Monday, August 31, 2015

Messed Up

Dr. Phil thinks feeling warm fuzzies is weakness and slated it on representation of the US.

Issue

Should I be considered on Ellen's side?  She seems to be into making people feel bad for things they did that they didn't know were so bad or just like that with me to find something to get mad about.  Why dig into someone's past as a kid, when what they did wasn't flat out wrong supposedly?  You can tell if a person is good or bad.  People expect too much of us, we're bound to mess up.  They frame you to have these things happen.. not sure how to fix it when under this influence.  If you were bad as a kid, tho, other kids will be mad.  Don't expect it to be cool with them to be treated that way still, too.

Issue

I can't see Ellen doing this to anyone else.

Problem

Why did Ellen think I would do everything Bella Thorne wants if she's wrong?

cont.

She found great fault in me.  I did things that weren't really bad, and she got really mad.

Record Deal

I just e-mailed like a dozen people in Orlando that O Waly Waly from yesterday.

Edged on in This..

Ellen hates me so much.

My dad made me a schizophrenic by accident.

He wouldn't let me have a personality where sometimes it's playing like it's bad, like sticking out my tongue at the camera, tho I do everything I'm supposed to.

Easy Street

"I'm not stupid," but I see Ellen is giving the loveable yet in a way seen as cantankerous Bella Thorne an easy time, "race, not a problem, I know she's white."  I just found it interesting.  Um, it seems like a big thing.

How would you feel if being mean to you were the thing that made this all possible?

I think Bella Thorne is an intelligent young woman.  I don't really like how things for her aren't what she would find generally ideal.  I'm not here to hog anything that seems like I'm better in a bad way from Ellen.  Ellen still seems to have feelings my way, then I'd have to admit.  It's not nil.

Ha ha, I guess this means I'm on top, compared to Ellen, don't have issues with racial diversity.  It's like she was when someone else was a little kid, having funny tantrums over race, so funny!  She is having a hard time accepting she was wrong.  She has black people on her show because black people watch, not cuz she likes them, tho I'm not saying she's KKK.

New Old Pictures of Me



What I Don't Need

to be made a paranoid schizophrenic

That's what my psych meds are for.

They are acting like I need to worry about some stuff too much.

To Be Quiet?

I don't know why you all are so picky about what I write.

I'd rather prepare for Ellen rather than not think about it.  She doesn't talk about how important it is we act but acts like she did, LOL.. acts like we should without telling us.  Tho, it's supposed to be hard, she hints with maybe no help in at least some cases.

Question

How would you like to be unaccepted by Ellen?  I'm just posing the question to prevent it from happening to others and because it's an interesting topic.

You shouldn't go out of your way to be disagreeable.  What's there to be disagreeable about?  Just acknowledge her and go.  Acknowledge her without acting like a smart aleck.  I'm just giving a general suggestion.

Twitter

I need to follow more famous people.

Helping Other People's Children

If I donated money to help children, would it still be tainted?

Younger Moms/Dads

What do you think of how minorities have younger parents?

Why?

Why wouldn't people accept me in Northern Europe?  Some game?  I'm not gonna dis Ellen, but I think that's why.  She probably told them to not.  They kinda invaded me and acted like in privacy all I did was cheap public basking.  I didn't make any advances.  What's there to say no to and unable me with while enabling others, in place tho?  That's pretty "twisted" and weird.

Pages: Me Online

Babbel

Issue

I'm not "bad" around Hollywood cuza Ellen.  *sneers*

This could cause problems.

People taking advantage of me.

Going on Twitter

watching famous people

is like wiping a sick person's butt in the hospital

you don't wanna look

IMDb - The Soapbox

Does anyone go on Twitter? All the celebs are there.

🐣 

Problem

I guess normal things make other people mad.

Why do people act like there's someone ugly behind what I write?

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: If you were suddenly time traveled back to the year 2002?

I'd take the following classes at my public high school and graduate early:

1-English IV AP/G
2-American History H
3-Health/Free Enterprise
4-Extra: Talented Theater
5-
6-
7-
Activities- Ballet, Singing

College- Loyola University New Orleans - Singing + Ballet 

I was gonna go with okay..

..so Bella is in my life, but I know it's to be mean to me.

Testing Me

My dad is testing me trying to say I do not work to amount to anything..

Sneering at Me Constantly!

