Drunk

for an older guy now to have before said that you can rub in to someone with an older dad and|or mom that they have younger parents and are younger and therefore deserve the attention from the "cool ones" and that they are nothing to us.

Mistaken

I didn't do anything to deserve this, people put evil in my head and I think of it sometimes.

Problem

My dad wants me not to have my precious Chinese-Indonesian mom but thinks other younger people can have moms her age cuz they're younger like she's not as old as he is.

Problem

My dad gets ticked with me all the time, and sometimes good things happen to me.  When this coincides, he thinks it's serious enough he can just take anything away.  Problem is I didn't do anything and I'm 28.  That's rather suggestive of something inappropriate in different ways.

I found that my submitting to things existed of injustices equal in situation with blacks.  This made me know that I was dealing with things that I only found out were wrong if I got really hyped up.

Ugh!

That crime show isn't on.  Guess they need to get more stories??

How do you feel about

people wearing glasses for fun or just because I said something bad to Ellen but was sorta fooling but sorta mad?

Me Singing

Hymnal Medley


Record music with Vocaroo >>

the soft shoe- not that great but shows something


Audio recording and upload >>

Question

Josh Groban, should I major in piano performance and get an AA?

*ooh sparklies*

Wow

Yer mom did it for you.  I know she's Italian (and Irish.)

Like, wow, did my eyes just pop outta my head?  Gotta make it, eh?

Oh wow

if I were Bella's age, I could act, too.

Bon Voyage!

Ellen DeGeneres has a typical nose like Bella Thorne.  I don't want a nose like that, anymore.  My nose has a more smooth and basic shape.

>>> this

Josh Groban - eek! xp

Welcome!

Welcome to my BlogSpot!

New Blog

I must add.

I am excited to see her.  }:]

Help, I need help.

Ever since I got really upset once and actually hit things, like my sofa, in my room, my aunt's been traveling to see me and does not seem to be doing well.  I think she has done it like 4 times as of soon.  I think she is trying to make me feel uncomfortable, incessively.  She's with my Gramma and will only be here a couple hours this time.

I realize this is inappropriate, but that's how I ended up forming my thoughts and writing.

Also, you'd need to know, she does not claim to read my blog, but my parents know when I do this I recently found, if I scream.  They wouldn't tell her, though.  Some people watch me on a secret camera, though they are far from perfect.  This means she is in on things like this, I just realized.

Bare in mind the sincerity of my post.  WWYD?  You may help me out with next time I write all this about a problem.. people these days sure don't know how to e-mail nor post online with everyone.

I am also concerned they will do something to me for saying she does this "incessively" though it is an honest topic and writing without extra insults to hurt her nor anyone.

She also has visited with my brother all of a sudden, to celebrate his success in college.  I don't want this incessant feeling to be involved with me of secret messages from her, like I need a mom, because I already wanted to be like friends with her before.. this is merely an attack at her disagreements with me, not that I did anything wrong.  Her changing her lifestyle is a suggestive attempt but not quite like this.  I sorta feel at this point it doesn't matter and it may not be exactly "what" is affecting me.  It's a "secret" message with an "excuse."

I almost used the word "shit" in this post, and I am stuck with a secret message from the experimenters that when I reach the end of a line I should think about "me using that word 'to my aunt.'"  She used that word a lot in my presence, I'm enough proud to say.

I am not willing to let it get by that kids younger than me deserve the sweeter and stellar generation as their parental generation without me saying I don't have parents as much, at all.  I will not be raised at age 28 by backwards people who had their chance with me.  There are boundaries for people like that.  You want me to be your parental figure for you?  Then, you listen!  You think what you do doesn't mean anything to anyone.  That's all that seems to count, what you really mean.  Everyone has a chance.  No one agrees with this.  I do agree we need to be nice to older people, but there's something about people born around 1950.  Some older people have things, too.

You know, I was with a lady and her granddaughter, I'm pretty sure, maybe Italian or possibly Spanish, and I didn't shave and someone thought I misbehaved recently, and she said, "You will not watch me undress."  Now, people are all over like I did something, but I didn't.  My life is horrible.  I like to shave, but the meds make me tired and forgetful probably.

Also, these people experimenting on my just denied me, again, like I'm no good.  I can express what I think.  It comes on as a splash of inappropriateness, and you probably know what I'd say.

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Laughed So Hard

at Ellen in the ride.

I remember it was because once "the program" for her was school, and for us nothing works.  Nothing makes anyone like people around my age.

I realized in the 20s you could just go out to town and people would say that's what you're supposed to do.  I'm listening to jazz singing.  There's no, "Are you really European?" etc.

Instagram

Vine

Someone tell me if this is legal.

Or go buy it..?

It is the best example of music I can think of.  The singing after has good moments.

In like 2 minutes

I read the sample prologue of Miss Peregrine and the Peculiar Children, which Tim Burton is releasing I think for Christmas.

