Wednesday, July 29, 2015

Funny

It seems like colored Europeans go crazy all up in the way of White Asians.

Um, question.

Look at this.

link

Hollywood

Is there anything wrong even just with being interested in watching Hollywood?

Look!

Don't make out people so negatively.

Honestly, tho..

.. why would you be against it, then?

Goodness!

My bad.  Something happened, but they do wanna know her.

Well, then..

THEN WHY DID YA'LL ASK?!!

Why don't you meet her?

Now, whoever you are that she wants so much?  She's ready at the moment.

No!

People are mean to me now and are acting like I did something and Bella gets it all and doesn't get in made up trouble.

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Question

Why do you want Bella to bump me outta this life?  ..I forget.  I just know that no one else is getting bumped out.  I'm not bad.

Unaware

Ellen does not seem to know what she's doing to people by making Bella seem like she's more important.  It apparently isn't just .. I forget!  She just does that to annoy me and acts like she has to do it.  No, I do not accept it.  This is ridiculous.  I didn't do anything wrong, neither, just cursed at something that was appropriate to curse at.  She thinks she's the best person in the world cuza what her Mama does.  Ah ha ha.  I don't mean to attack her, but this is true and funny.  I didn't dis her.

Problem

She keeps *beep*ing just me off.

She thinks her weight means she's better, but honestly every dummy knows that it was a big thing that came out admitted as true that Hollywood people get it easy to get thin, while we support their energy and we get fat.

Then she complains to "icons" I like that are appropriate for me and acts like "this is the situation, do it to me.  But whoever you do it to, don't let it be Christina."  I don't care what's going on with Ellen.  She sure is acting up for saying every action from a person counts.  For someone who sponsors you, you sure don't go thru what I had to.  Don't compare yourself to the world and say you need more than everyone else.  She's just racially/ethnically insecure because she's "biracial" or multiethnic or colored.  We don't need to put up with this.  I did say it was cool with me that she gets some attention over me.

She's just sad they wired in I did not respond to/bow to her Tweet of someone.  She wants to say I can only like one person.  That's a flawed belief of Ellen.  Notice she only does it to Portia?

I am the kind of person to be into some of these things.  Ellen overrid it for Bella.  She did it with an evil heart.  Life is not in fact about only talking to one person.  She's all innocent and special and her only punishment is when she does what everyone else does.  I wanted to be special, and instead it went to her!  Stealing my ideas, are we?  I mean, that's fine if she's special, but what's this attitude?  I don't care if Ellen said it was all for you.  I don't think she did, tho.  Bella is so funny acting all forlorn with her millions as a child star thinking that no one else deserves anything cuz they couldn't get as skinny.  She probably does not eat enough, but I hope she eats right.

I am not 100% sure what's going on with Ellen ruining my life, but if she didn't I'm sorry I misrepresented you, tho I believe I am factually correct.  You can pay attention of course to whoever you want.  I see you all tho think it part of your life to hate on me and think you can punish me.

I am not mad at Bella, really, and as for others I think they're just messed up, honestly, and people blame it on me or doing things for me.. tho they don't do that when it's for Bella.

This is one of those "bottled up" groups of feelings.  They just come out.  They seem perfect but are not right.

Also, Bella is being too nice but can do it in positive ways..  I just find the public opinion and that of those who mess with me to be funny.

I did just say last night I am so happy someone as talented as Bella gets good things.  I'm just mad at all the people who dis me at the expense of her.

I admit I don't do much for her and am glad someone does.  I do know outside of just Bella that people .. I forget.

It's just so funny.  I am not saying this to be mean but more to be funny.

Bella is able to be too nice, but I'm poor and can't seem to be much.  Sometimes, we find controversies and it's cuza Ellen.  I just feel so many people are mad at me for no reason, like when bad words come up.  I don't want them to.  They are all hypnotized under the belief they are okay to be wrong to me and replace me with Bella, all that I worked up towards in my life, sadly isn't it with Bella, neither.  I want to know more about this.  You can't wish just 1 person away for no reason.  She doesn't do it to everyone else.

Why?

Why is Ellen in my business like this?  Why is all the things I deserve for Bella Thorne cuza her?

