Sunday, October 19, 2014
More for the Beautiful Princess?
Go out with a girl a month or so older than me? So, you have me outta the way? I WILL get in the business, and I will beat you. No hard offense.
I just have to be honest. I will get in the business, and I will escape this life of failed people who lie about what they do. They got me outta the way. You can't just accept a person. You have to foil them over me.
I just have to be honest. I will get in the business, and I will escape this life of failed people who lie about what they do. They got me outta the way. You can't just accept a person. You have to foil them over me.
Wow
This is like the best 10 years. You all are prejudiced and won't flat out admit there's nothing there.
TV
Bella Thorne. They had a guy burn.
Ellen DeGeneres, Tim Burton, Johnny Depp all accepted her.
They have nothing to say to me. I have nothing.
Racist Burton. Does that feel good? (I don't mean anything drastically bad.) Married with 2 kids now eh? Johnny Depp's kids or daughter at least, they can still get what they want.
Ellen DeGeneres, Tim Burton, Johnny Depp all accepted her.
They have nothing to say to me. I have nothing.
Racist Burton. Does that feel good? (I don't mean anything drastically bad.) Married with 2 kids now eh? Johnny Depp's kids or daughter at least, they can still get what they want.
Violent
Jews stinkin' hate me.
People want to k*** me for having anything because they are jealous.
I am Jewish and look Jewish, more than they do!
They are turning my life around, and no one feels safe nor the necessity to think of me well.
People want to k*** me for having anything because they are jealous.
I am Jewish and look Jewish, more than they do!
They are turning my life around, and no one feels safe nor the necessity to think of me well.
Example
This was nothing but shit. They say you are bad if you get money from parents because not everyone does supposedly.
Really
These people have gone crazy about birth year and age of parents. Everyone does have something to offer. You even have used them to foil yourselves and the "winning team."
Wondering
I just saw a Dutch lady who rules in Indonesia on TV with my mom, where her people have been from for longer than they've been there but roughly the same time. I feel undeserving, but those people seem so nice. If you took away the guilt people put on me, I'd feel unaccomplished and otherwise shitty. People used to say you weren't like your parents. I think it's the Late Boomer kids that made this change. They probably don't even like just their parents. I'm sure.
Yes, I finally figured it out.
Those other people are happy about Ellen cuz they think they have the blank slate.
OK, so I'm in on
the blonde hair, but I don't wanna copy Ellen. I am copying those who copy her. They want to help people by acting like they're Ellen so they're not as lonely.
..no
No, dads, I will not let them smart over me and have a great time and me not. They thought it was inappropriate for kids with older parents to jam like people can at that generation, Ellen's and these kids's..
Wait
That happiness was saying Ellen is over me and they found I'm shit to everyone else. I never even got a real chance, like it's reserved, even to my parents!
Upset
Ellen isn't. People are in my face trying to tell me I'm shit cuz Ellen is older.
These kids won't know what hit'em.
These kids won't know what hit'em.
Issue
Sarah Brightman is like acting like the ambassador for the world but saying we did something wrong and can't do it. Why doesn't she think further and say she just likes it? She must be nervous about her kind of way of singing. Watch her get fussy if she gets told I posted this. I'd like to say no offense, but she seems disconnected and like mad at me.. I do feel like leftover garbage, tho, so maybe that's why. I'm not like mad, but I feel rattled around. I also am not afraid to say something I should admit. It seems more interesting and even friendly than using the cold shoulder.
Got Upset
I thought Orlando gave me a small nose. I had to do a lot of power work to get it long and skinny in Louisiana. They wanted me to get mad at someone for suggesting I just try to be and act like my mom rather than keep my more European qualities. I know he didn't ruin my nose. I think that could be Orlando, but we'll see. I do see others being encouraged, so.