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Movie Record

Watching a Movie and Going to Bed

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005)

Edit

I added a start time for the Tubular Bells dance on YouTube: link.

I watched

some of Ellen today with Emma Stone.

My, she's getting older.  )':  Still is there for the "kids" or teens rather.

Problem

People are all trashing me and stuff like it's the ABCs.

I'm tired

of seeing people just be mean to me like I'm a bad person when they're lying and invasive and doing it for their own pleasure.

Problem

People in Orlando can't get enough of calling me Asian when I don't like it. Making fun of me.  Pretending to mimic me.  Going around coming up with jokes.

I'm gonna look into Irish Dancing

I'm busy with my money @ Disney, though, but I'd like to know about my options.

Doesn't my

Mike Oldfield vid look like Pirates?

Me

More

I could dance like the folk dancers form 1975.

This 1's new (01:08) :

I feel like my life is backwards.

Enjoy Disney now.

Racism

I've never seen anything so beautiful like this!



Reminds me of when I was a little girl.

IMDb - Politics

Re: Fear of appearing racist carries a real danger to the community

No one labels me by my mother's race (Asian.. Chinese.) 

Same with Native American indian. 

I don't mind Jewish. It's better than Italian and more Europeanized and is Caucasian.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Is anyone here both Asian and Native American?

Is being Native American overrated?

I am definitely

still growing and developing.  I don't sit in my room and read, I post on my blog, on message boards, I go out and go to the movies and watch TV, and I post on the most popular boards online.

Even if your life is messed up

The way I fixed my brother's is how I hope I can have a child with a better life than I had socially and behavior-wise.

IMDb

Ellen DeGeneres

Yea, I guess she has some tender spots to her career and success. That's nice to know cuz we're like all worked up and don't even know if we should watch the show.

You might think

Late Boomers did something better, but it was made to be that way for them.

People want to dispose of me

but change and morph others into me and better.

Why do people

attack me and tell me I'm "what" I get from my parents and it's shitty shit shit?  I don't like how they come on sometimes.

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Height: 5'4"

What pleasure do you have

in showing off how you feel comforted so much and showing off to kids they were bad.. but then also there's people like me who didn't do anything who you never give a chance while you give others a chance?

WHO - ARE - YOU

I don't want to be Ellen DeGeneres's Charlie Bucket.

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Why do

adults say they do things bad kids do?

I refuse to believe

that acting edgy is the only way to arouse someone.

The only chocolates I can take

are assorted chocolates.

Did I tell you about

yes I did sometime .. kids at school are told not to worry about the past?

If an iKid

messes up, they feel in control and comforted.

Cool

Johnny Depp looks like he's on Logan's Run as Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory.

Even in

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, those Generation Z kids are not treated as well as the comforts Johnny Depp has.

So

Don't listen to adults.  They don't really care about us.  They might act like it's okay sometimes but tacky.  Look at the downward spiral of our lives at present and nearer past.

All These Kids

Getting in trouble for being like those 2 friends who would not write back nor say why they stopped posting to me.

Why I Might Not Dye My Hair

I think it could get natural highlights.  I wish I were prettier, not sure what's wrong, maybe time will tell.

You know, I didn't get accepted by talent agencies.  I guess they want the ugly girls whose skin is stretched by bone.

I just don't get it.

I would love my children a lot and they would be successful with a successful momma.  I just am not in a position to dislike if someone else came along.  No pointing fingers here.  It's just something that ALWAYS is.  The only reason I decided to have a daughter was to recreate who I never could be cuz of how old I was.

Sad

The supposition of racial mixing.  If dad can burst a vessel, so can little girly.

Why am I

not a winner do to external judgement, like age, where my parents are from..

Now

Remember the scene when Willy Wonka eats the smashed up caterpillars?  All the boys think that means that cool part means only they are cool.

1st fake organ made

Made

People in the movie mildly attractive, naw, but a big name in Hollywood like Johnny Depp, yea.

So

It's not better to be doing nothing but to have some or enough time to relax.

Hard Being a Depp Fan

When you're a Burton fan.  I got fat.

I guess

Johnny Depp had to stay on his acting schedule, could not mosey @ watching his old stuff.

I bet the graphics

were a lotta work-

"Quirky Situations, Mild Action and Language"

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory..

They think it's quirky for someone else to be cool than just Late Boomers and their kids born in 1997-8.

On My Own

Speak now or forever hold your peace.

IMDb - The Soapbox

I miss my old besties and their parents etc.

Why not talk to me? I sent them a lotta helpful e-mails before, got them to stop talking to me.

Some wonder

is it wrong to pleasure Late Boomers, tho?  It's wrong to just pleasure them and not according to who someone is apart from age.

Think tho how much more comfortable it is for Late Boomers and their daughters.  Like, they don't feel as humiliated.

So

Ellen, I guess some people have problems and our thoughts keep going, like we have extra thoughts, like we're old Chinese people.

What would you call it?

A personal hicky?