Bella is always sneering at me freely about if I get to do or do something cool.  How childish.

Why

No one else does that.

Problem

So, Northern Europe accepts Bella Thorne just to hurt me and not accept me because Ellen has issues.  She is not mean and unfair to Bella Thorne.  How can this be?  I'm already on an international dating site.  What made me really "lose out" in life??

Problem

Why are you here bothering me all the time!  You're taking all the things I live for!!

New Message

Bella Thorne is accepted and not me?  In Northern Europe?  That's not right.  I did the work and was interested.  You can't "feed" this to others.

"Attention-Getting"

Bella Thorne is turning into an "attention-getter," one of those people who invite themselves into getting attention when others aren't talking to them for some reason.  I don't care if that's what Ellen wants.  It's wrong.  That's Bella's excuse.  Ellen does it "secretly."

She can get attention, but she is like shoving people out of the way and making things linger on her.

I thought my life concerned myself, not just Bella Thorne.  "Is that so much to ask," tho??

I didn't say anything wrong, just factual things.  I guess I am wondering about the issue in general but more specifically why this is more and more for her.

I'm a good person.  It isn't really right to take from me in "sneaky" ways.

Identification as a White Person

No one has a right to identify me as not white.  Who did this??

cont.

"Sweden, Denmark, Norway and Finland"

I would like this.

(http://www.nofomaster.net)

But is it too late?

A Nordic Master of Folk Music

Misguided

I seem to have been given a life that was unaccepted.

Secretly Sneaky

I posted my photos without makeup thinking we could have fun but it seems to be the sissy excuse for me to be able to be misjudged in any facet of life without turning off.

Problem

I feel like everyone has been testing me and treating me inappropriately.

I don't see them having to do this.  I don't need to be put in place.

Issue

I can feel Ellen making fun of my singing having feeling.. and it's important.  Why should I listen to someone who does things like that to me??

I know I know

I know what Johnny Depp messed with about Florida.  He reveals the toilet.  (He doesn't let you think to settle and not look silly.)

Why..

..is Bella Thorne fighting me?  She is trying to k*** me.  Not totally unexpected.

Problem

Why do people say I suck so I get to do whatever I want to you?
International Cupid

Problem

I'm not here to fight about *beep*!

Sunday, August 30, 2015

Cheap

Racist
Ello

Upset

You're just joking around trying to get me to give in because I like someone who's supposedly mean to me,
eBay

Asians vs.Whites

Asians are treated more harshly than whites if they are sad they weren't a cheerleader, for example.  Life over!  But the whites get accepted, even if they seem to be in the same situation.

Dad

What if my dad is tested and we find "what" is so good about having his genes is his race-HA!

Help!

These people or someone really thinks I'm *beep*.

"Get over it!"

I get over things, but apparently you all do not.

Page: Me Online

YouTube
MySpace
g+

Stormfront
Eurasian Nation

Backstage
Shaun the Sheep

Nope..

I don't appreciate being told I'm bad like someone else and deserve what they did.

What?

If we're talking about the past and I'm okay now, then what are we doing?  This is sick.  I am not bad.  My dad is a racist.

I can't just have a bad life and people getting into weird things with me.

I bet they are out to get me, just racist, nothing that bad.  I am aware how something might seem bad.

Fight

So you won'ts stop fighting cuz I already told you to agree to disagree.

Why:

I came home from college and eventually locked myself in my room eating unhealthily.

I got on psych meds I don't need.

"What ails you?"

Why do I feel like I'm ailing?

I'm clearly not here to fight.

Just make life okay without feeling it's weird like others.  I could help sick people.

What a Waste

They are prolonging hurting me.  I am not even a bad person!  So what if I was upset by Ellen doing illegal/hurtful things?  She didn't have to act like she did it.  Why is it such a big deal, now?  Aren't there plenty of other things to do?

Bad Rep

"Everyone and their brother/mother" is against me.  I was lied about, and Ellen accepted it.

I don't really know who nor "what" to expect did it anymore.

Nope

I don't like being told I'm bad all the time.

It's not right.

That's taking a step in the wrong direction.

I hope if you do this you can't find fault in what I wrote.

Page: Me Online

YouTube

Aftermath

I'm just concerned and it's a part of my life so I'm posting about it.

Invasion

They are putting people in my life and others's and in ways I don't like when I prefer not to, simply.  I'm more worried it's the influx of unending punishment for bad reasons.

