I feel like I've been made to hurt myself. I also feel made fun of that it was possible and that some people wouldn't care, that some people can't be hurt like that, psychiatrically. I mean the way my body is working. This has gone on awhile. It could have been interesting, but the people in the area are so critical of me. They just want to make me feel guilty because I went on my big break, though they probably bothered me, before, as much.