Monday, December 15, 2014

Well

They are just plain mean, but that's what they are.  I don't like the way they said what was okay to say.

Friendly Update.. Really

So, see what they're up to now.  I'm singing and recording and typing between breaks.

They are still doing it.. which is up to them, looks tacky to me, tho..

Me thinks

twas just upset.. maybe just said once or twice..

Just a feeling reaction.  Wanted help not war.

Wonder Wonder Wonder

Why was I going on to complain so?  I stopped.  It's not something I keep up.  I say what's uncomfortable.  Dunno.  :(  It gets me thru my thoughts.

People

who spend life criticizing others

Some Things

better left unsaid

What It Might REALLY Be

Maybe, they want a backup person to pretend.

Getting Close

I'd be happy if I were friends with Bella Thorne, "but she doesn't have any."

Now, what?

Naptime, singtime.

So

Did you find me by looking at my blog?

Why be jealous of me??  I'm "always in trouble" no matter what I literally do.

I'm not here to joke around.

You think I was bad and got something, but you're just being a hissy fit kitty cat, reveling in the idea of being bad and uncovering who's good and cool at the same time.  Is that the name of that part of these games?  Wow, I k***ed someone and have to pay.  I didn't really.  You did something, you have to pay, if any of you did, right?

I am not wanted

thanks to my parents.

I wanted to make things better by complimenting someone on Twitter who's lucky to be well-liked.

he he he

The only people to be jealous of are Chris Mann's wife and Portia di Rossi.  We're all in the same boat.  What about being happy with yourself?  I think I will try to diet again sometime as much as before.  I did my work out.

And I am sorry if you read this and it makes you uncomfortable, but let's be pretty honest, eh?  That's the name of this game I see so far..  Why not be more exciting?  Portia is a scaredy cat.

What about

no one?  I am very alone..

It looks like

you're forcing me to get into people who don't care if I get into them like that.

I feel so bad.

My life is in limbo.

Otherwise, I just feel I don't know exactly how to say some things, so this is who I am.

You did show up another girl to me.  I didn't act mean to start.

For Songbirds

It's too late.  They've shown us off.  Have you tried to make it big or are you already with a CD out?

But no, we still might be up there but with issues with others on things like publicity/fame.  Can you sing a lot, like to perform concerts/shows?  I know I could have, and so can you.  That's something of a goal I have in taking singing.  There are a lotta interesting people, but most are office workers.  :p

WHAT IF I SAID NO

I don't want to talk to said person as much as you say I am.  It doesn't "mean" I can't talk to someone else I like.

IT IS MY RIGHT

Look at me wasting my time posting all this + filling out Word Captchas.  I have a right to talk.  It's not all for everyone/anyone to read.  Just wasting my time cuz you found out my race.

Problem

You can't teach my brother a lesson for something that's not his fault or we can come on you all inappropriate, too, which we wouldn't want to do.

Problem

Why don't you be quiet?  Why would I talk to you?  You're ruining my life.  You're just insulting me all the time.

Problem

They won't leave me alone!!  I got a message that bothered me.  It's another thing that doesn't make sense.

Problem

I'm sorry, but are you gonna quit the nasty messages via Word Captcha?

Problem

Quit taking my time.

They want to pair me with people who people don't like for real reasons and another girl with everyone who comes my way.  I am sorry for the people being left out, but I didn't live for your tackiness and reveling in stupid things.

You all are mean.

You pretend you aren't.  Well, things aren't gonna be going your way with me apparently since that's what'll rub off from what I believe now.

Problem

Quit saying I believe stupid stuff.

Problem

I thought I told  you to stop.. why are you going insane like a looney telling me I'm shit physically?  I wanted to diet but accidentally got a small variety of sweets and my dad is like staring at me now.  I gotta make a salad.  Wow, I'm shit, though?

Serious Talk, Now

Well, no one's here and no one cares, so.. was gonna talk about you liking Chris Mann.

What's your routine?

Do you go online in the mornings??  I don't really work anyway, so yes anyway.  I come for my blog and I roll over to things like my Newsfeed on Twitter or whatever it's called.

for those who don't know what that is..

..despite your being mean, I know there's good in there somewhere

..you may fail, but it's not my fault

..I just got another message and got upset

..I'll leave you with my blessings

Sad

Not talking to everyone, but I feel they just want to mess me up early on so I chase people away with what I say when they might be confused.  They wouldn't like what I posted.  Not much going on in life.

It's not my fault

if you find yourself in less than perfection.  You've grown up your whole life with your parents.

It must hurt..

..in some way not to be the on and give some satisfaction to see from atop.

I'm not the one to say..

..I'm not sure what you're asking of me myself.  I can see you're saying other hurtful things.  It looks like I can't get a yes.

This one person acts like they're nice so what's the big deal, but I just saw something a bit different.

Problem

Why are you tailing me as I post this?  

You all look like a bunch of losers.

I hope you don't continue to chase people away from me.