They are basically saying I am incapable of learning to live my life and that I cannot judge out of all the nonfamous people in this world the ones I would like.  I wanted to be famous, too, tho, but I keep having problems, like not getting called back by any agencies at all, getting on meds after going to the mental hospital.

They are saying that we need to mingle with weird, famous people..  Wait until the mother bear comes, so-to-speak.  I know this does not happen to everyone!

I am a good person!  So what if I cursed about being hurt?  It was something illegal.  Why are we celebrating it and to this day?  No one said any reason to stop while I did it, like they had it planned all along to have fun trashing me, not like they don't.  There are other reasons people are mad at me that aren't really bad of me..

Also, people are trying to get me stimulated in ways I don't really want to be.

Why..

do you keep doing things I'm not supposed to do that hurt me?

Is it really discrimination?

Is it really discrimination that Ellen has a reason not to invite talented teens and young adults on her show if they aren't like a band or celebrity/yet?  I mean, is it discriminating anyone as in are there a lot of contendents?

I think this is between Spain + France!

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Ooh! A non-Hispanic in Spain

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Fair Spanish Girls Tend..

..to be very rapid, energetic, and critical.

Fair Spanish Girl

link

Cool Girl

link

Even in Good People..

..they act like you did all these bad things you didn't really know about.

Being Considered Cool

Because another person exists with parent/s from another country, I can't be considered cool.

New Audio of Me Singing

The end is just instrumental.

Funny

We can accept art in the media to our imagination because you could not go so far as to say we can't be in an animation studio, ourselves..

TV

I changed from the bathroom channel to hot tubs, which even means less art involved but the big picture lovely.

I'm excited to get underway

and make a family if people I like for activity don't like me back.

Play

I'm trying to be some sort of fairy.

Unmistaken

You pretend you don't make a mistake and pretend it does or doesn't matter.

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Re: best genes

probably someone with straight natural blonde hair with a good physical shape 

Oh no

You're not better than me cuz you're born in the 1960s.

Not Ready?

I'm ready to raise my kid partly of the world and partly my own way, to naturally chose to have a boy and a girl right after, less than a year apart.

In a way, I wanna be involved in the world and not my children.

Even less

do I ^want^ a husband.

Is she the one?

Ellen should make Germanic-looking American boys crack?  Whoever does, aside from that fact, isn't that inappropriate to do to anyone?  That's why I don't do it to others.

1950

Who gave up the most for 1950?  Me!  My dad is born in July 1950.

TV

Nutri Ninja for like the 30th time!

Smorgasbord?

Why are some men born around 1950 so intent on affecting "their children" without the women getting in the way?  Smorgasbord?

"Are you my mother?"

I can think like I'm your mother.

Why would you not do the thing that you wanna do to not have to do it after having ventured to do it, in fear you won't be able to do it long?

Untrue

I found that old people don't know what they're talking about in sitting there wondering about things ethically too much or just punishing people you hate right and left about if what they did was not bad was closely related to anything.

What would you do?

How would you decide to joke around about how much someone thinks you're cool who's at some lack, small or big?  It's still a topic.  Each topic is taken into consideration as should be.

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Re: Since spirits, ghosts and demons clearly do not exist...

No, they should see a lawyer cuz I've seen a ghost recently and "spirits." The ghost looked like a person, not a sheet, and it was light blue, kinda like a cartoon boy, taller than me. I was at my Gramma's house up north for the 1st time since I was 15.

They also kept me from thinking straight and my otherwise futile attempts at studying.

My Website

My Website

if you haven't seen it since I combined my old blogs

Dragging On

People are just living life dragging their feet around with *possibilities* only for kids.  They're set in motion for whatever "work" is to some of the more "outgoing" ones in public.

To Fix Life

I need more shelves or some creative way of surviving.

I feel I can't even think, let alone decide on an oboe.  Where would I put it??  I have a music stand I've been using sometimes for singing set up for singing.

I guess I'm happy for Bella..

..nothing comes out of asking others for something they wouldn't already give you.

Something Funny

My left leg muscle hurts when I press it.  I hope I don't need muscle surgery, but I'll sit this one out, too.

Music

Music teaches great discipline, esp. in a band or orchestra.  You can get sounds no one has even heard of!

Cute Boys

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Naomi Watts


link


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link


link

When Titanic went down

so went the "cute" boys with it.