She put noises in my room and I cursed about it.  So what?  Lotta people do that to other things, and they matter, too, and you can't say who matters and who doesn't just like that.  She did something to me.  I didn't start anything with her.  I can do whatever I want.  I didn't break the law.  I didn't want to curse at her, tho.  I know Ellen is a game for you "losers" who are so mean.  Like, ooh, what did you do when you watched or were on the show?  I wonder.. she's not mean like that to anyone else, keep telling them they are wrong.  What's the point if you can get in trouble when you are right?

The South

Why do you look up to and accept what Ellen does but not me concerning the South?  I mean accomplishments.

Bella Thorne

If Bella Thorne is supposed to have what I earned, that's wrong.

If she can be bad cuz she doesn't have what I have, that's wrong because no one else does.

A Laughing Stock

Ellen and her *** ways.  Can you guess what that is?  She seems like she's wallowing in a low dirty grumble turning people on in tacky ways.  Ring a bell?  There are just some things, even in good people, we care to avoid.

An Influence

Ellen or her mom to her.. something Ellen does wants to be stimulated and she seems to be so in "inappropriate" and questionable ways.  She is acting jealous and ruining other people if they don't do it already.  A ha ha ha.

I hope this is not offensive.  I'm just dishing out the facts, not being sarcastic.

I can see the shine in her eyes when she meets someone younger and wants to feel them up and m***** them cuz she's ***.  I know people worked with Drew Barrymore, 2 younger girls, Chloe Grace Moretz and Bella Thorne.. and they came out in trouble with how they were acting or something.  They were "changed."

It did get a bit crazy when I started committing myself to Ellen.  It was perverted with Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, too, the way we spread our legs and h*** for them or think about how they feel about their fame.

Plan

taking film acting now + going to Disney

while applying to college, hoping to make it in a film otherwise - college for singing and ballet

In the Wrong

What do you think about acting like a loon towards me day in and day out when I'm trying to live my personal life.. that someone prestigious is telling them what to say and it's mean.  No one cares, and I know it was for Ellen that people do it.  I don't exactly "Let It Go."

Clearly, some people weren't thinking in my shoes.  So what about curse/"bad" words?  They just came up in my head.  Other things do with others, as well.  I think something sparked a recent onset of anger.  I can't relax in my own home.

Why do I have to give in to anything, like my weight, just because of something I did that mustn't be that bad.  Sneaking around, offsetting my lifestyle.

Is it the Ellen thing to do to say I'm in trouble without proper explanation and denying that of yourself cuz I haven't exactly blasted some of you thru the roof.

Look, no hard feelings from me to anyone, yet I feel in some battle with others and others who did things radically I wouldn't expect before.  I'm not bad.  People are mean to me.  I don't mean anything bad.

Come on, aren't you genuinely down-to-earth?  I didn't pose as the danger.  It's like everyone went crazy since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005.)

Again, sorry if this comes thru as something bad.

Look, I don't care for these people being mean I know cuz

I don't agree with the part of my dad's opinion as a wish for me to be in trouble with "all the cool people."

Pathetic

I don't know about anyone else, but I don't need my dad telling me like I'm some puny little thing, "Y-yer punished."  Also, why does Ellen think this is some big thing where she do the wrong thing and mess with my extended family and make it all the drama?  Ellen?  It was so tacky.  What?  I never said she should meet members of me extended family if no one wanted to, but I mean why wouldn't they?  My dad just has a grudge on me cuz I said, "Oh no," when he came home from work cuz I was still doing my homework tho he did not even care to ask why.. yet he looks up to his bitchy parents.

Bella in an Experiment Connecting to Others.. Which Entails with Me

Can you believe they told Bella Thorne to be mean to me in the experiment.  When she thought I was okay, they were so inappropriate and bad they said, "I guess Bella doesn't/didn't get it."  There's no excuse.  She's not "gonna be mean to me," anyway.  If she were, it doesn't sound like it'd be bad for anyone but her.  I didn't used to live like this.  Are you trying to belittle me talking?

Let's be honest and talk.

I'm watching Shake It Up with Bella Thorne.  This other actress is from the South and was nice, but Bella was upset that someone else get attention.  The other actress was being considerate to others or the viewer. Bella seemed very upset.  I wonder if she's in an experiment, too.  She didn't wanna be friends with this other cool actress because they were nice to others.

cont.