Wow

You think I wanna put up with a princess act?  This is quite illegal.  I could tell the police if this were real.  What you said was rude..  I'm not talking about something else.

Weird Person

lying about what people really want

Just admit it, it's only you guys that are really rude.

What I Deal With in the Pigeon Hole

They want to all take what I have or had like it didn't even matter.  I don't care what you think.  I bet it's from that cursing of the noises in my room.  You take advantage of things like that all too much.  I don't always appreciate talking to you all and feel I have nothing to do.  They also just bothered me in another way.  I don't care how good you think you are.  They're being silly bothering me more..

Morning

Just ate "breakfast."  I got all this food at the grocery.  I may go back to my diet.  Could not even eat 1/2 piece of pizza.

Waitin for my computer to do something before I do some/a little ab work.

:(

Don't wanna go but gotta-

You're all messed up.

You think that being mean will improve you.

Nite

Nite Soon

Story

There was a girl in a dress that was tight down her torso and at the end poofs, in green and yellow with 3/4 sleeves.  She was only 15.  Her name was Meg.

There was a boy with a family of girls.  The girls were Bella 16, Chloe Grace 17, and Nancy Grace 18.  The boy's name was Eric Rod.

The girl in the dress's name was Christine.

There were a bunch of witches and warlocks/wizards, a few angels, and some giant fairies.  There were also quite handsome young men who knew how to quart courters.

Eric, age 18, said hi to Christine/Meg..  Let's call her CM.  She was depressed, now in a red dress, picking at the flowers after an hour on the farm and tidying the house.  "My dreamboat CM, we are to all go away on a journey which will cheer you."  The man in mystery came to her and successfully was also able to caress her as he did to those around her.

That day came, and CM waited in a gold traveling dress.  He came and took her hand and kissed it and looked her in the face.  He kissed her on the lips and started to rub her in hopes she'd feel better.  Now, they were not romantically related.  They just were like friends, except he was years her senior.  It was amazing what a difference in age did in their friendship, but CM liked being a young girl.

They were waiting by a river they were to sail down.

You think you're just saying something.

Well, said it, I don't care still.

Jealousy

The world should not be that way.  Is it guilt?

If you're rude..

..why?

I mean, I got a good idea from all this, too.

Rude

to suggest I don't deserve something for no reason when I don't care but to rub it all in like it's a statement using me and someone who's mean to me a lot or someone related

Why

on IMDb is it that people die at the last stretch of the night? on Soapbox

More Invasion of My Blog

I see now you think you made everything that could ever happen to me but everyone else can have what happens to them.  Showing off by being upset in mood per se??  I hope that did not hurt your feelings, but it's funny to look at it that way.  I mean really it was rather inappropriate.  I wasn't just saying it.  It was probably partly joking.  I can hold it in better.  Sorry.  Sorry for what I said, but I don't know what to say in its place and am onto other things!~

Upset

People think I'm selfish to think I deserve anything and that I should secretly reserve anything good that happens to me for someone in my place and to somehow make it better.  You didn't say that to that person.  But in a way you did, to everyone, and some people are not like everyone.

I'm truly sorry

you cannot come.

Wait..

..isn't what you just said not true and is tacky?

It's my life.

Are you onto me..in various facets?  I'm fine without people poking at me.... I'm fine.  Isn't it funny??  Ha ha ha.  Nothing specific.  I feel like I'm on a Ouiji board.  All alone.  (Like in a movie.)

What I mean is I am a normal person, and I get perverted questions of various kinds every day!

Just Being Weird

or do you really hope to meet someone I met without looking silly?

Guess what good news I found out??

Laura Mann is Chris Mann's wonderful girl!  They been together too long without marrying.  I wonder if Chris has any friends.  Of course, her.  ..You know, I dunno how I feel about my parents, they don't count.

Cannot Seem to Get Any Better Than This

I was worried

it was a fight about if I was worth it from my past.

Why

do people who like me like me?

I need to do some YouTube videos.  My diet's going good.  :|

Funny

I think Italians are white and European and well-connected.  They just aren't German.  That's the Swiss culture.

What's this

blast? have to do with anything?  Doing these things never hurt.  I don't think it sounds like you should even be singling them out.

A lot of my focus

and sentiment goes towards those people or did.

I know what it is!

People spot pure jealousy..

It sounds like they're up to no good.

Nothing seems to really be important.

What did I ever do..

..to deserve to be told I am bad to some adults?

Problems?

Maybe, it doesn't matter so much who your parents are?

Don't you hate it when

adults become total babies?

Like, we have to suffer for their existence, they say basically?

Someone is really freaking me out.

This is boring and annoying, bothering me for no reason, trapping me here.

Am I unhealthy?

I guess being in The Phantom of the Opera is not a waste.  It's an accomplishment.  They tour like 2 weeks 6 days a week with matinees on weekends per place.  The tour seems to be 1 year.  They do not really visit each area.  They camp out in 1 location where people have to even fly to see.  I assume they drive a day.  Maybe, people here come with Disney.  They really covered Florida this time, anyway.  After Chris Mann plays the Phantom, I don't feel a strong desire to be in it myself.  To go further, I mean it wouldn't be the same after his act.