A Chance at Life

If I had anything I wanted, I would have been very attractive and approved of as a white person, fact!

Babies

Are babies stamped in time what their parents were like when they were little/born?

Dating Sites..

Dating Sites..

Why aren't there any that seem to work??  Like search for boys all over the world.

Les Miz

I missed the auditions for Les Miz thinking I'd get in a movie, but I didn't, and it was a big thing.

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Re: Why is it considered racist to oppose illegal immigration?

I wonder why Europeans enstrange some Americans so much. I feel less enstranged than my dad! And I'm 1/2 Asian. 

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What year did you start posting online + e-mail + your age/DOB?

online: 
e-mail:
age/DOB:

online: 2007
e-mail: 1998
age/DOB: 29/1986 

Cold..

Cold water is a necessity and a delicacy.

I was at the Frozen Sing Along, and they said Scandinavians were in the ice business.. like ice for cold drinks delivered.  They probably have had it good for a very, very, long, long time.

Boys

I'm attracted to both somewhat younger and older boys, often.

Unattractive

It's an insult to others to find that someone is attractive in ways they aren't, rather than their or someone else's responsibility or situation.

Manipulation

People born in 1950 live to manipulate those younger, and people a bit younger live to manipulate their babies.

It's all mighty unpleasant and nonsensical.

"Outta Sight" but Not "Outta Mind"

People act like their childhood experience would be colossal in Florida.

Kinds of "Love"

Do some people think that life is about all exchanging motherly and daughterly love with nothing in the middle?

Sheltered

Ellen grew up with New Orleanians being fed everything she needed at every moment to come up with the right answer, when she would be inquired upon.  Like a baby.  Probably "developed" late, actually.

Stereotypes

It's easy to stereotype Jackie Evancho, Taylor Swift, Christina Aguilera.. somewhat nerdy with white hair from Pennsylvania.

Did you realize that girls think "nerds" are like the cutest?  It doesn't mean you should wear glasses.

Ellen

Ellen was surrounded by love and pleasure, as a child, everywhere she turned.  That's "what" she does for us, gets "pleasured."

She was a lot cuter in the pictures with mostly/all white hair..

"Not a Toy"

I'm not the toy you can enjoy just because you're not Marilyn Monroe nor like another "successful" celebrity.

Like, messing with me is the reward for not being famous.

A Piece of Trash

I'm considered a piece of trash who needs other people to pleasure her, even fundamentally.

Loonies

Wanting me to pamper their younger kids.

Twitter

I'm not listening to someone who waits for someone else to listen to other than me.

Looks like you had something..

Pennsylvania and L.A.

Trouble

Why is it a thing to say I get that that I'm in trouble cuz I'm not!  Everyone isn't in trouble!

Remembered!

I feel so much better after having a sandwich!  Glad I finally got some cold cuts!

Wronging Others

You just act like each young person has to have a fault so you can get off not doing anything you're supposed to do.  You're not getting past me on this one nor getting the "best"/"popular" people to agree with you.

What do you have to lose?

What's anyone who's given approval got to lose?

You can just sit there, thinking only someone else deserves to be in trouble and saying "no" to others bettering themselves, only to make yourself seem to fit in in ways no one even should.

No!

You can't be the one in the right and not me!

Saturday, August 29, 2015

Bad Punishments

You can't degrade people just because you intend for them to feel that way and say it's a punishment they deserve.

People don't do things thinking it's for bad people.  They have to be made happy.

A Lack

I ended up terribly lacking in this experiment.

Racism

They are mean in New Orleans now, not accepting anyone who's not white like they're bad, going deep..  It's what sparks the collective conclusion.

Aha ha ha

On TV, they acted like a black girl who wanted to live as white had a ^problem^.  You can't judge someone because of what their parents are.

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Re: Why is it considered racist to oppose illegal immigration?

It sounds like no one is on my side except "the odd one out." Most people believe in racism because it will at least affect someone else of a minority race, like getting back at their own kind.

I prefer to be called white > I accept you as white. 

Re: Why is it considered racist to oppose illegal immigration?

It kinda affects me more cuz as a 1/2 Chinese/Asian-Indonesian, people all want Indonesian but not the people in it unless they bow down to them..

I didn't do anything illegal! I was born in Southeastern Florida. 

Re: Why is it considered racist to oppose illegal immigration?

