Tuesday, September 30, 2014
Why are blondes
so inadequate? They're just against all brunettes as a way to say they're the best 1.
Life
was supposed to be open, not making fun of someone who's nice. I don't like how the world is all against me, like some big force.
I only called someone the n word because I thought they wanted me to.
Then, I got noises in my room and almost cursed out Ellen so was upset when my dad upset me instead.
I only called someone the n word because I thought they wanted me to.
Then, I got noises in my room and almost cursed out Ellen so was upset when my dad upset me instead.
We need more..
I'm watching ET and there's now only 1 ET, not 2 ETs, 1. We want more 80s movies and 90s music. So, encourage people who are talented or interested.
There's no "we have enough." We have nothing.
There's no "we have enough." We have nothing.
I was going to check my mail on Yahoo! and found this..
..https://screen.yahoo.com/cute-and-inspiring/inland-empire-mother-makes-ultimate-012500439.html
It was so sad, and I'm always a bit teary.
It was so sad, and I'm always a bit teary.
What's all this?
My dad can't tell me what's going on socially. I didn't "not do" something because my dad or Ellen says so, like telling me I don't fit in socially a certain way.
Closing off nice people
is not nice.
I can see all the men in their 60s vying for Ellen, like she is their own. Who are they to do that? They didn't listen. They are rash. Deciding what's popular.
I can see all the men in their 60s vying for Ellen, like she is their own. Who are they to do that? They didn't listen. They are rash. Deciding what's popular.
So
I just did a core and upper workout for about 4 minutes. It makes a difference and tires me out.
I was wondering about my own hair. It was light at 1st yesterday but then was mostly dark with some red highlights.
I don't know if I should join up and dye it blonde and have it cut short. It seems like you can't get famous and then do it later. It's like you have to do it earlier on or say I'm too young to do that. I don't mean anyone cares who's reading this maybe, but I don't really know what to do. I'm thinking I'll do it and get blue contacts because I see it doesn't work if you wait after everyone who knows you sees you differently. It did look good yesterday when it was curly/wavy/or like in wavy curls. I don't know if I should straighten it and wonder how much it costs. I asked the salon last time, and they didn't really answer. I am wondering if I should use over the counter products. Also, redying each month at a place is $60 at Dillards. From the shelf, you can now dye black hair light. It's just not as good and I'd rather not. In the end I will have $60 a month for clothes if I do this.
Some things are not for everyone, but if you do it early it may work. Like, I was gonna go for short and a sort or blonde. I'll have to think of something creative as an option for if I do this.
I was wondering about my own hair. It was light at 1st yesterday but then was mostly dark with some red highlights.
I don't know if I should join up and dye it blonde and have it cut short. It seems like you can't get famous and then do it later. It's like you have to do it earlier on or say I'm too young to do that. I don't mean anyone cares who's reading this maybe, but I don't really know what to do. I'm thinking I'll do it and get blue contacts because I see it doesn't work if you wait after everyone who knows you sees you differently. It did look good yesterday when it was curly/wavy/or like in wavy curls. I don't know if I should straighten it and wonder how much it costs. I asked the salon last time, and they didn't really answer. I am wondering if I should use over the counter products. Also, redying each month at a place is $60 at Dillards. From the shelf, you can now dye black hair light. It's just not as good and I'd rather not. In the end I will have $60 a month for clothes if I do this.
Some things are not for everyone, but if you do it early it may work. Like, I was gonna go for short and a sort or blonde. I'll have to think of something creative as an option for if I do this.
Is it in your vision of glory
to see me in my seat writhing over that which you think is right?
Like while you're onto something else? Something to keep me busy?? Don't I need that time to eventually have a career/job?
Is what I say degrading..or important? I'll tell you one thing, me and people on the streets think it cuz we are reacting to what startles us.
So, am I blasphemous or just personally degrading to you or is this post just a normal, innocent, regular exploring of feelings..which could prevent getting mad but make someone else do something to make us more mad?
I know successful people in this way can live a rung below or up but not on what I think.
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Like while you're onto something else? Something to keep me busy?? Don't I need that time to eventually have a career/job?