No, I do not want my mom's smaller nose. Ellen's mom's nose is smaller. I don't want her bug eyes, which are like my little brother when we lived in Louisiana. I didn't want that for him if he doesn't like it, but Ellen thinks I do. She just ruins happy people's lives but only in certain families!! She acts like it's someone else's fault and tries to look flashy. Look, though, my nose's been ruined. I realized the one mistake her mom made was saying okay Ellen you have Askenazi Jewish blood and therefore I will give you a good nose, but don't tell anyone else, for they did not get it, you'll just cheat or take a break from being modest.. I mean she is so insulting about people who have smaller noses who may be German or part ancient Asian. It's a nice nose, but it's not a nice message. So, I do not mean to ruin anyone's noses just because they are mean? People should keep what they have, but my nose doesn't feel right. I think her nose is probably not all it's cracked up to be cuz when I watched the show my nose got worse. It was better with that other person who wanted me like my mom. I just realized I must be on an Ellen purge, purging me and getting things out that are inside. Maybe, she didn't do anything, but what I don't get with the mom is how her nose is okay cuz I ruined mine in fear of what she'd do to it, and she did go and ruin it, probably cuz hers is. The problem is I wanted my nose better and it looks silly when it goes smaller. I might just have more of my head connected to it. I dunno. I don't like these phases, at all. She thinks I can do something about it and I feel like she's staring at me as a kid in anger. ..with her big nose. ..with her shapely nose. All I can say is my nose is very changeable. She need not fear. I'm not like everyone else. I have a European nose for being Chinese and it's nice sculpted tho. I saw another girl who was half Chinese who was dark (mom from Vietnam) and her nose was just like Ellen's. For some reason she looked mad and demanding of her, and they got together at least one time with Portia. I just felt that was the next step, not to be too typical. Did you know Bella Thorne made a scene with a Twitter with Yoshi, like made a setting scene that it was something for her to meditate on, my nose which isn't hers, and Ellen nodded a little and took it further saying the something else was for her, the pig in the movie The Book of Life.. and now that goes along. It's more of that foiling themselves using me. I even forgot what my point was. Yes, Ellen uses younger kids to say they are better than me cuz for some reason she feels stuck with older kids. It's a fact of her generation. I don't mean to be insulting to any one person.
No, I do not want my mom's smaller nose. Ellen's mom's nose is smaller. I don't want her bug eyes, which are like my little brother when we lived in Louisiana. I didn't want that for him if he doesn't like it, but Ellen thinks I do. She just ruins happy people's lives but only in certain families!! She acts like it's someone else's fault and tries to look flashy. Look, though, my nose's been ruined. I realized the one mistake her mom made was saying okay Ellen you have Askenazi Jewish blood and therefore I will give you a good nose, but don't tell anyone else, for they did not get it, you'll just cheat or take a break from being modest.. I mean she is so insulting about people who have smaller noses who may be German or part ancient Asian. It's a nice nose, but it's not a nice message. So, I do not mean to ruin anyone's noses just because they are mean? People should keep what they have, but my nose doesn't feel right. I think her nose is probably not all it's cracked up to be cuz when I watched the show my nose got worse. It was better with that other person who wanted me like my mom. I just realized I must be on an Ellen purge, purging me and getting things out that are inside. Maybe, she didn't do anything, but what I don't get with the mom is how her nose is okay cuz I ruined mine in fear of what she'd do to it, and she did go and ruin it, probably cuz hers is. The problem is I wanted my nose better and it looks silly when it goes smaller. I might just have more of my head connected to it. I dunno. I don't like these phases, at all. She thinks I can do something about it and I feel like she's staring at me as a kid in anger. ..with her big nose. ..with her shapely nose. All I can say is my nose is very changeable. She need not fear. I'm not like everyone else. I have a European nose for being Chinese and it's nice sculpted tho. I saw another girl who was half Chinese who was dark (mom from Vietnam) and her nose was just like Ellen's. For some reason she looked mad and demanding of her, and they got together at least one time with Portia. I just felt that was the next step, not to be too typical. Did you know Bella Thorne made a scene with a Twitter with Yoshi, like made a setting scene that it was something for her to meditate on, my nose which isn't hers, and Ellen nodded a little and took it further saying the something else was for her, the pig in the movie The Book of Life.. and now that goes along. It's more of that foiling themselves using me. I even forgot what my point was. Yes, Ellen uses younger kids to say they are better than me cuz for some reason she feels stuck with older kids. It's a fact of her generation. I don't mean to be insulting to any one person.