No one believes in segregating partly because of things like mixed race and its value when you find a good one, like Johnny Depp. 

More

They think my life is not in limbo and I have to suffer because of my dad, when I said, "Oh, no," when he came home about not finishing my homework.

Guess what I found?

In the TV show about Katrina from November 2005 I found they said "Bella Thorne" and "Spanish."  They like them over me cuz they're from a hot climate and New Orleans is very French.

Bella Thorne started acting in something big I know I think 2011.

Racism

I was accepted as a person despite my race.  I know that other people seem like screeching and howling maniacs about race with nothing to offer at the table.  That's not good because if they had nothing to offer they shoulda gone white, problem solved, nothing to miss.  About the misbehavior, I feel it has been something I've had to pay for.

Becoming Famous

So, people think you have to be self-centered to be in Hollywood.  Some people are raised to be that way.

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Re: Why is it considered racist to oppose illegal immigration?

You mean like disciplining them? I bet people from Europe have come here more welcome but not recognizedto be so compared to others, even. 

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Re: Why is it considered racist to oppose illegal immigration?

For the same reason why it's considered anti semitic to speak against Israel.

I believe it's called "political correctness".

Re: Why is it considered racist to oppose illegal immigration?

They sound like they built their life around beating other races down and into violence.

29/f/Orlando

TV

Katrina

They all were thrown *beep* at when they had to disperse from Katrina and people who lived there who were moving up but have no ancestry there.

Like, all you people getting mad at how I think and even thinking I can suddenly in trouble are bad.

Point

Why do people wake up when they find someone of a lesser race has it more together emotionally and ***ually and say, "No, I have to remain on top."

I also see..

..my dad has trashed what I learned in New Orleans and wants me to do stupid things because he's not from the South like me.

Problem

I'm watching a talk from Hurricane Katrina time in New Orleans, and I found "everyone knew" I was really ^punished^.  My dad ran around like Mighty Mouse and went and made sure no on in the world would "accept" me.  This is for saying, "Oh, no," when my dad came home.  He didn't say anything, so maybe he had a reason.  I wasn't done with my homework.  He should've asked why I said that cuz he knows I'm good and was a hard worker.

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Re: Why is it considered racist to oppose illegal immigration?

Because people turn on too much to the opportunity to say something bad about another race. 

I've made the decision.

On Try Food Lovers, the commercial show, a lady who looks like Ellen knows somehow that I'm not accepted by Ellen-look-alikes just for being mad and hitting things.. after she acknowledges that she opens her arms up wide saying she's almost 70.

Me Today

2:40

Problem

You can't flip me out because Johnny Depp "changed the world."

TV

Managing Asia

Here's greatness for you!

Is Bella Thorne the crowned leader exemplified for Latin Americans?

She makes a wrong move, it gets fixed.

I know..

..she doesn't deal with her identity as a Latin American in addition to a white American.

Americans Messing Up Nonwhites

Americans mess up the English accent of people who are not white who know it in the English accent.

Question

Why does Dr. Phil act like he's doing a favor by not "achieving"/"reaching" something, like in a way you want/prefer to be European?  He acts like he coulda beat the whole world and Johnny Depp, but he, like others of his wishful league, said you or you all wanted not to be cool so he decided to do what he did for you.

Europeans

It seems they get excited when they get to show off next to someone who's not European, like m********ing or having an o*****.

Me

Way too old and old-seeming to have a baby, plus on psych meds which affected my hormones and female thing.

Me

I still get treated like I'm a kid in some ways.  How is that?  It's probably that thing I've been saving somewhat subconsciously.

Interests

I am interested in being an oboist, but I also think surgery is a good field - ER, tech/engineering.  We need more in healthcare, including exercise programs and knowledge of things like the vitamin extracting blenders.

I don't make dumb mistakes.

Anyone of any ethnicity would want to move to a cold part of the mainland.

I could shoot for Italy, but I'll just know someone else made it up north.

TV - Healthcare in China

It's very demanding.  Those on top look good.

An obese lady's husband is set to die in 10 days.

A work looking woman has an ill, baby-looking 2-year-old, I think girl.

TV

Healthcare in China

Did it bother you?

Ellen - making dreams come true

I didn't expect to be so discovered so many times, but it came about as infamy, an insult.  Somehow, maybe because of Ellen saying I'm cool, I was given a chance.