Is what I say degrading..or important? I'll tell you one thing, me and people on the streets think it cuz we are reacting to what startles us.
So, am I blasphemous or just personally degrading to you or is this post just a normal, innocent, regular exploring of feelings..which could prevent getting mad but make someone else do something to make us more mad?
I know successful people in this way can live a rung below or up but not on what I think.
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You don't act like
other people are a threat and that I get undeserved attention and it disgusts you and I deserve nothing. You want to hurt anyone who is nice to me, but you gotta let go.
A Person in the Crowd
A person in the crowd like Ellen saw me and wouldn't stop the feeling like she had her hands on my shoulders and I was quickly happy and dodged and tried to present her with others, but she didn't stop holding onto me. It was a good feeling, too. I did something right still for them, reminds me of the mothers that were my dad's age in school.
So, yes, in person, I would make sure you got your fill of attention. It's not like it'd drain my relationship or anything, anyway, I mean.
Later, I was outside, and girls were thinking we were all setting up our rooms to talk and meet. :}
So, yes, in person, I would make sure you got your fill of attention. It's not like it'd drain my relationship or anything, anyway, I mean.
Later, I was outside, and girls were thinking we were all setting up our rooms to talk and meet. :}
If anything happened tonight
I mean, I don't need to matter to everyone or anyone.. When I said creepy messages, I only meant what was implied to be important.
I'm just worried
more than one person wants to marry me. We can work on it, but I'm not giving up everything for 1 person.
In fact, I am not ^giving up^ anything. }:] Meaning, a feeling that's unexplored. In ways, I always give up things, so why is this any different?
In fact, I am not ^giving up^ anything. }:] Meaning, a feeling that's unexplored. In ways, I always give up things, so why is this any different?
Talking About Kids
No one has officially told me they wanted to ^create^ with me, and I don't like ***.
Jealous
You're taking anything good people think about me but don't do to me and taking what little I had away.
You don't even come with proof and don't care if you're right.
And why do you say oh I know who you're really talking to?
You're questioning that I'm spoiled because of being bad. You just had to say it.
You don't even come with proof and don't care if you're right.
And why do you say oh I know who you're really talking to?
You're questioning that I'm spoiled because of being bad. You just had to say it.
What's your point?
Why are you sending me creepy secret messages?
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I hope what I typed at the top isn't the sign to go, but if it is then so I believe it is. You can interpret my raw thoughts however you wish.
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I hope what I typed at the top isn't the sign to go, but if it is then so I believe it is. You can interpret my raw thoughts however you wish.
I love a guy who can talk.
Josh Groban
Who else does? That's okay if you don't, too. I don't talk about everything.
Who else does? That's okay if you don't, too. I don't talk about everything.
Monday, September 29, 2014
Did you know
your parents can make up stuff about you and you go to a poorly kept facility for people with mental issues, a downgrade from jail! And your parents would have to be physically or really outwardly abusing you in order for you to get a court order away maybe of outside support .. not like if you say they have an attitude, but you know maybe, but who wants to move out?
Sometimes
People think things aren't okay that are necessary. But if they bother someone, I stop.
I thought Ellen didn't care about some things. Some things are big, and some things are little and we can't seem to control, like our subconscious actions. We need to address them as that rather than saying we literally meant it. Maybe, we soaked in some disagreeable things growing up and everyone does it. We get older, and people are in a contest to see how much they were able to be accepted as a person racially spreading their undying goodness.
I thought Ellen didn't care about some things. Some things are big, and some things are little and we can't seem to control, like our subconscious actions. We need to address them as that rather than saying we literally meant it. Maybe, we soaked in some disagreeable things growing up and everyone does it. We get older, and people are in a contest to see how much they were able to be accepted as a person racially spreading their undying goodness.