What Is Irritating
Ellen telling us we are bad, while everyone pretends she is perfect.
She ruins my life all day every day as a threat.. a reason to say she paid attention to me on the show and then ruining my life and she stops.
No, I wasn't mean to her, but she was mean to me, first.. I just complain about it. I don't go pick on what was once the real Ellen DeGeneres. People have ruined her.
You know some people think that they need someone like her or Tim Burton to talk to them and suddenly it will fix them. I think they would feel happy if they didn't have issues. Those issues are not for me to deal with while Ellen/others does nothing. I feel that she hurts us if others are sad, like it's only happy people's faults in other corners of the world.
I hope I did not insult anyone, but I'm sure I didn't. I'm telling it like it is.
She ruins my life all day every day as a threat.. a reason to say she paid attention to me on the show and then ruining my life and she stops.
No, I wasn't mean to her, but she was mean to me, first.. I just complain about it. I don't go pick on what was once the real Ellen DeGeneres. People have ruined her.
You know some people think that they need someone like her or Tim Burton to talk to them and suddenly it will fix them. I think they would feel happy if they didn't have issues. Those issues are not for me to deal with while Ellen/others does nothing. I feel that she hurts us if others are sad, like it's only happy people's faults in other corners of the world.
I hope I did not insult anyone, but I'm sure I didn't. I'm telling it like it is.
Problem
I don't want anyone telling me some little kid with blonde curly hair will be greater than me. Lotta people do that and flip me off.
You know how people..
..from the 1970s tell those from the early 1980s to chuck it? Even people born around 1953-4 look up to people born in Late Boom.
Really
It's not so much Ellen that impresses me but the things others did for her surrounding someone of her birth year time that made it the times for people who must have experienced it before.
My Previous Posts
I am just needing to sort my thoughts out.. I'm over on my Help Me! blog. But not as silly. ;)
People Who Help
and understand who get us off this nightmare of a roller coaster of a mundane life..
Julia Roberts
Ellen DeGeneres
Steve Carell
Julia Roberts
Ellen DeGeneres
Steve Carell
Disturbed
Why does everyone know I'm not white and turn off?
I just saw a gun scene in the movie The Time Machine and I was going to get some water and realized no one cares about me.
I just saw a gun scene in the movie The Time Machine and I was going to get some water and realized no one cares about me.
Saturday, October 18, 2014
Having a Special Thing
If Ellen wants to indulge Bella Thorne to be "the one" who is affiliated with the cute pig in the movie The Book of Life that doesn't mean someone else shouldn't.. even she has an affiliation.
Not as Interested?
You turned me off. You want to talk about Ellen DeGeneres. I have like 5 essays on her in the past 2 or 3 days on my forum.
What do you mean what am I talking about?
I could act and find a reason for doing it. It didn't end for all non-famous people with the wave of your magic wand. It's like you're cheating in life.
Thursday, October 16, 2014
TV
"The Ellen DeGeneres Show"
Chelsea with an interesting last name.. Handler.. was on the show. She seems to really be into Ellen.
The little boy was very cute.
The boy who got married seemed nice and youthful.