Bella Thorne "comes along," I followed her online.  I often said people/she likes to act like she's your friend to get ahead and leave you in the dust with more points for her.

I was fortunate to see some wild animals which I'd hope is just one in a million, and it seemed like they were talking to me, like on TV.

Now, people, also go around the world to other civilizations.  Bella is in the lead, and things are going.

Ellen does not think what she did to me was right, but upholds me to things, like thinking it was fair.  Bella's dreams are coming true, and for some reason it's as though she always wanted this.  I didn't really get this.  She didn't seem into Ellen's kinda melancholy, nostalgic stereotype until she got on Shake It Up.  She used to have 2 obediently following cute, "beady" eyes, a strangely flattened face, and more of a stub nose.

It looks like Bella took on the stereotype by storm.  I don't know if her dream "beats out" that of all others in relation to Ellen.

So, I'm in trouble, and now it's an easy package to "hand over" to Bella.

I figured it out.

People from Pennsylvania yearn to be rescued to another state in the U.S.

Problem

They are acting like suddenly I can't meet prestigious people.

Music

I find I am back where I started.. I wanna play an instrument, maybe oboe.  You have to make it your life.

I wanna play for musicals etc. but also wanna still sing and dance.  Maybe I can act or host a show or something when I'm older.

Misjudging Me

People are acting like I'm perverted cuz they're insecure.

Disclaimer

I'm not making a big picture of Ellen being upset at me, just saying she really smiled as she sorta tossed me aside.  Who knows why?  I can't do that and get away with it.

I'm not trying to fight..

..I just wanted to talk about it in case I had an interested audience.

More

Big things happened because I was lonely and kept e-mailing people who did not respond.  I felt suicidal. Not technically, but you know, crazy.

My life was pretty flawless.  I went on a break, and these things were made into big topics to go by.

"Consequence.."

Make my life hard and beat me up for it, people in general.

Did you know there are signs in movies and Disney World?  It's followed suit that Bella Thorne gets *** and I get dis'd with *beep*.  They are putting me with/as various people I do not want, the secret messages, which may be inappropriate in a way to talk about.

It's a pretty big thing.  They don't care.

Just giving the inside look.

Judging People

Do you know the stupid things people think are wrong with me?  It doesn't matter, anymore.  My life was ruined.  I didn't do anything mean nor illegal.

Why does Ellen suggest younger people and more "unattractive" older people in general are prey to her judgement of not being good enough?

She really trashed me with a smile, at 1st.  I don't really take that from anyone.  So, I felt upset about it.  In the end, she acted overbearing over me, without much success.  The world was against me cuz I thought someone wanted me to call someone the N word.  I'm just an entity to her she trashed with a smile over and over.

Then, I must add, there are illegal hurtful noises in my room and I cursed about them.  She acted like she did it.  I cursed at my dad cuz that was Ellen's excuse for hating me.  I cursed at her a little then, bleeped it out mostly probably, but this was out of a lot of being annoyed.  I turn around, and my life's over.

I'm just delivering the 411.

My life is downsized because of others who hate me.

Friday, August 28, 2015

Music vs..

They care about what regular people in classical music/musical theater/etc. think more than most people.  When it comes to real life, it's acting.

Audios of Me @ Disney


New Picture of Me

:D

Well, nighty night!

Responsible

I feel I am responsible someone does not feel inappropriate things, but I'm not in control of the world.

Thursday, August 27, 2015

And I know..

..the US is very mixed.

I just don't..

..like acting like I have paranoia schizophrenia, cuz I have it!

May I suggest..

..shaping up?

Well, the problem..

..is as an American I tried to be European, and all I can get from that is I have European heritage from my mom.  People all want me not to get it, bu they can.

Late Boomers

Is it just Late Boomers that can be assertive or is it something to do with it's always a person your directing your thoughts towards, which it simply isn't.

Fair and Thin

Being skinny and fair young seems like the thing to do.

Ha Ha

and you're probably glad I was inspired by that Irish singing I just posted.  Why is that the one country we're all tired of here?  Ha ha.

Well

It's time.  You need to accept my mom is not from America and people from Europe are interested in my life experience.  Why are you getting in the way now when yes I was so nice to you??

Ellen's dad I read isn't American.  You all reserve interest in her, whereas before you were respectful to people around my age.

I know people from old America are prestigious, and by now you probably know that's what people support and want of "Europeans."  Americans probably identify themselves as European and their bubble is going to burst and the things they did in vein against their fellow countrymen..