Not pointing fingers at any 1.

Why

to make someone feel welcome would only certain people have to make up something like this for others?

See..

With the bitch comes the pup.

Well

It's a big topic for me most of my life.  You can chose to believe certain things.  I said, I'm not pointing fingers.  I don't see why there'd usually be anything wrong with that.  I'm sure this is done.  I'm not sure how loved I am with how dark my hair is now.  It was too dark and straight when I was a little girl.

Isn't there a thing

where it comes up on the Ellen show?  I watch it most days..

Okay

No, I don't make Late Boomers, or people born around 1960, "feel good" about being too young to have to have had kids my age.  It's just something I do in general, not pointing fingers.

Ha ha!  How ^important^ could it be for select individuals?  Chose by age!  Another, sorting not by personality but things like race and age!

Sometimes

Once or Twice is what does it..

Blonde Teenage Girls

Interesting Blonde Teenage Girls

Message

to Ellen DeGeneres

I don't see how I deserve to watch you.  That spark I have is nothing.

Am I even legal to live?

Babies were so fat and unloved when I was little.

But

Did Brittany go up north more but fling LA aside

What do you think?

PA is not a key state.  Try NY, I have blood there.  I don't care @ NYC.

PA is full of mad indians.

I see.

Brittany likes where up north her family is from.  Well, mine are closer to Ellen's city's ancestors, though I like the state her relatives live in.

Look at this.

It's Brittany Snow!

link

Noticed

So, whatever the creative reason, Elln put Brittany Snow from Florida on the far side with 3 people and Chloe Moretz close to her with 3 other people, the other 2 being more romantic, and Chloe is from Georgia.  I don't know what to feel about that except that it doesn't matter and wouldn't for anyone unless they were her daughter.  I would just think Brittany Snow would be put closer and Chloe Moretz farther.  I do want to go up north or travel around Florida.  Being up north rather than Florida is a benefit.  I am not quite sure why we're here.  It was supposedly the only place my dad could find a good enough job.  I live in Disney World, though..  Otherwise, it's for the beach.  I was born here, and it's a dream.  I am sad it is so small, maybe most people don't wish to "relocate."  I saw people like in NY who don't know how harsh and evil and violent it is in Orlando.  What did little Chloe Moretz do that Brittany Snow did not?  Now, I really need to go up north!  D':  It's better in some and many ways.  If you like and worship the sun like me, you have another side that feels the cold and coming snow is more "human."  I almost feel it's an insult to me what she did.  She probably thought up some reason and attached it to it.  I already said I think I see it doesn't matter, but I mean it doesn't make sense and it does matter when there's a situation.  I'm not complaining saying don't do it but rather find it very interesting.  Interesting to know why.  I think it's just about who's more Southern.  Sadly, it's not like you know older people when you get outta school with teachers and such, it seems.  Maybe, sitting close to Ellen for a little while was not a list of 100 things to do before you die, dunno.  I know sparks would fly.  I dunno.  It doesn't make sense.  Maybe, it was a rapport of maybe again someday like 10 years prior.  I need to watch that clip.  No harm intended, just wondering why Brittany was placed far away, like anyone from Florida would be who has northern parents, which I have 1 and 1 non-Caucasian.  I've seen Latinos get it with Ellen, I feel.  So..

There are like

9 15 minute videos of Ellen singing.  I prefer Josh Groban.  So much!  Too much!  Seriously, I have to do it by steps I may forget now.

I'd like to know

Ellen hates brunettes?  No, some are better than some blondes, that's for sure.  I'm serious, mathematically.  Not making up a fight.

Funny

Nothing about independence spells Ellen DeGeneres.  Wonder what her look-alikes do.

The joke is that I thought me being upset about what she did secretly to me was my independent responsibility to handle sanely.. and what I write on my blog is what I write.  It should not be mean but was frustration or shoulda been.  I hope that people wish I have a silver lining in the clouds.  I mean, my frustration was not silver linings.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: Watched a talkshow, tonight's theme being 'dating' and sure enough t

Yea, the next generation needs to learn to cope in the world.  

The people a bit younger "need to hit Hollywood" straight on.

People

Cheaply pick on me for cheap reasons.  I was inspired, sorry.

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Different Old Pix of Me on that page.

Me Singing

This is interesting.

I am giving up money I don't have to act and can't seem to settle a nice life with a job and be productive as much at the same time.

I found average rates for an extra is like $850/day and commercials maybe $2,000.

The acting is more responsive than being a singer, which is hard to get sponsored at all it seems unless you've been taking lessons and have a developed voice.  I can't afford a good teacher and use my money to go to Disney since that's where I live now.

Contacted by an Agent

Don't have money upfront, options:

-no agent, pay less per month, don't know where
-agent $199/yr, $119/6 months, $69.90/3 months

I get paid the 1st.  She'll call then.

People expect you to be too perfect

and put you in harsh settings.  They got what they asked for.  I'll never make it.