Cat Week is going her way, now. I am 28, and I want to be something in the world. I just don't feel it coming. I want to stick to Hollywood stuff or find my own location elsewhere and do that there. I had said I wanted to have a place where I invite normal folk, like with a pool and maybe some rides, and we have fun. I can store it all online for the world to see whenever they want. I can also be an actress and an inspiring director behind the scenes. I assume that's the conductor of the symphony, the one who gets to be like a teacher and better be attractive. Even dying and cutting my hair, I don't seem to be making it. People are telling me I'm bad and wasting my life and therefore can't do it. As an actress, I'd have to be well-liked like Johnny Depp, too. People are basically greedy for the attention they get for the style they live and the year they are born, when the world was candy and flowers. They didn't do anything. It's all on a whim of what was and is always given to them.
Chelsea with an interesting last name.. Handler.. was on the show. She seems to really be into Ellen.
The little boy was very cute.
The boy who got married seemed nice and youthful.
Cat Week is going her way, now. I am 28, and I want to be something in the world. I just don't feel it coming. I want to stick to Hollywood stuff or find my own location elsewhere and do that there. I had said I wanted to have a place where I invite normal folk, like with a pool and maybe some rides, and we have fun. I can store it all online for the world to see whenever they want. I can also be an actress and an inspiring director behind the scenes. I assume that's the conductor of the symphony, the one who gets to be like a teacher and better be attractive. Even dying and cutting my hair, I don't seem to be making it. People are telling me I'm bad and wasting my life and therefore can't do it. As an actress, I'd have to be well-liked like Johnny Depp, too. People are basically greedy for the attention they get for the style they live and the year they are born, when the world was candy and flowers. They didn't do anything. It's all on a whim of what was and is always given to them.
Wednesday, October 1, 2014
Tuesday, September 30, 2014
TV
On ET, a guy wants to pick up a smaller guy who is too mature to like it but he picks up the girl who is played by an actress a lot older than me.
Why are blondes
so inadequate? They're just against all brunettes as a way to say they're the best 1.
Life
was supposed to be open, not making fun of someone who's nice. I don't like how the world is all against me, like some big force.
I only called someone the n word because I thought they wanted me to.
Then, I got noises in my room and almost cursed out Ellen so was upset when my dad upset me instead.
I only called someone the n word because I thought they wanted me to.
Then, I got noises in my room and almost cursed out Ellen so was upset when my dad upset me instead.
We need more..
I'm watching ET and there's now only 1 ET, not 2 ETs, 1. We want more 80s movies and 90s music. So, encourage people who are talented or interested.
There's no "we have enough." We have nothing.
There's no "we have enough." We have nothing.
Question
Sorry, I was bottled up, but it seemed weird that people would mar themselves because of something I did.
I was going to check my mail on Yahoo! and found this..
..https://screen.yahoo.com/cute-and-inspiring/inland-empire-mother-makes-ultimate-012500439.html
It was so sad, and I'm always a bit teary.
It was so sad, and I'm always a bit teary.
What's all this?
My dad can't tell me what's going on socially. I didn't "not do" something because my dad or Ellen says so, like telling me I don't fit in socially a certain way.
Closing off nice people
is not nice.
I can see all the men in their 60s vying for Ellen, like she is their own. Who are they to do that? They didn't listen. They are rash. Deciding what's popular.
I can see all the men in their 60s vying for Ellen, like she is their own. Who are they to do that? They didn't listen. They are rash. Deciding what's popular.
So
I just did a core and upper workout for about 4 minutes. It makes a difference and tires me out.
I was wondering about my own hair. It was light at 1st yesterday but then was mostly dark with some red highlights.
I don't know if I should join up and dye it blonde and have it cut short. It seems like you can't get famous and then do it later. It's like you have to do it earlier on or say I'm too young to do that. I don't mean anyone cares who's reading this maybe, but I don't really know what to do. I'm thinking I'll do it and get blue contacts because I see it doesn't work if you wait after everyone who knows you sees you differently. It did look good yesterday when it was curly/wavy/or like in wavy curls. I don't know if I should straighten it and wonder how much it costs. I asked the salon last time, and they didn't really answer. I am wondering if I should use over the counter products. Also, redying each month at a place is $60 at Dillards. From the shelf, you can now dye black hair light. It's just not as good and I'd rather not. In the end I will have $60 a month for clothes if I do this.
