big thing where she do the wrong thing and mess with my extended family and make it all the drama? Ellen? It was so tacky. What? I never said she should meet members of me extended family if no one wanted to, but I mean why wouldn't they? My dad just has a grudge on me cuz I said, "Oh no," when he came home from work cuz I was still doing my homework tho he did not even care to ask why.. yet he looks up to his bitchy parents.
Bella in an Experiment Connecting to Others.. Which Entails with Me
Can you believe they told Bella Thorne to be mean to me in the experiment. When she thought I was okay, they were so inappropriate and bad they said, "I guess Bella doesn't/didn't get it." There's no excuse. She's not "gonna be mean to me," anyway. If she were, it doesn't sound like it'd be bad for anyone but her. I didn't used to live like this. Are you trying to belittle me talking?
Let's be honest and talk.
I'm watching Shake It Up with Bella Thorne. This other actress is from the South and was nice, but Bella was upset that someone else get attention. The other actress was being considerate to others or the viewer. Bella seemed very upset. I wonder if she's in an experiment, too. She didn't wanna be friends with this other cool actress because they were nice to others.
Other Plan
Go to Hollywood ASAP, take film acting classes, possibly after my Disney pass runs out.
College sounds best, don't really wanna leave home, tho.
College sounds best, don't really wanna leave home, tho.
Plans
I wonder if I should try college + Disney this semester and college + ballet the next.
It seems busy, but I'd like to enter Loyola at a higher level of ballet. Should I finish off the 2nd half of my Disney pass? It's fun to hang around and take the bus.
The college is to prove I can do it away from home for a note from my psychiatrist, and financial aid says you have to take 2 general studies courses.
It seems busy, but I'd like to enter Loyola at a higher level of ballet. Should I finish off the 2nd half of my Disney pass? It's fun to hang around and take the bus.
The college is to prove I can do it away from home for a note from my psychiatrist, and financial aid says you have to take 2 general studies courses.
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