They were in creamy sauce and spices, like 10 of them.

TV

They made a plate of p******s of male ducks.

Other Plan

Go to Hollywood ASAP, take film acting classes, possibly after my Disney pass runs out.

College sounds best, don't really wanna leave home, tho.

Plans

I wonder if I should try college + Disney this semester and college + ballet the next.

It seems busy, but I'd like to enter Loyola at a higher level of ballet.  Should I finish off the 2nd half of my Disney pass?  It's fun to hang around and take the bus.

The college is to prove I can do it away from home for a note from my psychiatrist, and financial aid says you have to take 2 general studies courses.

Monday, July 27, 2015

I can only be happy..

..such a talented girl accepted in the world.

What about me?  Other people are accepted, even my old best friends who were sometimes mean to me.  Well, they aren't worse than anybody else!  I'm not necessarily much of an attention getter, but I am hyper at home.  I'm a hopper!

Making No Point

It's amazing how people trash themselves to make a stupid point.

I need to make a decision.

I'm 30.

That's why I haven't gotten anywhere and don't got much.  I took time to develop.

College?  Film acting school in Orlando?

College = Singing + Ballet - Away from family but where we used to live

I thought I could graduate in 2 or 3 years.  I just need to go to college here before and take ballet at home again 1st.

I remember.

Why take someone when they are relaxing to get up to fight me off my personal goals?

If I listen to this..

..something.. then, everything goes wrong.

Owe

You would already owe me.  I am pretty nice.  I don't deserve to be stopped.  Do you need me to go back to disinfecting random toilet seats I use?

I see..

..people identify Bella Thorne's dominant personalities.  It's a bit silly if someone is supposedly happier.. I'm forgetting cuz I'm agitated like that but not trembling like a dude.. a bit silly.. and I guess act like they need to be happier when the original idea is that they deserve attention because of the point of it being good to already be self-happy.  It's just interesting and probably helpful to understand.

LOL

It's interesting and funny that Bella Thorne thinks something is up, like we're all cool and she comes up like, "Okay, people."  Yeesh.

Ellen is just as silly to be like encompassing of others's personalities.  She'll say she's cool, but she's not.  Just "watch" her and not "listen."

cont. from 2 posts ago

I see I delved into another topic.

Guilty!

I noticed people stop their thoughts and like m********* after they think I "did something."  I didn't!

Does anyone want to explain what happened in this picture?

There's no "if."
Okay, I'll say it.  She has publicly posted online that she wants to be the only person to enjoy these pleasures.  She's still a baby that needs to be nursed, but we don't know what's going on.

These people are sad following me around with my thoughts to insult and hurt me.

Funny

So, Ellen thinks everyone is anticipating her every move, but since that move can mean I'm in trouble.. no one with that in store has something I'm anticipating.  Whoops!  Now what?  They were depending on the public interest.  I hope I'm not in some kinda trouble for this.  I just said Ellen thinks people are anticipating her next move, but if anyone has it in for me I'm in trouble I'm not interested.. not necessarily that I said her that Ellen would think that.  Why would you want me in trouble?  Maybe, I had too much Ellen and not enough time with many real people.  So, either I watch her or I don't do much.  You know, being experimented on, it makes me less productive.  So, I mentioned Ellen cuz I have some weird fantasy that she likes me in trouble.  I already figured that the facts don't figure.. like that she can be more aggressive and no one else in the world can.  I know I uncovered a rare find something like that things we can't do she does anyway, like how we act.  I wanted to get away from the torturous noises.  That's one reason to get out, not just that I shouldn't just be sitting here depending on watching Ellen.  I mean, I like it in my room, too.

So, it's funny when people anticipate some popular or famous person's every move, but suddenly it's too much not helping but making someone seem in trouble.. and suddenly that person doesn't anticipate anything with people.

Lazy White People

It's funny people who are all white are lazy and condone hard working socializers.

My College's Ballet


Loyola Ballet Spring Concert from Loyola University on Vimeo.
The Loyola Ballet's spring concert included excerpts from classical ballets, including The Sleeping Beauty and Swan Lake as well as contemporary works showcasing Loyola alumni and faculty. The Loyola Ballet is directed by Laura Zambrano.