Some things are not for everyone, but if you do it early it may work. Like, I was gonna go for short and a sort or blonde. I'll have to think of something creative as an option for if I do this.
I was wondering about my own hair. It was light at 1st yesterday but then was mostly dark with some red highlights.
I don't know if I should join up and dye it blonde and have it cut short. It seems like you can't get famous and then do it later. It's like you have to do it earlier on or say I'm too young to do that. I don't mean anyone cares who's reading this maybe, but I don't really know what to do. I'm thinking I'll do it and get blue contacts because I see it doesn't work if you wait after everyone who knows you sees you differently. It did look good yesterday when it was curly/wavy/or like in wavy curls. I don't know if I should straighten it and wonder how much it costs. I asked the salon last time, and they didn't really answer. I am wondering if I should use over the counter products. Also, redying each month at a place is $60 at Dillards. From the shelf, you can now dye black hair light. It's just not as good and I'd rather not. In the end I will have $60 a month for clothes if I do this.
Some things are not for everyone, but if you do it early it may work. Like, I was gonna go for short and a sort or blonde. I'll have to think of something creative as an option for if I do this.
Is it in your vision of glory
to see me in my seat writhing over that which you think is right?
Like while you're onto something else? Something to keep me busy?? Don't I need that time to eventually have a career/job?
Is what I say degrading..or important? I'll tell you one thing, me and people on the streets think it cuz we are reacting to what startles us.
So, am I blasphemous or just personally degrading to you or is this post just a normal, innocent, regular exploring of feelings..which could prevent getting mad but make someone else do something to make us more mad?
I know successful people in this way can live a rung below or up but not on what I think.
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Like while you're onto something else? Something to keep me busy?? Don't I need that time to eventually have a career/job?
Is what I say degrading..or important? I'll tell you one thing, me and people on the streets think it cuz we are reacting to what startles us.
So, am I blasphemous or just personally degrading to you or is this post just a normal, innocent, regular exploring of feelings..which could prevent getting mad but make someone else do something to make us more mad?
I know successful people in this way can live a rung below or up but not on what I think.
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You don't act like
other people are a threat and that I get undeserved attention and it disgusts you and I deserve nothing. You want to hurt anyone who is nice to me, but you gotta let go.
Seriously
I know Lindsey Stirling believes she should be Josh Groban's wife. Maybe, she doesn't care about Johnny Depp.
A Person in the Crowd
A person in the crowd like Ellen saw me and wouldn't stop the feeling like she had her hands on my shoulders and I was quickly happy and dodged and tried to present her with others, but she didn't stop holding onto me. It was a good feeling, too. I did something right still for them, reminds me of the mothers that were my dad's age in school.
So, yes, in person, I would make sure you got your fill of attention. It's not like it'd drain my relationship or anything, anyway, I mean.
Later, I was outside, and girls were thinking we were all setting up our rooms to talk and meet. :}
So, yes, in person, I would make sure you got your fill of attention. It's not like it'd drain my relationship or anything, anyway, I mean.
Later, I was outside, and girls were thinking we were all setting up our rooms to talk and meet. :}
If anything happened tonight
I mean, I don't need to matter to everyone or anyone.. When I said creepy messages, I only meant what was implied to be important.
So
How does it feel to have people going around making fools of themselves only to topple 1 person, me, over, for fun, a display?
Actually
a guy I know I accepted said to find a boyfriend and have kids.. he said he was gonna. I at least wanted to talk to him.
I'm just worried
more than one person wants to marry me. We can work on it, but I'm not giving up everything for 1 person.
In fact, I am not ^giving up^ anything. }:] Meaning, a feeling that's unexplored. In ways, I always give up things, so why is this any different?
In fact, I am not ^giving up^ anything. }:] Meaning, a feeling that's unexplored. In ways, I always give up things, so why is this any different?