Give it a rest!

I'm watching the juicing commercial show and they keep talking like this is the boy with fungus on his nails with a dad born in 1950.  It won't stop.  They won't "shut up."

I guess they're just on a roll.  I didn't notice this before.

cont.

Need/Can I say more?

Problem

No, I'll just say I'm not bad and you're basically a liar.

Problems

Why am I just seeing my life go?

It's that again.

Tim Burton and Johnny Depp made the world racist and it's affected me a lot.  I also moved to a racist place.

I used to just be a normal person.  I was literally pulled from my world and unhelped.

Dr. Phil

I'm not stupid, but Dr. Phil tried to make me feel how I didn't want to feel from anyone.  Proves what I've been thinking, that he has an issue.  I just feel like he was really mad.  He needs to get out.

Plus, he was just making fun of me.

To get to the point, I think there's some thing going where he wants to unwantingly stimulate people who are just innocent in the crowd or who think they can make it as a true #1, rather than just any popular people.

I don't like what was contagious/caught on about/from him and I dedicated myself to giving his show a chance, but it's just too much time.  I heard he took off his videos online, but I don't believe that.

He needs to take his own advice he adamantly gives on his show to boyfriends.

If people want to know, I'm not that kinda person more than others.

I don't see why people are just blindly pushing me without looking nor thinking.

I feel threatened.

Feelings

If you don't wanna be outsmarted, don't draw the wrong kind of attention and get the right kind.

Wow!

Another Example


Guess folk singers in their prime are better..  Opera singers are in their prime in their 40s.

Girl Singer



Notice, she looks like she's older than me in how she moves and acts, probably copying cool adults who are younger than my parents.

Dark Hair

I figured that with people with very dark hair it's like with race, they want people who accept they're not fair.  They don't care if you're attractive.

Korean Folk Singing - Kid

Bathroom

I was thinking if you don't feel like going to the bathroom, then don't.  That'll be when you hold it.

Dr. Phil

Why would he prevent you from identifying how you want and pursue you and try to surround you with a sensation unwanted?  How do these decisions get made?

I just saw him show up in Entertainment TV and he spread a sensation of feeling off.

I think he's a cool guy with a cool show who needs to focus on it better.. but he seemed to influence my moving on to not work out on the onset, according to plan, with someone I like.  He also seems to have then pursued me like there's something wrong with me, which is what  upset me.

I auditioned..

..didn't know it was a capella.

I coulda submitted online but was convinced not to.

I am so jealous. - Yesterday

Getting Ahead, Some

Are white people bad or knocked out to be bad?  Black people are always there like they were able to follow out of pity.

What?

I see people on TV acting like I'm a monster of badness like they're all refined.

Your Inspiration

What happened along the road that was funny that made you wanna be an attractive talk show host??

I thought of a lot of things that weren't quite it: be popular.. I could be an actor to do that.. in the end it was about being available to people and I guess what led me 1stly was to be competent emotionally and active.  Think of how special you are to each person.  I could really meet people who count in my life, yay!  Internet, make-a no money, so TV!  I realize movies are more carefully crafted.  Like, you practice a long time for one thing.

Bag of Jokes

I don't have a list of things like oh mention something and Christina is in trouble.

Parents

My dad used to hug me with care, but now he's just constantly m*****ing me.

My parents used to act like they prepared me for love in the world, but now they are all that world is.

Important Diet Tip

You could salad your life for a temporary weight loss to keep that at that weight.. but will it be not waking up in the morning with hunger pangs and unhappiness, lack of nutrition and juice, later?

Sacrificing

I'm not here to completely sacrifice my life for babying people who are older than me who "don't like to work."

Education

They're being nonsensical about education and saying it's based on liking any person who has a degree, but it's not it's open to anyone to go beyond in in some way.

Dr. Phil

Dr. Phil thought Tim Burton was below him, and I was shocked he was allowed to be ecstatically mad.  Now, I know he's trying to be like Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, which seems weird in a way..

*Beep*

I swear, like everyone is like so mean to me.

Problem

Why does, like, Disney think I need to be disciplined?  I already am.

What's this nonsense?

Someone's "symphony?"

IMDb - The Soapbox

If you had to chose a foreign language to brighten your future..

..of/which one/s would it be?

I think, as am American, any European language would do.

