February 11, 2015
Dear Dr. Phil Show,
I used to be incessantly called nothing but "shy, sweet, and smart."
My big question is why are like most of the people in the world so mean to me now when before I was "Miss Perfect" to everyone all the time? This has gone on since I was 20, nearing 10 years ago.
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Several things made me start feeling guilty from others:
• Age 7/+: Forgetting to Write: I forgot to write my little girl cousin in Indonesia until I was over 18.
• Age 11: Joking Around: I said as a friendly joke, "Oh, no," to my dad when he came home because I didn't finish my homework.
• Age 16: My Grades Dropping: I lost an A in 1 subject in high school and was distracted by counselors during other classes wherein my grades then dropped. I was hospitalized and temporarily given medicine for schizophrenia.
• Age 19: Kicked Out of My College Major: I was kicked out of my major in Music Education and singing lessons told I was too shy, at a prestigious school I chose to accept the scholarship from.
• Age 19-26: Flunked Out: Like flunked out with mostly medical withdrawals or was withdrawn from college 8 times. There were loud noises around me a lot of the time.
• Age 21+: Bullied Online: I was bullied online and punched a hole in my wall.
• Age 22: Store Cards: I used store cards my parents do not want to pay back using my allowance.
• Age 23: Online Fighting: I thought someone wanted me to call them the N word, and now the whole world knows.. It was Tim Burton's young daughter.
• Age 23: The Mental Hospital: I was called on 911 I think for throwing things but that didn't break and the police took me to the mental hospital for a month and another time for a month after being kicked outta school, when I had called the police while at my therapist with my parents after being kicked out. I was kicked out supposedly for strange reasons like using the bathroom during too many classes and seeming to fall behind.
• Age 25: Noises Put in My Room: When I started watching Ellen DeGeneres on TV, I thought she put noises in my room to bother me and I cursed a lot about it, without anyone indicating specifically "to stop or else." ..but now, she manipulates my life even more by like talking thru my parents and other people I see, giving opinionated messages about me. Other people do this, too.
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Other Useful Information:
• Age 23+: My Period: My female period is unusually light and I got a small tumor under/on my pituitary gland below the brain which caused me to lose my period while on a mental health medicine. The tumor stopped growing, tho, when I got off the medicine, tho my period is still unusually light and I feel more vacant.
• My Race: I am multiracial/biracial. My mom is Chinese-Indonesian, and my dad is white American but unsure if I am probably 1/32 or less Native American indian because the records burned down supposedly.
Thank you so much!
Sincerely,
Christina Barrett
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February 11, 2015
Dear Dr. Phil Show,
I am not like that exactly, but I am consumed with the internet and my problems, which you would describe as mental disorder. I spent a lot of time writing to Dr. Phil and posting purely about little Eurekas in the world of "mental disorder" or just hanging out online often onto things of this nature, problems in my life, where people keep acting like I'm bad and have mental issues. I have a default submission I like to submit to Dr. Phil: http://christinabarrett4.wix.com/drphil. You can check out my blog @ http://www.christinabarrett.com. It's mostly psychological Eurekas..
Thank you so much!
Sincerely,
Christina Barrett
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