My College's Dance Team

When Mean People Judge You

I am so good all the time, if something happens once I see the *beep* in others saying their frank disapproval of me.

My Blood Sugar Level

254

Diabetes Control Chart

(link)

Well

I found the perfect dance school opportunity for me.  It is contemporary for people in their 20s and 30s.

Sunday, July 26, 2015

Tweeter

new template

E-lim-i-na - tion!

I don't like how suddenly I am eliminated from life and any active competition.  It's like I made some mistake, and people are racist.  However, everyone else's good spirit is still winning as ever.

Bella Thorne

I like her a lot, but I feel a turn off to me from others every time I encounter a certain sensation with her, not saying anything offensive.  It's my race and that I didn't dance enough.

New Favorite Picture!

IMDb

Winning for the Greater Good

Not sure why there's a #1.  But is it done.. I forget.. for a reason?  Like, why can't everyone who likes someone really likable be involved?  I think I'm off the hook for Ellen DeGeneres has also resembled Bella Thorne.. which I like them both.  It's enough to confuse anyone!  I mean, if you're only in for part of this for whatever reason, Bella earned a lot on her plate!

Twitter

If I made a face like this would I get more attention?

link

If so, I would say nah I don't want [those] woman lips.  I guess I wouldn't need attention.

It worries me cuz once I felt affected on my lips after my oldest aunt posted something.  I was upset and thought something.  I hope it couldn't catch on but see it could.

Isn't Ellen funny?

She thinks Entourage was the most exciting thing this summer, at the beginning of the summer.  It's for people to jump on the band wagon I heard.  Her thoughts are obvious, I guess, and she has to go in and find something else to surprise us.  It's funny someone says something and it usually seems cloaked in some mystery, but not really.  I wonder if they knew what they were thinking.

Mean Statements

You people just wanna make a statement but have nothing good to say.. saying I'm ugly and an infraction to others.  How do you think that is true?  Where are your pictures?  Don't you know that some people are fed positive energy and others aren't?  I'm on pills I didn't need and it makes me tired to get dressed up multiple times a day if at all.  I'm more concerned about my health, like getting tired.  I can't sleep in contacts.  I wanna dress up, but I don't so much.  Why the pills?  Is that there to "stimulate" me?  It looks like it's harder to function like this.  I used not to use makeup.  F.Y.I. my mom stopped doing/helping me with laundry when I thought someone online wanted me to call them the N word.  I used to spend a lotta time on homework so didn't do my laundry.  I wanted to but not sure when I did any of what.

Are movies a good idea?

It seemed to wear out the old guy in Harry Potter, but what about younger people?

Is this right?

It seems like they use good ideas from me to say forget me and use the good ideas on Bella Thorne?

Ugly

Why do people think Bella Thorne is so pretty yet say I'm "ugly without makeup?"  It wasn't like that before!!

How We're Treated

So, I just get watched but treated badly, even all the time by my parents? and Bella doesn't know if she's watched in private as she goes about each day but gets treated with respect?

About "getting" "relationships."  It seems no one gets those things.

Anyway, I might get as much as Bella, but the message also says that.. I forget.. pretty much I'm quarantined, that's a big thing.  I keep hearing that I've done something wrong when I haven't.  If Ellen read my blog and got the annoying noises in my room.. she should have done something if she really cared, like if she wanted me to stop.  She just waited until I stopped to make it clear they were out to get me.  I should have known?  What they did ruined my life and was a physical, illegal thing to do.  I don't mind if someone has seen me in my room in private completely if they weren't mean to me, depending on what it was.  It did happen before without as much negativity, but it was like a trap of distraction.  They led me off track so they could have something to use as blame for me.

Ellen sometimes films people without knowing.  I don't know if they like it.  Most people can't afford to stay in shape or get nice clothes.

I am watching TV, and it's all positive.  Most people in Orlando seem overly set, but my dad seems concerned about negative things.

Being That Good

Why when I'm considered good someone else good comes up and suddenly I'm not that good.

Funny

Isn't Ellen weird?  She sways her head and agrees with the peanut gallery.  No offense.