I think it's in it mostly for countries like Germany to learn Norse. I sorta was into English and German things growing up some.. So, I'd say Norwegian/Finnish/Russian/Swedish/Dutch.

I also like having French culture.

I'm learning Finnish and gonna learn Russian for a song, too. I have a little book on all the Scandinavian and Russian etc.

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Edit

I edited the post about the movies to take out a certain word.

Candy Bar Doll

Cuts

I writhed on my sofa before, yesterday? and have 2 rips in my back, thin wounds.

Quilt

Looks like a baby quilt.

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Quilt

It makes me think of New Orleans.

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Yay or Nay

I've seen this before.

Bella Thorne is not on Twitter as much.  She needs a break.  She needs to get on Blogger cuz it's the best!  And, yes, everyone does!

Interesting

Isn't it funny how people don't want me to feel good?  Aha ha ha!

cont.

The black people tried to have a crusty, blatant look about them.  I'm not making it up for fun.

Movies vs. TV

Movies are more carefully planned.

You think it doesn't matter..

..if nothing matters, what's your problem?

I saw in the movies that I was a thin "dry-feeling" older *"black" man concerning my seeing/hearing magical things.

I saw someone I like was a fat jolly old "dry-feeling" old *"black" man for me.

You gave *** to Bella Thorne, tho, like it matters.

I dunno who done what.

That's just what happened.  I hope nothing bad happens to me for giving the 411, and it was mean so what do they deserve to hold me to?  I dunno who is reading this.  This is my blog, and they shouldn't be bothering me.

*I'm not racist, but these people were not okay.  You didn't use it on someone else, I see.  I just need to report it.  I'm not going on and on but need it to talk about the situation.  "Black" is a generic term.  I care about them and their desires, myself.  Why do I have to explain all this to avoid certain punishment?  Anyone can talk about black people if they need to and even if they don't need to.  So, don't have a hissy fit and revelation about calling a person "black" because what else can you??

Anything else?

I'm not saying they could do any better, but I think it's *beep*.  Yup, people are *beep*.  They have an attitude with me.  I'm actually thinking of people in general.

I dunno, to say something that helps the case sensibly.. maybe I dunno what to say yet.

I did see they thought they had some big plan to transform people into a makeover dream and new life, but in the end it was the same that was okay they said.  That doesn't look good, to me.  LOL.  I dunno @ who did it, but that's what I saw.  I don't wanna poke fun at anyone at all, tho, no matter who it was.

To disclaim this, I realize it's the decision of more, other people, not just one, while I live in a bubble unfairly.  I do not wish to attack anyone, like who seems at stake.

OK, then, I'll post this now.  It's black and white, ABC 123, Mickey Mouse.  If I find a problem I will edit.

Problem

They're acting like I have to stick out instead of fit comfortably.  What did I do?

In My Business

Why are you in my business with my parents pulling out private things getting bemused, things I know they aren't ready for that I don't fully understand?

Race at Risque

Isn't anyone at risque, not just certain non-Aryan recognized groups?

Problem

What, suddenly curse my possible future kids, this guy on Cutthroat Camp?

Being Judged

The world should not be about judging me to see if I'm bad cuz I'm not.  It is very revolting how far nothing can go.

Problem

Why is that guy on Cutthroat Camp acting racist saying I will never have my life back and like someone I like told him that?

You know, Asians need to be treated right, too, not just Aryan shaped people.  I see they are telling white people that they are "too good" and must celebrate and fill up on racism and only they rebuild themselves to happiness, like no one else wants to.

Generations

It looks like my dad's family had it easier than me in getting along with Mom and Dad, despite whatever my dad said about that.

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Facebook - Alton Brown (Good Eats..)

Dream and it'll come. I sometimes enjoy playing with the idea of catching a fish living in or visiting the wild. I write stories where magical people camp out, too, but I seem to have forgotten to add the food.. thanks for also helping with this idea I can use! I loved picking blueberries up north as a kid. Also, I loved the Little House on the Prairie books and once lived in the nation's oldest continuing city. Since, I've been fascinated by the old-fashioned things as a favorite thing often. The old-fashioned Spanish rice we made was actually one of the best things I've tasted but can't yet find. It was very authentic, like mixed with things like peppers. I know the place dates back to 1565.

I'm watching Beetlejuice

Winona Ryder looks like Bella Thorne

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