"The Test"

I can see some people who think they know me personally have problems with me meeting "attractive" or "emotional" people and deny me my right to my choice of personality.  Nothing happened outside of this.

I go

for what's attractive and I go for different types.

I'm not saying I'm older

and have worse parental figures than some younger bitch!

Sunday, December 14, 2014

After Concert - Meet + Greet

Musical Theater

The boys and girls are always interesting in different ways.  Don't know when the next Phantom gig will be.

We have our acquired talents----

----you could have concentrated on singing early on, which is easier, but apparently everyone is welcome to give it a shot.

I have skills in piano I lost, organ, which help me who I am today tho I don't use it anymore the same.

Musical

The Phantom of the Opera

I screamed for everyone, the phantom a lot!  And loudly!

What do you think of..

..watching someone with a remote control and buzzing them when you catch them doing something.."wrong?.."

Saturday, December 13, 2014

Does it disappoint you

to see someone go crazy?

cont.

This is pervading my life.

Why I was upset.

Saying, "here it is again."

I once again find myself musing over nothing but a stinking trash.  More insults.  I was supposed to not say it, but it was a big thing, again, and I don't like it.

Problem

Why are these people watching me all the time and talking to me?  Who do they think I am?

Problem

What cheap trash is this?

Problem

They keep being mean to me like I like it to stimulate me.

Problem

You being mean to me is pretty ridiculous in and of itself.

Problem

HERE IT IS AGAIN.

My dad puts stress somewhere on my body, and I can't enjoy myself.  Because of the psychiatrist yelling with us!

Reason

These people don't do anything.  They aren't trying to make it in the big game.  So, they'll make it thinking their kids are better cuz they had them right away.

Problem

You can't just have me be born to say you tested me and said I was a failure.

Someone coordinated 2 people in my family having babies cuz they are the youngest with fair hair.  It's okay if they decided without that, but I must admit I am feeling very "annoyed."  Supposedly just anyone can come in and affect who my babies would be, but they can't.  I almost wanna have them to bother them.  However, I was thinking of having a career.  How can I teach and raise a baby?  + I might not want my own biological kids nor to "adopt."

I noticed

my dad backed away from bothering me even more before.  Now, he "gets" to participate in talking to me, when no one should be cuz I have no friends!

I'm not sitting here pondering

over shit from people day after day, addressed specifically to me, by certain people.  People think I'm bad, but I never cause bad things.  No one can help me.  I don't need help with something I didn't do.

etc.

There seems to be quite a bit more coming up in other areas.

More

a "chance" for "something great" in the UK

link

More Prep

for "kids today" and anyone not my age

link

Mattering

"It's not the people that matter!"

Old

I feel old as a person.  Like I've been mistreated.. thanks to Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.

Audition Tips

The Phantom of the Opera

link

Sounds open to people "who never posted a karaoke online."  Otherwise.. "anyone but oneself."  But yea pretty open.  How were we to know karaoke is not legal online?  There are karaoke channels, didn't realize they were licensed and paid.  Hard to think about that kinda stuff here sometimes.  No rules saying no karaoke online, tho.  I took the ones down I had the passwords to.

Of course

I should seem old next to younger singers, but it seems to be about older singers.

I can't see why

I'm uncool, unless you're playing a game with me and want me uncool.  I'm just another nice girl who doesn't really think it's all that funny to look like and be shit.

Save them!

People did something wrong and then didn't remember to be like and to also like Late Boomers!  It was them being bad or careless.

Undeserving

Do you look at me in any basic success and what happens is I do not deserve it??  What's the underlying lie.. race but pretend it's something I did?

It's interesting

what people think makes a person bad.

So

You are busy worrying about young people who are younger than Late Boomers worshipping the bad ways of people born in the early 1950s..  I'm worried about people younger than Late Boomers who were never allowed to amount to as much.  :(

How can you do that to a kid who doesn't have it good?  You just want to - forgot I was doing something.  Oh, you just want to escalate the pleasure of other young people from a different group of a generation of kids and parents to see how it turns out and stuff someday?  It wouldn't hurt if I had shit.  Right?  Are you just out to hurt people and make them state the truth of something that should not be brought  up?  What clowns!!  What?  We make our way.  We're not nothing, are we?  You could have been nothing, too!  }:)

PROOF

It's not because I'm older they want to pair me with typical women a bit younger than my dad.. they aren't getting better for people just as they get younger.  It's proof when you see Late Boomers live how they want without being picked on like me about Earlier Boomers.  You see younger kids today not have it better than the typical age of younger kids of Late Boomers.  So, they lied to kids born after Late Boom because they should have been the same to be as good.  They probably had too much of it shoved in their face, the shit of the ways, and never got to be raised properly but with new fandangled thinking that is only partly of interest, quite apparently.  They say Late Boomers do that better, even.