Talking About Kids
No one has officially told me they wanted to ^create^ with me, and I don't like ***.
Jealous
You're taking anything good people think about me but don't do to me and taking what little I had away.
You don't even come with proof and don't care if you're right.
And why do you say oh I know who you're really talking to?
You're questioning that I'm spoiled because of being bad. You just had to say it.
You don't even come with proof and don't care if you're right.
And why do you say oh I know who you're really talking to?
You're questioning that I'm spoiled because of being bad. You just had to say it.
What's your point?
Why are you sending me creepy secret messages?
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I hope what I typed at the top isn't the sign to go, but if it is then so I believe it is. You can interpret my raw thoughts however you wish.
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I love a guy who can talk.
Josh Groban
Who else does? That's okay if you don't, too. I don't talk about everything.
Who else does? That's okay if you don't, too. I don't talk about everything.
Monday, September 29, 2014
Did you know
your parents can make up stuff about you and you go to a poorly kept facility for people with mental issues, a downgrade from jail! And your parents would have to be physically or really outwardly abusing you in order for you to get a court order away maybe of outside support .. not like if you say they have an attitude, but you know maybe, but who wants to move out?
Sometimes
People think things aren't okay that are necessary. But if they bother someone, I stop.
I thought Ellen didn't care about some things. Some things are big, and some things are little and we can't seem to control, like our subconscious actions. We need to address them as that rather than saying we literally meant it. Maybe, we soaked in some disagreeable things growing up and everyone does it. We get older, and people are in a contest to see how much they were able to be accepted as a person racially spreading their undying goodness.
I thought Ellen didn't care about some things. Some things are big, and some things are little and we can't seem to control, like our subconscious actions. We need to address them as that rather than saying we literally meant it. Maybe, we soaked in some disagreeable things growing up and everyone does it. We get older, and people are in a contest to see how much they were able to be accepted as a person racially spreading their undying goodness.
WRONG
Why should we support Ellen DeGeneres's popularity if she does bad things to be popular to keep people at bay?
Also
Wouldn't I be in trouble if I said it was okay? I am not gonna do it in any creative way if that's the case.
Something That's Honestly Not Okay
It's okay if you really like something, but I don't want to hear Robin Williams committed suicide because I did something to Ellen DeGeneres. I didn't, she did. I see some people wearing glasses, even all the time, now. The guy on Ghost Adventures doesn't do many new episodes now but made his chin stick out. He could put it back, but that's what he did. I thought of how a girl she and the girl's mom rudely insinuated "replaced me" because "I failed" in getting upset at the noises she put in my room had was acting tacky with a protruding chin cuz she did it herself.. acting weird about being over me along with Ellen. I think that's mean, but I mean I just was thinking about it. Ellen is acting like she is more important than other people. That seems to be why he did it, at least, not that I meant to "bring it up.." I'm just as nice as her, and I don't want that to happen for me. You all are just racist and jealous at the same time. If someone thinks all this is okay, I'd like to hear them say it. Why is it okay for people to do that? Did it settle some inner debt? I don't think so.. I realize Ellen is rather queer. She would think I'm being mean, but it's just hard to say stuff and I say stuff. Like me saying "I don't think so.." about settling an inner debt. It goes against what she seemed. That's not really a good thing to get stuck on. I thought Ellen was happy and liked everyone. If there is a problem, she can't talk about it exactly. What if I didn't mean anything and it was all defense. That's what it was. I don't mean for this to affect my life, my telling problems on my blog using curse words but not AT anyone or her usually. Not sure how to finish this thought except that I think it's mean to the other people and that they should be able to like who and whatever they want. What do you do about people like this? I wanna tell the cops, but they'd say I'm crazy, people like this. A lawyer.. A prominent health professional. No one should feel threatened by someone who should be on good terms with them. So, here, I talked about it. I didn't call for some professional to do it for me. And I didn't attack Ellen DeGeneres.
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