Not Using the Restroom

• You don't wanna use it in public.
• You're busy and don't feel like it.
• You're too tired to do it again or are about to fall asleep.

Really Rebellious

When Emma Watson thought I'd like something and others, they were mad like this isn't for them.

Competition

If you wanna be fit, you gotta dance.

Why do people hate me now?

You have to dance right away to be ahead in the contest of life!

Prayer for Dr. Phil

I heard he was slowing..

Hm..

Hm..

Edit

A post I edited last night I used 3 words, by themselves more okay, otherwise together for some reason not.

No Hard Feelings?

Apparently, you all made some.  I'm a pretty nice person!!!

You think you got something on me?

I had a hard life moving to Orlando.  This is not your chance to prove whatever you do wrong is okay because "I did something wrong."  I didn't!  It was an accident or something!

Ellen

likes the Hermione Granger in the Harry Potter movie.  She is as said "an insufferable know-it-all."  They are both snide saying they hold an attractive place in society over others, with a snoot of their nose.  No hard feelings.  I am noticing what Ellen sees in this.

Coincidential

that the guy playing in Harry Potter as Albus Dumbledore died.  It must mean fame takes its toll, along with its assets.

Ellen in Love

She identifies with Emma Watson, who played Hermione Granger in Harry Potter.  I know they are both part French and English.  Emma is a nice Brit to talk to, but she has that attitude, not to be mean.  I'll say it's kinda cute.  Still.  It's funny when you think about it.  Ellen always looks for weird things that other people don't get rather than just taking "the road less taken."

Argumentative

You keep saying me arguing about the product of my life is being defiant and "saying something."  You're not supposed to do that.

Harry Potter

One of them are on.

I always grew up submissing that you have to listen to authority.  I know the law is there for the greater good sometimes, tho, like when it comes to not hurting people.  That also exists in religion.

Ruining It

Why are you all ruining it for me?  No one is brave enough to not dislike me.  Why are you twisting "what" happens away from my advantage and to yours?

You can't run away.

You can't be mean to me just to be safe.  That's pathetic.  Who is doing this?  I'm not pointing fingers.  I don't want one of my favorite people to be the one against me all the time!  NO I don't want anyone to be that I know of, in general..  So, is the "reign" of Ellen DeGeneres producing results like this?  I am nice to Ellen, tho she acted like she put annoying noises up in my room which were hurting me and made me curse.  What kind of a trap is that?  I am a good person.  You can't throw me away cuza my race, too!  I don't wanna end up warded off life.

Disclaimer:  What did I say wrong?!  That's not something you're supposed to be doing.

I didn't do anything wrong?  What's everyone's problem?

Prison Show

I am watching TV showing the inside of a prison.

They are very polite, whereas the people on Dr. Phil seem extremely uppity and stubborn.  It stands out, like they're meaner.

Friends of Friends

Why are people looking over my shoulder to discover someone who treats me like *beep*?  I'm not saying that's entirely true for everyone in every way.  Ehehehehehehahahahaha!  I don't know if anyone takes my claim as insulting.  I don't mean for that.  In funny ways, people go thru the motions but may not think they're doing it?  For some, it's more serious in certain ways.

Not Sure What Went Wrong Here

I had to edit a post: link.  The combination of the words I expressed were wrong.

Saturday, July 25, 2015

Tonight

I swerved off into things!  So.. not sure what could have happened otherwise.

"Ticked Off"

When the hell did people start getting ticked?  Now, they do it and say they didn't mean it and do it more.

1 word.  early-mid-2005.

They knew Charlie and the Chocolate Factory was coming up.  If they're the ostrich, they need to pick their head out of the sand.  Come on, that's not the sort of thing you ever supported in anyone.

People think..

..well, my dad.. that I should feel like I'm stupid and Bella is amazing.  Not sure what has gotten into the beast sometimes.

I know for a fact

Ellen is upset if I don't like Bella being bossily reprimanding of what I like to do.  That's too bad..  It's too much for me to handle thinking at once now, but I don't wanna upset her.

I'm a grown up now!

They don't agree with my stance, they buzz me!  (Not literally.)

Did you get someone..