Something That's Honestly Not Okay
It's okay if you really like something, but I don't want to hear Robin Williams committed suicide because I did something to Ellen DeGeneres. I didn't, she did. I see some people wearing glasses, even all the time, now. The guy on Ghost Adventures doesn't do many new episodes now but made his chin stick out. He could put it back, but that's what he did. I thought of how a girl she and the girl's mom rudely insinuated "replaced me" because "I failed" in getting upset at the noises she put in my room had was acting tacky with a protruding chin cuz she did it herself.. acting weird about being over me along with Ellen. I think that's mean, but I mean I just was thinking about it. Ellen is acting like she is more important than other people. That seems to be why he did it, at least, not that I meant to "bring it up.." I'm just as nice as her, and I don't want that to happen for me. You all are just racist and jealous at the same time. If someone thinks all this is okay, I'd like to hear them say it. Why is it okay for people to do that? Did it settle some inner debt? I don't think so.. I realize Ellen is rather queer. She would think I'm being mean, but it's just hard to say stuff and I say stuff. Like me saying "I don't think so.." about settling an inner debt. It goes against what she seemed. That's not really a good thing to get stuck on. I thought Ellen was happy and liked everyone. If there is a problem, she can't talk about it exactly. What if I didn't mean anything and it was all defense. That's what it was. I don't mean for this to affect my life, my telling problems on my blog using curse words but not AT anyone or her usually. Not sure how to finish this thought except that I think it's mean to the other people and that they should be able to like who and whatever they want. What do you do about people like this? I wanna tell the cops, but they'd say I'm crazy, people like this. A lawyer.. A prominent health professional. No one should feel threatened by someone who should be on good terms with them. So, here, I talked about it. I didn't call for some professional to do it for me. And I didn't attack Ellen DeGeneres.
Sunday, September 28, 2014
You're all
sitting there imagining I am bemused at your instructions or decisions playing around with me.
You all are just a big group of clowns
and I have to pop all the balloons to get you to stop and me be in peace.
Upset
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You just do something I don't like and say if I get upset at something else I get punished or say "I said something" else.
People are who they are.
I don't want to be tricked into thinking my dad is some things he never was for me. That's like saying it doesn't matter who a person is, you can get the same feeling from them all. You don't like that, yourself. What if I am too old mostly?
Do you know anyone
who thinks they're the best in the world and don't have to listen to anyone? And if they do, they make themselves ^feel good^ ?
Last Night
Slept with TV on then turned it off 1/2 way.
Started with Stonehenge and battles in England.
Started with Stonehenge and battles in England.
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Lots of Problems
I went with my dad to the store, and he put me in a bad mood. All the people were looking at me like there was something wrong with me for gritting my teeth. They acted like older parents were my parents. It was in a suggestive manner. I gritted my way through the trip alone.
I was gritting in the car, and my dad noticed. I was squeezing my cell and put it somewhere finally.
I wasn't too weird, only asked a few questions. I asked about making me feel something in a place. All I did was grit my teeth and squeel stop it. Why would I be in trouble? People were afraid to admit it was for anything other than my stomping. I did stomp some but only when I was out of control. I'm not submitting to anyone that I'm like a dead chicken.
What's up with people telling me I have to think badly of myself?
My dad was a bit sad more mad. Someone told him or he told himself that I was no fun to go with, but I learned something about shopping there. No reason not to go. Next time, I don't think I will.
I was gritting in the car, and my dad noticed. I was squeezing my cell and put it somewhere finally.
I wasn't too weird, only asked a few questions. I asked about making me feel something in a place. All I did was grit my teeth and squeel stop it. Why would I be in trouble? People were afraid to admit it was for anything other than my stomping. I did stomp some but only when I was out of control. I'm not submitting to anyone that I'm like a dead chicken.
What's up with people telling me I have to think badly of myself?
My dad was a bit sad more mad. Someone told him or he told himself that I was no fun to go with, but I learned something about shopping there. No reason not to go. Next time, I don't think I will.
Problem
My parents won't stop bothering me. I cut my fingers. People in public are randomly popping up overcoming me. My dad is like bemusing those who did things for him like he is always good. I was helping with the dishes and my dad started acting out as he handed them to me. I felt uncontrollably upset. I don't submit to anyone. He has entered my life cuza Tim Burton and gotten involved in and chased people from me.
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