..to abandon me directly?  Not only that but to jeopardize their own future?  Online is important and so is a working career.

Well, whoever did it or if it's the person themselves, too bad.

I thought you said you were cool..

What's not to like?  Someone gone off their rocker with a lost cause?  No understanding, and all that rearing?  For what?  To dis others?

Tall People Aren't Interested

in normal people.

What the *beep* do you live for?

(Again, I "speak" to the crowd..)

A Suggestion That Went thru My Brain

I thought, oh wow, I wonder if people can be special ones to others, like marriage or brotherhood.

I got this *beep* = hilarious answer.  I don't know how it came about.  It was probably just some leftover thought, really, but sorry if this was something special to anyone, tho it's sly and uncool.. it is funny, tho.  Listen to this..

"Oh, Christina.  Good idea.  (You think Bella should be considered the special one and not you at all.)"

Why *beep* not?

Disclaimer: I am not telling someone I know about that it's stupid or anything if they actually thought it and not someone else.  It seems like a sole thought that came about, even if someone thought it maybe.  If it were someone esteemed/famous/cool, then so be it.. I forget what I was gonna say and don't know how to say what I think because I don't know.  If you have a problem, you'll have to invite me to IM or chat on my forum or e-mail.

(Edited)

..cont.

They wanna be popular and aren't really special.  :|

Europeans bend over backwards for bad Americans/being bad..

That's what I uncovered.

What the *beep* is going on?

I never went out and said nor flat out thought if I liked someone to fight others off.

Is your dream to be the only one for them?  I don't think that's really want you were thinking.

You're not allowed to practice racism.

Be *** and practice the *** life.

I'm not actually going out and telling anyone what to do, and I want some peace while I sort or write this out.

Well, one thing I know is that people tell show-off's no who aren't interested in others..sometimes.  Maybe, they like more mature people.  "Popular" people.  A show off is not always popular.

You're Not Just a Failure

You may not wash your face at night, but most people seem not to have.

Bella seems to say everyone else is responsible for her problems, but no one else can feel that comfortable that their problems are not just their fault.  People only want Bella to, some people, maybe people who are living from a remote control.

Bella Thorne flat out was shaking her head and raising her eyebrows making me feel like *beep*! but no offense to Bella for whatever happened.

Young Females Ecstatic Over..

The Phantom of the Opera (the *popular* one..) is like a little scrawny boy fondling over his "age old" discovery over the existence of soup over other things..  You know how little kids today are.  I feel like a bad guy.  It's what kids do, but that's not exactly the manner of things in how my discovery of soup went.  I just don't think that the accumulation of my knowledge rests on things of that particular nature..

"Honesty"

Why is "honesty" all about only being sane in public if you are mostly/all racially white and therefore got "stuff" to offer?

More Consistent Jealousy

I don't know what changed from before, but I'm jealous that someone may not like me because someone else matches them better in certain ways.  I am not mad at the lucky person, tho.  I don't really think like you only meet one person and that's it.. that's stupid, unless you're gonna figure out what you're thinking.

Also, that other lucky person doesn't get teased all the time about being bad, and I am not bad, neither.  How stupid can you get?  (People always said I was good and not to change.  If you had a *beep* problem you had your chance to tell me what I *have to fix* for you.  ..They don't play like that.  If I do something I don't like, they just are mean to me, even if I wasn't really wrong.  They don't tell me what to do so I can avoid their wrath.  They're crazy.)

Edit: I don't mean anyone in particular is stupid.

Evidence

Howcome you find out if people are "hurt" and "hurt" them more, but others you want them to cry to you, somehow?

I don't personally go around and enjoy most people I meet to do things like pick me up nor "see me cry."

I must add that I am a bit jealous that others are considered on the good list.  It's almost as simple as that.

7/10

Edit: spoiler alert

link

cont.

It's funny when you realize even Americans act like they are from out-of-the-US.

Hey, guess what I noticed!

I noticed when someone with a parent from Europe their parent acts European, their kid does, too, but when my Asian mom acts like she's from out-of-the-US no one on that point cares about me.

Joke

My Gramma is obsessed with short hair and mine is short, but I thought she'd say, "Christina, your hair is just too short!  That is not a girl's hair!"  She said that to my aunt about her job.